mu is doparmin s obusd havei canot grt up

when i cant cry. no emotions, cant enjoy any feeling, any music, any thought. ok can enjoy but its like muffled from being underwater, cant cry. but this music kinda perfect im in pain but my head just hurts and everything else is numb. i been making progress but i feel miserable, and so what i have done im just ruining. maybe i need to go to bed and this feeling wont be as permanent and invasive as it was in the past. maybe my progress is that i wake up and do my fucking work. doubtful. maybe the adrenaline of procrastination will save me. i mean i have a little more to look forward to and a little more hope, i just need to go to bed. im lucky that i can sleep. this year i've made some progress finally.

@user-965032247 so what can you say for the ppl that don't move forward and end up killing themselves. I'm in hs and already 2 ppl have killed themselves. I'm a sophomore. 

this does not go with the story of my other projects

yeah x 28

girl of my world yeah she’s my big crush
you know she’s cool and all of that stuff
i know that was corny 
but i was just trynna be flirty 

yeah x 28

you mean that she’s special
unlike these other humans are dirty
i know that i’ve said this but
she is, she is, she is hot
if i had the courage i would kiss her on the spot
but i’m not that kind of guy
im actually really shy
shy

and i imagine us talking face to face
but reality puts that in a bad place
we see each other in the halls between class
but we dont look we just walk we just pass

[?] and i feel so bad
i wanna jump off a building and be sad
and this girl is in my league
wanna ask her will you go out with me?
feeling really [?] yes or no
[?]
feeling really [?] yes or no
[?]

yeah x 56

Love, A Broken Dream

Out Of My League

#XTREMETRAP i love you guys, thank you for being here...

LOVE TRAP - W/ BAOFUMO X NUKKA - (PROD. ABI X LEX LUGER X NUKKA) MIXED BY UMO

LYRICS

NICKG

SAY GOODNIGHT
GO TO SLEEP

SMOKING DEATH
SWEET RELEASE

DEMONS IN MY CUP
FALLEN ANGELS IN MY BLUNT
GLUTTONOUS WITH SUBSTANCES
I HANG HIM BY HIS GUTS, WHAT
CRAWLING OUT THE CUT
HOPPING OUT THE TRUCK
THE BLADE EQUIPPED, MY BODY NUMB
OH FUCK
DEVILS TRUMPET WITH THE ANGEL DUST
SELL HIS ORGANS ON THE MARKET
TURN HIM TO A HUSK
LITTLE BITCH IM ON THE HUNT
DIGGING GRAVES FROM DAWN 2 DUSK

CATCH ME HOWLING AT THE MOON
WITH AN OPEN WRIST
I WAS POSTED IN JUDECCA
WHEN I WROTE THIS SHIT
WE DOING EVIL AND UNHOLY SHIT
IM SMOKING NOVA 6
WE FLOATING OFF THE DOSAGES

SAY GOODNIGHT W/ AXELBLOODYAXEL & CRAIG SCISSORHANDS [P. DJ PAUL X JUICY J]

PRODUCED BY @yebutnobutye
LYRIC VID: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f-tzFQboGJE

5eyez (prod. 26girls)

ft. @ggtca prod @cnnnibal
https://genius.com/Yxyl-kim-jong-un-lyrics

Kim jong un ft. gtca (@cnnnibal)

i don't want to be

Beats On My Mind

I don't like this dream
I must wake up
Fuck this life
I'll break out the prison of time

# 1 9
I am 19
Wasted another year made no change
I've only made some change
Guess im grown
Living on my own
Thanks to GI bill
Cause really i, am so bloody broke
Social
Anxiety still
Got me by the neck
Can't be like "fuck it fuck it"
Cause i
overthink all the time
Wanna leave the old me
Put him to the crows
Wanna kill myself 
To regrow
Anything to break the cycle
The cycle of habits, cycle of habits

Muhfuckin everything
That i wanna be mentally
Is the opposite of me currently
And it's been like this since i was 15
i like the thoughts of it but take no steps
But when i do, i just back track 
Or i just go around and around (repeated)

Fuck this predetermined life
I need to move forward (x2)
I just need to move forward
Fuck the voice in my head, I'll control it

Verse4: 
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
I am 19 and i must grow
Breakthrough on my own

19 BIRTHDAY

ey wesside johnn back in this bitch wit a new style ya feel.
beats were originally made by hollyworld but then I added the speed ups and mangling and bat crazy shit ya feel? enjoy and fuck dat big johnnascus

Nightcore Nightmares EP

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Server:11643 [untitled_0014]]

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/-H9FyZpJABY

Body shutting down
Cannot see the crown
Losing will to think
The monster speaks to me
Take another drink
Every bone in me
Starts vibrating
Thoughts move at light speed
Then I CRASH!!!
CRASH!!!!
Walk around puppeteered by the lethargy
Zoning out until a muscle starts to spazz in me
Brain is bloody overriding with adenosine
Losing cognition to speak, bashi-kasha-eee

Verse2:
Drinking monster all alone in my car in my car
Yea I'm emo so what? XD rawr xD rawr
(Repeated)

Verse3:
Take a sip of the monster
Start to grow a lil stronger
Skin is glowing green
Radioactive entity
I think I have to pee but it's just anxiety
See a monster lurking in the field of my vision
It starts to claw at me and gashes open my mid riff
Blood is oozing out that is greener the grinch
Staring at the monster then it starts to take a sip
From me

"do not drink monster energy. It is not good for you and it leaves you cracked out and twitching uncontrollably into a possible heart attack"

19 BIRTHDAY

JOHNNASCUS

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