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before in a more optimistic past. when positivity ran amok 

ring ring 
7 days till you shi-ne (die)
yes i am sadako stop breathing
no i'm not a bloody man i'm a cat
*nyan*
get clawed to death
mutilation next
then i eat your liver
but it tastes like shit 
put it in my litter box where it's supposed to be
then wear your finger bones like some cute earrings
peel your skin like a mask 
ed gein Inspired

then i'm feeling wired up
cause I'm fuckin fired up
time to kill some more humans before my time is up
who gon' pick up the phone when it ring rings
i just really wanna come out your LED screen

*random noises*

then i'm feeling wired up
cause i'm fuckin fired up
time to kill some more humans before my time is up
who gon' pick up the phone when it ring rings
i just really wanna come out your LED screen

ring ring (ringu) (prod. 510)  [untitled_-0001]]

"uhm, there's like... ppl gangstalking me and, idk what to do about it. I think im gonna write a post on /x/. Hey /x/ uhm, I see ppl gangstalking me. I see them outside my window, I can hear them banging on my door. They tapped my fucking walls with wires uhm, All the food I eat, all the cameras inside me, all the cameras that are on my- on my computer. They're all staring at me, what I do. I don't wanna kill myself, But I don't have gun, I just want to find a way to turn it off.

Hook:
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8 probing eyes with no face
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8 probing eyes no face

Verse1:
Late one night
Went on the internet
Down a rabbit hole
Into wonderland
My great awakening
Fuck them pedo libs
They drink adrenochrome 
From abortions
Fuck, I think I know too much
Society a psyop to keep us in a box
I just need to find
Some like-minded lives
To stage a coo against the reptilians
The ones who make billions, 
The CIA and FBI
My own little bubble I finally find
Except they don’t fight
They told me to go digital
And be connected with the spiritual
And to leave behind my fleshy physical
To enter into sysytemspace
To escape this world of pain
But I must spread my message

Hook:
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8 probing eyes with no face
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers at my door
5, 6, 7, 8

Verse2:
Stranger
Danger, cut all ties of communication
They spy one me I can feel their wavelengths
They’re inside my head they wanna take it
For mind control but I will rape them
They’re inside my walls
I can hear them crawl and scratch for me
But my energy, and mer-ka-bah repels them, I’m the sun
Nowhere I can run to
Trapped inside my death room
Till my willpower runs sour
They’ll redact me
All I have now is this knife
That I white knuckle with my fists
They are banging on my door and might break it in
I won’t let it happen
Pull the door open
Without hesitation I begin the torture
Stab it endlessly in the fucking chest
Till I realize it was my best friend

Hook:
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers are dead
5, 6, 7, 8 of my stalkers were friends
1, 2, 3, 4 of my stalkers are dead
5, 6, 7, 8 of my stalkers were my friends

GANGSTALKED (prod. Wendigo) [untitled_0033]]

sampled "innervision" by System Of A Down

[more music soon]]

[untitled_0042]] *Soundcloud Exclusive*

Found by XEMERZ on a random Russian website, recovered by me. Originally uploaded to John’s SoundCloud for 2 hours on Valentine’s Day in 2019. Cover Art found by Genius.com User: “Malevolent :3”

Lyrics:
I’m sorry for the things I’ve done (done)
That’s apologizing to myself and I don’t feel alright
I feel like before the bloody [?] fuck with valentine
Tomorrow be back to normal, it’s another [?]
Eyes creep to the back of my mind

One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
Yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh,

Go, I wanna just float
Float above the clouds in the skys and make it my home
Castle in the sky, float
Fuck a earthly love
I don’t want to feel pitty 
I want to stay with you 

Im sorry, for the things that i have done (done)
(Purple sticker, purp-purple sticker)

Valentine Blues

[FOUND] Johnnascus- Valentine Blues(prod.sleepingforyears)

C8H11O2​+​C10H12N2O​+​C43H66N12O12S2 [untitled_0017​]​] [Slowed/Modified]]

I Dont Wanna Do This Anymore (prod. LC2K)

fuck you soundcloud for deleting my tape, here is this song with this special cover just for you xoxo

prod triplesixdelete

assa w/ madjax & triplesixdelete

Got taken off of JOHNNASCUS' official soundcloud so reupload

JOHNNASCUS - Strangling My Brain To Death So I Can Finally Hear The Murmurs Of My Heart

[Verse 1]
I see your shadow in every street,
Every heartbeat echoes your repeat.
The world moves on, but I remain,
Caught in the pull of your silent chain.

[Pre-Chorus]
I try to run, I try to hide,
But your ghost lives where I reside.

[Chorus]
You’re taking over me,
Filling all the spaces I can’t see.
Every thought, every breath, every scream,
I’m lost inside the gravity of your dream.

[Verse 2]
Your voice is burned into the walls,
I feel your hands in empty halls.
Time slips by, but I replay,
Every word you never said, every way.

[Pre-Chorus]
I try to fight, I try to break,
But your echo keeps me awake.

[Chorus]
You’re taking over me,
Filling all the spaces I can’t see.
Every thought, every breath, every scream,
I’m lost inside the gravity of your dream.

[Bridge – emotional scream]
I’m drowning in the pull of you,
I’m fading where the light won’t move!
Can you feel me or am I alone?
In this storm, I’m turned to stone!

[Breakdown]
I’m fading, I’m slipping,
The lines between us are ripping.
I wanted freedom, I wanted release,
But your presence will never cease.

[Final Chorus]
You’re taking over me,
Filling all the spaces I can’t see.
Every thought, every breath, every scream,
I’m lost inside the gravity of your dream.

[Outro]
And if I disappear tonight,
Know your shadow was my light.
I’m nothing, I’m everything,
A ghost within the pull of you, endlessly.

The Gravity of You

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
They shatter
And are broken
Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
Caught lock jaw
Can't open
Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
Feel the pain as i choke and bleed
Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
I can't escape my own body
Can't ask for help
I can't even speak
They think im deranged, mental, weak
Walking around with teeth falling out 
Then i found a way to end it all now
End this physical prison that i'm in
This threshold of pain, i cannot stand it
There's only one way to end it all in a blip
You know what is,
Do not have say it

Clenched Jaw

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

KILLING ALL THESE RAPPERS THEY SOME DART TAGS.
I FUCKING HEAD SMASH.
YOUR BODY ON THE CEMENT.
NO LONGER HUMAN.
YOU DO NOT KNOW ME.
GO HEAD, DISOWN ME.
DON'T NEED YOUR LOVING
DON'T NEED YOUR LOVING

Where the sanity in me (x4)
This is not me
The insanity in me (x4)
It's apart of me

1 2 3 4.
YOUR HEAD JUST BLOW.
RIGHT OFF YOUR BODY.
YOU CAN'T FUCKING GROW.
I DO NOT CARE.
I'LL TAKE YOUR LIFE.
CAUSE I DO NOT CARE BOUT MUHFUCKIN MINE.
I SAY DECAY
GO AHEAD
DON'T BREATHE
I SAY DECAY
GO AHEAD
DON'T BREATHE 
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN

Where the sanity in me (x4)
This is not me
The insanity in me (x4)
It's apart of me

*SCREAM*
*AD-LIBS*
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN

Where the sanity in me (x4)
This is not me
The insanity in me (x4)
It's apart of me

Reality Of Resentment (Prod. LC2K & JOHNNASCUS)

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

BMG:
so much energy
the fodder cannot be compared to me
i’m a travesty
jagged immolation through your cavity
i’m the majesty
in a boss battle
hard to handle
rocket packin’
and abandoned
self commanding
hell combatant
marked up
by my attachment

bitch i hit quad damage
with the gauss cannon
in a butchery
and i’m the bloody craftsman
summoner up in a chokehold
i just broke bold
with the black magic
horns up on me
2k damage
bitch, claws in you like that
new tricks, alter shit, fuck you 
*scream*

Demigod:
verse1: 
eeeeeee i 
Want you really want from me i
Oh really wanna see i
Oh sometimes you never see i
Stuck in a room
4 walls, grey color
What do i do
So i just sit here wanting to decay
But i can't
So i lay
What do i do (repeated)

verse2
(kumo)
what do i do
very honest question
That i ask myself
Every single day 
Continue to contemplate
To escape the rat race
My thoughts do not reflect my actions
So it's time to go on 
Rampage
And escape the cage
Of tame
What hell am i?
Demigod
Don't wanna live to
Be a pawn
To the world or my
Own self
Kill the bad habits
They stale
They just destroy my
Brain cells
They belong to
Past times
They just stunt my growth
So i
Drag them by the neck
To Hel-
Heim
To be forever frozen in time

Baron V2 (Ft. BRUHMANEGOD) [Prod. Landfill & JOHNNASCUS]

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

*hums and says stuff*

I'm so sick 
I'm so sick and tired yes
I will cut the wire stress
I will cut the wir-
Do
Not Ignore
Fucking Me
I Will Rip
Out Your Spleen
Caught Off Guard
Never Looking
Life ain't easy as it seems
Do Not Ignore
Fucking Me
I Will Rip
Out Your Spleen
You underestimate my fucking being
You shall pay for false judging

Pay (×6)
now say your fucking grace

The Miniscule Kill

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

Living in denial
Till you get like fucked bro
Living like the nile
Till you get like cut throat
Bleed into river
As you see the blood go
Mix in with the water
Chaos entered the flow
Imma take off
Ain't no fucking meyday
Ain't no fucking mistake
Lord JOHNNASCUS imma
Alien ok k k
You wan try to erase me
Can't do that oh no no way
I will just infect the world
In people's hearts or like a virus
. . *kumo fucker*
I just want more eyes
To see all the time
Pierce through all the phalilicies 
And you could never creep on me
Look at all realities
See all possibilities
Cause this life ain't thrilling me
I need something real extreme
kumo fucker (repeated)

Sirens In The Night

[new album when?]]

Verse1:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
My time is fading (yea)
Soul is waning (yea)
Feeling mainy (yea)
Foggy Cranium
My younger self would hate the person that ive become
Losing rhythm, can't find the beat to my own drum
This world ain't for me, or maybe I don't wanna grow up
But what's growing up? Cause I don't wanna have my soul crushed.

Verse2:
I want to live a life outside this system
Travel to a world outside the solar system
& dance to my rhythm

Verse3:
Still fucked up in the head
Try to make folks accept me
Even if they don't care about me
Maybe it's cause I don't care myself
Wanna be ignored to dig deeper in the well
In The Well
IN THE WELL
In the fucking well I just drown myself in despair
Look at the world the it's so far from here
I'm sinking in my own
Can't climb the walls
It is getting darker
There are no walls
See the lights spotters
In my own thoughts
Cannot move, I'm faltered.

Verse4:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
(repeated)

Verse5:
I'm not special
& No one really is
And the glass half empty 
Pessimistic little bitch
Always feel so envy
Towards every human
Don't wanna feel this empty
And prolonged sadness
What's the point of working
If it leads to nothin
What's the point of something
If there's no fulfillment
Why is life important if I didn't choose it
There's no point of living here if you cannot move it
Move the world, change the world
I can do that in this viddy game, save the world
Get the girl
Live a life, of peace & adventuring
Make a mistake, can go back to where it saved me
"Speaking of saving"

Checkpoint:
21 years old. I feel like I've wasted the past 4-5 years of my life & there's always this feeling that everything I have now will soon be gone. I've been making music for the past 5 years, and I still don't know at times if this is what I want to do. I feel like I'll just be forgotten in the next few years. people and friends I have now will soon just forget about me. I feel like I can't even form good connections with people because I'm in my head too much. somedays I just wake up and the day is already over. I feel trapped in life, and don't know what to do. somedays I just want to end it all but tell myself things will get better. I just don't want to live a life of misery. I can't really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time cause I think I'll just end up being a type of burden to them. so I'm just expressing stuff here. I hope I can find a purpose in life or just something that brings me long term happiness + fulfillment. I don't want to kill myself or live an a autonomous, autopilot, dead life.

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June 23, 2020
6:36 AM
Bedroom

21 BIRTHDAY [untitled_0009]]

prod. bruhmanegod

*follow your heart*
No1 really knows me
Sometimes even including me
I live as different entities
In the eyes of other human beings
But the eyes see subjectively
So you don't know what's best for me
I'll do what makes thou happy
Not what you projecting onto me
I'm not your entertainment piece

I just want to live in harmony

With my purpose and dreams
Fly across the ocean seas
While the sun shines me
And doesn't take away my wings

What's the cost
Of controlling all my thoughts
& listening to my gut
Oh wait yeah there is none

I don't want to relate to you
I just want you to understand me
And all the aliens
That are from another galaxy

[untitled_0042]] Soundcloud Exclusive

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