aaaaa this is SO GOOD and SO FUN to sing to

credits to Joji for the instrumental. 
original song - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bv-1BnoB75k
ukulele and mixing done by me.

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lyrics -
there's two of us in this room and nobody can hear us,
i'm wondering maybe, would you be my first
i'm trying too hard to make sure i don't mess up,
i'm falling apart and i can't keep my head up.

speechless.
before i fell in love with you girl,
i never had any weakness.
completeness.
a a a a

i just can't believe you wouldn't try,
after everything i've sacrificed,
for you to catch my fall,
for you to give your all.

speechless.

it's something about the way you move,
it's something about the things you do,
no i don't have anything to lose,
and everything i did, i did it for you.
x2

[ @nclkyr's part ]
ohh
everything i did
was just for u
and all i wanted to is
all i ever did is to

walk alone the streets tonight
just to make u hold me tight
and i cant stop it
i cant stop it

speechless w/ kyra

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Lyrics:
I don’t know how I’m supposed to react 
I’m told I should be cautious 
But wait could I ask for some help 
Yeah she’s cool I don’t care bout myself 
Let’s get a time and place to hang out 
Told me your fine but I care bout your health 
I feel inclined more than somebody else 
Maybe I’m trying to hard can she tell (can she tell)

Call me later I’ll have time 
You insist I call you right now I’ll be fine 
Well now I don’t choice
I just wanna hear your voice
 So I’ll take a little break from getting wasted 
I’ve been getting motion sick all day 
But you keepin me in track while I’m away 
You always live in my head 
Tell me what’s coming next 
Gotta show you the best 
Gotta show you the best

I’m so sick and tired of just waiting at home
Acting like I’m stupid cures my boredom alone 
Yeah you wouldn’t even know 
Texting like I couldn’t help myself to get to know you more 
Sorry if I came off toxic 
I didn’t mean to make you nauseous 
I’m new to this so I’ll be cautious 
How am I supposed to act when your flawless 
Friends they always down but 
who says that would last forever 
I saw you staring at the sky It’s totally your aesthetic 
I told you 
That we could be something different 
As long as we act deliberate 
I’ll get a rack from a listen 
Yeah it’s cold but I’ll wake to a Start no (wait) 
Got me torn I can’t tell the time apart no (ha) 
I’ve been glued to this stress
Yeah my mood it’s a mess 
But I know that you will tell me the truth

(Chorus)

Gotta show you the best 
Way to spend the night we just chilling instead 
Remember all these nights when we were texting 
Yeah I feel like we could do again yeah 
I tried to warn you there’s a lot of perception 
Around my thoughts and motivation 
Ima give you attention you need 
Tried to tell me it’s alright 
That means something to me 
I can’t help looking at you smiling

(Chorus)

oof!

flawless

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Why do leaves fall
After I pick em up
After Hours with sunsets can't get enough
You pushed me off of the swings think I fell in love
But it only ever started cuz of alcohol
I think you never wanna see me again
Just sucks cuz I know we will never be friends
They´d always tell me i'm too deep in love 
Think I believe em cuz im missing sumn
December always got me thinking that I need you
I always swipe up on your story like I have to
I think im falling 
Do you think you could stop it 
Wow wow wow
It kinda sucks that I think we could never be
Cuz if not than you'd be to  perfect me
I can't imagine how you felt but i'm not sorry
I sorta feel the same but dont say that's beyond me
I can't talk
About you I won't bring that up
I feel like I can't love you
But it's sumn I want to

It’s like feeling i can’t get out
It’s like a feeling i can’t get out inside
You and i
i
You moved out of state
There’s no need to run away
I’m thinking it’s better on my own
I’m tryna find my way out of the darkness
Imma be an artist
Imma do it on my own
 
Tell me what's it's like
Does it feel right?
How to feel alive
in the daylight
I don't wanna try
It wasn't too late for us
In my head but it's too late
I see through your lies
Facing back i tried, I can't let go
How could I survive
Falling
I can't stop

I think you never wanna see me again
Just sucks cuz I know we will never be friends
They´d always tell me i'm too deep in love 
Think I believe em cuz im missing sumn
December always got me thinking that I need you
I always swipe up on your story like I have to
I think im falling 
Do you think you could stop it 
Wow wow wow
It kinda sucks that I think we could never be
Cuz if not than you'd be to  perfect me
I can't imagine how you felt but i'm not sorry
I sorta feel the same but dont say that's beyond me
I can't talk
About you I won't bring that up
I feels like I can't love you
But it's sumn I want to

Deep In Love w/ Kaido & Bixby (Joshwa &  Rosesleeves)

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I've been up to nothing but waiting
It's been hard to sleep with the truth
I turn up but I can't ever face it
Gotta maybe start with you
Gotta choose
How to talk the way I did but I don't
Love the way I miss that stupid taste
Woah

I tried to warn myself to never never go alone
But late night sunrise keep me out the home tonight
Yeah they keep me out the home tonight again
1, 2, 3, 4

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

She's so fine but I can't ever tell her
Ima scroll through one more time
She could be mine but I just never let her
But she knows that I've been dying to let her know it
But I'll be fine act like I never knew or cared at all
Loving's so hard when you can't ever talk about it

I tried to warn myself to never never go alone
But late night sunrise keep me out the home tonight
Yeah they keep me out the home tonight again
1, 2, 3, 4

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

Your tongue can't lie I've been falling
Don't even cry cause
I'm not gonna walk away or talk away the moment
Love it when you always get the notion
Your tongue can't lie I've been falling
Don't even cry cause
I don't wanna walk away or talk away the moment
Love it when you talk the way you do

Last night turned into a movie
She got me lost what to think about
Now I'm stuck in pretend again
Till summer ends
I just can't shake it off
But you still wanna talk
Let's run away at night before you're wasted
Wont try to keep you missing once again

Shoutout Allison for the photo creds :D

last night

prod pieper beats

girl wats going on with u
textin me all damn time oh time like what's going on with u
damn
girl i could see it thru
said that u want me too
but lately it's driving me crazy ik like let me get comfortable damn
like y
is he on ur mind
went thru all the msgs why dont you say you're mine
fuck, u know it too
don't ask to be with me if you don't wanna see that thru

said u wanna try get a little bit closer
oh look me in my eyes when u say tht it's over ik u want it bad
i can't give u any closure
i know i'm on your mind when you feel like a loner yk i got your back

time flies man i missed all day
limelight when i see your face and i
knew it was another game
too cute to be in my way like why
did u need to waste my time
dead
what needed to be said
you said you'd leave
im over it all over and again,
no you said you'd find me
no you dragged me back
but ik, ya i knowowowo

closure

Talk To Me

(1, 2, 3)

Give me space
Cause' no, I can't ignore the way you play
I wish I could just change the things you say
I didn't wanna chase you away
So stay, I need a break

You the type to talk a lot
(Oh way too much)
And I just need to say
You just want the finer things
Talkin' big about a diamond ring
Need closure for all the pain
Feels solo, novocaine
Talk strange like who's to blame?
Cause' you've been M.I.A

Give me you
Give me space
Cause' I can't lie I need you bad
You're M.I.A., in L.A
Tryna party it away
You drink it in, uninvited
Til' you can't feel just one damn thing
And I can't lie, goodbye

Give me you
Give me space
Cause' I can't lie I need you bad
You're M.I.A., in L.A
Tryna party it away
You drink it in, uninvited
Til' you can't feel just one damn thing
And I can't lie, goodbye

Babe are you free?
Talkin' to the mirror tell you what I see
Need company
Got one eye open following blindly
So lost in the city of angels
Slow dancing til' I see all the angles
I can't see you no more
Too many times now I'm out the door

Give me you
Give me space
Cause' I can't lie I need you bad
You're M.I.A., in L.A
Tryna party it away
You drink it in, uninvited
Til' you can't feel just one damn thing
And I can't lie, goodbye

m.i.a.?

From The Start

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Verse 1:
Some don’t require affection
But you pull at my heart every time
And you know I’ve been lost in direction
So then why do I keep it alive
Said you'd rather just wait 'till the summer
All to see if you'll leave me to dry
What you waiting for? (Baby)
Oh the way you’re torn (Maybe)
You got lots to choose

Chorus:
What about me?
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for free
You watch me hold to my tongue every night
The stars don’t align
But I’m okay that it’s me

Verse 2:
Texting don’t help the complexion
I would rather you speak all the words
Tell me why I always change my mood for perfection
So alone is what I prefer
Yeah you know
How I breath
Still you’d rather fall in love with someone else than me
What you waiting for? (Baby)
Oh the way you’re torn (Maybe)
You got lots to choose

Chorus:
What about me?
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for free
You watch me hold to my tongue every night
The stars don’t align
But I’m okay that it’s me
What about me?
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for free
You watch me hold to my tongue every night
The stars don’t align
But I’m okay that it’s me

waiting for free

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Verse 1:
I’ve been a mess
I’ve been distressed
Can’t say I’d do with somebody else
Kiss on the neck
Fake to impress
I’ve been just trying to let it go

Too much commotion
Fighting and floating
Maybe I’m too far gone
But you
Stuck with emotion
I hope you know what I’ve been saying

Pre:
Cause there’s way too much to us
But maybe I got it all so wrong
And did I do too much I want to know

Chorus:
Would I still regret it
Picking up my phone
Talking's just so difficult
I’m cynical but
You wouldn’t ever get it
I’ve been on my own
This love ain’t so typical
It’s criminal baby

Verse 2:
All this love language gonna tick me off
Maybe I’d get it when you piss me off baby
Why tell me all the time we’ve spent is dead
I guess it’s just petty when you talk about our problems
Never getting really frustrated you surprise me
I just wanna talk about our conscious
But I guess you just won't let it go

Pre:
I said there’s way too much to us
But maybe I got it all so wrong
And did I do too much I want to know

Chorus:
Would I still regret it
Picking up my phone
Talking's just so difficult
I’m cynical but
You wouldn’t ever get it
I’ve been on my own
This love ain’t so typical
It’s criminal baby

cynical

“After the Blur” is a soul-deep journey through emotional clarity, crafted by Kaelion with haunting precision and poetic restraint. Across 20 tracks, the album explores what remains after the chaos fades — the quiet truths, the unsent signals, the soft armor we wear to survive love.

Each song is a vignette: cinematic, intimate, and structured like a memory. From the ambient ache of “Poignant Flow” to the sensual defiance of “Spicy Hot Ballads,” Kaelion builds a sonic archive that feels lived-in and timeless. The production is minimalist but textured — ambient pads, lo-fi percussion, soft piano, and vocals that glide between confession and control.

Themes of emotional interference, quiet resilience, and late-night vulnerability run throughout. The album doesn’t chase resolution — it honors the blur, the bloom, and the breath that follows.

waiting for free

Joon

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