My Inner Parts Have Yearned For Him

He's the Rock Who's Following Me

I woke up bleeding from a dream I can’t recall
The sky was black, the mirror cracked, the writing on the wall
I’ve buried friends, I’ve buried faith, I’ve buried every prayer
And still I walk, though every step feels like a dare
God wants me dead
That’s what the silence said
Not in fire, not in flood
Just slow enough to taste the blood
God wants me dead
But I ain’t gone yet
I’ve cursed the stars, I’ve kissed the ground
I’ve begged for peace that won’t be found
My body breaks, my mind betrays
But I still show up most days
The preacher said I’m not alone
But he don’t hear the undertone
Of every breath I drag through pain
Like thunder with no rain
God wants me dead
That’s what the silence said
Not in fire, not in flood
Just slow enough to taste the blood
God wants me dead
But I ain’t gone yet
Maybe He don’t hate me
Maybe He just waits
To see if I’ll keep walking
Through these rusted gates
Maybe love’s a test
And pain’s the proof
That I’m still here
And still got truth
I saw a child smile at me today
And for a second, I looked away
Afraid that light might burn my skin
But maybe that’s where grace begins
I ain’t asking for a crown
Just a reason not to lay it down
If He’s still watching, let Him see
What broken still can be
God wants me dead
That’s what the silence said
Not in fire, not in flood
Just slow enough to taste the blood
If He wants me gone
He’ll have to take me walking   


FYI: God saw me write this and did not stop me....songwriter Edwin H. Balder


God Wants Me Dead

Ashes of a Man is one of Luminor’s most personal and emotional works.

It tells the story of a father broken by heartbreak, depression, and drink — a slow decline witnessed by his family, who tried to save him. By the time he was ready to accept help, it was too late.

Woven with lines from a personal poem written for him, the song is both a eulogy and a confession — a heavy but beautiful reminder that love and grief are inseparable.

This is Luminor stepping into darker, heavier territory, continuing the intimate journey that began with Little Kingdom and All That Remains.

Ashes of a Man

oh dear Lord, have Your way

Campus saints from the Church in Singapore

Loving You Lord is all I am living for

Chords: https://songbase.life/6

Hear the Lord, He’s calling onward;
Heed His Word, His cry is upward.
Each day we climb a little higher;
To carry on we need to take a deeper breath.

See the Lord is not far from you;
He will not only bear it with you.
No need to struggle any longer;
He wants to be the very one to take your place.

All we need is in the breath—
Love and light, peace and rest.
Count the cost, pay the price,
Receive the gift of eternal life.
Call, “Oh Lord!” Let Him in and just love Him.

The ordinary’s what He’s after;
However small to Him, it matters.
To be your all He’s more than willing;
Only requires us to lean on the Beloved.

Day by day we grow into Christ,
Permeated at the speed of life.
Get more God, be more human;
Let His light shine from within.
More of Him, we decrease—
This our blessed destiny,
To reign in life as His Bride; we just love Him.

Just Love Him

A birthday consecration! Lord, make this my prayer throughout the whole year.

1. Dearest Lord, I come;
This is now my pray’r,
Keep me open to You,
May I always love You.

Lord, I love You more today,
So much more than yesterday;
Lord, I need You, Lord, I love You.

2. Now that the choice is mine,
Lord, I still choose You;
’Though the paths be not marked,
I’m still trusting in You.

3. And if the way is hard,
If things don’t go my way,
Keep my heart soft to You,
Keep me open to You.

4. Dearest Lord, I pray,
Lead me everyday;
Don’t let things come between,
Keep my eyes fixed on You.

5. When many years have gone,
And many things have passed,
I will still be for You,
I will still say to You:

My Inner Parts Have Yearned For Him

Joel Yang