@joyztik: you suck, nothing else to be said

this part about 1999 is the most trippy yet weirdly reminiscent feeling. I feel a lot about it but cant exactly explain it.

anyone know if the first 30 seconds are a sample from anything?

this sound like something thatd play on a mario boss battle

se volvió  mi canción favorita del momento y la voy a criar como un bebé hasta que cresca

before in a more optimistic past. when positivity ran amok 

ring ring 
7 days till you shi-ne (die)
yes i am sadako stop breathing
no i'm not a bloody man i'm a cat
*nyan*
get clawed to death
mutilation next
then i eat your liver
but it tastes like shit 
put it in my litter box where it's supposed to be
then wear your finger bones like some cute earrings
peel your skin like a mask 
ed gein Inspired

then i'm feeling wired up
cause I'm fuckin fired up
time to kill some more humans before my time is up
who gon' pick up the phone when it ring rings
i just really wanna come out your LED screen

*random noises*

then i'm feeling wired up
cause i'm fuckin fired up
time to kill some more humans before my time is up
who gon' pick up the phone when it ring rings
i just really wanna come out your LED screen

ring ring (ringu) (prod. 510)  [untitled_-0001]]

Found by XEMERZ on a random Russian website, recovered by me. Originally uploaded to John’s SoundCloud for 2 hours on Valentine’s Day in 2019. Cover Art found by Genius.com User: “Malevolent :3”

Lyrics:
I’m sorry for the things I’ve done (done)
That’s apologizing to myself and I don’t feel alright
I feel like before the bloody [?] fuck with valentine
Tomorrow be back to normal, it’s another [?]
Eyes creep to the back of my mind

One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
Yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh,

Go, I wanna just float
Float above the clouds in the skys and make it my home
Castle in the sky, float
Fuck a earthly love
I don’t want to feel pitty 
I want to stay with you 

Im sorry, for the things that i have done (done)
(Purple sticker, purp-purple sticker)

Valentine Blues

[FOUND] Johnnascus- Valentine Blues(prod.sleepingforyears)

[?] (it goes around the world)
It goes round the world
It goes round the world
Seeing every single thing
Seeing every single country
I just go round the world
I just go round the world
Seeing every single thing

[Interlude}
It goes around the world
Just la, la, la, la, la
It's all around the world
Just la, la, la, la, la
And everybody's singin'
La, la, la, la, la
And now the bells are ringin'
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

Seeing every single country
N*gga's stealing money
But I don't really want them
I just want to [?]

It goes around the world
La, la, la
[?]

[?]
Fuck
[?]
Fuck
It goes around the world
Just la (glitches)

Unreleased 1 [All Around The World]] [untitled_xxxx]]

I Dont Wanna Do This Anymore (prod. LC2K)

Got taken off of JOHNNASCUS' official soundcloud so reupload

JOHNNASCUS - Strangling My Brain To Death So I Can Finally Hear The Murmurs Of My Heart

CheapShot prod.walronD!

STAND IN THE SUN [FREE DOWNLOAD]

The Demigod has returned to the Dark Side Of Nature
DSON Episode VII: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAcQDdsWKKE

Lyrics: It's my 17 birthday yeah
Celebrate it on a Thursday yeah
People say it's the worst day ahh
But to me it's the best day
But No! just kidding I don't celebrate it
Ahh birthdays are so overrated
Woaah look at the world we created
Now everyone thinks that they are special
Why would I even celebrate the first day of alive
When on the same day he, she and they have already committed suicide
All you fake loving owners get away from me
I will bark and chomp your fingers off if you try to touch me
Get away (x3)

Grand return to the dark side of nature at seventeen
Take my spleen, grind it up
Use it as your special cream
But you're the mortal type
And I'm the immortal like
And I will take this world
And I will take it's light
Your birthday's a waste of breath yeah
Cutting off your flimsy head yeah
Celebrate to your stupid death
*screams*

17 BIRTHDAY

First half prod sae
Second half with guitar by yours truly

Demigods Do Not Love Humans (but it sounds like demigods do not love you lol)
The young demigod was never supposed to
(repeated)

Fuck Love
The Young Demigod does not love a human

When I look into her eyes
I see my entire life
And i live on to the age
And I'll die with her someday
But it was all a lie
A beautiful of a lie
Demigods do not love a human(x4)

Demigods Do Not Love Humans

Demigods Do Not Love Humans (Prod. sae & JOHNNASCUS)

I don't like this dream
I must wake up
Fuck this life
I'll break out the prison of time

# 1 9
I am 19
Wasted another year made no change
I've only made some change
Guess im grown
Living on my own
Thanks to GI bill
Cause really i, am so bloody broke
Social
Anxiety still
Got me by the neck
Can't be like "fuck it fuck it"
Cause i
overthink all the time
Wanna leave the old me
Put him to the crows
Wanna kill myself 
To regrow
Anything to break the cycle
The cycle of habits, cycle of habits

Muhfuckin everything
That i wanna be mentally
Is the opposite of me currently
And it's been like this since i was 15
i like the thoughts of it but take no steps
But when i do, i just back track 
Or i just go around and around (repeated)

Fuck this predetermined life
I need to move forward (x2)
I just need to move forward
Fuck the voice in my head, I'll control it

Verse4: 
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
I am 19 and i must grow
Breakthrough on my own

19 BIRTHDAY

one of my favs from the album so just wanted to remix/flip it haha

800db Cloud Remix [100 gecs]

[new album when?]]

"The past cannot be forgotten, the present cannot be remembered"

I can live in a different time
It'll just be alright
Live in a ghostly time
Reality couldn't bring to light
Gave up on the future it has sadly died
So I went back to a future that never came alive
Lost
And i still just feel so lost
But I'm happy so what's the prob?
I know 1 thing is for certain I can never catch my dreams
Do androids dream elelectric sheep?
Can they see the pixelled leaps?
Well what are dreams, I never sleep
I can live in a different time
It'll just be alright
Live in a ghostly time
Reality couldn't bring to light
Gave up on the future it has sadly died

I want to stay here in the wired forever
In my own world, In my own time, in my own space

See the sun set
Digital res
8k 
#FF6347
Cel-Shading on
A server that's been forgotten

And the sun never rises
And the moon never shines
The clock is always set
To a virtual twilight
To a twilight
To a twilight

"The year is 1999. We'd call each other on brick phones. The television was cool but we played outside more. Life was enjoyable, happier, simpler.  Y2k was around the corner, but most importantly your digital self was born but yet to be activated."

"Are you sure you want to leave this server? ok now connecting to public server: 1 1 6 4 3"

"oi fellow user, wanna catch a virtual ride around this cyberpunk city?"

Lost Futures [untitled_0013]]

[new album when?]]

Verse1:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
My time is fading (yea)
Soul is waning (yea)
Feeling mainy (yea)
Foggy Cranium
My younger self would hate the person that ive become
Losing rhythm, can't find the beat to my own drum
This world ain't for me, or maybe I don't wanna grow up
But what's growing up? Cause I don't wanna have my soul crushed.

Verse2:
I want to live a life outside this system
Travel to a world outside the solar system
& dance to my rhythm

Verse3:
Still fucked up in the head
Try to make folks accept me
Even if they don't care about me
Maybe it's cause I don't care myself
Wanna be ignored to dig deeper in the well
In The Well
IN THE WELL
In the fucking well I just drown myself in despair
Look at the world the it's so far from here
I'm sinking in my own
Can't climb the walls
It is getting darker
There are no walls
See the lights spotters
In my own thoughts
Cannot move, I'm faltered.

Verse4:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
(repeated)

Verse5:
I'm not special
& No one really is
And the glass half empty 
Pessimistic little bitch
Always feel so envy
Towards every human
Don't wanna feel this empty
And prolonged sadness
What's the point of working
If it leads to nothin
What's the point of something
If there's no fulfillment
Why is life important if I didn't choose it
There's no point of living here if you cannot move it
Move the world, change the world
I can do that in this viddy game, save the world
Get the girl
Live a life, of peace & adventuring
Make a mistake, can go back to where it saved me
"Speaking of saving"

Checkpoint:
21 years old. I feel like I've wasted the past 4-5 years of my life & there's always this feeling that everything I have now will soon be gone. I've been making music for the past 5 years, and I still don't know at times if this is what I want to do. I feel like I'll just be forgotten in the next few years. people and friends I have now will soon just forget about me. I feel like I can't even form good connections with people because I'm in my head too much. somedays I just wake up and the day is already over. I feel trapped in life, and don't know what to do. somedays I just want to end it all but tell myself things will get better. I just don't want to live a life of misery. I can't really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time cause I think I'll just end up being a type of burden to them. so I'm just expressing stuff here. I hope I can find a purpose in life or just something that brings me long term happiness + fulfillment. I don't want to kill myself or live an a autonomous, autopilot, dead life.

Save file:
June 23, 2020
6:36 AM
Bedroom

21 BIRTHDAY [untitled_0009]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Server:11643 [untitled_0014]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Verse:
Going thru domains
Going thru servers
(It's an) endless chain
Make myself a different person
A Wired Lain
I love my wired self more, IRL is too lame
Is this luck? Cause I feel like this place was meant for me
I feel 10x happier than i ever did in that sack of meat

"Welcome to the wired fellow user. The username you have chosen is idonot.exist000. You can change this at anytime

Verse2:
Too many ads
I need find a place that's less compact
There's so many paths to take
I don't know which one is right for me

"In the wired, you can always create your path, your own domain, your own server. The wired is open-source, it is your sandbox"

Verse3:
Fuck them data-snatchers tryna steal my shit
I'll hack your fucking hive 
fill you up with junk files
Free the information
Fuck these corporate tech giants
Time to go free source & find my own server
"Go free source & find my own server"
"Find my own server"
"Go free source & find my own server"
"My own server"
"Go free source & find my own server"
"Find my own server"

Verse4:
Encrypt the front & backdoors can't enter in
Try to hack, send some malware to ur bloody IP
Destroy your CPU like you would've done to this
Ancient server if i did not protect it
Preserve the artifacts of the wired do not trash it

"Connecting to Private server 0013"

Verse5:
0013
0013
0013
0013
Paradise to fucking me
And it makes you trembly
0013
0013

[untitled_0012]]

Second half prod by JOHNNASCUS

My Archangels want me dead
Face the wrath of God, eternal damnation
My creator formed me in his image
But now he wants me destroyed
So that must mean he hates his inner & wants to put an end to his immortal lineage

Angels falling from the sky like asteroids.
Crash into the earth, bring destruction.
I live every single day in fear
Hiding from the light overseers
Wheels of fire shine as bright as lightning
1 thousand eyes that just shred my body
Find the watchers and they won't protect me
Azazel struck down by the Almighty
 
My Archangels want me dead
Face the wrath of God, eternal damnation
My creator formed me in his image
But now he wants me destroyed
So that must mean he hates his inner & wants to put an end to his immortal lineage

Angels falling from the sky like asteroids.
Crash into the earth, bring destruction.
I live every single day in fear
Hiding from the light overseers
Wheels of fire shine as bright as lightning
1 thousand eyes that just shred my body
Find the watchers and they won't protect me
Azazel struck down by the Almighty

Lost Futures [untitled_0013]]

JOHNNASCUS

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