Is this my face? I can't remember. Identity at once dismembered.
Submit to strain, submit to fracture. Is this a blight or freedoms rapture?

I wash these hands you say hold power over the world, over the hour.
And tempted thus, to find the answer amongst the cells, amidst the cancer.

(C) I am not who I used to be.
Behold the void that once was me: A shell bereft of memory.

In some grey void without an exit a nameless ghost, blind and faceless,
contorts and claws and seeks sensation... I feel its need, determination.

(C) I can't be blamed for what I am:
a fading figure of a man subject to some buried demand.

Absent the memory...if I were a whole man...
would that I, could that I...I'd never let it happen.

Unlock the gates that bar the demon, release the thing that craves its freedom.
Some rough beast, its mere breath hateful. I fall into a place so fatal.

(C) I am not who I used to be.
Behold the void that once was me: A shell bereft of memory.
I can't be blamed for what I am:
a fading figure of a man subject to some buried demand...with the world's blood staining my hands.

Soft War

Absent The Memory (with Greg Kutcher as Soft War)

Music both released and some before unreleased stuff from the basement can be found on Soundcloud &new video out: 

 https://youtu.be/7D8CUxVCrn8 "up in flames"

Albums
Geary " Green loafers and husky freaks" 1998 Edel records/BMG PUBL
"Bad buddah" 2008 UNIVERSAL MUSIC PUBLISHING MGB SCANDINAVIA AB
"Lovely dream" 2012 UNIVERSAL MUSIC PUBLISHING MGB SCANDINAVIA AB
"Alcoholic cowboy" 2020 Bad buddah records
"Sluta aldrig älska" 2020 Bad buddah records

Upcoming releases" Grande coctail magic" & "Grande coctail magic" (2) "harbour happiness 73" the Torsten Larsson/ Andreas Lundgrens finest tresaured albums sees it's light. 26th of april 2021 . It will be released together with an art excibition at the Art Gallery, Gothia Towersin Gothenburgh Sweden that Lundgren will have. 

Thank you

MUSIC FOR THE THINKING FEW.

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John Ludi is a musician/singer-songwriter/cultural relic with a diverse and "arty" array of influences and lyrical interests who was "Indie" before the term even existed. Working outside of the music industry by choice has given Ludi the ability to release songs of a level of lyrical depth that are anathema to the current culture.  Ludi lives off-grid in a yurt in the woods of WI and finds the materialistic priorities of our civilization incredibly wrong and destructive.

based in the north east of England indie rock ,acoustic rock , alt rock