Half A Mind

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The last track I ever put on soundcloud (sneak peak at the end)

I think this is fuck you....

I'm five foot five weigh 125 alive twenty years and I'm white
so despite what i write you decide to decline. im inclined to remind you what I do might blind you
time after time all I find is is that I am the sickest, come with rhymes and my mind is the quickest
imma slide through these rhythms, droppin lines full of wisdom, bout the life that were liven and the time that we're given
me? I been living it right
getting high, every night
with a bitch at my side
letting benjamins fly
to the left and the right
put a gram in the bowl for every head on the pipe
incredibly ripe, fresh your just, dead on the vine
rolling dirty money up just to sniff the lines?
rolling deep with a crew while we gripping nines?
well, fuck that shit, cuz its a fib and some lies
ok, let me me beseech this, mr jon c may be a little facetious
hes just seems to be in need of some jesus,
the way he chiefing on the reefer gotta see to believe it.
hit the peak of his creeper now he weak in the knees
dont give a dam like a beaver still depleting the trees 
he still speaking with ease, 

The Phenomenon They're Calling Jon

 if its like that, then its like that,
and I won't fight your ass
I'll take a knife to your back while you're sleeping
im off on the weekends
and I been thinking 
 I'm often free
people hate to talk to me
must be something wrong with me

now get on your feet
clap for a coward and cheer for a thief
stealing your keef, leaving some pee on the seat
I think im in key, but at least im on beat
now get on your feet
clap for a coward and cheer for a thief
stealing your keef, leaving some pee on the seat
I think im in key, but at least im on beat

I got a half ounce and flipped it
into a bit of some liquor, then sipped it
I fell in the booth to tell you some truth
but I've never been good with specifics
I'm lazy, love blazing, and want everyone to pay me     
so no wonder in 2008 said fuck  mccain see
I'm not a political rapper
I'm more of a cynical bastard
but im not with the typical, 
pitiful, middle school, minimal, my shit is pivotal
I'm talking bout living with passion
and not giving into distractions
lifting the limit to get somewhere distant
instead of just letting shit happen
maybe im a bit of a hypocrite
what I'm saying and im doing on some different shit 
I'm belligerant, while I write this.
do you like this? take 9 hits and describe what life is?
I'm 5'6" and made of my vices,  
and all I fucking do is make beats and rhyme shit 
gonna blow up like Isis crisis
jesus christ just give me time
this is just the tip of the iceberg
got more shit, cuz I write when life hurts
but I fight fire with fire
get much higher
solven problems with a dollar lighter
see? money buys happiness
only 20 for the sack of this
only problem is, it only lasts a bit
so go on grab a half a zip
put it under your mattress
now your trapping kid
making cash like all them rappers did
but watch it, all them bongs turn to loss of profit
often coughing, pot of coffee
every day become a carbon copy, go insane
got to get a way to get some fame
get the fuck away from every thing



now get on your feet
clap for a coward and cheer for a thief
stealing your keef, leaving some pee on the seat
I think im in key, but at least im on beat
now get on your feet
clap for a coward and cheer for a thief
stealing your keef, leaving some pee on the seat
I think im in key, but at least im on beat     

rewind my mind to a time where I wasn't fined for everything
everything was fine but life declined my sense of innocence
now its bitterness and indifference
and I'm sick of it, while I sip a fifth
Imma think about, how to give a shit
stead of giving up, like I always did


Get On Your Feet

Love And Smiles

Mimosas

I'd Rather Be

Get Well Soon

Phe wrote this beat.
soundcloud.com/phephe

Travels (prod phe phe)

we're turning arguements into 
target practice
all over dishes and a
laundry basket
all over digits
and the thought of past tense
I bought you presents
and you brought me sadness
didn't have a choice,
life just happens.
didn't have a voice,
but I can slam cabinets
and that makes noise
and noise wake the neighbors
the police came, they just doing what they're paid for 
I don't wanna play around
if you wanna leave then say it now
cuz honestly I hate it, but I know we gotta change it
and there ain't no other way around
and I'm running out options
In fact I only got one
I gotta leave now
I wanna cut ties
I wanna be proud
wanna love life

I don't wanna fuck around with you no more 


Its hard to leave cuz the way we are
I got car key'ed at my favorite bar
you make my heart beat but, but you make my brain stop
take another drink, try to make the pain stop
and I hate it when you talk to my friends
So I get faded, find a way to talk to your friends
ain't enough liquor in the world for my binge
I'm prolly gonna miss her till the world ends
yo I pray it comes quick
I'm saying dumb shit
she got me acting crazy
thought that the we were done, with
drunk and I'm lazy
and I'm feeling kinda sick
so I go on a date with a new chick
I show up late and the girl don't trip
I pay that tab and her grin get lit
I walk her home and I kiss them lips
I know its quick but can I please come in?

I just wanna fuck around with you a lil more

so its all well and good with the new chick
and she like all my jokes and my music
and she ride till she die
and she pass me the pipe
yo the girl blow my mind and I lose it
and she kiss like she live in a movie
but I act like a dick cuz I'm moody
my depression got me stressing
know I never learn my lessons
and I'm steady second guessing
her emotions and intentions
cuz I'm weak and I'm scared
everytime I need her I scream and she's there
need more weed and facial hair
self esteem and things to wear
love's no fair
I gotta lotta problems, and I try to stay on top of it
all she tried to do is give me comfort love and compliments
but the constant lack of confidence is dragging her down
I was wrong when I though she didn't want me around, but now

She don't wanna fuck around with me no more

I Don't.

Jon C
Ft Phe Phe (soundcloud.com/phephe)
Prod J Tuck (jtuck.bandcamp.com/)
of WorldWideWonders(worldwidewonder.bandcamp.com)

tired of monotany
rap game monopoly
working till my 
hallways reak of fresh mahogony
like ron burgundy
stay classy, when I murder beats
fur elise, a classic
not all my raps are tragic
I got punchlines
in bunches, bitch im going bananas
just hollaback at me girl
if you don't know where a man is
I put my shit on the map
and take you off like atlantis
I'm moving out to mars
cuz I'm the best on this planet
dammit, the shit like slam
like bambam with a hand full of hammers
and I snap like rubber band man,
beats like david banner
miss me with banter
I don't like that chit chat
get up out my face like
bitch, you need a tic tac
tick tock, how long till your shit drop
yall don't really grip glocks
try me, face to fist and get your shit rocked
back it up like gridlock
got the Gas, like pit stop
defy me if you want to, I'll be the king of fucking hip hop
your wordplay is 3rd grade
I'm A1 and first rate,
when I was born
I increased the worlds birth rate
when I decease, you best believe
no one better gonna breathe
I'm steadily, readily, rapping so heavily
heavenly pedigree, never a better breed
I read these cigs will give me cancer
got the million dollar answer
whats the question? Now I lost it
caught my reflection, and now I kinda wanna vomit
clean my eyes with comet and flush em in the faucette
my pops said my dog dead
my god fake, I want head
my job sucks, I want bread
I'm on drugs, I'm in debt
pop pills and injest
forgot how to invest
lost along the way
but im too stubborn for directions
smooth as butter, did I mention
all this passion for my penchant
got my attitude pretentious
wild as the west is
lungs the size of texas
puffin on the best shit
fuck a 9-5 because I am the best, bitch

put in the tape and let it ride
kill that shit like genocide
and I'm not just fucking great
I'm the best alive

Delusional Ft phe phe (Prod WorldWideWonders)

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HUGE SHOUT OUT TO DANNY FOR MIXING, ENGINEERING,  AND A SHIT LOAD OF AWESOME BACKGROUND VOCALS. Get at this man for recording sessions, he's amazing to work with. 
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3VPBWZ0yh6AomC7JaMmV5w
fighterpilotatl@gmail.com



okay, make it rain like irma jose
getting brain like its my birthday
eat my bitch like its chipotle
I ain't rich, but I know one day
Imma getta benz all my friends get a hyundai
Imma get a chick bring her friends from the runway
Imma get a crib and a pit
bull and a big
pool and a sick view
Imma get jewels get jet fuel
Imma throw a punches, not pull
Imma smoke blunts and just cool it
Imma hooligan, smoother like a smoothie
huge like a movie, I'm busting your block
I do it, with no effort to it,
I know that you know that I do it a lot

Ko ko ko
knock em out like I'm Mcgreg- oh wait
I mean Mayweather, I do better
got a million put it on the plate
got the studio in a wide estate
got a smoking girl, you just tryna vape
got half a mind to take you life away
but my life fucking fine, so I might refrain
cuz I just want it all, and a faster car
I just wanna ball when I'm at the bar
I don't really care how mad they are
no one out here going half as hard 
so mash the gas, and pass the grass
surpass the average whackest ghost
rappers, out here I'm out the goat
no one out here even know,
boots its stomping on his fucking foes


I am this materialistic
I buy and I buy and I think that in time
my possessions will help me to deal with
the vacancy aching me, cause of complaceny
everyone fake to me
everyone fake to me
screaming it out
angrily
popping wheelies
tryna stop the feelies
want my money
they don't want the real me
I just want a stomach 
full of drugs and mealies
I don't need you all 
to fucking love me really
It was always music music
from the fucking start
was a fucking loser
but I made it art
I tried to care
but they made it hard
Imma make my money
and forget my heart

my phone don't ring like used to
like it used to
Used to ignore every call
now they not calling at all
my phone don't ring like used to
like it used to
and they don't snap back,
yo my phone just black
and I guess I just have to get used to the fact

Phone

wanna leave my burdens burried in the past
in the cemetary grass grows the greenest
in december, I'll be leaving
going south for the winter
force a mouth full of dinner
catch a first time offense
this evening
my anxiety the highest that its been
since I decided fitten in
ain't like getting high again 
it ain't important
and I don't force a fucking grin
for nobody, ain't nobody  here to tell me how to live
cuz I been selfish in this bitch
I wear my armor, like a shellfish in this bitch
reach for top shelf, all disheveled in this bitch
looking bummy, gums are bloody, owe my buddies fucking money
don't know who still fucking love me?
like how could they?
they're reaching out for answers
I'm ignoring every call while I'm
chiefing on some cancer 
piece myself together
like a jigsaw, split down the center
like a jigsaw, yo I'm feeling ripped off

I just wanna be happy own terms
hang out for a minute then just go burn
write a verse that says I'm sad to be alone
in the same damn verse, I turn around 
and I say im mad  everytime they call my phone
and thats not... like fucked up continuity 
interets fleeting fluidly 
finally get to see you
then all I wanna do is leave
its nothing that you do to me
just between you an me 
I foster an immunity 
its called indifference
cuz I give and I give and they take
and it don't make no difference
they take pieces of me plus some interest
just take my fucking visa, need the pin? just get a pen
I don't need you, I never did
like I can find a girl with a better lips and better hips
thicker thighs and quicker lies
like sometimes I just wanna get it right,
like.... you get it... right?

Numb (Prod. phe phe)

Get at JTuck for beats. This man is a monster.
https://jtuck.bandcamp.com/

This ain't a disaster its a catastrophe
life is just an acid dream
so bask in all the fallacy,
I keep it light, like ballerinas
on my toes
-osmium
with the flows
but all my plans getting foiled
and I'm not even close, coast
off the coat tails of my predeccesors
processor got better
cuz my fathers understanding temper
but both of us were raise in ways
that makes us never plan for winter
so when it snows its a blizzard
no one to hold, when I shiver
no wonder hands always shakey
no wonder plans always flakey
no wonderbread in the pantry
no one'll answer me lately
think all my fans fucking hate me
I keep my songs to myself
want me to leave, you cant make me
hit the bong till it melts

and have a meltdown
tried to have a breakthrough
but instead I had a meltdown---
and I'll tell you how it felt now

This ain't a mishap, its an accident
passing through the labyrinth
masking my emotions till the casket
I'm a passivist 
give half a shit about the money
I just take the grimey and the ugly 
make it funny
I'm codependent on my misery
A happy Jon, just isn't me
life may give you lemons
but it gave me human centipedes
so eat that shit up
you ordered one drink, 
but I'm picking up my 5th cup
so its hiccups and slurs
vision is blurred
I just wanna go home and hit blunts
and not hit that curb
I just wanna lay down
that party shit-so played out
I tried to break through
but instead I had a breakdown

Meltdown (Prod JTuck)

Can't see the future
yo the room is hazy
doobie and a movie
never moving lately
zues to jesus,
who made me crazy?
who dropped the ball 
on the fucking baby?
maybe it was me?
prolly not.
"mr davies, it would seem"
I swear to god
"you've been making all these things
you gotta fake some self esteem
chase your dream until the day you fucking rot"
I been getting high on the new lows
always down to try, take a few of those
looking god in the eye, getting stupid close
icarus took a dip, never knew it tho
fluent flow, fabricate a false sense of worth
erradicate my doubt, I'm callous cuz it hurts
malnutritious, I throw a clout to the throat
I'm better off without you, so

when your help is too late it just seem disingenious
I'll show you a cry for attention bitch
described at the header of a suicide letter,
"no one listened ever"

Fist to the temple
wrist getting stiff
but never mix up the mental
don't fall for the tricks
then I twist in a left hook
hits like a brick
then I snatch that Iphone
and hit up your chik
worldstar?
fuck that, coinstar
I can show you where the lowest points are
I can show you where the dopest joints are
annoint the ointment, avoid appointments
toy with my like a fucking slinky
only come around when you fucking need me
and it seem like every day, so fucking needy
now its Laissez-faire, like fuck a treaty
hands off, unless you want those pants off
go ahead roll your eyes and a damn scoff
they said this how you act like a man, stop
this just isn't who I am
I'm just a bum
I'm just a lonely kid looking for love
I'm just filling the hole with the drugs
I'm taking a bunch, its never enough
I'm just a waste
I've just been looking for something to chase
I've just been trying to capture the taste of the past
with my feet in the air and my face in the grass

Ad Nauseam

https://jtuck.bandcamp.com/
Shouts out to JTuck for endless beats and inspiration.

I am the definition of discontent
I am the 2nd listen you didn't catch
every pessimism I expressed
I am sitting on my bed depressed
I am the dirty counters
I am the moldy bowl I found
I am the phone on 3 percent
I am alone, I think I said
that before, bitch slap macklemore
walk in strapped to the thrift store
had a little cash wanna get more
hit the fucking hash till my lip sore
miss passion, miss laughing, 
miss happiness, mishaps just happen now
I want a deal and a bad bitch now
I wanna feel but the fact is now
I gave everything I had and now
I'm a shell of a man,
I fell every plan,
I fell into debt
I felt no regret
when I was young I fell on my head
but the doctor couldn't tell I was dead
so he sewed me up and sent me here 
I should be in hell instead
but maybe I am
I've been looking around
and I'm not really sure
that I'm not anymore

I'm glad I could reach an agreement
with the demons residing inside of me
quietly hide from society
why did she lie to me?
why did I try to defy what I know I should be
alone at 40, with a 40 still watching rick and morty,
bored cuz im boring,
4 in the morning
gotta be awake at 6,
rather be recording
blessed for an atheist
except for having patience
infectious with my rhymes
but my intentions, ventilation
vindication, for my actions
a sense of satisfaction
righteousness, for all my wrongs
when tryna find my passion
write the shit in all my songs
but I can't seem to grasp it
only spit self counscious rap
I'm tryna break the habit

Break The Habit (prod JTuck)

Shout out to J-Tuck and crew for helping make this song a reality.
Hit them up to record or for pics! https://jtuck.bandcamp.com/

I wanna roll up in the function
with a rolly wrist
main on my right 
thats 2 nines on my hip
one got a clip 
and one got tits
I got a pipe in my grip
and a heiney to sip
I realize I got one life to live
I feel like I've been calling it quits
I sell myself short like a shady dealer
fell on my porch, cuz I prolly need a meal, or
maybe just, maybe just, maybe one drink
baby don't, baby don't, make me go think
about the shit that I've done
how im frivolous with my funds.
I think she could be the one
or maybe the two or the three
we should just pull on some tree
we should just cool it and chill on a beach
just you and me

wanna know your brain and what you think of me
things that we could be
if you could open up your mind
wanna know your plans and all your fantasies
girl come stand with me
and we could waste a little time
 
okay baby its making me a little crazy
all the ways that you changed me
I pay for them on the daily
now I'm wide awake
the foldgers full of baileys
the soilder in the trenches 
assaulted by his own day dreams
taking the pain
put it away
with a bottle
picking my brain
for all the ways
to astonish you
sticking out my neck
and losing self respect
cuz on this fucking planet
you're all I want except
maybe just, maybe just, maybe one drink
baby don't, baby don't, make me go think
about the shit that I've done
how im frivolous with my funds.
I think she could be the one
or maybe the two or the three
we should just pull on some tree
we should just cool it and chill on a beach
just you and me

Open Up Your Mind

She asked me how I'm doing,
said I'm fine, I was lying everytime 
I was written all my pain
she couldn't read between the lines
so... maybe she's illiterate
or maybe baby didn't give a shit
she asked me what I'm thinking
said its nothing, kept on drinking
not like its a party
it was just another evening
spent alone in a home
but in truth, 4 walls and a roof
or any place I move
it isn't home,
its just a house now
and my head is full of doubts now
just a binge and sleep
admit defeat then
rinse repeat
sinking deep into entropy	 
none of my passions seem to interest me
lately, I think they all hate me
music got me jaded, 
and the people got me angsty
avert my eyes in my reflection
cuz its hard to fucking face me
she asked me if I loved her
I said....

baby Imma be okay
all this pain just in my DNA
and I hate that I was born this way
I pray I never see you torn away
I said baby girl its not your fault
as I slid my body down the wall
you're the only thing that keeps me here
and just don't leave me its my deepest fear


She asked me how I cope
and I said, baby girl I don't
Im a lost cause, get sauced
try to find solutions
try to write it down 
and try to find a bit of honesty
looking at the mirror
thinking what the fuck is wrong with me
She asked me when I'm leaving
I dont think that I could
cuz the world fucking sucks
but she's everything thats good
She asked me why I stay 
I couldn't give her and answer
maybe its the stars
I'm a leo she's a cancer
She asked my whats the cause
said I'm not really sure
but everytime I feel sick
I look to her for the cure
But now she's always looking stressed
and I know that I'm to blame
maybe she'd be happy 
If she just went away


baby Imma be okay
all this pain just in my DNA
and I hate that I was born this way
I pray I never see you torn away
I said baby girl its not your fault
as I slid my body down the wall
you're the only thing that keeps me here
and just don't leave me its my deepest fear

she's getting tired of asking
and never making a difference
I blow up, get pissed,
and pretend I never meant it 
tell her sorry 
but the past set it in stone
and some days I just think
that she's better off alone
She asked me for some help
I said I didn't have the energy
all this music, and the hustle
and the pain I got is killing me
She asked me just to talk
and I blew the shit off
and that ain't like me
yo, why does she like me?
She asked if its her 

and I told her its the opposite
I can't keep myself together
when I'm falling down she stopping it
She asked me if I cared
and I swore that I did
but she walked away
and next thing................ 


baby girl, I'm not okay
never listened, blew your thought away 
and I hate that I was born this way
I fucking hate that you were torn away
I said baby girl its not your fault
as I slid  her body down the wall
you're the only thing that keeps me here
I said  don't leave me its my deepest fear

I said don't leave me its my deepest fear

Imma Be Okay (prod J tuck)

I wanna forfiet the drama
for go the path to become the dahli llama
I'm bored with the patterns
self absorbed, thoughts scatterted
heart ignored, been shattered
my wallet getting skinny
all my blunts just getting fatter
but nothing fucking matters
drowning in a sea of these soundcloud rappers
life is a story, I wanna skip a couple chapters
once upon a rhyme, happily ever never happened
in every endeavor, I've been lacking
not as proud as I pretend to be
I've been battling for centuries
shrouded in this doubt
I kinda think that it may never leave
netflix on the couch
I kinda think that I may never leave
reaching out for greatness
I can't wait till I'm a better me
steady with the scent of weed 
im coming down, like centipede 
cotton mouth and shakey hands
good intentions, shitty plans
crack a bottle pop a can
I'll pop off when I want to man
non stop and its on demand
(non stop and its on demand)

and my silence
is ringing down the hallways
I don't care what y'all say
Im all right

the pastures always greener
in the past tense,
and I've romanticized 
my weaknesses
an elitest self-defeatist
write a song and then delete it
inspiration is depleted
invitations are declined
I'm inclined to decide 
to stay inside for the rest of my life
Im fine wasting my time with my pipe
from pipe dreams to night terrors
im five five won't fight fair
tired from a flight of stairs
the bitter taste of my despair
repair the broken circuits in my pysche
and figure out the reason that nobody fucking likes me
prolly cuz i'm chiefing till im sleeping on the nightly
I never ever leave, how the fuck are they supposed to even find me, remind me
when I felt home, when I felt whole, 
when I felt you and you felt my soul
when I had worth, when I came first
novacaine now, everything hurts
worst decision, blurry vision
slur the words, and hurt the feelings
deserve the strife that I've been given
(deserve the life that I've been living)

Nothing Fucking Matters

You could say anything, I'll listen
I'm given you my attention
I'm open with my intentions
I'm hoping for your affection
Asterisk, correction
I'm working for your affection
learning bout my self
while you're curving my attempts.... its.
about enough to drive me crazy
got me up late, so you're only in my daydreams
3rd date, most girls pass 3rd base
I think we're on 4, and I assure you that its worth wait,
worth while,
her face,
her smile,
her waist,
her style,
all got me curbed
and I'm texting like a child
cling to every word
and 10 minutes is a while
and you couldn't even stop me
with a hundred thousand miles
I'd get bike, hitch hike,
jump sprint and then climb
straight vertical inclines
and then wait in line
take a number, take a seat
you take all the time you need
everything I see
is perfection, to a T
______________
and I don't wanna you push away
but god I gotta let you know
no matter how long it takes
I'm never gonna let you go
__________
I spit bars
you spit food on the table
in a chillis,
thinking, god this girl could kill me
and I would die a happy man
I know the song is sappy, and
I could care less,
Cuz it just feels good to laugh again
I'm passionate
happiest on your mattress
back rubs and lap sits
lap top and netflix
what you mean my "next chick"?
yo, my DM's bout as clean
as a washing machine
you're all that I need
Just breathe
I'm tryna take it easy
but girl you got me shooken up
and I know that you see me
shaky sweaty nervous mess
you say I got the perfect chest
and lay there till it hurts your neck 
or till you gotta work and then
its all cold and empty
they way I'm acting cool, 
I should win an emmy
I've fallen deeper than
I ever knew I'd be
but you and me
is perfection, to a T
______________
and I don't wanna you push away
but god I gotta let you know
no matter how long it takes
I'm never gonna let you go
__________

To A "T"

All the things I love are gonna kill me
And I've just been alone cuz ain't nobody know the real me
I'm checking on my phone and not a single fucking message
ain't nobody texting, and I can't change its helpless


look ma, no pride inside
thanks for the help every night I cried
things that I felt have pills prescribed
but I'm still alive, you know that vibe
dark room, dark thoughts, tattoos
3 times, heart been, harpooned, 
these crimes, keep me from the noose
these lies, to me, are truth
but im free in the booth
and weed that I chief
got my ego loose
roof got a leak 
and my feet don't move
in the club
or the party
chug the bacardi
fuck you, sorry
I'm not sorry
want 10 mil, just to crash that rari
wanna be deep when I speak like ruary
everyone sleeping on me, like tardy
feeling hari kari

All the things I love are gonna kill me
And I've just been alone cuz ain't nobody know the real me
I'm checking on my phone and not a single fucking message
ain't nobody texting, and I can't change its helpless

Like Help me, can't somebody help me?
I'm Looking for a way to change like can somebody tell me
Like Help me, can't somebody help me?
I'm Looking for a way to change can anybody tell me

Well When it rains it fucking pours
and i've had seven years of storms
and heaven knows, I've been alone
but hell knows, I'm coming home
just leave a message at the tone
I'm not impressive and shows
cuz I play to twenty fans
everytime I rap at shows
Yo yo, I'm back in the flow
call me papa jon, when I'm stacking the dough
eat like ramadan when I'm stuck on a ho
and I'm ducking real low when I see popo
and I go bozo
boozing like a clown
dummy going stupid
and I'm falling to the ground
screaming real loud 
and I call it my sound
and she's calling me out

All the things I love are gonna kill me
And I've just been alone cuz ain't nobody know the real me
I'm checking on my phone and not a single fucking message
ain't nobody texting, and I can't change its helpless

Like Help me, can't somebody help me?
I'm Looking for a way to change like can somebody tell me
Like Help me, can't somebody help me?
I'm Looking for a way to change can anybody tell me
(x2)

Womp womp.

Help Me

Produced by Mixtape Seoul. Huge shout out to them for the amazing beat. 

Enjoy your summer everyone. Much more new music on the way soon <3.

Trying

Part of a 3 song EP wrapping up on 10/31. <3 Stay Tuned.

Distant

one day I'll be dead and the fears had
will all seap through a red satin coffin
and a crowd will surround, both heartbroke and proud
of the man I was, all I accomplished
and a preacher will speak
like I came every week
and I lived my life just how He wanted
but I've been taking bong rips, and losses
it cost me my conscious, I spent life exhausted, I'm honest


you wanna bet, we can settle it?
odds are stacked cuz my melanin
I'm peddling felonies readily
oh shit, tekashi gon' tell on me
kick like heihachi on-phetimines
drink Jin Kazama degenerate
from generation "see the bullshit
and tired of smelling it"
talk about integrity
find someone with better weed
wading through a randy marsh
of strangers waving candy, bars,
marijuna carts at large
so mom and dad are both alarmed
but charging to the pharmacy
couple fucking days a week
one to wake, one to sleep,
one to talk, one to bleed,
and one to make him not bleed
one to make him sane cuz he got me
one to make him sane cuz he get a take a pill cuz he got me
God do you copy?
-
Is anyone listening
shit I got a riddle then,
what sad, drunk, empty, but full fucking riddlin?
hollow like a michelon
pissed off like a precipice 
that any man can stand upon
tryna make a living
its me,
hitting the tree, 
and not like when I was 18 and friends stole my only thing to eat
more like when I hate me, and I can't get no sleep
and I'm about to go to work for the 8th day this week
I'm faded, and I'm fucked up
I hate it but I love drugs
and I ain't shit but a dumb fuck
with some followers, and some dumb luck
tolerance rising, see a crooked horizon
one day all I'll see is the back of my eyelids



one day I'll be dead and the fears had
will all seap through a red satin coffin
and a crowd will surround, both heartbroke and proud
of the man I was, all I accomplished
and a preacher will speak
like I came every week
and I lived my life just how He wanted
but I've been taking bong rips, and losses
it cost me my conscious, I spent life exhausted, I'm honest
to a fault,

Exhausted

Shouts out to operator16 for guest vocals on the hook.

second guess myself and then I just give in
what I life I've lived,
wrestle with my thoughts and try to go to bed
what a night this is
effortless to just exist and feel this way,
why must I feel this pain, every day is just a sick reminder
that I'm growing old alone, and I know I'll never find her

Ticking timer in the kitchen
ticking timebomb clinch perpscription pills 
rinse my hands of discontent and sip until I get my fill
sunny days are hazy still, 
hate the self to pay the bills
waste the life chasing things you'll never find
you're better off
just never having been at all
Wish I could just forget it all
I've forgiven every flaw
they forget to ever call
miss me with that sorry
only sorry when you see me
my satisfaction only happens
in the  form of getting even

Hey
I just wanna get away
I just wanna better place 
to call my home

Where the love don't hurt
and the drugs all free
so we're all fucked up
and they bump my beats
and the bank dont call
and the car dont break
and my hands don't shake
and the heart don't ache
where my dad don't dip
and my mom stay too
and I want that past
but it just ain't true
and I want you back
but I know its through
man the grass so green
when you feel this blue

cuz the voice in my head want me dead
Im annoyed, Im in awe, I'm avoiding the truth of at all
cuz the more that I grow, well it shows, and I know
that the reason I feel so alone is my fault
I don't ever leave
I don't even give em a reason to come
I'd rather be lonely at home drunk as fuck
wasting away, shake me awake when its done

Home

Help

Jealous

Lost

Liar

Truth

Loved

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