oakland set 4.18

prod. https://soundcloud.com/poisonseed
I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust 
They try to get advice but i can't when i'm never in love
And i try to be what i can but be honest i dont wanna bluff

I just want someone that can't easily replace me
For someone else it's mental hell
But yet when i get what i want
It's too hard to tell what i fell into
I don't want no issues

I've been eating and sleeping lately too many times
Watching the clock tick away staying in my eyes
And I stay on the block cus it's crazy outside
But i just wish that someone would put me aside

I tried to reach out but you left me alone in the dust
I try to leave now i'd rather be on my own than distrust

distrust

distrust (trynacommunicate)

prod https://soundcloud.com/whymillyy & maestrowons

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage 

Pull up with a garage band performing on a macintosh
Been working on this shit for years you be staying slacking off
Tried to ship my energy to you but then the package lost
People around me wanna swish only if its basketball

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please


I need to live life with way less company
You ask to hang but they just wanna get buzzed with me
And i'm stuck living in a different fantasy 
Vacuum all these thoughts cus im my own manatee

I just want my peace
Give it to me please
I just want my peace
Give it to me please

It's time to wake up make up right after a break up
Yeah i'm stuck in this stupid lust, yeah i dont give a fuck
I just want to treat life like no one ever really does
But you can never do that only do it in a camouflage

manatee (whymillyy + maestrowons)

Lyrics

pain pain pain I'm just dying again
wait wait wait don't desert me again
laying down right next to you is something i just fucking need
down down down where I'm gonna belong
hell hell hell I'ma fucking die
you don't know me anymore 
and i don't give a fuck if you go

and yeah I don't give a fuck what's going on
and I never wanted to give up our bonds
and I ain't talking Barry and I ain't getting married
and life is not scary when it's temporary
but life just buries in my mind it's repairing

trust trust trust doesn't fucking exist
one last look and he fuck on your bitch
I don't know you anymore
forget about you pour a four

why doesn't this shit fucking hit?
I'm about to call it quits
put you in solar eclipse 
so I can blind memories in

pain pain pain I'm just dying again
wait wait wait don't desert me again
laying down right next to you is something i just fucking need
down down down where I'm gonna belong
hell hell hell Ima fucking die
you don't know me anymore 
and i don't give a fucking if you go

pain pain pain I'm just dying again
wait wait wait don't desert me again
laying down right next to you is something i just fucking need
down down down where I'm gonna belong
hell hell hell Ima fucking die
you don't know me anymore 
and i don't give a fucking if you go

hell w/ joshiguess (grayskies)

https://soundcloud.com/joshiguess
https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic

Lyrics: 

Huh huh huh
Now I'm somewhere really far away
You're go-gone
And you left without apology

You didn't mean to say you're sorry
I tried to leave without a warning
And yeah the night sky's staying starry
Until the sunrise in the morning

And my thoughts stay within my sorrows
From all the pain that i have borrowed
I hope it gets better tomorrow 
Mind on the stage they got tomatoes
That's the motto gotta take this call tho

I just wanna cleanse myself with air
It doesn't matter whenever you're in despair
But it's not into ashes I hope that you have this under control

Why you think this game 
Why you playing hard to get
I could never imagine 
Of being with someone new
It's always hard to tell 
If you're honest or not
And can you even imagine in 
A world between us

Finding the world we lost
It's been harder to find true love
Now this mistake has grown on me
Maybe i've changed
And can you understand why
The way she's peeling on my skin
The way she held me so tight

spotify

world we lost w/ joshiguess (nevrfall)

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

It's complicated whether or not to continue strolling thru this valley
I just confuse myself with a brainstorm cycling fast like a rally
This math don't fucking add up please excuse my dear aunt sally
It's hard to live life knowing next second could be the finale

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back


In my room and there's too many empty cups
Wondering when I will fill them up
All these memories fading, and hope to awaken and try to remember whatever's up
There's never true love in between a bitch with high standards or wanting to fuck
i feel like an alien inside of this world, and it's ran by people with infinite bluffs
There's too many problems continue ignoring hell i'm tempted for once i will roll up this blunt
But nah i'd rather sleep away, lights off and door shut hope the demons won't haunt
They saying that money don't bring happiness well how do you feel with a couple of bucks?
I'm tired of people online acting like there's only one way, with their narrative shoved

And just when you think things are fine and dandy
Your plan b turns to plan z
Cus it ends in such a random pull of possibility
Life itself is like playing your own game of the lottery
You ever feel the voice inside your head is just a form of mockery?

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

canvas (lmg x everest)

this song's for the valentines haters <3

No not again, it's fucking February
Even this earth doesn't think that it's necessary
Month cut short, with another day here and there these
People out here really think they find the one to marry

Have you ever heard a 14th anniversary?
Come to think of it I've not, I'm still searching these
People never last so I skip my turn on hurting me
Cupid shot a black heart, now it's cursing me

No one ever asked me nor I ever asked them
School life wasn't really well for me back then
The only valentine I had was listening to atlas
Awkward moments and random candy grams
And I never went to prom cus I don't give a damn
All the songs were clean how the fuck i'm supposed to dance
But when I look back it may have been my only chance
But would I really know the true meaning of romance

The true meaning of romance
I was pressured in relationships i didn't understand
That power outage at the alley should've been my sign
That someone born in February shouldn't be mine
(goodbye)
Friday the 13th at that, No Jason
But I just felt too attached
She was taking all my time but it's over now
I'm just glad I matured to know that it's just foul
But wait

No not again, another more than friends
Tried to make a month we hate into one we celebrate
And the result just made it like hella fucking worse
Cupid shot me from the back again, an even darker curse

I need a fucking refund, I need a reimburse
Cus all these bad bitches, ain't talking one with curves
Manipulate my mind until it's the end of this world
JoshIGuess in a tilt-a-whirl

I took some v cards, don't overthink it
Valentine's, yea Virginia was memein'
Commodore Clique, miss my friends at recess
We all did our own thing and we split into pieces

And I hated that year I was fighting inner demons
The whole school listened to x and peep then
So love's always been just out of the question
So fuck a valentine get it out of my mentions

No not again, it's fucking February (get me out of here)
Even this earth doesn't think that it's necessary (28 days)
Month cut short, with another day here and there these
People out here really think they find the one to marry

Have you ever heard a 14th anniversary?
Come to think of it I've not, I'm still searching these
People never last so I skip my turn on hurting me
Cupid shot a black heart, now it's cursing me

february

february (lmg x niketaz)

produced by Rodger
[mixed by @foreignhype x @spacemenstation]
this was such a struggle to mix bc of my old vocals and other audio issues but this is the best i could make it atm for a minute i would redo it but it would feel wrong knowing how much the song means to me

vanilla extract w/ whatafuckingbitch (rodger)

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