san fran set

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

we back i guess 
prod by: www.youtube.com/@QUITAllBeats

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
the more i stare it all looks bizarre
but yet i don't ever wanna say au revoir
cus going back to this city just makes shit hard

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
surrounding ourselves around stars in stars
i'm staring at the fountain at the garden park
and all my torment turn to crystal shards

maybe my bliss uplifts when i'm staying by the mountains
got more clarity and time in peace, getting used to my surroundings
but the better health, means better funds, so i might need an accountant
but for me to want to stay forever, i seem to always doubt it

cus do you want to know?
the place that i stay is barely livable
but i'm just lucky that i have a home
but to express my feelings i'm on the go

quote on quote friends only want me when they need me most
i used to think the same with outside of town
but maybe that's not what they're all about
some people bat an eye when they hear my sound
site so unreal my head in the clouds

cus who are we for real?
we don't know til the end of time
but i don't wanna set myself behind
gotta know that that's just life

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
the more i stare it all looks bizarre
but yet i don't ever wanna say au revoir
cus going back to this city just makes shit hard

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
surrounding ourselves around stars in stars
i'm staring at the fountain at garden park
and all my torment turn to crystal shards

turn to crystal shards
don't know where the fuck to park
and so i found a random spot
cus who are we for real?
we don't know til the end of time
but i don't wanna set myself behind
gotta know that that's just life

we, who? (quitall)

this song's for the valentines haters <3

No not again, it's fucking February
Even this earth doesn't think that it's necessary
Month cut short, with another day here and there these
People out here really think they find the one to marry

Have you ever heard a 14th anniversary?
Come to think of it I've not, I'm still searching these
People never last so I skip my turn on hurting me
Cupid shot a black heart, now it's cursing me

No one ever asked me nor I ever asked them
School life wasn't really well for me back then
The only valentine I had was listening to atlas
Awkward moments and random candy grams
And I never went to prom cus I don't give a damn
All the songs were clean how the fuck i'm supposed to dance
But when I look back it may have been my only chance
But would I really know the true meaning of romance

The true meaning of romance
I was pressured in relationships i didn't understand
That power outage at the alley should've been my sign
That someone born in February shouldn't be mine
(goodbye)
Friday the 13th at that, No Jason
But I just felt too attached
She was taking all my time but it's over now
I'm just glad I matured to know that it's just foul
But wait

No not again, another more than friends
Tried to make a month we hate into one we celebrate
And the result just made it like hella fucking worse
Cupid shot me from the back again, an even darker curse

I need a fucking refund, I need a reimburse
Cus all these bad bitches, ain't talking one with curves
Manipulate my mind until it's the end of this world
JoshIGuess in a tilt-a-whirl

I took some v cards, don't overthink it
Valentine's, yea Virginia was memein'
Commodore Clique, miss my friends at recess
We all did our own thing and we split into pieces

And I hated that year I was fighting inner demons
The whole school listened to x and peep then
So love's always been just out of the question
So fuck a valentine get it out of my mentions

No not again, it's fucking February (get me out of here)
Even this earth doesn't think that it's necessary (28 days)
Month cut short, with another day here and there these
People out here really think they find the one to marry

Have you ever heard a 14th anniversary?
Come to think of it I've not, I'm still searching these
People never last so I skip my turn on hurting me
Cupid shot a black heart, now it's cursing me

february

february (lmg x niketaz)

Miscommunication
Got my heart racing
I can't tell if its just the way that you're behaving
But I hope that you're the one for me i'm too impatient
Can't trust someone in another bed as a patient

Is anyone truly stable?
Or is it all a fable
Is there a controller and our life has turned to cable
She has 2 sisters that rhyme with each other like able
So I guess if it ain't work out there's others on the table
Okay tho

Let me be serious just for a little moment
My last was a liar and she wasn't too devoted
I guess that's what I get for not wanting her promoted
But it's getting too hectic to just wait on being chosen
I spend all this time on my music and emotion
Never on a stable sleep cycle, fuck a token
It's always midnight with these lyrics that I wrote in
But I debate with myself if I should even post it

Miscommunication
Got my heart racing
I can't tell if its just the way that you're behaving
But I hope that you're the one for me i'm too impatient
Can't trust someone in another bed as a patient

Is anyone truly stable?
Or is it all a fable
Is there a controller and our life has turned to cable
She has 2 sisters that rhyme with each other like able
So I guess if it ain't work out there's others on the table
Okay tho

Even a digital notebook can burn its existence
Why does everyone I fall for come at a distance
Everyone always sees me as a business

Can someone take me to an alternate dimension
Where I don't have to keep losing a best friend
Forget everything that they always mention
So let's invent it all and put it to the test then

Miscommunication
Got my heart racing
I can't tell if its just the way that you're behaving
But I hope that you're the one for me i'm too impatient
Can't trust someone in another bed as a patient

Is anyone truly stable?
Or is it all a fable
Is there a controller and our life has turned to cable
She has 2 sisters that rhyme with each other like able
So I guess if it ain't work out there's others on the table
Okay tho

miscommunication

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

They try to creep up in the comments but it doesn't mean shit
If they weren't so pressed wish it was something I could fix
But you know something you can never fix, guess what? A bitch
Cus it ain't no grudges only stay how it is

How it is? I ain't give no second chance
Got other plans, i'm not gonna interrupt it for my fans
What you ask? What you ask? Why don't you say in my dm
They be staying talking back no matter what like Talking Ben

Why do I keep waking up in my own dreams?
Break the door down in this movie please cut the scene
If it goes on lockdown just grab my keys
Now I'm in the dark void the new sentry

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

And there's a big eye watching from above like Mike
Watching my every move far from sight
Always rejected i'm not their type
But stick to my gut it don't hurt to try

scare floor

She doesn't care when I'm gone
She don't text at all
She on the gram saying i'm bored who wanna call
It doesn't even cross her mind i'm like a ghost in the hall, in the hall

I remember those days you said you loved me so
I kept staring at your eyes they were so beautiful
So how the hell we ended up is unpredictable 
Spend my life waiting for reciprocal

And I don't wanna wait too long
Distance got me weak not strong
And to them don't wanna be no flop
I'm hoping that I go up
To show them what could've been us
Spent years living in these bluffs
I'm alone with my ear muffs
One moment of attention just got me in a bubble
I never get to talk about one of my troubles
I'm starting to think this will all fade again 
I guess everything has to come to an end
And they won't say nothing unless i'm the speaker
And some of them just want the wood like a beaver
And it doesn't have to be from me
There's always another to take that seat
And I may be lonely, but I give it all that I got
I put all this luck inside of this pot
Hoping that it just strikes gold one day
Now I stay away, from this fed up trait

Don't hit me if you're not gonna hit me back
I'm just too attached
And I get detached real fast
Why do I gotta feel this way
Gotta feel this way?

reciprocal.

my final track. thank you all for the journey.

prod. crescenta
You know you know
You hurt my soul
And I don’t know if I can take this anymore
I fall to the floor I don’t wanna be ignored
But they think that i’m a- 

Person they can brush off
If you feel that way i’ll rush off
Cus i don’t got time for overthinking and shit
When you can fuck off
I’m tired of falling for these silly games
But I guess i’m always the one to blame
Meeting artists and now how they behave
Yea it’s fallen off and its so ashamed

And I be staying in my own lane
Cus i’m on my own shit anyway
I’m just tryna get thru better days
I might only stick to my next job

This may be a passion, hasn’t paid off
But I don’t wanna treat it like a lay off
Just wanna lay back be a real adult
Feel like cxltmoon I might join the cult yea

And I know this is nowhere near peak me
But this the only way you can peep me
Cus no one wanna hear me out
I don’t even know why they fucking keep me
In their fucking life
I don’t wanna come off as that weird guy
But when I need people not nearby
I just lay in my bed with a teared eye
And you know that I can’t even steer drive

You know you know
You hurt my soul
And I can’t take this anymore
I fall to the floor I don’t wanna be ignored
And I spent all day tryna call someone

Why do you like to talk to me indirectly?
I’m just tryna catch some z’s
Yea I wanna rest in peace yea
Or maybe I might want to literally yea
But you know I don’t wanna get too deep, uh

I don’t wanna put every single thought out there
But where the fuck does it belong then?
And maybe I just need to go and get fresh air
But JoshIGuess is stressed beyond this

You know you know
You hurt my soul
And I can’t take this anymore (And I don’t know if I can take this anymore)
I fall to the floor I don’t wanna be ignored

What am I to you?
I don’t got a clue
What am I to you?
I don’t got a clue
Before I go I gotta say one thing
I love you..

stressed beyond (crescenta)

prod. whymillyy & living puff sorry my mixing equipment broke probably sounds bad

She’s going thru struggles
Everyone’s just got me in a bubble
And i’m wondering if we should stay a couple
They on my downfall, they betting double

They getting drier like every week
I’m feeling higher, but not off of weed
I’m getting tired, minds on repeat
Without you, i’ll never feel complete

So look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t lie
I’m tired of getting done dirty every time
I know that i’m not like the other guys
But that grin shows you’re a demon in disguise
What am i?
Are you just tryna pry and you just wanna take my life?
Well stop being so shy

(Guys with j names are consistently the worst I think about this all the time cus every time there has been a j name guy in the room from my experience he’s been the villain)

She blocked me on her birthday
Man I couldn’t think of a worse way
My world is going thru an earthquake
Wonder why you’d ever want me in the first place

Your loss, my grief
Guess we both breathe
The same air still
Since I know that we both living in the hills

So look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t lie
I’m tired of getting done dirty every time
I know that i’m not like the other guys
But that grin shows you’re a demon in disguise
What am i?
Are you just tryna pry and you just wanna take my life?
Well stop being so shy




nebulous (whymillyy x living puff)

oakland + sonora tix https://ffm.bio/joshiguess