special thanks to production from tykun & these co prods
https://soundcloud.com/hottubjohny
wvstend
https://soundcloud.com/stellarjmc
phegsbeats
https://soundcloud.com/rjpasin
marcøs

independence to the second power

can't stop

Shine 4 Life The Album
Out Forever

Production by @Diegointhedark

Me n You (Prod. Diegointhedark)

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

I take in the fresh air as I continue breathing
And you don't gotta worry what you do and don't believe in
Just as long as you don't battle me with your own demons
Cus it's hard for me to handle anyone close that is leaving

He's stuck with her and I just gotta accept that
And my other friends busy and I wish I could prevent that
Ghosted about a year and i'm still tryna get back on track
Without their energy i'm missing my other half

Yeah the percent is 50
Josh nowadays doesn't feel too nifty
Lost track of my mind when I had an epiphany
Yeah I'm always coming down like Santa from a chimney

I can't keep running away from this society
But it's hard to keep these feelings that are inside of me
I used to have a lot of people that were right behind me
But once they keep on moving forward they say bye bye to me

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

And yeah I may be afk
But i'll still try to be there any day
Just wish it didnt have to be this way
If only my mind could never break

Never break
I made too many mistakes
I just gotta teach myself to behave

long distance

Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
What the fuck?
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone

For weeks in a row
No one hit my phone
Just the normal ones
And the normal ones only when they low
They be sending some
I just want someone to be the one to hit me up for once
And I had that before but she fell out of love

People get a little ounce of glance toward themselves
There's no connection it's just texting we were never pen pals
Texts so dry the person probably covered up with 10 towels
But i cannot be talking when I just always respond in lols
Communication has been nothing but a nuisance
Wish things went well so I don't have to go thru this
Never ending cycle of my guilt and fears
Gotta close down slowly like i'm sears

Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
What the fuck?
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone

Am i just meant to do this on my own?
It's already felt that way as i was in control
And the taste is gone like an empty cereal bowl
I guess that's just the life they chose

everybody gone

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

They try to creep up in the comments but it doesn't mean shit
If they weren't so pressed wish it was something I could fix
But you know something you can never fix, guess what? A bitch
Cus it ain't no grudges only stay how it is

How it is? I ain't give no second chance
Got other plans, i'm not gonna interrupt it for my fans
What you ask? What you ask? Why don't you say in my dm
They be staying talking back no matter what like Talking Ben

Why do I keep waking up in my own dreams?
Break the door down in this movie please cut the scene
If it goes on lockdown just grab my keys
Now I'm in the dark void the new sentry

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

And there's a big eye watching from above like Mike
Watching my every move far from sight
Always rejected i'm not their type
But stick to my gut it don't hurt to try

scare floor

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

Now i'm truly stuck in the middle of nowhere
And I cannot choose between my long or my short hair
Is this town vintage or modern like warfare?
They told me at least I got a room to record there
So why not take my time and go and explore there
Before the time expires and it starts to outgrow there
So let's go and try and start to make it a home there
They try to tell where I am like, it's a no share

And there's times I know i could be elsewhere
But you know I won't feel like myself there so

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

There's no escape now there's no way to transport
Unless I'm getting to the bag like i'm wearing Jansport
Or I truly use my legs, yea it's a man's sport
Catch me chilling in the back of a vans store
Of a vans store

middle of nowhere

You made me set my standards so high
My hometown stay believing all these lies
Later this month I can stay sipping pints
Gonna show her I would've been the right guy

She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't
She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't

Told me just a little bit of time is all she needed
Her look in her eyes I couldn't trust her too deceiving
She begging on her knees yeah she continue pleading
Like she did with her little time she was receiving

From the back
You don't want me back

Just until again, when you phone a friend
Then break up with me, and go back with him
And I love her so, but she can't commit

Why does everyone have to be a fucking bitch?
You can't give the definition of what true love is
You've gotta prove that mine is above his
You tried but you put me in the rough bitch
Some tough shit

She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't
She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't

So you sending me
All these memories
You ain't forgetting me
It's just unsteadily
Reaching to a point
Where I'm your only choice
But hate when I avoid
You treat me like a toy
And you prefer iphone, well I prefer a droid
Cus my battery will last longer than ya boy
You would've been with me forever until we're in soy
But you chose an ounce of temporary joy

She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't
And she want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't

And my trust has went from 1% to zero
But these bitches have a rulebook they can veto
And I don't give a fuck if she's flaming hot like cheetos
I'm gonna figure her out like Zito

she want me back

Say I'm stuck in a box
I really don't give a fuck
I'm just sticking with the sound that I fucking love
I'm here to prove em wrong
Yeah we blowing up

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Over 5 years and you can't stay situated
Even tho i grew up they'll still be hating
And even if I blew up, don't know what they saying
Just know it won't be anything worse investigating

Too pure for this world my greatest strength and weakness
I be getting booked for shows every other weekend
But I always been sober yeah I wasn't ever tweaking
Guess that's enough to call me a poser for a reason

Just know that my vocals better than most the scene
But these people stay in boxes for their labeling
They say this music styles dead, well not for me
I'm bringing this shit back for eternity

Me and tykun making banger after banger
Shawty hmu later I might bang her
Showcasing my own styles on some hangers
Cus man im one hell of a genre changer

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Yeah they're going to the galaxy
And I do my own mix and mastering
But I suck at vocal balancing
Better stop 4th walls are damaging
I wish I could explain my life
It's a thunderstorm cloud I feel like strife
I hate to break it to you all
But that's the end of this song

keep on

TOO DEEP (PROD. CASH BENTLY X TUV)

The first single off of my upcoming album 
“There is chaos in the midst” releasing August 31st

Beat made by: prod. Farber
Mix and mastered by: Ekeon


Lyrics:
Sometimes i sit alone
And wonder did you ever really love me
But now im alone & i wonder how i got so far from Everything i wanted in life
A couple fights that led to more you pushed a line
That wasnt right 
Inside my mind 
Especially since you caused most of those fights 
You crossed a line
Theres no going back in time 
You went too far in my mind
You went to far this time

So now i sit alone here
& wonder why i ever loved you dear
especially more than myself
you wanted me to go to hell 
(To go to hell)

Questioning why i stayed around
I closed my eyes
You held me down
Now im stuck muffled on the ground
You grabbed the blade & made me bleed
And i screamed out 
My heartbeat fading 
Echoing 
Throughout the house

Ill never be the same anytime i see your face
It flashbacks to those rainy days
Those fights we had & your to blame
But the faults on me because i let you stay
Ignoring all the pain
But you didnt care you stayed the same
It was “Make believe” & it wasn’t “me”
Now im on the floor as you watch me bleed out
The floor soaked up into a shape of me
U saw the light flicker out 
Of my eyes
Are you so proud now?
You did wanted to do
You broke me in two
You were worse than any nightmare i couldve dreamed about
And Now im grieving who i was before and the boy that i use to adore
Because he is no more

There is chaos in the midst (prod. farber x ekeon)

This is my very first song that I have made all on my own, instrumental and all <3

Temporary

Waitin On U

produced by rager x fony wallace
mixed and mastered by me (D34D)
cover by me (D34D)

lyrics:
takin all these drugs
now im feelin awesome
if i up em wit my gun
bro scurry like a possum
i remember when
i was stuck at rock bottom
now im at the top
screaming im the king of gotham

i move in all black
yea im movin real scary
movin all the weight
i once used to carry
i only keep learning
from a past ive buried
ill write my Odessey
with a tale so legendary

i walk this battlefield
with my wounds wide open
its 10 below
and its rainin and snowin
ive been to hell and back
at least 5 times over
but every time i go
hell keeps getting colder

it dont matter anyhow
i cant feel nothin
i could blow yo head off
u thought i was bluffin
dont u go to reachin boy
we gonna get to clutchin
u cant beg to live boy
this aint up for discussion

takin all these drugs
now im feelin awesome
if i up em wit my gun
bro scurry like a possum
i remember when
i was stuck at rock bottom
now im at the top
screaming im the king of gotham

up his whole crew with my k
and im all by my lonely
he cuttin up this beat
shouts my main man fony
left a fucker mad
when i killed all of his cronies
spinnin for my dead fuckin homies

i said fuck a batman
im tryna get a bag man
i feel like bruce wayne
you will not catch me lackin
i got a riddle for you
which hand i got my strap in
im tapped in
with 2 mac 10s
we get to blastin

feel like trevor phillips
how left his skull bashed in
im the king of gotham city
aint no one surpassin

takin all these drugs
now im feelin awesome
if i up em wit my gun
bro scurry like a possum
i remember when
i was stuck at rock bottom
now im at the top
screaming im the king of gotham

KING OF GOTHAM!

feat: @yungscuff
prod: Callisto Blue

PAIN SUFFOCATES THE SAME
I'M ON A RUNAWAY TRAIN
SHE GOT ME IN CHAINS
IN PAIN

Welcome to a world where you can never see where you are
And your footsteps have left a trail but then you can't see in the dark
And once you end up on the path that still ends in the same exact result
Trying my only luck with a struck from this sudden lightning bolt
CUS THATS MY SPARK

Taking things so sudden where I cannot even process
and I would live more dependently but I ain't dealing with bosses

And every time my life has changed I proceed more and more with caution
With my temperature below the cold breeze feels like that I'm in Boston
And I'm cutting the connects I feel like that i live in Groton
Me & Yung Scuff yeah we know we bout to start a moshpit

And yeah I always surround
These people that give me frowns
But I just gotta calm down
I'm gonna make my own sound

I gotta do it for myself now
Even if everybody’s let down
Cus every ending's all the same
And every time it ends in pain
But these chains don’t phase me 
they barely even wear me down 
And I’ll only break free
No matter what my fate allows
I’ll only break free
It’s just a matter of time now
NO MATTER WHAT MY FATE ALLOWS >>

Forever in your lost and found
I know you don't want me around
When you dream of me aroused
Save me from this endless desire
But you let me rest your soul on fire

Endless Desire [2025 Remaster]

shell casings marked with regret (prod. june takateru & julian dudley)

Runtz

new album out now
tour tickets: https://ffm.bio/joshiguess

she want me back

JoshIGuess

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