clean songs

prod. @ohhellonokia

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

This time i wanna do this right
This time, i don’t wanna fight
This time, i won’t say goodbye
This time, ill be alright,

I never wanted it to end up this way
so i gotta go ahead and take a detour
but i didn’t expect for it to stay
so im staying all alone like i am eeyore

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time

this time w/ nokia2k

feat https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves

Looking at the sunset
Are you feeling upset?
I hope you won't forget
Hope you won't ignore this
Hanging on the door hinge
Hoping you will let me in
I need all your oxygen
I can't breathe without it
Do you really like me?
I know you wouldn't doubt it
Am I your guy? I might be
Let's prove it with an outing
Will you ever find me?
I'm in the water drowning
Of tears from the past tense
Hoping I won't go again

My eyes feel like blurry lens
Should I just put down my pen
Looking at the message that you sent
Wonder if I should've went, feelings that I should've kept
Cuz I can't make decisions I always make predictions
I do it thru a diction, is this just addiction?
I am on a mission hoping that one day you'll come back and listen
Your eyes will always shine and glisten
Always in my dreams, they're most innocent but evil
Craziest I've ever seen, that you'd think I'm off a bean
I wish you know what you mean you mean everything to me

Looking at the sunset
Are you feeling upset?
I hope you won't forget
Hope you won't ignore this
Hanging on the door hinge
Hoping you will let me in
I need all your oxygen
I can't breathe without it
Do you really like me?
I know you wouldn't doubt it
Am I your guy? I might be
Let's prove it with an outing
Will you ever find me?
I'm in the water drowning
Of tears from the past tense
Hoping I won't go again

Hoping I won't go to bed, hoping I will never rest
Hoping this will never end
Hoping for more, hoping more
Holding me more, hold me more
Don't stop, I promise i'll be there
You're gone, why'd you have to go away
It's almost like a tragic story
It's almost like that you don't know me

Looking at the sunset
Are you feeling upset?
I hope you won't forget
Hope you won't ignore this
Hanging on the door hinge
Hoping you will let me in
I need all your oxygen
I can't breathe without it
Do you really like me?
I know you wouldn't doubt it
Am I your guy? I might be
Let's prove it with an outing
Will you ever find me?
I'm in the water drowning
Of tears from the past tense
Hoping I won't go again

Visualizer

oxygen w/ akiradoves

afterlife
- https://linktr.ee/prod.afterlife

jolst 
- https://instagram.com/prodjolst
- https://youtube.com/c/jolst

Lyrics:
@joshiguess
I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
i swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

I called her to the dance, but she left me in a trance, she's not just a fan, want me to be her man, don't know if i can, i just might be banned, i sent her home with a stain on her pants

Falling in love, or am I aromatic, I can't ever trust, a loner or myself, I really need help, is life really worth it, the time will tell, but I don't think that I deserve this, 

my ex friends think it's urgent, that my only purpose, is to ruin their own living, they really got me tripping, cuz that's what they do, they avoid the truth rather see me in a noose, they just wanna see me blue

Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why
Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why

I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
i swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

@akiradoves
hurt me now 
hurt my emotions
give me now
give me your potion
and you're far away from me
leave me there running in the street
hurt me now 
hurt my emotions
give me now
give me your potion
leave me there right on the floor
you're gone

@cypression
when you left it took a piece of me
 i gave everything and you left me here to bleed
 i tried my hardest to make you stay 
but i guess it never mattered at the end of the day
(oooooooooooo--- woah-----)

@joshiguess : Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why

spotify

river spirits w/ akiradoves & cypression (afterlife x jolst)

Arrow through my heart, and I'm wondering where to start
I wish we could back to times we played Mario Kart
You used to know everything like you were my Nardwuar 
But the best you ever did was you contribute to my art

You were my superstar, like you're Kirby
When I was with you I had no worries
But I couldn't see, my future was blurry
Didn't know it'd end in such a hurry

Arrow through my heart, and I'm wondering where to start
I wish we could back to times we played Mario Kart
You used to know everything like you were my Nardwuar 
But the best you ever did was you contribute to my art

You made me feel slightly unworthy
But realized that she did me dirty
And all these girls they keep on flirting
Some of them are too perverted

I forgot what we about
I still be singing in my doubt
Even when I cry and pout
I'll just let myself drown
But that's okay, we'll set myself new goals

prod @jxsiebeats

mario kart (jxsie beats)

prod @jxsiebeats
featuring @hoeplessboy
I've been writing bout my feelings I've been writing bout my pain
Shoutout to jherz couldn't describe in other ways
I'm looking at my friends and I'm hoping they will stay
But they always keep on leaving i hope for another wave
They just wanna rid of me I always feel betrayed
And the only people staying are ones that want you to pay
Wish I could rid of time I spent in 2020 May
But I guess my life's a timeline the beginning of a maze

Feeling like you switched the tracks where I was going on a train
And I'm wondering if I will ever feel like I'm okay
I can be going great but I've seen better days
24/7 surrounded by these fakes
Can't ever live in peace advantage they will take
Then they doing all these shows never invite me to their space
Even though you wouldn't know if I was never in your place
But enjoy your life with people playing card defined as ace

2022 I'm hopefully on tour
but the struggle with the money has just felt like such a chore
Doing all this music is just making me want more
Is this industry for me yeah I'm not really sure

I've been writing bout my feelings I've been writing bout my pain
Shoutout to jherz couldn't describe in other ways
I'm looking at my friends and I'm hoping they will stay
But they always keep on leaving i hope for another wave
They just wanna rid of me I always feel betrayed
And the only people staying are ones that want you to pay
Wish I could rid of time I spent in 2020 May
But I guess my life's a timeline the beginning of a maze

Yeah and I don't hate you
Maybe I should date you
Yeah and I don't hate you
Maybe I should date you

ace w/ hoepless (jxsie beats)

I've had these accomplishments
Appreciate these compliments
Writing in these documents
No longer lacking confidence
Rest in piece to Oddg6d, Trent
We never met, but to my friends
You were so close and were so dear
I live this life a bit in fear

This can be over any time, I make the most of it
I really don't just on my laptop in my house and sit
Maybe I should go out even just for little bits
But it sucks when you can't even go to see more live music

Wish I felt free 
Maybe in 2023

I've had these accomplishments
Appreciate these compliments
Writing in these documents
No longer lacking confidence
Rest in piece to Oddg6d Trent
We never met, but to my friends
You were so close and were so dear
I live this life a bit in fear

Only feel alive when I'm on the stage
She fills the air with scent of sage
Me and you on the same page
But we're in a different paragraph
Different places on the map
Will you ever fill that gap
I feel like I'll just extract
More from my life and that's a fact
prod @jxsiebeats

rip (jxsie beats)

mixed/mastered by me
prod by @st1x51

Lyrics:
it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

when you hit me up it's like a bookmark
 leave you alone then i go back to restart
now you in the back of the seating chart
need to pay a toll whenever you're the one to park
you show no remorse

you're envisioning my corpse
if i'm not interested i'll cite another source
feel like i'm playing sports
always a competition
 not easy living
 this life being a musician
 cast a spell i'm a magician
i just wait on this transition

(like just worry about your own life what is mine to you?)

it's a bad sign of a bad time
it's that one kind thats in your mind
stars won't align like a retrograde
gives me this feeling that i cant ever escape

i can't hang around these people
when they acting way too evil
i'm just stuck at home 
while my friends are hanging at the regal
gonna see the view of the ocean like a seagull
i'm consuming water you're consuming what's illegal

bad sign, bad time (st1x51)

Fall away is a track made by joshiguess that he has performed a few times. Usually when performing this song to save time and prevent confusion, he takes out the pitch change at the end along with switching the speed of the song. This is also used so the static noise is transitioned to the next song. This is an example of the live version.




i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

and im shining, like a diamond, 
tears upon your eyelids, 
ima dry em off, while we stare in silence,
you like this, well i like this,
can't believe we gotta wait until the time ticks 
back to the past and back to the future, 
what is the path that i will not be a loser to them,
ahem, may i speak up please, i can only do so in song, 
so will i ever get along, with the people that i know

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

i watch the sunrise, 
out in the sunlight, 
this doesn't feel right, 
watching it all fall away,

im really nervous, 
what is this purpose, 
in my own living,
 its got me tripping,

im really nervous, 
what is this purpose, 
in my own living,
 its got me tripping,

fall away(performance ver) [lil waifu]

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domesticscars

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

I felt too lost in the moment
I'm sorry my expression never shows it
Love I gave you in the past yeah you own it
My love is buried in the ground my condolence 
I swear I thought you were perfect
But it's just another instance occurring
Another memory I made that is blurry
I still remorse and from the fact that you hurt me

And here we go our separate ways
I guess it wasn't just a waste
But I've been trapped inside this cage
I may need some help from you mage

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

Guess I had to take a life lesson
Didn't know it would make my life lessen
It's not always worth the connections
And it's not always worth second guessing 
I just got to go with my instincts
Gotta figure out whatever else is missing
But if you come back that's way too risky
You might go ahead attempt again to trick me

fever dream

music video

fever dream (domesticsoul)

Yeah I wanna go and travel
But every plan's just buried in the gravel
Wish I could tell everyone where I'm at tho
But if I did everyone would just go and tattle

And you know I'm not one to start drama
Don't want either memory to go and cause some trauma
Your girl feeling kinda freaky she gon pull up in pajamas
And every time I speak I freak out with too many commas

And I can't even reach a sentence
Cus nothing I can say to anyone is comprehensive
They just ghost me and act like that I never message
Been awake too long and you know I'm feeling restless

Everything I want to do is so verboten
And my head won't shut up it's causing all the commotion
And all the memories are pain maybe get some ibuprofen
Wish I could feel love again maybe boost some oxytocin

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Start great
Then it's heartbreak
Then I partake
In being prostrate
But I behave
And I know I'll be okay
I'm on an infinity train
But I'm waiting for fall break
So I can hear the wind and the rain
I can't sleep today

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Yeah It's all I know
Doing what I can only hope
Least my life has pericopes
Looking way too far with a periscope

And we barely spoke
Yet she wants to go call it an elope
Leave me alone (it's all I know)

verboten (tykun)

https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves
https://soundcloud.com/7hersx

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

the time I spent with you is still considered priceless
but my mind has been forming an existential crisis
words that she wrote with her ds stylus
but those memories to you are just considered sightless 

forget warmness frozen inside my heart
it's cold and i feel soulless from everything I start

i remember I had you in the picture 
but like i cut you off i grabbed my scissors
try to forget my memories when with her
no matter what I would never forgive her

just bring me down until my last breathe
step inside my castle you won't realize who you been with
so girl you can't come home there's nothing left
you're so indescisive and i do not like it

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

cus you don't even know what i been through
check my phone every night cus i miss you
and i don't wanna talk about this nonsense
i've always fell low thinking about us

I Miss You

AkiraDoves & JoshIGuess - I Miss You (Thersx)

this song is over a year old so sorry if the mix is a bit weird but so glad i could finally share this <3
https://soundcloud.com/devine-gorman-1
https://soundcloud.com/mccymusic


Love to me is scary
Because to me it varies
Can't choose who to marry
When you all are temporary
You on top like cherry
Head in my shoulder buried
Yet it's temporary
Love to me is scary

I do not know how to feel
When my head's just been going thru reels
Clips that just play through my mind
I promised you I would try (Yeah I promised)

I could never say goodbye
I'd rather start a brand new life
I wish that we could compromise
But now we only criticize
Sometimes I just wish I could be on my own
But what keeps me creating is not being alone

And I know by now past peers think of me as failure
Only know me thru my past bad behavior
Wish I could take back the love that I gave her
At least it made me look at times I should savor

I wish I could take back the love that I gave him
My heart's been abandoned my soul has been vacant for years
Shaking out here got to stay patient out here
But I know sometimes it's hard
I try to see the bigger picture but you just kept painting lies
Tried to take a better road your traffic stopped me on the side
Cautiously watching my heart skipping
And if you love me like you say you did
Then why'd you take your arms off me?

Tried to take a better road your traffic stopped me on the side
Cautiously watching my heart skipping
And if you love me like you say you did
Then why'd you take your arms off me?

Me, now I can finally see
Now I can finally leave
Now I can finally breathe, breathe
I knew you was lying to me
Sleep with admire to me
Don't try to deny it i'm tired of fighting
But why is you crying when i'm the one trying with you
With you, with you
Would you like it if I did the things that you did to me?
I'm through, i'm through, i'm through
Why the hell you coming back?
Boy it ain't no sense in that at all

Love to me is scary
Because to me it varies
Can't choose who to marry
When you all are temporary
You on top like cherry
Head in my shoulder buried
Yet it's temporary
Love to me is scary

Lovesick w/ Devine Jazz’Enay & Sha'Lena McCoy (Kira)

https://soundcloud.com/joshiguess
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic

Lyrics: 

Huh huh huh
Now I'm somewhere really far away
You're go-gone
And you left without apology

You didn't mean to say you're sorry
I tried to leave without a warning
And yeah the night sky's staying starry
Until the sunrise in the morning

And my thoughts stay within my sorrows
From all the pain that i have borrowed
I hope it gets better tomorrow 
Mind on the stage they got tomatoes
That's the motto gotta take this call tho

I just wanna cleanse myself with air
It doesn't matter whenever you're in despair
But it's not into ashes I hope that you have this under control

Why you think this game 
Why you playing hard to get
I could never imagine 
Of being with someone new
It's always hard to tell 
If you're honest or not
And can you even imagine in 
A world between us

Finding the world we lost
It's been harder to find true love
Now this mistake has grown on me
Maybe i've changed
And can you understand why
The way she's peeling on my skin
The way she held me so tight

world we lost w/ joshiguess (nevrfall)

feat https://soundcloud.com/ilyl1ght
prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodbyjoshwa
https://open.spotify.com/album/1OdvK8PePuUVnuXNXCUih8
Baby what a sight to see
All day in the sun just you and me like
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh (yeah)
My friends all tell me watch out
But I got a feeling that they're all wrong 
They all said you're bad for me
Won't you stay here adore me
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh
Baby tell me something 
I feel like i'm in love and
You know

You know
Every time no response yeah you ghost 
But you know once you loved me the most
And I wish you would hold me close

And I can't stop staring 
At these messages you sent me
It's gotten me transcending to a whole another dimension

And girl I got questions 
Are your intentions
To lead me in this direction?
Got these butterflies in my intestines 
But I guess it's just to leave impressions

And you know you got me
Without having to prove (anything)
But you staying right within my dreams

Baby what a sight to see
All day in the sun just you and me like
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh (yeah)
My friends all tell me watch out
But I got a feeling that they're all wrong
They all said you're bad for me
Won't you stay here adore me
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh oh oh
Baby tell me something
I feel like i'm in love and
You know

woahohyouknow w/ ilyl1ght (joshwa)

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

I take in the fresh air as I continue breathing
And you don't gotta worry what you do and don't believe in
Just as long as you don't battle me with your own demons
Cus it's hard for me to handle anyone close that is leaving

He's stuck with her and I just gotta accept that
And my other friends busy and I wish I could prevent that
Ghosted about a year and i'm still tryna get back on track
Without their energy i'm missing my other half

Yeah the percent is 50
Josh nowadays doesn't feel too nifty
Lost track of my mind when I had an epiphany
Yeah I'm always coming down like Santa from a chimney

I can't keep running away from this society
But it's hard to keep these feelings that are inside of me
I used to have a lot of people that were right behind me
But once they keep on moving forward they say bye bye to me

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

And yeah I may be afk
But i'll still try to be there any day
Just wish it didnt have to be this way
If only my mind could never break

Never break
I made too many mistakes
I just gotta teach myself to behave

long distance

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

Now i'm truly stuck in the middle of nowhere
And I cannot choose between my long or my short hair
Is this town vintage or modern like warfare?
They told me at least I got a room to record there
So why not take my time and go and explore there
Before the time expires and it starts to outgrow there
So let's go and try and start to make it a home there
They try to tell where I am like, it's a no share

And there's times I know i could be elsewhere
But you know I won't feel like myself there so

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

There's no escape now there's no way to transport
Unless I'm getting to the bag like i'm wearing Jansport
Or I truly use my legs, yea it's a man's sport
Catch me chilling in the back of a vans store
Of a vans store

middle of nowhere

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

i've been going through a lot of nonsense
its gotten to where i feel very cautious
what'd they do with my brain yeah they washed it,
too much numbers in my head apartment complex,
and i'm just blasting off just like a rocket,
i feel like i'm playing tag just cuz i'm just not it,
and i'm washing all these thoughts just like a faucet,
so i'm the one that made em wet, just think about it,
yuh

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

live performance <3

hugging my pillow (sleepydex)

slid in dms, i let you in, i became your medicine, i'm always the cure,
i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more i always felt a different thing,
spending time with you, i just take this time to sing, to express my feeling past and present, i worry about the future too much,
but honestly it's looking good now, couldn't feel a thing, anything but you really got me in a mood now,

gotta get through this won't complain, i'm glad about what we have today, we got a reward at stake, and we always got the goals to chase,
you know what we got to get through, in this life there is a maze, of these choices we give or take, and impress it to our amaze,

i am nervous, to serve this purpose, but it's just the way life goes now,
do i deserve this, of course it's urgent, now you know you'll never feel alone now,
i just got to take past actions with a grain of salt, 
cuz even when things were my fault, i put those things to a halt now,

and i just got to improve every day that i can, i need to prove, that i'm a man, that really cares so deeply, for his beings in his presence,
and i can be your medic, even when its hectic, i promise i won't let it,

ohhh-- ohhh--- ohhh--- ohh---

live perfomance <3

medic (kudyo)

beat by @prodby_amity 
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeb0oy4qVFel4VUnBz8dSLQ
mixed/mastered by joshiguess 
lyrics below

Come on, may I make an offer?
Dont worry doesn't cost a dollar
This chapter that I am the author
And one day I won't have to call her
She'll be right here next to me
That will be the next step to me
And you it's true, I don't count on losing you
Cuz I know you'll always stay inside my heart, yeah

I want to just keep you mine
Let's stare and let's watch the sky
There's a million reasons why
Rest my head right on your thigh
Come on you can be my mai
Baby you just look so fine
This love I just won't resign
No matter what i'll always try

Let's teach each other lessons
And continue through this adolescence
I want this to continue for eternity
And continue from what's currently, yeah

Come on, may I make an offer?
Dont worry doesn't cost a dollar
This chapter that I am the author
And one day I won't have to call her
She'll be right here next to me
That will be the next step to me
And you it's true, I don't count on losing you
Cuz I know you'll always stay inside my heart, yeah

all platforms

Subtitulado

mai (kuroha)

w / soundcloud.com/athrynb
soundcloud.com/akiradoves

Heart eyes, heart eyes when I see you
Inspirational I really wanna be you
Doors locked and I need to find the key thru
Lock into the heart that you see thru

Heart eyes, heart eyes when I see you
Inspirational I really wanna be you
Doors locked and I need to find the key thru
Lock into the heart that you see thru

You're the one, that ends the pain
You're the sunlight to my rain
We won't sit, talk and complain
But we'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day

Look around it's hard to see through
All the hardships, you have no clue
Inspirational, heart is what I come to
Take what I've said for redo

Clouded minds fill the open air
Heart eyes come but so rare
Life's hard you make it fair
Heart eyes cleanse the despair
Heart eyes, heart eyes when I see you
Inspirational I really wanna be you
Doors locked and I need to find the key thru
Locked into the heart that you see thru

All the pain, all the hate
Disappears without a trace
Heart eyes, opens our fate
To the new things for debate

You're the one, that ends the pain
You're the sunlight to my rain
We won't sit, talk and complain
But we'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day
We'll get better at the end of the day

Yeah you're the sunlight to my rain

Yeah you're the sunlight to my rain

Yeah you're the sunlight to my rain

I know that it's hard sometimes baby come and hold me tight
I've been lost, and I'm lost
Every time I start to cry you were never there at night
Why were you gone, when I was lost
Kinda wonder why you hate me
I kinda want you to love me (woah-oh-oh-oh)
Do you ever say goodbye?
I don't want this to ever end
So we'll fly like the doves yuh

You're the one, that ends the pain
You're the sunlight to my rain
We won't sit, talk and complain
But we'll get better at the end of the day

performance

heart eyes w/ athryn & akiradoves (redmosk)

oakland + sonora tix https://ffm.bio/joshiguess