Sacramento 10.17

music vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMxIrKfnmo
prod tykun

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

and I just wanna leave it all in the past tense
No one used to hit my phone now it's all mass texts
They try to tell me Josh you can hook up with a bad bitch
and I'm like no she can just stick to using her lovense, fuck sex

And I got nothing to lose and I got nothing to gain
And all this boredom & cluelessness driving me insane
Feel like absolutely nothing when I'm not using my brain 
And I wanna go outside but no one hanging out today

Tired of being lonely no matter where I go
And I wanna move out then I'm like hell no
One little thing will turn me off and it's no longer a goal
I just hope that I will keep on getting stronger I suppose

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real

And all these artists around me they tryna make an image
Sorry I'm not with y'all I don't do this all for business
I respect my boundaries and push myself to the limits
After performance I celebrate with a shake, like I'm grimace

And i'm searching for the one inside a flower field 
Looking into her eyes would make a coward yield
And I don't know if this life will ever make me feel
I feel confused every day don't feel like it's real
Don't feel like it's real get me out this illusion
How could I find love in my life if i never had a cupid?
And i'm falling to cement so I intentionally get bruises
Nah I'm playing showing pain will make me look too fucking stupid

flower field (tykun)

https://youtu.be/CsHkrGFgkSI?si=zbjE0t3whXV3635k
So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs 

We were on call that day didn't know what to say
And now i contemplate on what i could've then
Would it really be worth it to be more than friends?
Or would you be like the others and it's just start to end?

And love's too complicated and confusing for my heart to be
Gotta look at my life on my watch i'm my own yard duty
Answer my life's questions at my stake like it's jeopardy
It's hard to do when i don't know my own identity

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

These roads are too unstable cus they know i'm the pedestrian 
Said she from the country i'm like shawty you equestrian?
and I'm too inexperienced to call myself a gentleman 
But i guess it's just my life and what i gotta settle with

And when i'm gone
I'll control this music scene with a baton
They try to place me in a box when I'm not
Cus i'm making different moves
And creating different tunes 
What the fuck you got to do?

So i packed up and i said see you later
She begging don't leave while i'm signing off the papers
I should've known that i couldn't escape her
She getting too close, to my heart she was my neighbor

Did i just fuck up the canon like it's spiderverse
All the memories i had and i'm wishing i could reimburse
And all these emotions are recycled into what i rehearsed
Tryna destroy the home in my heart, call it saboteurs

music video

saboteurs (tykun x mandumé)

partying like a night shift, i stay clocked in
start a moshpit, two steps, like nico im ahead
i'm fucked up in the alleyway, pitch black she giving head
if I ain't on the stage, afterparty at the crib

spooky season i got kandi in my hand and on my wrist
these bitches be plastic, like a boo bucket
shawty hit me up on insta, i dont know what love is
but we could turn up at the next function

see me shining on the strobe, paparazzi taking pics
and everyone staying lit with these fucking glow sticks
but i'm staying in the back ain't nobody notice 
these memories feel like a blur, camera out of focus

hard to go to any function, everyone knows who i am
you motherfuckers never book me so hit my instagram 
tired of this energy because it always goes to waste
and I'm lucky that there's people out here that give me a better trade

partying like a night shift, i stay clocked in
start a moshpit, two steps, like nico im ahead
i'm fucked up in the alleyway, pitch black she giving head
if I ain't on the stage, afterparty at the crib

spooky season i got kandi in my hand and on my wrist
these bitches be plastic, like a boo bucket
shawty hit me up on insta, i dont know what love is
but we could turn up at the next function

self made dj, got a pc not a console
and now i'm on my own cus this scene is fucking awful
these artists act like chickens, and these labels act like gonzo
and i stay dragging on my enemies like im hanzo
and these days it's impossible to know who fucking cares
always asking for a share but they never want to share 
well oops bitch i just shared your affair
look look look look look right there

spooky szn 🎃 (artixan)

this song's for the valentines haters <3

No not again, it's fucking February
Even this earth doesn't think that it's necessary
Month cut short, with another day here and there these
People out here really think they find the one to marry

Have you ever heard a 14th anniversary?
Come to think of it I've not, I'm still searching these
People never last so I skip my turn on hurting me
Cupid shot a black heart, now it's cursing me

No one ever asked me nor I ever asked them
School life wasn't really well for me back then
The only valentine I had was listening to atlas
Awkward moments and random candy grams
And I never went to prom cus I don't give a damn
All the songs were clean how the fuck i'm supposed to dance
But when I look back it may have been my only chance
But would I really know the true meaning of romance

The true meaning of romance
I was pressured in relationships i didn't understand
That power outage at the alley should've been my sign
That someone born in February shouldn't be mine
(goodbye)
Friday the 13th at that, No Jason
But I just felt too attached
She was taking all my time but it's over now
I'm just glad I matured to know that it's just foul
But wait

No not again, another more than friends
Tried to make a month we hate into one we celebrate
And the result just made it like hella fucking worse
Cupid shot me from the back again, an even darker curse

I need a fucking refund, I need a reimburse
Cus all these bad bitches, ain't talking one with curves
Manipulate my mind until it's the end of this world
JoshIGuess in a tilt-a-whirl

I took some v cards, don't overthink it
Valentine's, yea Virginia was memein'
Commodore Clique, miss my friends at recess
We all did our own thing and we split into pieces

And I hated that year I was fighting inner demons
The whole school listened to x and peep then
So love's always been just out of the question
So fuck a valentine get it out of my mentions

No not again, it's fucking February (get me out of here)
Even this earth doesn't think that it's necessary (28 days)
Month cut short, with another day here and there these
People out here really think they find the one to marry

Have you ever heard a 14th anniversary?
Come to think of it I've not, I'm still searching these
People never last so I skip my turn on hurting me
Cupid shot a black heart, now it's cursing me

february

february (lmg x niketaz)

https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves

cause I see you 
hurt me twice this year 
cause I see you 
and I see you running back I'm dying 

nothing compared to what we have had once before
and i know you're sending texts to me but i can't help but ignore
the moment you chose someone else over me
i realized to my own table that i never bring nothing
huh?, gotta sit back and pause
she only cared about my flaws
and now i'm out another job
hotel room that's booked for two but i'm the only one that's staying
but i guess i can't complain because i'm not the one that is paying
hiding in a maze that i created in the vineyards
cus i'm staying on my own but i still see you in the picture 

cause I see you 
hurt me twice this year
cause I see you 
I'll see you right back

i see you (taymxru)

https://soundcloud.com/imdopesicx
waiting for a time
where i can find a dime
and i cannot press rewind
so go and find another guy

getting to these racks
i can climb the walls in
i don't know about that
i continue falling
into another trance
don't know i'm involved in
and i'ma hit the dash
faster than a rocket
faster than a rocket
but you cannot stop it
gonna land earthbound
like it's fucking onett
and you thought you had a problem
but it's fucking flawless
cus i went back in time 
and i fucking paused it

yeah you can't stop it 
lean in my car racks in my pocket 
shawty wanna fuck i don't want it
fuck i don't want it
i'm with my soldiers and you know we rockin
i'm with my gang yea we in the club
got that money on me we going up
shawty really want me i don't wanna fuck
i'm with josh day one on my momma bruh

getting to these racks
i can climb the walls in
i don't know about that
i continue falling
into another trance
don't know i'm involved in
and i'ma hit the dash
faster than a rocket
faster than a rocket
but you cannot stop it
gonna land earthbound
like it's fucking onett
and you thought you had a problem
but it's fucking flawless
cus i went back in time 
and i fucking paused it

Onett w/ Dopesicx 🌎(AyeSean)

Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
What the fuck?
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone

For weeks in a row
No one hit my phone
Just the normal ones
And the normal ones only when they low
They be sending some
I just want someone to be the one to hit me up for once
And I had that before but she fell out of love

People get a little ounce of glance toward themselves
There's no connection it's just texting we were never pen pals
Texts so dry the person probably covered up with 10 towels
But i cannot be talking when I just always respond in lols
Communication has been nothing but a nuisance
Wish things went well so I don't have to go thru this
Never ending cycle of my guilt and fears
Gotta close down slowly like i'm sears

Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
What the fuck?
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone

Am i just meant to do this on my own?
It's already felt that way as i was in control
And the taste is gone like an empty cereal bowl
I guess that's just the life they chose

everybody gone

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

They try to creep up in the comments but it doesn't mean shit
If they weren't so pressed wish it was something I could fix
But you know something you can never fix, guess what? A bitch
Cus it ain't no grudges only stay how it is

How it is? I ain't give no second chance
Got other plans, i'm not gonna interrupt it for my fans
What you ask? What you ask? Why don't you say in my dm
They be staying talking back no matter what like Talking Ben

Why do I keep waking up in my own dreams?
Break the door down in this movie please cut the scene
If it goes on lockdown just grab my keys
Now I'm in the dark void the new sentry

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

And there's a big eye watching from above like Mike
Watching my every move far from sight
Always rejected i'm not their type
But stick to my gut it don't hurt to try

scare floor

Say I'm stuck in a box
I really don't give a fuck
I'm just sticking with the sound that I fucking love
I'm here to prove em wrong
Yeah we blowing up

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Over 5 years and you can't stay situated
Even tho i grew up they'll still be hating
And even if I blew up, don't know what they saying
Just know it won't be anything worse investigating

Too pure for this world my greatest strength and weakness
I be getting booked for shows every other weekend
But I always been sober yeah I wasn't ever tweaking
Guess that's enough to call me a poser for a reason

Just know that my vocals better than most the scene
But these people stay in boxes for their labeling
They say this music styles dead, well not for me
I'm bringing this shit back for eternity

Me and tykun making banger after banger
Shawty hmu later I might bang her
Showcasing my own styles on some hangers
Cus man im one hell of a genre changer

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Yeah they're going to the galaxy
And I do my own mix and mastering
But I suck at vocal balancing
Better stop 4th walls are damaging
I wish I could explain my life
It's a thunderstorm cloud I feel like strife
I hate to break it to you all
But that's the end of this song

keep on

was supposed to drop on the alt but eh
(prod by. kinderyessir + centrlx)
https://soundcloud.com/kinder-603456337
https://soundcloud.com/centrlxx

feat: https://soundcloud.com/joshaw4tt


Joshaw4tt
Bitches what's up

I can feel the magic in this world
Like she cast a spell on the whirl
She seductive, but i'm destructive 
Of many people mixed in like a swirl
She only like when they locked in doing curls
Then she say she aint like other girls
How do I believe in something that gets thrown back and forth like a hurl

She throw me back and forth on the bed
But you know it ain't for the sex
She in my head but she not giving in
She say that we're better off as just friends
And I said baby can you give me a chance?
This is the first i've been in the camp
In a tent with you we stay overnight
Looking at the stars shine
At the campfire and they shining so bright 
You're a marshmello with the face you hide
These seconds fall like rose petals 
Are we on the same level?
I don't want you to do all this to satisfy me
I want us to be one i hope you fantasize me

Joshaw4tt 
You don't really know what it was til its gone
Cus I know what I want
But when you turning to another you start to notice all the flaws
Fuck, I'll pause and sip some white claw

I can feel the magic in this world
Like she cast a spell on the whirl
She seductive, but i'm destructive 
Of many people mixed in like a swirl
She only like when they locked in doing curls
Then she say she aint like other girls
How do I believe in something that gets thrown back and forth like a hurl

magical fantasy

(Prod. Anyvibe & Enigma)
Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

She got that perfect body show me how it work
When she shake it she gon change my universe
Bad bitch yea you know she got the curves
And she gon make it work, uh uh
We be at the club all night
Yea we making love tonight
So let’s enjoy this life
Dance like it’s our wedding night

Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

Who that girl in the photo right there?
Pretty eyes and that natural hair
Looking good no matter what you wear
You and I would make a pretty good pair
So let’s go on the dance floor show me what you’re made of
And you look so perfect with or without your makeup
We’re locked in forever you know I won’t break up
She feeling kinda freaky she might put the tape up
Te amo bebe exploramos el mundo
Solo quiero que te mantengas seguro


Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

Ho Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
I’m sustained by simply your presence
Getting butterflies when I get that message (yuh, ayy)

Oh Listen
I just want you to know that you’re gifted
And you know that you never need a lifted
All natural yea you that bitch yea, ayy you that bitch

Gifted (Prod. Anyvibe & Enigma)

She doesn't care when I'm gone
She don't text at all
She on the gram saying i'm bored who wanna call
It doesn't even cross her mind i'm like a ghost in the hall, in the hall

I remember those days you said you loved me so
I kept staring at your eyes they were so beautiful
So how the hell we ended up is unpredictable 
Spend my life waiting for reciprocal

And I don't wanna wait too long
Distance got me weak not strong
And to them don't wanna be no flop
I'm hoping that I go up
To show them what could've been us
Spent years living in these bluffs
I'm alone with my ear muffs
One moment of attention just got me in a bubble
I never get to talk about one of my troubles
I'm starting to think this will all fade again 
I guess everything has to come to an end
And they won't say nothing unless i'm the speaker
And some of them just want the wood like a beaver
And it doesn't have to be from me
There's always another to take that seat
And I may be lonely, but I give it all that I got
I put all this luck inside of this pot
Hoping that it just strikes gold one day
Now I stay away, from this fed up trait

Don't hit me if you're not gonna hit me back
I'm just too attached
And I get detached real fast
Why do I gotta feel this way
Gotta feel this way?

reciprocal.

oakland + sonora tix https://ffm.bio/joshiguess