aqua angel

prod is a stretch… a year ago i was playing the chords from another song on her porch and she came out crying after a long night and started singing and i scrambled to hit record halfway thru

starwater - hold my hand prod. me

nickly_d, hc keke, & joysick - my friends (prod. nickly_d & joysick)

@v-ebeats

who's gonna come with me to the hillside?
staring up at all of the stars
standing on a beach in the moonlight
blindfolded, putting sand in a jar
you put a spell on me on my birthday
you opened my eyes in the dark
separated like geological movement
ages since that fireball
straight from your heart

last week we were planning the wedding
and now it seems that we were back at the start
that ghost/our bare feet in the backyard
he can watch us while we're coming apart

that jar just sits on my desk now
cause i won't pour it out
if anyone asks, it's just a spell a witch cast

i've been having nightmares
i shattered the glass
cause deep down i know i can't live in the past
but both of us know i could never do that
both of us know that it's not the first half of our story
and it won't be the last
wasting my life with you on my mind
i'm happy and sad at the same time
both of us know now that i'll never do
all of the things that i promised to you
i'm sorry i couldn't be better for you
we can't keep getting back together
it's too late, too much, too  far

last week we were planning the wedding
and now it seems that we were back at the start
that ghost/our bare feet in the backyard
he can watch us while we're coming apart

written by joysick
produced by V-E
mixed and mastered by joysick
beach photo by amed aphra

wedding song (VEbeats)

can’t believe i literally made this shit in garageband 


i can play a guitar solo if you want one
or you can splash water over me in the sun
if you want me then were gonna have fun
just like the year that punk broke in 1991
26 but i wanna be everybody's everything
wanna put my finger in your motherfuckin wedding ring
after the beach wanna go and get ice cream?
i got a copy of beach house teen dream

now i ride the blue line all the way to wonderland
now i wonder if im ever gonna find a man
listening to sebadoh
dye my hair blue again
wonder how i let you go
ocean turns it green again

watch you play mario 64 evermore
speak now or forever know me nevermore
then we get tired and hold hands in the moonlight
fall asleep, windows open, linen just right

i had a dream about you last night

i can play a guitar solo if you want one
or you can splash water over me in the sun
if you want me then were gonna have fun
just like the year that punk broke in 1991
26 but i wanna be everybody's everything
wanna put my finger in your motherfuckin wedding ring
after the beach wanna go and get ice cream?
i got a copy of beach house teen dream

now i ride the blue line all the way to wonderland
now i wonder if im ever gonna find a man
listening to sebadoh
dye my hair blue again
wonder how i let you go
ocean turns it green again

watch you play mario 64 evermore
speak now or forever know me nevermore
then we get tired and hold hands in the moonlight
fall asleep, windows open, linen just right

now i ride the blue line all the way to wonderland
now i wonder if im ever gonna find a man
listening to sebadoh
dye my hair blue again
wonder how i let you go
ocean turns it green again

watch you play mario 64 evermore
speak now or forever know me nevermore
then we get tired and hold hands in the moonlight
fall asleep, windows open, linen just right

produced by joysick

wonderland

@strkzbtx

pacing back and forth in my room
looking out the window at the moon
painting my walls bright blue
shutting my eyes cause im too young
to figure out what went wrong
when i tried to write that song
i was thinking about the last two years
how am i still standing here?
will our lives become radioactive
or we will just gettttt drunk
or spend time with psychoactives
cause we never could slam dunk
i never thought i’d have to cope with this
i can’t go on feeling like this

caught in the dimensions we attract
i know that yr never coming back
this time is not the first and it won’t be the last
i reach for my dresser there’s an amethyst
and all the stars looked just like little fish
did you notice, left hand gets another cyst
every time you wish for another wish

we’re losing control
down below
they took our souls

we’re children of a lost past
we can’t get our spells cast
we can’t even fight back
lightning strikes we make glass
or forgotten like a bondi blue imac

and then a horrible thought came to me
that we were standing at the edge of time
and nothing’d'ever be the same
just a crack of light through doorframe in my parents bedroom
on a cold cold night
by candlelight
in my old nightgown
i was trying to find another way around
another way back down to you
i know you’re still arou

beat by strkz
beat embellishments, selfie, art, mix, and master by joysick
lightning photo by david moum
bed photo by becca schultz

toyland will fear the star children. experimental joysick bad dream material

corduroy (strkz)

produced by joysick with hugs
art by @stellathepixie
ok guys its DANCE PARTY TIME!!!!!

lyrics:::::

i dont even want to talk!!!
im sick of you trying to forgive me
cant you just go fucking live please?
and do it alone!!!
now i dont have to dance on my knees and hands
all of this was once the original plan
it's true, i don't wanna go back to you

I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO YOUUUUUU
BUT I DONT WANNA GO ON WITHOUT YOUUUUU
I CANT MAKE UP MY MIND IM LIVING WITHOUT YOUUUUU
YEAH IM LIVING WITHOUT YOU!

im not gonna text you back!!!
careful when you wish for love
im sick of tryna decipher:
1. what yr dreaming of
OR,
2. do you wake up alone?
im not gonna crawl back on all 4s like a cat
cause you just couldn't put that shit on GameFAQs
baby it's #facts: i dont want a love who needs no PLAIN TEXT!!!!

I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO YOUUUUUU
BUT I DONT WANNA GO ON WITHOUT YOUUUUU
I CANT MAKE UP MY MIND IM LIVING WITHOUT YOUUUUU
YEAH IM LIVING WITHOUT YOU!
I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO YOUUUUUU
BUT I DONT WANNA GO ON WITHOUT YOUUUUU
I CANT MAKE UP MY MIND IM LIVING WITHOUT YOUUUUU
YEAH IM LIVING WITHOUT YOU!
yeah… i'm living without you ._.

lets party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i woke up with eyeliner on my hand

@xxkintsugi kaiizu

you’ll never take me alive because i’m already dead
think you’re sucking me dry, but there’s nothing left
you say it’s a lie, but there’s scars on my neck
i just keep it inside, my final line of defense
maybe some part’s alive
but i’m leaving tonight
i can barely survive
i need stars in my sky

can’t quit my job and i can’t get fired
can’t get a new one and can’t get hired
there’s no future and i can’t retire
i’m so, i’m so, i’m so tired
i just wanna go home, i just wanna sleep
i don’t wanna do my dishes from the past 3 weeks
ate maybe one thing this weekend
i’m diving in the deep end
tryna keep my breath in
baby are you counting
i can break my record and anybody else’s
i feel like im deckard, i’m questioning my self image

you’ll never take me alive because i’m already dead
think you’re sucking me dry, but there’s nothing left
you say it’s a lie, but there’s scars on my neck
i just keep it inside, my final line of defense
maybe some part’s alive
but i’m leaving tonight
i can barely survive
i need stars in my sky

too many broken VSTs on my computer
i been dyin in the city and i know that im a loser
im a freak up in my tower
i’m a beggar not a chooser
i’m returning to the tavern with the fireplace and pewter
now i look at my ancestor
guess i kinda see it through her
i’m not really a princess or id be able to impress her
i sit in fetal position, blocking out my vision
so many bad decisions, i just can’t resist em
never mind the tavern, we know how to party
underwater cavern, they’re lookin for the body

i need stars in my sky (kintsugi+kaiizu)

@strkzbtx

i dont see the glass half full i see it frosted
i need a beverage that i can get lost in
i dont think i signed a contract but im locked in
so long & thanks to all the dolphins
if you need me then ill be downtown
like, underground
like, maybe you can find me in the lost and found
if were gonna play this game ill go all in
if the game’s not rigged what would you call it

i cant pay the rent and my rooms a nuke test site
royalty free starfish on my website
wifis fucking shite cant download a megabyte
i just got my check but my desk like a best buy
ya, ya my desk like a best buy
imac g3 at my bedside
spend money on the shit that i need, right?
fucked up but ill get it on the next try
i just wanna get nuked but i got some shit to do first
you can skip the clues i just wanna feel the truth hurt
hoppin out the plane like im db cooper 

i dont see the glass half full i see it frosted
i need a beverage that i can get lost in
i dont think i signed a contract but im locked in
so long & thanks to all the dolphins
if you need me then ill be downtown
like, underground
like, maybe you can find me in the lost and found
if were gonna play this game ill go all in
if the game’s not rigged what would you call it

I don’t see the glass half full, I see it frosted (prod. strkz)

@leaf-cassidy

(joysick)
my shawty taller than the trees
ya she just as tall as me
see us floating in the breeze
clear skies on my seas
now i’m putting on my fleece
cause i’m shaking like a leaf
call me venus if you please
cause they paint the birth of me
she told me i can’t scare this hoe
when i met her at the show
so i’m free to write my prose
free to call her my bro
tell her i like her but she knows
smell my perfume with she nose
connect her hyundai to my phone
let’s see how fast it goes

met her at the warmachine show
showed her all my songs she likes NYE + cheat code
now it’s 2am we at sabinos
now it’s monday night on her porch playin beach house

poly or mono i don’t give a fuck when we’re together
i don’t care let’s go make out in hell or whatever
she make out with me cambridgeside she let me wear her sweater
air temple water tribe we could change the weather

(starwater)
had my dick in many girls
but none as tall as you
your smile pierced my heart
wrapped a bandage it was blue
you danced like the ocean
i felt like a fool
wanted to gaze into your eyes
i tried to play it cool
ripped out that basement in my car
with you right beside
ur music pierced the night
hello sophie, be my bride
already met my folks
already met my dog
i dont have a dog
bitch i am the dog

never thought id fall again
but i guess im just lucky
your freckles run my mind
please kill me baby

(joysick)
my shawty taller than the trees
ya she just as tall as me
see us floating in the breeze
clear skies on my seas
now i’m putting on my fleece
cause i’m shaking like a leaf
call me venus if you please
cause they paint the birth of me
she told me i can’t scare this hoe
when i met her at the show
so i’m free to write my prose
free to call her my bro
tell her i like her but she knows
smell my perfume with she nose
connect her hyundai to my phone
let’s see how fast it goes

spring breeze (prod. joysick)

special thanks to ella for recording this and everything else

@leaf-cassidy

spring breeze +starwater (live at leaf and aras's friendship ceremony)

@thetamancer
@user-679054782
@duhmaso

@thetamancer
kickflip casper how im bouta go ghost
told that homie say less cuz he always do the most
talkin shit, biting on your tongue, i think you should fkin choke
fw phage gang u gon wish that you never fkin spoke
bullshit always got us fked up like a stick in the spokes
gotta cross that bridge when you get to it or you’re stuck in the moat
joysick passing the controller im like can i drive the boat
heard his music, it was trash, turn that boy to compost

@joysick64
bro sucks like a vacuum
tryna get a bag soon
sippin 4loko in the tasty burger bathroom
i’m in the pit now it’s phage at the day show
then we gotta stop by the lab where the fish glow
joysick coming back from the closet
rat city shark charlie card in my wallet
young broke ho tho there’s never nothing on it
subscribed but you know i gotta pause it
ima get some tats!!!!!! need a fishbone!!!!!!
notes app full of ideas on my 📱 !!!!!!
i’d do it right now but u know this girl is 2 broke
gettin out the house ya
u know that i can’t cope

i’m on a ebike bitch u on a scooter
i talk to my computer like im patrick stewart
she using my birth name i can see right thru her
i stick it to the terfs ya i stick em on a skewer
i live in an apartment you live in a sewer
i swim with the dolphins u swim in manure
u seem like a cheap bitch u can’t tip the uber
soon i’m gonna get inked like im gooper blooper

wavebird +thetamancer (apollo+duhmaso)

@b-mythic @user-623704674 @bluehellghostinternet

@joysick64
i know i fucked up and we can’t make up
but im boutta push my luck cuz i couldn’t get enough
u know who u love ya its me yr dreaming of
i cn see it when u act so tough yr still getting over us
yr still getting over us like bro that was a past life
i forgot that shit i got amnesia like im cloud strife
i don’t even know why cuz we don’t even match rite
im the water type gym leader n yr fire type
believe me tho i get it like i told u to 4get it
but it’s flooding rite back2me i think im gonna let it
i dnt like where we’re heading cuz i thought we called the wedding
but i missed the way yr lights looked lying in ur bedding
yr cute as a wombat and u were my equal
my immortal kombat like i was ur sequel
i know i fucked up and we can’t make up
but im boutta push my luck cuz i couldn’t get enough
u know who u love ya its me yr dreaming of
i cn see it when u act so tough yr still getting over us

@b-mythic
in a daze 
couple days you been gone
on replay
everything I did wrong
blue nights, ah I need to calm down
chasing clouds, thunderstorms wanna just drown
yeah you getting over us and I miss it
every single look, know ya feel the distance
can't hide, really hurt and I hate this
you the only one I’d ever wanna die with
and you getting, you getting
yeah you getting over us
you getting, yeah you getting
you getting over us

it’s me yr dreaming of +b.mythic (327fate)

@b-mythic @strkzbtx

@joysick64
don’t answer the telephone
tell me that there’s no one home
please leave me alone
tell me what i already know

tell me that you meant it
tell me that it’s over there’s no mending our friendship
i can’t keep going if we try to extend it
i can’t keep pretending but i can’t accept it
i gave u my hand at the ball and you left it
please don’t tell me sober, wait til i get demented
please don’t tell me if you’re gonna defend it
no happy endings, no reconnecting
no endings at all because i just wanna end it

@b-mythic
nah you can just let me down
i think i get the message 
nauseous imma need more pills
tryna just forget it
yeah make a face you a ghost right now
got you blocked got my phone turned off
really hate how it hurts right now
when im high wanna just make up
please leave me alone
tell me that it's over
yeah just leave me alone
won't you leave me alone

if not its fine (prod. strkz)

yeah theres nuthing u cant handle
i know i cant hold a candle
so i touch u when ur feral
i been cautious i been careful
ur so toxic need a hazmat
ur the hottest yeah id tap that
fuck my new bitch, bitch she old hat
ill return that for some cashback
its not a romeo and juliet life
bitch i feel like ima human fleshlight
dont know nuthin baby i just guessed right
when i die i wont make any headlines
i made a promise, took a health pack
but the way i feel made me forget that
ill be honest, didnt want that
i made u feel good and i regret that
i cant regain my composure
i cant move on i need closure
lost myself now im a poser
ask for joysick i dont know her
i was making so much progress
tell me that its all part of the process
theres a black hole in my flat chest
treat me like an inanimate object

prod joysick

i was making so much progress

hey guys i recorded and produced this song in the middle of my ex’s house party lying on the couch with the mic on my chest. things r going super epic in my life right now and im not dat sad anymore but i just thought of how it sucks that i never released this one 

@blue_hell

we're smokin a hundred ten decibels
girl i think ur so incredible, baby
ya, i just took another edible
can we go back to my place maybe?
if you feel up to it, if you feel comfortable
this place gives me the creeps
are you okay baby?
i know that this is so hard for you
i just want you to feel safe
can we just take the train tonight
i don’t want us to get in an accident
or get stopped by the cops
i don’t want us to hurt somebody

we’re smokin a hundred ten decibels
3 mL of E, that’s a decimal, baby
i can’t get it all in my needle
there’s too much- there’s too much bubbles, can you help me
i’m sorry i cried cause it came off
unscrewed by mistake n i screwed myself
forgot to take pills n i screwed my health
sorry baby
im so argumentative, moody
we argue when we pause the movie

i love you 2 much baby sue me
im just trying to help baby
can’t i think you’re groovy?
you sent me to voicemail 
i just want you to be happy
i’m being so real why u laughing??

we’re smokin a hundred ten decibels
i got your text but it’s illegible, baby
ya i’m making friends with a chemical
this hole in my heart, is it mendable? maybe…
i don’t think im up to it, i don’t feel anything
i just wanna lie in your bed tonight
at least i think that i could fall asleep
are you okay baby?
i know that this is so hard for you
i just want you to feel safe
cant we just stay in tonight
i don’t want us to get in an argument
or have everyone over
i just wanna stare in your eyes tonight

everything’s gonna be okay

making friends with a chemical (prod. joysick)

funeral song

@jettahs

im a sad bitch, im a softie
got a dark soul, feel like miyazaki
im a fairy on this molly
sprout wings fly around like navi
crybaby, cant save me
give it up, call me little miss maybe
im a lost cause, u cant change me
do the same shit over r you crazy?
tell me im pathetic, babe u wont regret it
u think u can help me i told u to forget it
ur the 1 who said it, i cant take the credit
it was in the prophecy but i dont think u read it
im so sorry, im so sad
i know that i fucked up everything we had
im so stupid, im so mad
i just took off again, now im gonna crash
i cant foresee it, it just doesn't add
i am not a mystic i just did the math
im not galileo, im not faust
im not archimedes, i cant even count
tell me "stop crying shut ur mouth"
enlighten me, tell me i cant make u proud
silence me, shut me down
scream at me so loud that u drown me out

polymath (prod. jettahs)

ft+prod @stellathepixie

@joysick64
posted up w pixie over internet waters
nobody can fix me, gotta make my own road first
want u 2 know u taught me that
told me ive come so far, jus know i owe u 4 that
abra kadabra, presto makin money back
i feel like a steam train, got my life back on track
u never let me down i’m sorry i did for u
i’m forever grateful for the shit u n me been thru
abra kadabra, i just got my wife back
shawty taller than me n she make me happy
mermaid swimming with the fishies in the barrier reef
cyber magicka recharging, blue hell party starting
we gon play some shows 4 the puppygirl army 🐾 
abra kadabra i just found my calling
posted up w mythic watch the low poly starshower falling
blue hell helix pixie joysick

@stellathepixie
they say stella where'd u get that money i remember people didnt love me 
started going up now they on my dick sold the venue out and left w your bitch

ill be ok cos im w joysick 
water biome like we gon drip drip command c and v 
we did it first they copy 
i feel like sasuke 
planing my revenge 
cant can't look me in the eyes babe

claws in the snow
and i got racks so they cant tell me no 
i only pay what i owe 
i dress my shawty in designer clothes
if you gotta ask its a no
foot on the gas i aint taking it slow
0 love feel like gl0
i hope you know your my best friend
i know i get lost in flexing
i know my ego still bests me
i didnt mean to be so mean
i just got a lot in my brain
u need gas jus Imk
lotta heads gotta say hello one day
we gon run this bitch
ima make bands you cant stop me uh
im with helix in the lobby uh
im w my girl think she feel me yuh
im w emo south philly yuh
im w joysick like we gon drown
studio g making new genres
trick up my sleve like im kris angel
blue hell girls its a secret uh

starshower (prod. valentinesday)

@strkzbtx

i think ur disgusting
i dont need discussion
if i see u at the function
put myself in the oven
i think ur so full of it
but u know that and u love it
u tell us u been gaslit
give us our fucking cash bitch
cant believe that we were friends
ill never trust anyone again
u decide im the bad guy
must be nice up there so high
its about time, goin mask off
musta been blind, u can fuck off
im so high i cannot talk
or id give a piece of my mind
we can take a walk bitch
see u outside girl
i hope u like crawling
cause ur not gonna walk
have a nice trip falling
me and my girl gonna pull up with the baseball bat if u cross me again
if u not a coward send me ur address
if u too tired shoulda thought of that first

coward (prod. strkz)

@strkxbtx

hella ice on my wrist no im literally frozen
that aint what they meant by live for the moment
snowflakes fall on my tongue i wish that i was young
rob me blind and force me to grow up

stuff on my floor again
i cant leave my bed
forgot everything i learned and i forgot my meds
i should’ve quit while i was ahead
i wanna grow old with you out west
i burned my life jacked in the net
did someone plant a chip inside my neck
im my worst enemy
im obsessed with me
feedback loop, no form just a memory

my lifes going nowhere
dont wanna go there
i need a life coach i just need an au pair
my eyes glued to the screen in a chair
in alpha state, im not rly aware
im too plugged in, anybody in there?
i could still fix it but i dont even care
feet planted in the ground
i cant hear a sound
i know ur waving in my face but im not around

burning chrome (prod. strkz)

@strkzbtx

yeah i found a safe room save it to a diskette
fuck i need a break now, save it to the project
7am pounding in my eardrums
i feel like my whole world is crumbling down
if u dont love me anymore what is the point
how did we get here how did we get to this part
i should have known from the start
that youd play games with my heart
dmt in my cart
taking my world apart

i do it for the art
ego death in yr arms
i wanna restart, oh my god
tranny singalong in ur car
i wanna wake up, i hear no alarms

mkultra in my cup
i feel alone yeah, i feel no love
tripping out feels like a hug
if u wanna rebound hit me up

i guess i just thought that u n me were gonna married someday
and when that day comes it’d take the pain away
it’d take the pain away

mkultra (prod. strkz)

i try really hard, baby girl im a tryhard
been walkin on glass for you like its die hard
u dont give a fuck when i hold u in my arms
woke up with a horse head, i feel like a time bomb
if u dont have the time for me then i feel like its pointless
u dont give a fuck when im there, just sit making noises
i try to be heard, i try to make hard choices
but u just dismiss it, you act like you’re hearing voices

call me griffin how i feel like the invisible woman
did i fall in the hat, am i not ur moomin
i feel like she used me up for a moment
i feel like she needed me, now she doesn’t
treat me like a puppet, thought you were above it
dont fuck with the way that she gave up loving
i told her im hurting, i said its not working
looked me in the eye n she said its not worth it
u believed in me but we werent ready
i hope u know that i still believe in u
we’ll finish that song when u are ready
i know that ill always be ur friend
you saved my life and ill never forget that
i would die fighting back to back with u
the stars didnt align for us on this dark night
if it was meant to be it will be so

tarsier (prod. knotchej & jkjmetasco)

prod me

@joysick64
theyre not fucking with my swag
but im a dangerous fag
just took my dignity back
i got a gun in my bag
dont talk me like u know me
im not fair weather im snowy
bitch what do u want a trophy 
u fucked with luna + sophie
from know on u know that wherever u go
got a red dot on your back
u wish u could take it back
but its too late n u know it
cant leave this train once its going
cant jump this boat so get rowing
cant leave ur house cause its snowing
i control which way its blowing
and if ur bloods even flowing

@l4l4luna
how could I ever forget this
blood vials drip on my necklace 
too scared go run for the exit
i’m sick but you can’t catch it
they always ask how i get this
high in the clouds it’s impressive
too cool for you to just know me
theres no more room on this guest list 
good boy roll over now fetch this
keep begging it looks so precious 
don’t lose me you’ll just regret it
watch me cash out you’ll stay jealous
so dont you ever forget it
more swag than peace signs say yolo
come here just pose for my photo

G.U.N. (prod. joysick)

i know that you fear me
its hard to be near me
i beg you to miss me
can somebody hit me
wake me up from yet another nightmare
you said youd be right there
but then i woke up and my hospital bed is looking empty
i thought youd be there for me
you said youd take care of me
instead i need therapy
thought you were a part of me
but i guess my lucks out
i dont give a fuck now
so im giving up now
get hit by a truck now
tell me im manipulative
i guess you dont believe me
i just wanna die
its got nothing to do with you
i guess i just thought that you'd pick me up from the psych ward

i wrote this in january 2025 and the lyrics are coming from an extremely fragile, mentally unwell person so i apologize for my stupid opinions of yesteryear

noplacelikehome

@blissxcutter
hard to carry all the pain 
putting dirt on all our names
voice calling from the grave 
boy’s fallen from the stage 
let the water run 
killing it for fun 
she’ll be on the run 
keep me on the run 
selling it for fun 
only till im done 
only till im done 
only till im done 

let the water, water run on me 
they only hate when you gotta leave 
let the water run, let it run on me
they hate you when youre free 
smoking in the trees, spoken like the breeze 
broken energy, falling on the threes 
ya 

best thing you will never ever see 
best thing you will never ever be 
best thing that you'll never ever see 
best thing you will never ever be 
they wont know your name, 
driving fast in my lane 
and they won’t see your face 
when i’m flying to LA

@joysick64
i don’t wanna be alive now i need a lie down
i was fucking around now ima find out
im in my hideout even when it’s light out
cause i turned my world all upside down
im too high now, i can’t climb down
catch my sleepwalk barefoot in my nightgown
i wish i found kindred souls in my town
think of summer ‘09 when i inhale loud
smokin oj hoppin into slipspace
noki bay, look for secrets in the cliff face
i was 12 then, i would turn back my age
im with wrist cutter marrow’s on the same page
splash water in the sun, im a mermaid
splash tag on my beats when i get paid
splash text on the screen on the launch page
mash the A button ima need my bro’s aid

let the water run on me (prod. joysick)

i dont see the glass half full i see it frosty
i bet u wish that u never came across me
i know u once had faith but u lost me
and i know that its cheap but im sorry
when i said u saved my life girl i meant it
and i know that we got codependent
we agreed it was best that we end it
but i still can dream of our friendship
neptunes rings on my wrist
but it means nothing without u close to me
blue paint nails at the func but ur not there
im not where im sposed to be
seashell clip in my hair but i feel empty
without her laugh in my ear
and when u need me
wish upon a moon’s tear
yeah
and ill be right here, ooh

gently row upstream, water from starlight
passing off to a dream, over now, twilight
time is gone off in sunbeams and thats alright
so do i, u proceed, here is to new life
gentle waves carry me up unto light shores
from the depths where i fell, let me live to fight more
take me from bluest hell, shed no more ichor
give me strength, diamond eyes, let us now right wrongs
gently row upstream, water from starlight
passing off to a dream, over now, twilight
time is gone off in sunbeams and thats alright
so do i, u proceed, here is to new life

ichor (prod. irby & jolst)

prod @lilpanino

im ignoring all the green flags
like why’d u have to go n say that
skip 5,4,3,2,1 like an ad
when you’re so nice to me i get so mad

baby be kind to me
wont always know you’re not lying to me
i hoped you wouldn’t mind
but i went ahead, carried on with it
i hope i don’t waste your time
i think we should take our time with it
baby i’m fine with it
let’s see where it’s going and ride with it
spyro i glide with it
feel like sinatra i fly with it

glide w it (prod. cchainmail)

i’ve had enough, im giving up
research chemicals in my cup
i jus want love but i fucked up
floaters in my vision dirt in my blood
i smoked too much, i just wanna numb
wanna pass out on a low poly rug
camphor i smoke, hit the warp zone
shady oasis, shrooms in my coke
shrooms in my pepsi, and i smoke dope
heavens to betsy i got no hope
speaking in tongues feelin like the pope
nobody gets me i’m a bad joke
yeah
i expect too much to be perfect
so i wind up feeling worthless
dont feel like i earned this
im flawed but deserve this
it makes no sense to me in theory
when i know that im inferior
i feel when you’re near me im a liability

shady oasis (prod. knotchej)

everybody out to get me
but they’d like me if they met me
sorry if i act edgy
im just tryna protect me
ppl think im their enemy
but i just wanna have peace
so stressed that i cant fall asleep
asmr on my tv
know i been on the defense
and i got bridges to mend
but none of this shit make sense 
joysick just wanna be friends
aint tryna upset no heads
i jus wanna make amends
spread tranquility instead 
pjs like im layin in bed

pajamas (prod. joysick)

if all i ever wanted was to be a star
i don’t think that i could ever get very far
driving fast in my hypothetical car
but we can already see the stars where we are
lying on the roof bumping @sxckerfish
i can spark joy but i’m still sick
got a star rod i’ll grant u a wish
what so u just want a kiss
superstar i just felt the high now
wanna do shows in my next hideout
in your arms i’m feeling alive now
i’m so charmed i feel i can fly now
im diving into a deeper ocean
no shark cage way out in the open
i was locked out but i broke in
ice queen and i don’t mean frozen

dedicated to riftia pachyptila, nine foot tall tube worms that live in clusters by thermal vents at the bottom of the ocean

superstar (prod. joysick)

i could be me
i could be me

am i gonna get out of here soon
when will leave
like a leaf
like a leaf in the wind
i dont know where im going
i dont know where ive been
always tryin to leave
always tryin to leave

i dont know if things can get better
i dont know
everything falls apart one day
and then youre back where you started
when will it get better
guess thats all up to me
i dont know i dont know 
i dont know i dont know

when will things get better
please just hold my hand
i promise ill let go if i start to fall
hold my hand
however long i have
i hope things can get better for me

*created on my porch*

hold my hand (prod. joysick)

toil/fate ft. krillstaryy (prod. knotchej)

@joysick64 @hckeke

cover art by hc keke
produced by nickly_d and joysick
written by nickly_d, joysick, and hc keke
mix master by nickly_d

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