this album was made in a period of suicidal thoughts

cover by reiparanoid

yt - https://youtu.be/R9b9fy_Td8U

twitter - https://twitter.com/joshua_hino_888

tg - https://t.me/minorcharactersfromtheinternet

bandcamp - https://joshuaharrison888.bandcamp.com/album/painful

samples:

1. #000000;

2. if my mental state was an animation, it'd be animated by i can't sleep;
samples by nosleep666 on yt

3. white noise instead of my skin;
sample by type-one - with dat shit (prod. agnarkea x gone)

4. eternal anxiety; 
sample by kairiki bear - ヒトサマアレルギー feat. flower

5. pancreatic decomposition;

6. 私はあなたが好きではない;
sample by твоё нежное безумие - бяка

7. painkillers;

8. mentally gothic;
sample by black dresses - waiting42moro 

9. childhood;
sample by роророка_ - guitar reveal ! on yt

10. suicide time;
sample from the visual novel class of '09

11. her;
sample by girls rituals - all i want for christmas is you

12. i want to disappear;
sample by orchids&flowers - chemistry

painful

sample by type-one - with dat shit (prod. agnarkea x gone)

yt - https://www.youtube.com/@joshua_hino_888

twitter - twitter.com/joshua_hino_888

tg - t.me/minorcharactersfromtheinternet

bandcamp - https://joshuaharrison888.bandcamp.com/

white noise instead of my skin

sample by kairiki bear - ヒトサマアレルギー feat. flower

yt - www.youtube.com/@joshua_hino_888

twitter - twitter.com/joshua_hino_888

tg - t.me/minorcharactersfromtheinternet

bandcamp - https://joshuaharrison888.bandcamp.com/

eternal anxiety

samples by nosleep666 on yt

yt - https://www.youtube.com/@joshua_hino_888

twitter - twitter.com/joshua_hino_888

tg - t.me/minorcharactersfromtheinternet

bandcamp - https://joshuaharrison888.bandcamp.com/

if my mental state was an animation, it'd be animated by i can't sleep

context of the track "pancreatic decomposition";

back in high school i used to take paracetamol and no-spa almost daily, trying to cope with constant headaches and body aches, probably from constant lack of sleep

eventually it messed up my pancreas so bad i had to stay on ursosan for a long stretch (still am), all while dealing with unbearable pain in the left side under my rib

yt - https://www.youtube.com/@joshua_hino_888

twitter - twitter.com/joshua_hino_888

tg - t.me/minorcharactersfromtheinternet

bandcamp - https://joshuaharrison888.bandcamp.com/

pancreatic decomposition

yt - https://www.youtube.com/@joshua_hino_888

twitter - twitter.com/joshua_hino_888

tg - t.me/minorcharactersfromtheinternet

bandcamp - https://joshuaharrison888.bandcamp.com/

if my mental state was an animation, it'd be animated by i can't sleep

joshua harrison