i dont wanna mess you up

but in a way i doo :p

lyrics:
Never been the one to just mess up
But in a way I do
Maybe I could die in a wreck
Your memories the ones I lose

Talking shit you hold onto your tongue
Throw a fit yah
Hurting in your lungs
You a misfit
Actin like you dumb
But your making music by self

I want you to mess
Me up
Make me not myself
You been actin strange
Too much
Maybe you can tell

I don’t wanna talk to much
Living in a hell
Just fucking tell
me why
I’m the one who fell

No shit ima talk to you
I got you on my mind
Just like all of yesterday
I don’t know
Why I’m walking through
All of this self made hell
Yeah it’s got the best of me

Dust in my head
Gotta clean it
Thoughts in my texts
I don’t mean it

Homesick
Scared of losing you
But I know it’s ok
I don’t need to know too much

by yourself

<3   💥🔫
prod. me
@1kidsora 
you da best

bad(feat. kid sora)

changed w/ starfall

<3 prod me
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Lyrics:
I don’t know how I’m supposed to react 
I’m told I should be cautious 
But wait could I ask for some help 
Yeah she’s cool I don’t care bout myself 
Let’s get a time and place to hang out 
Told me your fine but I care bout your health 
I feel inclined more than somebody else 
Maybe I’m trying to hard can she tell (can she tell)

Call me later I’ll have time 
You insist I call you right now I’ll be fine 
Well now I don’t choice
I just wanna hear your voice
 So I’ll take a little break from getting wasted 
I’ve been getting motion sick all day 
But you keepin me in track while I’m away 
You always live in my head 
Tell me what’s coming next 
Gotta show you the best 
Gotta show you the best

I’m so sick and tired of just waiting at home
Acting like I’m stupid cures my boredom alone 
Yeah you wouldn’t even know 
Texting like I couldn’t help myself to get to know you more 
Sorry if I came off toxic 
I didn’t mean to make you nauseous 
I’m new to this so I’ll be cautious 
How am I supposed to act when your flawless 
Friends they always down but 
who says that would last forever 
I saw you staring at the sky It’s totally your aesthetic 
I told you 
That we could be something different 
As long as we act deliberate 
I’ll get a rack from a listen 
Yeah it’s cold but I’ll wake to a Start no (wait) 
Got me torn I can’t tell the time apart no (ha) 
I’ve been glued to this stress
Yeah my mood it’s a mess 
But I know that you will tell me the truth

(Chorus)

Gotta show you the best 
Way to spend the night we just chilling instead 
Remember all these nights when we were texting 
Yeah I feel like we could do again yeah 
I tried to warn you there’s a lot of perception 
Around my thoughts and motivation 
Ima give you attention you need 
Tried to tell me it’s alright 
That means something to me 
I can’t help looking at you smiling

(Chorus)

oof!

flawless

this one got me in my feels 
@nxrthstarr 
prod me <3

lyrics:
I don’t know 
I don’t know
Why it hurts to talk to you 
Hey please come over 
Don’t go home 
Guess I should go ahead and tell you the truth 
I didn’t mean it
I couldn’t see that 
You are all I ever had 
I shoulda known 
Woah 
I shoulda known 

You call me enough but 
I just got doubt in my blood 
Validation just a crutch 
But you still helping me 
Maybe you coughing it up (woah)
That’s why I’m fallin i love (woah)
Now you just callin my bluff 
Now you just callin my bluff yeah
Broke in two perfect pieces 
You weren’t the reason (you were not)
And I really need you stay 
But don’t trust me 
Oh oh oh yeah 
How to love

Every time you walk away girl I hate it
I’m trapped in my mind and I don’t know how to say this
Oh
I'm in love
Love, love, love, love 
I can’t function
I know you wouldn’t care if I died
Love, love, love, love 
Trust
I can’t even cry
(fuck it)
Hey how you doin it’s me, drove by you street
Know you won’t talk to me
Member how we used to chill out on the beach listening to to rnb
I could hardly breathe
I should prolly leave
(I could hardly breathe)
(I should prolly leave)
I been stuck in my head
Baby this can’t be the end
I'm pushing away all of my friends
I can’t seem to see through your lens
And why we keep playing pretend
Yeah baby this can’t be the end

I don’t know 
I don’t know
Why it hurts to talk to you 
Hey please come over 
Don’t go home 
Guess I should go ahead and tell you the truth 
I didn’t mean it
I couldn’t see that 
You are all I ever had 
I shoulda known 
Woah 
I shoulda known

moo :D

idk w/ nxrthstar

@starfall 
prod. @prodbyjoshwa & me
<3

lyrics:
I tried to run
But I still can’t catch my breathe now
I told em fuck it
I guess I'm at the end now 
Should of done better
I should write her a letter 
Too late, I guess I’ll never again
Got me tied up
I’m struggling to tell ya
That’s it’s too much 
Like the drinks that we do 
Gotta adjust to the way that I’m living
Cus there’s no way I’ll be missing you
Cus

All we do is talk on the daily 
Talk on the daily 
She gon make me talk while we’re waiting
Falling I’m chasing 
Couldn't be enough 
So I gotta put my pieces back together for you
Baby yeah you cause me to panic
I’m going manic 
Tryna fall in love ain’t romantic
Still got bad habits
Think I showed much for a taste here
So ima tell you the truth
I thought I did it for you

You crossed boundaries 
A new surrounding 
It felt surreal
Glad you're not around me
I tried to tell you that it's over now 
But you never listen, no you don't
(don't don't don't)
It's a shame that I'm trying to change you
Girl I tried to replace you
I can't deny that I hate you
It's a shame that I'm trying to blame you
I don't know why I would date you
I'm still trying to-
(fuck)
I don't know if I can tell you it's okay (starfall)
Making trouble it will never feel the same (joon)
I'm steady trying to fix myself for you (starfall)
Already went through the darkest hell for you (joon)
But it don't ever seem to change the fact (starfall)
That you lied (joon)
And it will never seem to change the fact
That I tried (starfall)

All we do is talk on the daily 
Talk on the daily 
She gon make me talk while we’re waiting
Falling I’m chasing 
Couldn't be enough 
So I gotta put my pieces back together for you
Baby yeah you cause me to panic
I’m going manic 
Tryna fall in love ain’t romantic
Still got bad habits
Think I showed much for a taste here
So ima tell you the truth
I thought I did it for you

talk! w/ starfall (joshwa)

w/ @dead4cf

prod. me :)

Leave without a trace so I wonder 
Why can’t I keep her longer for the night and 
Why can’t I be a person not a monster 
I can’t lie all this thinking got me tired 
When I’m by myself you should really come through but
Given myself credit got some courage for you 
Yeah I can’t get enough of the things you do 

Feels like I’ve been drowning without ya
Wait too long and I’m falling for your sound yeah
Been far gone but you teach me how to love I
Just can’t stand it 
This a small world we’ve been goin over
Met a couple times 
Saw a couple clovers
But I’m stuck with you
And there’s nothing I can do 

(1, 2, 3)

Got a tune, so I’m hoppin a track yeah 
Fuck the rules 
I don’t care unless we have to 
Yeah it’s cool when I’m putting on an act but 
I got some bad news
Can’t read signals like a map yeah  
(Fuck it)
We in touch but I’m losing it so fast
Drippin blood cus this pressure made me snap
Outta luck but I’m fine
Why it hurting all over 

(I just don’t understand)

I’ll be fine but it feels like I’m just getting old
When we talking it feels like I’m in this vertigo 
I could die and I wouldn’t even notice 
Bitch I’m losing focus
Thinking of just holding you
Yeah I don’t what I would really do 
All this loving got me so confused
All this loving got me seasick
Let me get a breather
I just wanna see you 

Talk the way you do to me
I’ll be fine with you here
Only giving love and all this ecstasy
I’ve been dying to feel 
Maybe I’m crazy and still losing conscious 
What If I said this was all just some nonsense I made up
I would say I didn’t mean it
But I couldn’t guarantee it

I remember talking all this out at the corner to your house 
All the words that you’d say
You don’t know no love and got some doubts
Thinking we could work it out 
But it’s fine bae
You don’t wanna fight that 
I keep fucking up guess the consequences bite back 
You keep showing love and my jealousy don’t  like that 
You know me so well
Breaking my composure you bringing new hell, why you do that?

I tried being positive 
You taking all my peace of mind 
You taking all my oxygen 
Take it one day at a time no extra 
I can’t do that no 
I don’t want hurt anymore 
I take it personal cause I’m fed up 

If you don’t want no love 
Then I don’t gotta follow you through it 
Yeah you tore me apart and now you tryna call like I’m stupid 
Wanted war from the start
Must be some miscommunication that shit worse for my heart 
That shit dont work for my heart 

Cause I just 
Miss the way that you talked to me 
Got me in my head
You saying words you don’t mean

(I know too much)

All for nothing 
I’ve been really trapped in my head with assumptions 
I can’t seem to get any rest 
I feel nothing real 
I feel something here 
And I can tell you the truth
And I just really wanna hold onto you 
And all this bullshit got me just so confused 
All this loving got me seasick
Let me get a breather
I just wanna see you 

Talk the way you do to me
I’ll be fine with you here
Only giving love and all this ecstasy
I’ve been dying to feel 
Maybe I’m crazy and still losing conscious 
What If I said this was all just some nonsense I made up
I would say I didn’t mean it
But I couldn’t guarantee it

stuck with you w/ 4cf

prod joshwa and will rhead love you both <3

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https://www.instagram.com/prodbyjoshwa/
will rhead:
https://www.instagram.com/will_rhead/

lyrics:
I don’t know how I can keep a straight face
Don’t hold onto things I’d always say that we’d do
I’m getting tired of you 
But not the way that you move 
I guess I’m trying to prove it 

I burn through all my time 
And I can’t take it 
Hurt you but I really wanna break your fall 
Curfews but we always gonna fake it
I just wanna talk to you now 

You and me
Feels like I’ll never let you go 
I don’t understand who i'd be cus 
I’ll be too emotional yeah
Not approachable 

I hope that when we always talk you’ll remember me
I hope I’m staying in your thoughts
Just a memory 
Yeah I care whether or not you a remedy
Honestly I’m never getting caught up
Never gonna talk like we just used to do 
Acting like it’s alright
But I’ve been a fool
Love it when we touching
Always comes in two 
Baby yeah it’s alright here
Yeah it’s all right here yeah
 
Bold assumption
I’ve been tryna fuck with a vision 
Had enough of 
All this stupid shit I’ve been living 
What you do that for 
What you do that for 
Yeah
Out of touch 
But I don’t really mind

All this working got me tied up
Calling me a liar
Maybe there’s just something to prove
Said there’s something we desire
But there’s no providers
What you gonna do about it
When you mood watching 
Been a sucker for you

Don’t lie I been actin the same
Treating me so differently 
Don’t know my own name no more
What a shame i'm sure
Oh you
Oh you

You and me
Feels like I’ll never let you go 
I don’t understand who i'd be cus 
I’ll be too emotional yeah
Not approachable 

I hope that when we always talk you’ll remember me
I hope I’m staying in your thoughts
Just a memory 
Yeah I care whether or not you a remedy
Honestly I’m never getting caught up
Never gonna talk like we just used to do 
Acting like it’s alright
But I’ve been a fool
Love it when we touching
Always comes in two 
Baby yeah it’s alright here
Yeah it’s all right here yeah

remedy (joshwa + will rhead)

<3
prod joshwa and me

https://www.instagram.com/prodbyjoshwa/
https://www.instagram.com/joon.prod/

I've been up to nothing but waiting
It's been hard to sleep with the truth
I turn up but I can't ever face it
Gotta maybe start with you
Gotta choose
How to talk the way I did but I don't
Love the way I miss that stupid taste
Woah

I tried to warn myself to never never go alone
But late night sunrise keep me out the home tonight
Yeah they keep me out the home tonight again
1, 2, 3, 4

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

She's so fine but I can't ever tell her
Ima scroll through one more time
She could be mine but I just never let her
But she knows that I've been dying to let her know it
But I'll be fine act like I never knew or cared at all
Loving's so hard when you can't ever talk about it

I tried to warn myself to never never go alone
But late night sunrise keep me out the home tonight
Yeah they keep me out the home tonight again
1, 2, 3, 4

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

Your tongue can't lie I've been falling
Don't even cry cause
I'm not gonna walk away or talk away the moment
Love it when you always get the notion
Your tongue can't lie I've been falling
Don't even cry cause
I don't wanna walk away or talk away the moment
Love it when you talk the way you do

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

Shoutout Allison for the photo creds :D

last night

@starfall
prod. @prodbyjoshwa 
yall both so amazing

We were never on the same page
I liked you but it's too late
One day you'll be into me
and the next you'll be so twofaced
Where could we take this I don't know
There's too much inside my mind I think I'd rather be a ghost right now

Your lips
Your touch
No I can't give it up
Because I miss your love
No I can't get enough
Oh you're stuck inside my mind
Even after all your lies
But tonight

You can call me stupid
Maybe I'm just clueless
Maybe I don't know how I've been using my time
But I just can't help it
I've been too damn selfish
So I'm coming back so we can give it a try

I don't know how I'm keeping on a leash cause
I'm too occupied with me but
You've been on my eye all week again
You know
That I'm so tired of just being friends
You know that
Maybe you should know
I'm getting tired of the way that you've been treating me so wrong
Keep on trying just to get out my head
Woah
I've been dying just to know how you've been keeping me along
But I'm smiling with the way you move my breath

Your lips
Your touch
No I can't give it up
Because I miss your love
No I can't get enough
Oh you're stuck inside my mind
Even after all your lies
But tonight

You can call me stupid
Maybe I'm just clueless
Maybe I don't know how I've been using my time
But I just can't help it
I've been too damn selfish
So I'm coming back so we can give it a try

You can call me stupid
Maybe I'm just clueless
Maybe I don't know how I've been using my time
But I just can't help it
I've been too damn selfish
So I'm coming back so we can give it a try

hypocritical with starfall (joshwa!)

With @ihatebixby
Prod Joon, @aidanhan, and @prodbyjoshwa
Mastered by @yoshi (Christian Blair <3) 

Socials:
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https://www.instagram.com/prodbyjoshwa/
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I think I died again
So we could stay as friends, yeah
I think it all depends
On the truth
I know your friends just hate me 
They acting kind of crazy 
They always laugh and gate-keep
But it’s cool 

People, they always quick to judge
We know, I’m never leaving ya
Bedroom is a haven
We put on our favorite song
Details, the ones I'll never know
She sells the things I’m letting go
But, way to push my luck 
I've been alive when you talk like you do

I could cry
Every time I’m asking why 
You’ve been always by my side
Again, again
Too in love to be just friends 'cause
I won’t lie
You’ve been always on my mind
You’ve been always by my side
Again, again
Too in love to be just friends 'cause 

Your hearts grown weak
Enough to keep me your dirty little secret
When you last saw me, baby I couldn't speak
Oh, you'd never really mean that
(1, 2, 3, 4)
Oh, when you're far from me
It becomes so easy to figure it out
So, fine
I know your waiting for-
I don't wanna fall
Oh baby you're the one for me

I could cry
Every time I’m asking why 
You’ve been always by my side
Again, again
Too in love to be just friends 'cause
I won’t lie
You’ve been always on my mind
You’ve been always by my side
Again, again
Too in love to be just friends 'cause 

(Yeah my hearts got weak I know)
(Saying I should let things go)
(But my time)
(Got me crying)

I could cry
Every time I’m asking why 
You’ve been always by my side
Again, again
Too in love to be just friends 'cause
I won’t lie
You’ve been always on my mind
You’ve been always by my side
Again, again
Too in love to be just friends 'cause

Thank you to everyone involved this song wouldn't have been possible without you all!

by my side (feat. bixby)

Prod me and @prodbyjoshwa
:)

Verse 1:
Some don’t require affection
But you pull at my heart every time
And you know I’ve been lost in direction
So then why do I keep it alive
Said you'd rather just wait 'till the summer
All to see if you'll leave me to dry
What you waiting for? (Baby)
Oh the way you’re torn (Maybe)
You got lots to choose

Chorus:
What about me?
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for free
You watch me hold to my tongue every night
The stars don’t align
But I’m okay that it’s me

Verse 2:
Texting don’t help the complexion
I would rather you speak all the words
Tell me why I always change my mood for perfection
So alone is what I prefer
Yeah you know
How I breath
Still you’d rather fall in love with someone else than me
What you waiting for? (Baby)
Oh the way you’re torn (Maybe)
You got lots to choose

Chorus:
What about me?
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for free
You watch me hold to my tongue every night
The stars don’t align
But I’m okay that it’s me
What about me?
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for free
You watch me hold to my tongue every night
The stars don’t align
But I’m okay that it’s me

waiting for free

prod. joon & Noah Koslen

Verse 1:
I've been waiting for a lover that could tell me
What I'm really thinking of drinking of,
'till my feelings spill
(you don't waste time)
I've been contemplating everything she sells me
But sometimes it's too good to be true
But you know sometimes I just can't help it

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

(One, two, three, four)

Verse 2:
Having but I'd still rather see you (see you)
But, got people in my rearview (rearview)
Yeah I don't care what they're thinking
Hope you want to walk by me
We won't care who sees
You're just all I need 
You're just all I'm needing baby 'cause I

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why (yeah)
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly

I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

company

prod me

Verse 1:
I’ve been a mess
I’ve been distressed
Can’t say I’d do with somebody else
Kiss on the neck
Fake to impress
I’ve been just trying to let it go

Too much commotion
Fighting and floating
Maybe I’m too far gone
But you
Stuck with emotion
I hope you know what I’ve been saying

Pre:
Cause there’s way too much to us
But maybe I got it all so wrong
And did I do too much I want to know

Chorus:
Would I still regret it
Picking up my phone
Talking's just so difficult
I’m cynical but
You wouldn’t ever get it
I’ve been on my own
This love ain’t so typical
It’s criminal baby

Verse 2:
All this love language gonna tick me off
Maybe I’d get it when you piss me off baby
Why tell me all the time we’ve spent is dead
I guess it’s just petty when you talk about our problems
Never getting really frustrated you surprise me
I just wanna talk about our conscious
But I guess you just won't let it go

Pre:
I said there’s way too much to us
But maybe I got it all so wrong
And did I do too much I want to know

Chorus:
Would I still regret it
Picking up my phone
Talking's just so difficult
I’m cynical but
You wouldn’t ever get it
I’ve been on my own
This love ain’t so typical
It’s criminal baby

cynical

prod joon & joshwa

Would you call me 
If I’m wearing something else 
Should’ve saw me
While I’m tearing perfect jeans I got
But the summers not around 

So I’ll drive you 
And I’ll try to
Keep my body moving
Hope I’m not boring 
Priceless entertainment
Keeps me from snoring tonight 
I hope you're sleeping well
But

I could run away
Maybe laugh alone
But I’d find a way to call my bluff
Could’ve sworn my name 
That you’d love me so 
But all the time couldn’t keep me up 
Touch my fingertips to water 
I guess you’d let me drown in your hands 
And so far you did all that
Just take it back

I’ve been drinking but couldn’t swallow
Got no reason
But I’m terrified of your words that got no meaning
Should I unfollow 
But then you tell me that would hurt
And I’m watching tears go down 
Your face and I
Proclaim that I 
Got nothing to do 
Oh I
Could say that I’m 
Complacent
But I got nothing to lose

I could run away
Maybe laugh alone
But I’d find a way to call my bluff
Could’ve sworn my name 
That you’d love me so 
But all the time couldn’t keep me up 
Touch my fingertips to water 
I guess you’d let me drown in your hands 
And so far you did all that
Just take it back

*epic solo*

I just love it
When I’m drowning 
In our convos
And our plans

And so far you did all that
Just take it back

Touch my fingertips to water 
I guess you’d let me drown in your hands 
And so far you did all that
Just take it back
Just take it back
Just take it back
Just take it back

take it back

west coast

falling for you

seasons

prod joon x joshwa x darren

Stay a little longer so I’ll let you know if we could’ve been
Oh I’ve been starting trouble but it’s nervousness that I couldn’t feel
Oh gonna blur my lines
Little hopelessness
Could’ve felt just fine
But a girl could kiss
I guess it’s funny when I’m talking to you everything feels like a sin

yeah we could dine out
were wasting money like it’s mine now
I think it’s funny when we try our best
and get so invested
love could never make me a fool but
it’s the trust that I give
all the lust that I live for every night
oh I can’t act divine
I don't want to fall behind

Stay a little longer so I’ll let you know if we could’ve been
Oh I’ve been starting trouble but it’s nervousness that I couldn’t feel
Oh gonna blur my lines
Little hopelessness
Could’ve felt just fine
But a girl could kiss
I guess it’s funny when I’m talking to you everything feels like a sin

oh things would never feel like
fiction if we read between the lines
well it might’ve
helped to
keep some peace of mind

Stay a little longer so I’ll let you know if we could’ve been
(won't you stay a little longer)
Oh I’ve been starting trouble but it’s nervousness that I couldn’t feel
Oh gonna blur my lines
Little hopelessness
Could’ve felt just fine
But a girl could kiss
I guess it’s funny when I’m talking to you everything feels like a sin

Feels like a sin
What did you do to me, oh baby
Won't you stay with me?
Oh baby no
Oh baby I can't see
Is it gonna work out
Is it gonna work out
Tell me please

nervousness

prod @bhertuy
wont you tell me
that im pulling away cause
I wont waste my time
but im pulling away cause i found

someone just like you
what you want from me
tell me baby what you saw in me yeah
what you want from me

never wanted to tell you
that i never wanna talk about it (talk)
I've been trying to let go
but these feelings yeah i walk around it
guess i could cry over nothing sentimental
i couldn't lie when you took it all
i could've died with some ego and a metal
i guess i tried

to keep inside my mind
what you want from me
tell me baby what you saw in me yeah
what you want from me
someone just like you
what you want from me
tell me baby what you saw in me yeah
what you want from me

just like you (prod. bhertuy)

prod me + additional string prod from joshwa my goat

you could say you’re sorry 
or ill just make it up
with you on my body 
could I feel it all
I don’t
I don’t
I don’t
I don’t why-y
I’ll proceed with caution
That’s the line I draw
but you’re on my body
and I feel it all
I don’t
I don’t
I don’t
I don’t why-y

So you’ll picture my face and
Touch up on somebody that I never knew
Liked you
Giving me just a taste of
Something you might do

Tell me does it matter
To bring myself along
Now I brought myself to pieces but
I couldn't ever 
Tell you its a waste of time
You should've gone and made your mind up

So youll picture my face and
Touch up on somebody that I never knew
Liked you
Giving me just a taste of
Something you might do

Is there someone you know
Is there someone you know
Is there something you know

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