[Verse 1]
Saw my face in an old photograph
You were smilin like you never knew the wrath
Now I’m stuck between the future and the past
Tryna talk to you but the words don’t last
You were dreamin ‘bout stages and lights
Now I’m drownin in the same cold nights
All the hope you had, I let it fade
I’ve been runnin from the price I paid

[Pre-Chorus]
Dear baby me, I’m sorry for the way you turned out
All the nights you cried, I hope you figured it out
I was lost too, and I know it hurt somehow
But I’ll hold you close, even if we’re broken now


[Chorus]
It won’t be heaven when I see you
But I’ll say sorry while I try
You didn’t know the world would break you
Didn’t know how much you’d cry
I’ve been searchin for that feelin
That you had back when you were nine
And if my eyes start spillin over
That’s just you inside my mind

[Verse 2]
You were the type to believe in fate
Used to smile through the rain, never too late
I took your heart, turned it cold and gray
Now I’m tryna find the light in the mess I made
You said “one day, I’ll make it right”
But the dream got lost in the neon lights
And I still talk to you at night
Through these songs that never feel quite right

[Bridge]
Yeah, I’ve been waitin to let you know that I
Still wear your hoodie when I close my eyes
You were stronger than I realized
Before the world got inside my mind
And I see you in the mirror’s haze
Every scar just spells your name

[Verse 3]
Oh, I was dead wrong, left you broken
Traded peace for pain unspoken
You had faith, I had doubt wide open
Now I’m here with the words unchosen
If you could see what I became
Would you smile or turn away?
I still hear you call my name
When I fade out, it sounds the same

[Pre-Chorus]
Dear baby me, I’m sorry for the way you turned out
All the nights you cried, I hope you figured it out
I was lost too, and I know it hurt somehow
But I’ll hold you close, even if we’re broken now

[Chorus]
It won’t be heaven when I meet you
But I’ll still look you in the eyes
Tell you “sorry I forgot you”
When the world turned to lies
You were everything I needed
In a world that passed me by
If my eyes start spillin’ over
It’s ‘cause I miss that guy

i'm sorry

Whisper In The Dark

Screen light flickers, night air hollow
희미한 숨결 따라 발걸음 느려져
Echoes drip quiet through the motel tile
창문엔 이슬 맺혀, 마음은 멀어져

Loose coins rattling a paper cup ghost
텅 빈 거리 위에 발자국 무너져
Heartbeat stutter in the afterglow
지친 눈꺼풀 위로 새벽이 스며와

Receipts fold up like abandoned prayers
구겨진 종이 속에 잊혀진 약속들
Haze hums low like a dying fuse
말 없는 침묵 속에 숨죽인 떨림들

Cursor blinking like a warning sign
멈춰선 시간 속에 나 혼자 남은 채
Tight breath shakes in the neon buzz
끝없는 어둠 속에 길 잃은 마음에

Hold me still when the night grows cold
Keep me close when the lights unfold
Guide my hands when the wires shake
Give me strength when the edges break

Lead me through where the dark runs deep
Keep my dreams where the lost ones sleep
Lift me up when the ground gives way
Stay with me ‘til the break of day

Ghost chords hum in a distant room
텅 빈 울림 속에 희미한 멜로디
Tape hiss scratches on a rust stained reel
깨진 리듬 위로 흘러내린 심장이

Ink drips slow through a hospital dawn
지친 눈물 따라 꿈들이 흩어져
Vinyl breath warps in the summer heat
뜨거운 공기 속에 희망은 꺼져가

Calendar torn where the hours bled
시간의 상처들이 벽에 새겨지고
Clock hands claw at the sleepless air
잠 못 드는 밤 끝자락에 서 있어

Streetlamp buzz in the faded glass
가로등 아래 멈칫한 길 위에서
Hope runs laps on a trembling spine
떨리는 발끝에 마지막 불씨 하나

Hold me tight when the storms roll through
Help me stand when the pulse falls through
Light my path where the lines collapse
Carry me past the silent gaps

When the fear starts closing in
Let my lungs remember wind
Keep this spark inside my chest
Let me rise, let the quiet rest

Miles weigh heavy on a borrowed soul
한 걸음마다 상처가 번져 가고
Dreams rust thin under motel light
금이 간 꿈들을 꼭 끌어안고서

Shadows cheer like a plastic crowd
가짜 환호 속에 숨은 진심들이
Pulse runs slow under flickering signs
흔들리는 심장 위에 균열이 번져

Cardboard crown in a neon fog
빛바랜 왕관 위로 비웃음 떨어져
Bare feet shake on a cold steel floor
빈 무대 위에 혼자 서 있는 나

Sweat halo burns in a blackout room
타오른 숨결 속에 마지막 희망이
Faith stands bruised but refuses to break
꺼지지 않는 불빛처럼 살아남아

Keep me warm when the world turns black
Guide me home when the light pulls back
Lift my face from the frozen ground
Let me hear just a single sound

If I fall, let tomorrow rise
If I break, let the fire revise

If I fade, hold the line for me
Stay ‘til dawn, ‘til the sky breaks free

72 Bars

Insecure

Insecure (Acoustic)

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lyrics 
don't come over tonight
i heard you talking and talking about how
i'm the one who's still been fucking up your life
you know that ain't right

it's on you
you get lonely, shit gets boring
3 in the morning you call me
i come through
i'm not worried, if you want me
then you got me, quit acting sorry

i just had to say it
pick a side if you're playing or we're both gonna lose
why you still here if you hate it?
pick a side if you're playing. i've been over it ooh
i think i need a vacation

you arrive like you always do
funny 'cause i heard you tell your friends we're through
funny 'cause i'd rather laugh than yell at you
it's a little sad i only have half of you

but i swear i ain't tripping
i'll take the half i can get
but if you're giving me half
you're getting half my respect
i'll love you if/when i see you
i do not practice neglect
that's just not how i was raised
but baby don't you forget

it's on you
you get lonely, shit gets boring
3 in the morning you call me
i come through
i'm not worried, if you want me
then you got me, quit acting sorry

you know i don't
need you here at all
so just don't get all cold
if you can't let go then that's all your fault

i just had to say it
pick a side if you're playing or we're both gonna lose
why you still here if you hate it?
pick a side if you're playing. i've been over it ooh
i think i need a vacation

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