Romantic Pessimist

prod. by eyesluvsu x thislandis // vocals mixed by joeverse

-lyrics-

recalling all the times
that I let myself down
too many to count
destroy my social life

whats the point of trying
the voices in my head
push me to the edge
visions of you dying

run it back to a time where we see eye to eye
drown myself in pity yeah just to pass the time
the doctors try to comfort me while I hear my mama cry
we'll work through this together always do our best to make it by

can we turn around today
can we make it through the rain
no one told me i'd be hurting
before I'd even turned seventeen
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[VERSE]
pretty ugly boy 
i'm the leader of the pack now
grew up in the background
tryna count the racks now

no I don't go out staying inside
no I don't go out staying inside
don't mind if I die right now
been a long night turn the lights out

don't mind if I die right now
been a hell of a ride destroying myself
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recalling all the times
that I let myself down
too many to count
destroy my social life

whats the point of trying
the voices in my head
push me to the edge
visions of you dying

run it back to a time where we see eye to eye
drown myself in pity yeah just to pass the time
the doctors try to comfort me while I hear my mama cry
we'll work through this together always do our best to make it by

can we turn around today
can we make it through the rain
no one told me i'd be hurting
before I'd even turned seventeen

visions ft. eyesluvsu (prod. eyesluvsu x thislandis)

prod. by @eyesluvsu x @jolst //

- lyrics -

straight dopamine flowing through my system
straight dopamine takin me off
straight dopamine takin me off, yeah

no I don't wanna be here
I'm surrounding myself with the ones I love
I could never really see clear
I'm not even the type to get fucked up

just an eyesore baby do you know what I mean
everyday I'm wakin up got no self esteem
and I can't be fucked with this lucid dream
just keep telling myself that I'll be alright

breaking me down
to my very core
and you just won't back down
cause you've always wanted more

eyesore
I swore
I swore I saw an eyesore

now I'm running up the bags, put it on my tab
I just can't relax, no I just can't relax
cannot relax but you know I can flex
no time to flex cause I'm so fuckin stressed

now its everyday
feeling outta place
like an eyesore
what was this for

no I don't wanna be here
I'm surrounding myself with the ones I love
I could never really see clear
I'm not even the type to get fucked up

no I don't wanna be here
I'm surrounding myself with the ones I love
I could never really see clear
I'm not even the type to get fucked up

Tab (prod. eyesluvsu x jolst)

prod. by @jolst //

- lyrics -

yeah I can't fuckin breathe
I'm filled with insecurity
I'm losing my identity
my future's right in front of me

cause everyday, yeah i'm buildin
yeah i'm tryna build myself up
and everyday, I be hurtin
but you know imma try my luck

building up your trust, we ain't gotta rush it babe
fighting back my lust, its okay its early days
don't wanna fuck it up, fight my masculinity
I just wanna run, run away with you babe

now you pull up to my house and we lay down
and I don't got no time to wait now
everytime you hittin me up its like a ghost town (ghost town)
was it just lust always causing me to zone out

urgent, callin
I just wanna prove that, i'm all in
I don't wanna be a, burden
I just wanna prove that, i'm all in, in

no i'm never feeling satisfied all through the day
I been workin 9 to 5 for a shitty pay
now i'm comin home and you got me on the wayside
on the wayside its not alright

building up your trust, we ain't gotta rush it babe
fighting back my lust, its okay its early days
don't wanna fuck it up, fight my masculinity
I just wanna run, run away with you babe

now you pull up to my house and we lay down
and I don't got no time to wait now
everytime you hittin me up its like a ghost town (ghost town)
was it just lust always causing me to zone out

urgent, callin
I just wanna prove that, i'm all in
I don't wanna be a, burden
I just wanna prove that, i'm all in, in

Urgent (prod. jolst)

prod. by @jolst //

-lyrics-

solidarity's a funny thing, yeah
solidarity's a funny thing, yeah
solidarity's a funny thing, yeah
solidarity's a funny thing

cause I said what I said
and I dunno whats next
its too late to take it back
and its got me fuckin stressed

cause you been fucking with my head
ever since the day we met
cause every time you start to cry
you send me into overdrive

girl, look me in my eyes
tell me that I'm wrong and I didn't do you right
stressin over time, look calm on the outside
I can't speak my mind, but fuck do I try yeah

solidarity's a funny thing, yeah
solidarity's a funny thing, yeah
solidarity's a funny thing, yeah
solidarity's a funny thing

breakin out my shell
had another talk with you
breakin out my shell
always backin down with fear

now you live inside my head I feel so lost without you here
this is new territories but we're divin in without a care

girl, look me in my eyes
tell me that I'm wrong and I didn't do you right
stressin over time, look calm on the outside
I can't speak my mind, but fuck do I try yeah

(i'm losing my mind yeah)
(i'm losing my time again)
(i'm losing my way)
(i'm choked up inside again)

pushing me to my limits yeah (limits yeah)
cause you never really cared for me did ya (no no)
cause you putting me on the spot from day to day (everday)
yeah you put me on a stage made me act that way

girl, look me in my eyes
tell me that I'm wrong and I didn't do you right
stressin over time, look calm on the outside
I can't speak my mind, but fuck do I try yeah

Tell Me That I'm Wrong (prod. jolst)

prod. by splashgvng x jolst // performed, mix and mastered by joeverse

- lyrics -

run this song, back through my head
and you know, i'm trying my best
all the things, we could've been
pop a can, just to feel somethin

oh somethin
yeah I notice, that you're goin
but I won't be, I'm waitin
yeah I'm waitin, I gotta make it

can I wake up today
feelin better off than I did yesterday
I know that you sick of me asking you to stay
I'm just so reliant gotta find another way

fuck me up from the inside
take me out like a hawkeye
I just wanna be a better guy
I tried, I tried oh I fuckin tried

so will you please run this song, back through my head
its so cold and you know, i'm trying my best
but you won't and you know, I could've been
and now I pop a can, just to feel somethin

oh somethin
yeah I notice, that you're goin
but I won't be, I'm waitin
yeah I'm waitin, I gotta make it

life here without you no longer holds meaning
got tear stained lenses check my hearts still beating
its not even over yet I'm sat here grievin
am I just fool for, always believin

so will you please run this song, back through my head
its so cold and you know, i'm trying my best
but you won't and you know, I could've been
and now I pop a can, just to feel somethin

oh somethin
yeah I notice, that you're goin
but I won't be, I'm waitin
yeah I'm waitin, I gotta make it

Trying (prod. splashgvng x jolst)

prod. by jolst x remghost // performed, mix and mastered by joeverse

-lyrics-

fuckin up too many times (too many times)
running round circles in my mind (in my mind)
i'm just so sick of telling you i'll try (alright)
cause its trying thats been fucking up my life (fuck)

broken down like a basement dweller
got up bands build up bands and you know I tell her
everytime that I walk into the room yeah i'm fed up
everytime that you look at me i be feeling setup

you can catch me on the flip side
fucking up too many times and i'm not alright
but you but you look into my eyes letting out a sigh
but i'm not alright, no i'm not alright

fuckin up too many times yeah i'm wasted
fuckin up too many times feelin basic
everytime that I look away feelin faded
everytime, everytime, fuckin everytime

feelin fed up on my best days
can't get outta bed
you know that in the worst way
I been upset

you're wanting to leave me
so lets be honest
in love with the old me
but i'm far from it

you can catch me on the flip side
fucking up too many times and i'm not alright
but you but you look into my eyes letting out a sigh
but i'm not alright, no i'm not alright

fucked up, fucked up, fucked up too many times 
i'm just, i'm just, i'm just not alright
every, every, everytime that I
look in, look in, look into your eyes

on the edge of your tongue, never know whats next 
either building me up or guilting me again
all of this stress caused by your ex
has gotta be gone by sunset

so you can catch me on the flip side
fucking up too many times and i'm not alright
but you but you look into my eyes letting out a sigh
but i'm not alright, no i'm not alright

so you can catch me on the flip side
fucking up too many times and i'm not alright
but you but you look into my eyes letting out a sigh
but i'm not alright, no i'm not alright

(bonus) Flipside (prod. jolst x remghost)

prod. by @splashgvng //

-lyrics-

yeah you came into my life overload
everytime I look into your eyes I explode
getting fucked up tonight all alone
you know that I don't give a fuck no more

yeah you came into my life overload
everytime I look into your eyes I explode
getting fucked up tonight all alone
you know that I don't give a fuck no more

breakin me to my core (gettin fucked alone)
leave me layin on the floor (can't take it anymore)
just fuck me up more (yeah fuck me up more)

gettin fucked up just to pass the time
look me in my eyes yeah you know I'm do or die
gettin fucked up lay awake at night
just a waste of space, waste of space
but I'm tryin, I'm tryin

its a game and we play it
been too weak to say it
are we really better off on our own

its all these expectations
got me isolated
why can't you just tell me what you want

yeah you came into my life overload
everytime I look into your eyes I explode
getting fucked up tonight all alone
you know that I don't give a fuck no more

breakin me to my core (gettin fucked alone)
leave me layin on the floor (can't take it anymore)
just fuck me up more (yeah fuck me up more)

gettin fucked up just to pass the time
look me in my eyes yeah you know I'm do or die
gettin fucked up lay awake at night
just a waste of space, waste of space
but I'm tryin, I'm tryin

a waste of space, waste of space
but I'm tryin, I'm tryin
a waste of space, waste of space
but I'm tryin, I'm tryin

Wasted (prod. splashgvng)

prod. by immortal

- lyrics -

cause time is movin slow
and I know it takes time to grow
so I'll crumble with dishonesty
tell me lies, thats what I need

but really deep down yeah I know
at times yeah I'm losing my sleep
a search for solace to bleed
but maybe we'll get somethin out of this
or maybe we'll bleed

yeah I'll make it work
and I tried my best
said I tried my best
to make things work

you fuck me up again

cause time is movin slow
taking solace in the words that you know
cause time moves slow
gettin fucked up tomorrow

so I'm askin you
would you be here waiting again

Bleed

- lyrics -

so sick of your shit
so steep and narcissistic deep within
you call me a bitch
I'm just a fuckin mess get over it

don't stop
don't stop
I'm tearin it up

I'm stuck
I'm stuck
caught fallin in love

no luck 
no luck
crawlin outta the rubble
uh oh

now i'm wakin up in your truck everythings hazy
gotta get out this town goin crazy
its what you made me 
now I'm six feet down with nobody to save me

so don't wake me no more
don't wake me up
take two steps out that door
fightin back my lust

so sick of your shit
so steep and narcissistic deep within
you call me a bitch
I'm just a fuckin mess get over it

don't stop
don't stop
I'm tearin it up

I'm stuck
I'm stuck
caught fallin in love

no luck 
no luck
crawlin outta the rubble
uh oh

Turbulent (prod. erlax x vudoo)

prod. by yungspoiler //

-lyrics-

don't stop I
crumble to your words I'm wanting more
I'll treat you like
the dirt beneath my sole walk out that door

just a bastard
got no self worth
feed the nicotine inside till my chest hurt
I'm a bastard

but you love the way I take control oh woah

late night remembering what we said
you were chain smokin cigarettes
somehow you end up in my bed
bed, bed, bed, bed

get way too drunk now you’re callin me up 
you’re feelings overtake and you say you wanna fuck 
doin lines just for fun
I've fallen into lust

don't stop I
crumble to your words I'm wanting more
I'll treat you like
the dirt beneath my sole walk out that door

just a bastard
got no self worth
feed the nicotine inside till my chest hurt
I'm a bastard

but you love the way I take control oh woah

but you love the way I take control oh woah
yeah you love the way I take control oh woah

Bastard (prod. yungspoiler)

- lyrics -

I fall deeper into you
the way that you want me to
you cut you shape all my views
to test my fortitude

play the way that you want me to
I just can't do it again
I'm such a mess 

cause the memories of you still haunt me
you moved on thats clear to see
cause the memories of you still haunt me
just let me go, let me be free

never told you what it meant
would I fall for you again
after everything you said no

but the smokin got me spent
its easin up my head
its easin up my stress now

play the way that you want me to
I just can't do it again
I'm such a mess 

cause the memories of you still haunt me
you moved on thats clear to see
cause the memories of you still haunt me
just let me go, let me be free

Haunt Me (prod. grayskies)

- lyrics -

you bring me serenity
comfort in the presense of
a you and me

as the closet draws shut
the world falls down
right in front of me
in front of me

hold your hands out love
catch my tears, will you notice me
so I sing this song, in hopes of
finding inner peace

will you back off now
will you fall down now

will you grasp my love
will you taste my love 
while you're fuckin me

I don't even recognize any of these, motherfuckers anymore (no)
I got people all around me I dunno what for
their opinions only take me down a darker road
they never talk to me yeah you know I'm done

don't talk to me, don't talk to me
don't act like don't act like me
what you wantin from me, what you wantin from me
never told you I'd be

hold your hands out love
catch my tears, will you notice me
so I sing this song, in hopes of
finding inner peace

will you back off now
will you fall down now

will you grasp my love
will you taste my love 
while you're fuckin me

don't stop, don't stop, don't stop
don't stop, don't stop, don't stop

serenity

- lyrics -

I can never tell who
wanna see me succeed
I been cooped up in my room
now i'm fallin asleep

I don't wanna deal with you 
I just wanna be free
I don't wanna be like you
I just wanna be me

I can never tell who
wanna see me succeed
I been cooped up in my room
now i'm fallin asleep

I don't wanna deal with you 
I just wanna be free
I don't wanna be like you
I just wanna be me

just textin you 
no I don't wanna go
textin you
no I thought I cared I don't
textin you
bitch I don't wanna know
I been textin you
I been better on my own

I don't wanna waste time
I don't wanna pick sides no
I don't wanna play fight
I don't wanna play nice no
I just been way too high
I don't wanna tell you I don't
quit your asking why
cause I don't wanna waste time no

I can never tell who
wanna see me succeed
I been cooped up in my room
now i'm fallin asleep

I don't wanna deal with you 
I just wanna be free
I don't wanna be like you
I just wanna be me

Cooped Up

- lyrics - 

for attention, think i just sold my soul
would you even know
what if feels like
to be here, all alone

i'm done fighting
for things i can't control
i'm done lying
ignorance is bliss i know

cause i try my best
just to hide in this
web of lies
i set, myself

so i pry my ribs
deep inside there is
a broken child
that is, long gone

sold my soul

prod. by eyesluvsu // vocals performed and mixed by joeverse

-lyrics-

woke up like this
tumble and turn in my thoughts till the day that it clicks
yeah till the day that it clicks

if i fuck it up yeah
i'll be sitting on the sidewalk 
took another hit

and I tell you why
cause the pressure's high
losing sight of my track and time
i'm losing sight

from the time that I lost hope
to the times that I really feel no stress
I've got time, got time to unwind
I've got time to unwind

running off no sleep every night
lookin so fucked up from the outside
all I do is try
try to not fuck up my life

got me feeling tied up 
now its time to grow up
gotta get a job
9 to 5 just to cover-up

do I give my pride up
feel like i'm losing myself
to the model
day to day living yeah 
  
breaking through
time to prove myself show the world what I can do
sick of being underrated and overlooked 
got the drive, the ability through and through

imma tell you right now i'm not losing sight
imma tell you right now that its worth the fight
if you just try
try to make it right
cause all this shit just takes some time

if i fuck it up yeah
i'll be sitting on the sidewalk 
took another hit

and I tell you why
cause the pressure's high
losing sight of my track and time
i'm losing sight

from the time that I lost hope
to the times that I really feel no stress
I've got time, got time to unwind
I've got time to unwind

fuck it up (prod. eyesluvsu x landis)

prod. by kiyoto //

-lyrics-

woke up next to you
lookin so cute
in your bedroom 
what I gotta do

to make this future proof
now its time to go
fly my way back home
I'll be back soon      

comin from the southside 
girl you got my tongue tied
make me wanna freeze time
lost in your eyes

lost in your eyes
driving me wild
with your thigh highs
I made you mine 

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I met you on that show
no intentions from me tho
we started as just friends
now you got me calling you hoe

I always be showing you off
but I will still be protective
these are my feelings don't mess with
I like when you loyal n obsessive 

On some super vocal shit
telling all my friends bout this
bout the feelings that i have
got me feeling total bliss

having flashbacks
of when we met
rolling it back

it was so relaxed
got so attatched
you hit my climax

movies on the internet
sat binging on netflix
one minute we're texting
the next we're having e-sex 

who thought that 2020 would end up like this
new problems every season 

at least that I made you mine
I made you mine
made you mine
mine

girl I made you mine sending shivers up my spine like

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comin from the southside 
girl you got my tongue tied
make me wanna freeze time
lost in your eyes

lost in your eyes
driving me wild
with your thigh highs
I made you mine

comin from the southside 
girl you got my tongue tied
make me wanna freeze time
lost in your eyes

lost in your eyes
driving me wild
with your thigh highs
I made you mine yeah

I made you mine yeah
I made you mine
yeah, yeah

Southside

prod. by jazz williams x landis // vocals performed and mixed by joeverse

- lyrics -

now i'm shameless, nameless
i wanna be famous
contagious, weightless
promise i will make

everything alright 
i will not lose sight
of the life I
that I wanna live by

i'll be staying up all god damn night
theres no timezone that i'm living by 

i just wanna find
peace with my pride
keep on pushing till the very day that I die 


don't wanna hide away
yeah nothing will change if i cannot convey
cannot convey
these thoughts in my brain

gotta overcome this even just for today
living my life on a pc screen
all of my friends high on LCD
my body looking like a twig straight from a tree
everyday i'm losing another part of me

how can I compete
barely take the time to eat
how can i succeed
i'm my own worst enemy

honestly sometimes I forget how to breathe
why is my life controlled by all these machines

ticking time down the meter
now i'm running in circles took a detour
staring down my very own saboteur yeah

now i'm shameless, nameless
i wanna be famous
contagious, weightless
promise i will make

everything alright 
i will not lose sight
of the life I
that I wanna live by

i'll be staying up all god damn night
theres no timezone that i'm living by 

i just wanna find
peace with my pride
keep on pushing till the very day that I die

worthless (prod. eyesluvsu x thislandis)

prod. by thislandis x damon vitucci //

-lyrics-

now that i'm stuck inside, I don't do nothing now
turn the music up loud , maybe then i'll drown it out

drowning out the cries
everyday i'm losing
everyday I lose more time

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isolated and frustrated
sugars got me shaking need a break can't take it
just another day that i'm feelin deflated
head against the wall tryna be creative

obsessessed with impressions yeah my standards are high
my egos in the sky hard to satisfy
please fill me with your lies
cause they're easing my mind

can't keep this up for long I get terrified

I get terrified
of my future life
all I do is try
try to make it by

wading my way through
what do I do

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now that i'm stuck inside, I don't do nothing now
turn the music up loud , maybe then i'll drown it out

drowning out the cries
everyday i'm losing
everyday I lose more time

what do I do

stuck (prod. thislandis x damon vitucci)

extrovert living the life of an introvert

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