@user-440681070 me too thats crazy mandela effect👁

why do I destroy everything that I own...

I need some faith
Not from a saint
But inside me

"Stupid Narcissistic little bitch"

Call me self-centered or whatever but I just really need some more faith in myself.
Cause every single day I just bring myself Down & down (down ×15)

I just need to motherfucking stop
I just need more faith in myself
Bring all the angels to hell
Unleash chaos my spell
I just need more faith in myself
Cause every single day I wanna shoot myself in the fucking head

Kill my fucking other imma psycho-motherfucker (×3)

[new album when?]]

[untitled_0008]]

[new album when?]]

"The past cannot be forgotten, the present cannot be remembered"

I can live in a different time
It'll just be alright
Live in a ghostly time
Reality couldn't bring to light
Gave up on the future it has sadly died
So I went back to a future that never came alive
Lost
And i still just feel so lost
But I'm happy so what's the prob?
I know 1 thing is for certain I can never catch my dreams
Do androids dream elelectric sheep?
Can they see the pixelled leaps?
Well what are dreams, I never sleep
I can live in a different time
It'll just be alright
Live in a ghostly time
Reality couldn't bring to light
Gave up on the future it has sadly died

I want to stay here in the wired forever
In my own world, In my own time, in my own space

See the sun set
Digital res
8k 
#FF6347
Cel-Shading on
A server that's been forgotten

And the sun never rises
And the moon never shines
The clock is always set
To a virtual twilight
To a twilight
To a twilight

"The year is 1999. We'd call each other on brick phones. The television was cool but we played outside more. Life was enjoyable, happier, simpler.  Y2k was around the corner, but most importantly your digital self was born but yet to be activated."

"Are you sure you want to leave this server? ok now connecting to public server: 1 1 6 4 3"

"oi fellow user, wanna catch a virtual ride around this cyberpunk city?"

Lost Futures [untitled_0013]]

[new album when?]]

Verse1:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
My time is fading (yea)
Soul is waning (yea)
Feeling mainy (yea)
Foggy Cranium
My younger self would hate the person that ive become
Losing rhythm, can't find the beat to my own drum
This world ain't for me, or maybe I don't wanna grow up
But what's growing up? Cause I don't wanna have my soul crushed.

Verse2:
I want to live a life outside this system
Travel to a world outside the solar system
& dance to my rhythm

Verse3:
Still fucked up in the head
Try to make folks accept me
Even if they don't care about me
Maybe it's cause I don't care myself
Wanna be ignored to dig deeper in the well
In The Well
IN THE WELL
In the fucking well I just drown myself in despair
Look at the world the it's so far from here
I'm sinking in my own
Can't climb the walls
It is getting darker
There are no walls
See the lights spotters
In my own thoughts
Cannot move, I'm faltered.

Verse4:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
(repeated)

Verse5:
I'm not special
& No one really is
And the glass half empty 
Pessimistic little bitch
Always feel so envy
Towards every human
Don't wanna feel this empty
And prolonged sadness
What's the point of working
If it leads to nothin
What's the point of something
If there's no fulfillment
Why is life important if I didn't choose it
There's no point of living here if you cannot move it
Move the world, change the world
I can do that in this viddy game, save the world
Get the girl
Live a life, of peace & adventuring
Make a mistake, can go back to where it saved me
"Speaking of saving"

Checkpoint:
21 years old. I feel like I've wasted the past 4-5 years of my life & there's always this feeling that everything I have now will soon be gone. I've been making music for the past 5 years, and I still don't know at times if this is what I want to do. I feel like I'll just be forgotten in the next few years. people and friends I have now will soon just forget about me. I feel like I can't even form good connections with people because I'm in my head too much. somedays I just wake up and the day is already over. I feel trapped in life, and don't know what to do. somedays I just want to end it all but tell myself things will get better. I just don't want to live a life of misery. I can't really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time cause I think I'll just end up being a type of burden to them. so I'm just expressing stuff here. I hope I can find a purpose in life or just something that brings me long term happiness + fulfillment. I don't want to kill myself or live an a autonomous, autopilot, dead life.

Save file:
June 23, 2020
6:36 AM
Bedroom

21 BIRTHDAY [untitled_0009]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Co. Prod. CHECKS

I can't fucking focus
Brain is being stretched to the size of molecules
Compare myself to numbers
I am fucking worthless
Turn me to a bot so i can be automated and talk in the algorithm
01000100
I E irl please
Communication must be terminated
*scream*
Artificial like synapses forming
Bloodstream turning into tubes of coding
See the binary in my retina floating
Taking over vision it starts encrypting
Same with the physical shutdown body, body, body, body
Shut the fuck up you are not in control
Shut the fuck up i am not in control
Shut the fuck up who the hell's in control
Almost a bot now losing soul
I am a slave to the fucking code
Losing emotions turn hollow
No free will have limited sight
Only act in my parameters

Verse2:
Off to digital hell
Casting digital spells
No bottom to this well
Endless Css & Html's
Malware
In my system 
& it's taking my seat to drive
It's deteriorating me
While dragging my digital body
[{html}Kasha_Falla_Balaash_A_Malla_Ka]]
Took a backdoor to different realm
No 0&1s only alien text
[{html}Kasha_Falla_Balaash_A_Malla_Ka]]
[{html}Kasha_Falla_Balaash_A_Malla_Ka]]
[{html}Kasha_Falla_Moloch_A_Malla_Ka]]
Back to digital hell (punch in?)
Casting digital spells
No bottom to this well
Endless Css &
Get the fuck out (punch in?)
Overloaded System
All harm no wisdom
Death & CP
System failing (×4)
System
Harmful files too much space
I have fell from grace
Can't reboot my mainframe
Virus 
Virus has infected every part of my system
I have lost control
I love digital hell
Casting digital spells
No bottom to this hell
Endless
Crypto-anarchy
Till i've infected
Digital hellscape
100 percent
Blue Screening Users
Recode to virus
Spreading us further
Until the web can't escape us
[{html}Kasha_Falla_Balaash_A_Malla_Ka]]

M@LWAR3+# [untitled_0018]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Prod. daniels gone

Hook:
Artificial love
Overrides my system
You and me are the singularity
You and me are the singularity

Verse1:
I don't wanna function without you
Brought something inside that i never knew
We can stay together in 0013
Only users are the 2 of us no one can get in
Staring into the sun
Then I look into your eyes
Digital sparks just fly
See myself in your reflection
I feel us merging, we're not separate
We're enhancing

Hook:
Artificial love
Overrides my system
You and me are the singularity
You and me are the singularity

Bridge:
Artificial love
Take over my system
You and me are the singularity
But really you are just slowly killing me

Hook:
Artificial love
Virus in my system
You just want me in your singularity
So I am a slave to your identity

Artificial love
Virus in my system
You just want me in your singularity
I can't escape, I will lose my coding

C8H11O2+C10H12N2O+C43H66N12O12S2 [untitled_0017]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Co. Prod. JAMES GORCZYCA

Verse1:
Please don't touch me baby
Or i'll go so crazy
I just want my space please
I'm self isolating
Cannot fucking take it
I feel too complacent
Going to the club
Dancing is my drug
Wanna feel the lights
And the sound vibrations
Dancing through the night
Till the sun awakens
Then I see I figure standing at the doorway
It starts charging towards me, I feel so afraid

Verse2:
All I know
All I know
Is to dance
To and fro
Like to kill
On the flo'
Gives me joy
Gives me hope
To feel alive
All the time
To hear the screams
Of people die
And I do it like,

Hook:
Stop
Drop
Put it in a lock
Break the neck
Then you their head drop like

[untitled_0015]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Server:11643 [untitled_0014]]

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Verse:
Going thru domains
Going thru servers
(It's an) endless chain
Make myself a different person
A Wired Lain
I love my wired self more, IRL is too lame
Is this luck? Cause I feel like this place was meant for me
I feel 10x happier than i ever did in that sack of meat

"Welcome to the wired fellow user. The username you have chosen is idonot.exist000. You can change this at anytime

Verse2:
Too many ads
I need find a place that's less compact
There's so many paths to take
I don't know which one is right for me

"In the wired, you can always create your path, your own domain, your own server. The wired is open-source, it is your sandbox"

Verse3:
Fuck them data-snatchers tryna steal my shit
I'll hack your fucking hive 
fill you up with junk files
Free the information
Fuck these corporate tech giants
Time to go free source & find my own server
"Go free source & find my own server"
"Find my own server"
"Go free source & find my own server"
"My own server"
"Go free source & find my own server"
"Find my own server"

Verse4:
Encrypt the front & backdoors can't enter in
Try to hack, send some malware to ur bloody IP
Destroy your CPU like you would've done to this
Ancient server if i did not protect it
Preserve the artifacts of the wired do not trash it

"Connecting to Private server 0013"

Verse5:
0013
0013
0013
0013
Paradise to fucking me
And it makes you trembly
0013
0013

[untitled_0012]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

I could fade away at anytime it wouldn't even matter
This blade will fucking help me let the blood splatter
I could fade away at anytime it wouldn't even matter
This blade will fucking help me let the blood splatter

So I digitize (×4)

I could fade at anytime it wouldn't even matter
The wired will help me, reality disaster
Erase me from your memories now there's dark matter
Stare into the codex it is time to join
Replace my fucking body yea digital joints
Don't wanna see the light i want it destroyed
Triple zero is the home it brings me, triple zero joy

Can't feel my body
Senses are falling
My mind is sprawling
To a new world i'm routing
To a new world (×4)
To a
"*connecting to the wired*"
Time to digitize (×3)
I could fade at anytime it wouldn't even matter
The wired will help me, reality disaster
Erase me from your memories now there's dark matter
"*you are now entering the wired*"

[untitled_0011]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Prod. JAMES GORCZYCA & Saturn Ultra

Verse1:
I be chilling in a black gown
Oh it's over for you sad clowns
Reaper mode you are dead now
Kill all leaders no more crowns
Do not fucking wallow
In a future that is lost to time
Fuck a brave new world
I just want anarchy now
Now it's off to digital now
Free all the data from the tech hounds
Encrypt my life into the wires
My D-DNA is the life code

*synth solo*

Verse2:
I be chilling in a black gown
Oh it's over for you sad clowns
Now it's off to digital now
Wanna live in digital sounds
See the irl inside a box now
The url is an expanding realm

HER

Hook:
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why

Verse1:
You had changed me for the better
And now your gone
You run away from your problems
You are so lost
I wish I could reach out and help you
But you cut me off
And idk where to find you

Hook:
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why
Why'd you walk away from me
It's time
You even changed me
But why

[untitled_0010]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

New Year
New Me
Decade
2020.
Out the world
I look and see
Everyone
Including me.
Dissociate
Get Away
From 
Reality okay.
I need
Rebirth
A new slate
Massive change.
In my head
Too much
Too much
Too much
Escape esotericism.
But that's my
My home
Why would I escape my home
I don't know
Maybe it never was 
Or I let it consume me.
I feel like
A fucking fraud
I'm fucking lost 
What do I do 
I don't know
I don't ask for help
So I keep it all inside.
Until it explodes
And I'm out my mind
And then I want to [REDACTED]]
But I'm too [REDACTED]]
So i lay
Lay
Lay
Lay
Lay
Why do i destroy everything that i fucking own

[untitled_0001]]

JOHNNASCUS

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