this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

2018-20XX

battlewounds(never,forever)

midnight lai - loving you

https://www.instagram.com/lifegiverr
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1etj6k8oLI1etD6Y7KItBB?trackId=3qWcDCUOdlFNzQTYPfFcXh

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tell me that ur right here i guess we went wrong
tell me that ur right here let my body rot
secrets on my back,, i scrub it off
i swear its almost cliche,, ur better off

did u do well without me?? is that the cost
i see our shadows dancing,,, against the wall
i guess its all a chance thing ill take it all
i swear its so enchanting ,, the way we fall

so teach me how to lie like youuuu
swear nobody says goodbye like youuuu
every lie i speak u see right thruuuu
cant fuck up nobody life like uuuuu

ill be dead in the morning
hope that you find me
my lifeless body
all of the parts and the pieces around me
all but a zombie
nobody wants me say that you want me

2018-20XX

Thxx2uu