WHEN I THINK OF U THAT LIGHT TURN COLD 
NO MATTER HOW I TRY TO EXPLAIN IT MY HEART SAYS NO 
I CARRY LIGHT AND LOVE WHEREVER I GO 
BUT ITS ALL A FACADE CAUSE THE PAIN I HIDE AWAY SOMEHOW JUST DONT SEEM TO GO 

I PUT THIS PAIN INSIDE MY ART LET IT FLOW 
I SPILL MY VEIN AND DRAIN MY HEART LET IT GO 
I CANT EXPLAIN THE WHO OR HOW BUT I KNOW 
U TOUCH ME DIFFERENT WHEN HE ON YA MIND 
I CALL IT RIGHT U CALL ME TRIPPIN WHEN THAT CALL DECLINE 

U FALL IN LINE WHEN I GET DISTANT 
START REMINISCIN 
I THINK BOUT MINE NO LONGER LIVIN 
THIS SHII REALLY SICKENIN 

TRYNA MAINTAIN A DIFFERENT IMAGE 
BUT THIS VISION VIVID  
I SIT W ALL THIS IN MY KITCHEN 
LIKE A CHEMIST WHIPPIN 

REMEMBER IT WAS DARKER DAYS 
AINT HAVE A POT TO PISS IN 
AND NOWADAYS ITS LEMONADE 
WHEN THIRST WAS NOT FOR QUENCHIN 

NO REIMBURSEMENT WHEN THAT HEARSE GET SENT TO WHERE U LIVIN 
THIS LIFE A JOURNEY NOTHIN PROMISED BUT THE FCKIN ENDIN 



(VERSE 1) 

SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST 
GET IN WHERE I FIT IN 
I LOVE WHO LOVE ME 
IF ITS LOVE WONT BE NO QUESTIONIN IT 

IT IS, WHAT IT IS, WHAT IT WAS, WAS STILL THE BEST DECISION 
WONT NEVER CHASE NOTHIN I WANT I FEEL SO DESPERATE W IT 

NO NEED TO CHASE NOTHIN I NEED AINT THAT INVESTED IN IT 
THE THINGS THAT I NEED LUCKILY INSIDE THESE BLESSINGS GIFTED 
I LOVE MYSELF CANT EVEN LIE I LOVE THE WAY IM LIVIN 
MY LIGHT WAS DIMMIN FROM DEPRESSION FEELIN PESSIMISTIC 

NO LONGER LIVE BY EXPECTATION 
I LIVE BY EXAMPLE 
ONLY NEED U TO SHOW ME ONCE 
DNT NEED ANOTHER SAMPLE 

EVERY DECISION THAT U MADE IS BURNED INSIDE MY MENTAL 
I YEARN FOR GOD TO HEAL THIS PAIN THAT CANT NO MEDICINE DO 

I OVERDOSED I ALMOST DIED I SWEAR I SAW THAT LIGHT 
I COULDNT BREATHE I HAD TO FIGHT I THOUGHT ABOUT MY LIFE 
IT FLASHED BEFORE MY EYEZ 
I THOUGHT BOUT HOW MY GRANDPA DIED 
AND IF HE IN THE SKY 
WATCHIN ME HE’D BE TEARY EYED 

I FEEL ASHAMED CAUSE ALL THIS PAIN MADE ME FEEL LIKE A STAIN 
CANT WASH AWAY THE ONLY WAY IS THE ONLY ESCAPE 
SO MANY DRUGZ I LOST MY BRAIN STARTED LOSIN MY FAITH 
TALKS W SATAN SHOWED ME MY FATE I WAS LOSIN MY WAY 

IT WAS REVEALED TO ME 
THROUGH PROPHECY NOW I COULD SEE WHAT WAS CONCEALED IN ME 
DONT TRY REBUILDIN ME 
IM BROKE BUT NOT BROKEN 
IM HEALIN WILLFULLY 
CAUSE I COULD CRASH OUT AND SAY FCK IT AND BURN IT ALL AND TAKE ALL OF YALL IN THIS BITCH HERE W ME 



WHEN I THINK OF U THAT LIGHT TURN COLD 
NO MATTER HOW I TRY TO EXPLAIN IT MY HEART SAYS NO 
I CARRY LIGHT AND LOVE WHEREVER I GO 
BUT ITS ALL A FACADE CAUSE THE PAIN I HIDE AWAY SOMEHOW JUST DONT SEEM TO GO 

I PUT THIS PAIN INSIDE MY ART LET IT FLOW 
I SPILL MY VEIN AND DRAIN MY HEART LET IT GO 
I CANT EXPLAIN THE WHO OR HOW BUT I KNOW 
U TOUCH ME DIFFERENT WHEN HE ON YA MIND 
I CALL IT RIGHT U CALL ME TRIPPIN WHEN THAT CALL DECLINE 



(VERSE 2) 

ITS LIKE..ION EVEN WANNA LOVE MYSELF 
IF I GOTTA LOVE MYSELF 
WHY TF AM I HERE W EVERYBODY ELSE? 
FEELIN MY OWN SHII AND STILL GOTTA DEAL 
BUT ALL OF THIS SHII MULTIPLIED 
INSIDE MY ENERGY FIELD 

I NO LONGER WAN EMPATHIZE 
BUT IN THIS LIFE THAT AINT REAL 
IT AINT NO WAY TO AVOID 
ALL OF THE NOISE 
FEEL LIKE IM SANTA INSIDE OF HIS WORKSHOP 
JUDGIN THE GIRLS AND BOYS 
TRYNA DECIDE WHO GETTIN COALS OR TOYS?
 
WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON MY SHOULDERS CAUSE I KNOW THAT I GOT A CHOICE 
CANT MAKE NOBODY DO NOTHIN BUT I KNOW THAT I GOT A VOICE  
I FEEL RESPONSIBLE 
FORFEITIN WAR AND GIVIN MY CROWN UP TO 
THE DEVIL THAT REMIND ME OF MY FEARS AND INSECURITIES 

GOT ME TERRIFIED AND PARALYZED 
BEEN TRYNA BURY ME 
SO URGENTLY 
THEY SCURRED OF ME LIKE RATS SCURRYIN SOON AS THEY HEARD OF ME 
THATS HOW I KNOW IM DESTINED FOR WAY MORE THAN ME 
IM SENT W A PURPOSE THATS WHY I SHINE SO BRIGHT CAUSE I GOT THE LIGHT OF THE LORD IN ME

WHEN I THINK OF U

This is how i feel about venting to people. keep that to yourself, no one cares. love your self and you will see that you were better off with out them

When,chill

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