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Pretty Boy

"A Smile That Lies" is more than just a song – it’s a glimpse into what depression feels like. Behind the smile there’s a weight, an emptiness that words often fail to capture. This track was written to raise awareness and to give a voice to those silent struggles, blending raw emotion with haunting melodies.
If you know someone who suffers... be there for them. Aks for professional help.
If you find yourself in this song? Please consider asking family or friends for help. Or even professionals. There are hotlines in almost every country.

And please consider donating to institutions that help people with depressions in your country!
One of many examples in Germany is:
https://www.deutsche-depressionshilfe.de/unterstuetzen-sie-uns/spenden
THANK YOU!

Lyrics, concept & creativity by me – music produced with AI (Suno).


[Intro]

[Verse 1]  
I run in circles, trapped inside my head,  
rewind the same regrets until I’m spent.  
The clock moves on but I stay in my bed,  
every second feels like punishment.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to rise, I want to change,  
but I’m paralyzed, locked in this cage.  
The days collapse, they slip away,  
while I just fade in slow decay.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the colors painted on my face,  
but inside it’s empty—only endless space.  

[Verse 2]  
Thoughts like spirals, spinning without end,  
a thousand miles and never one real step.  
It’s heavier than any race I’ve ran,  
just breathing leaves me out of breath.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to move, I want to care,  
but my hands hang useless in the air.  
The hours bleed, they disappear,  
I vanish quietly year by year.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the sunlight shining in my eyes,  
but inside it’s darkness, where the silence cries.  

[Bridge]  
Can you see the mask I wear?  
Can you hear the hollow stare?  
I play the part, the world believes…  
but behind the curtain, I can’t breathe.  

[Final Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the laughter, but it’s just disguise—  
inside I’m drowning, nothing left alive.  

[Outro]

A Smile That Lies

[Verse 1]
You drag me down, then pull me higher,
Every word you say just feeds the fire.
You break me just to make me feel,
And I keep coming back — can’t tell what’s real.
[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to walk away, but my soul won’t move,
You’re the bruise I hate, but I can’t remove.
Your love’s a wound I wear like art,
Burns through my body, straight to my heart.
[Chorus]
You got my heart on fire, baby,
Bleeding love, it’s driving me crazy.
Every kiss is pain and desire,
Oh, you got, you got my heart on fire.
[Verse 2]
You love like whiskey — smooth then cruel,
Got me playin’ the fool, breakin’ every rule.
Your touch is heaven dressed in sin,
And I still crave it all over again.
[Pre-Chorus]
You twist my faith, you pull my chain,
I keep tasting the smoke, still call your name.
Every scar just lights the spark,
You set the dark inside my heart.
[Chorus]
You got my heart on fire, baby,
Bleeding love, it’s driving me crazy.
Every kiss is pain and desire,
Oh, you got, you got my heart on fire.
[Bridge]
And I don’t know why I stay,
But I’d rather burn than fade away.
If love’s a crime, then I confess,
You’re my sin, my sweet regret.
[Final Chorus]
You got my heart on fire, baby,
It’s burning slow but it feels amazing.
Every touch just fans that flame,
And I’ll never love the same.
You got, you got my heart on fire —
And I don’t wanna put it out.

Copyright (c) 2025 Lisa Andreou * All Rights Reserved.

Heart on fire

if all i ever wanted was to be a star
i don’t think that i could ever get very far
driving fast in my hypothetical car
but we can already see the stars where we are
lying on the roof bumping @sxckerfish
i can spark joy but i’m still sick
got a star rod i’ll grant u a wish
what so u just want a kiss
superstar i just felt the high now
wanna do shows in my next hideout
in your arms i’m feeling alive now
i’m so charmed i feel i can fly now
im diving into a deeper ocean
no shark cage way out in the open
i was locked out but i broke in
ice queen and i don’t mean frozen

dedicated to riftia pachyptila, nine foot tall tube worms that live in clusters by thermal vents at the bottom of the ocean

superstar (prod. joysick)

Saudades e Promessas

Dans un rayon doré, là où la saison s’endort et le cœur s’éveille..
Les voix se mêlent comme des feuilles dans le vent, elles se teintent d’onirisme et de chaleur..

Soleil d’automne

Mmh…
I keep you… in my mind…
Every night… every time…
Yeah…

I see you walking through my thoughts when I close my eyes,
Your shadow dancing in the dark like a neon sign.
Every heartbeat pulls me closer to the sound of you,
You’re the whisper in my silence when the night shines through.
I’m floating every time you move, no gravity at all,
Like the moon is pulling me to you before I fall.
And when I try to run, you’re pulling me back inside,
A dream I can’t escape, no matter how I try.
And I can’t… can’t get away,
Even when the night fades, you still stay.
And I can’t… erase your trace,
You’re written in my mind, in every space.

You’re in my mind…
Baby, deep in my mind…
Even when I try to let go, you come back every time.
You’re in my mind…
Yeah, stuck in my mind…
Like a melody that never leaves the line.

Your smile hits me in the morning when the sky is grey,
Like a shimmer in the clouds that won’t fade away.
I breathe you in but you return like a distant song,
A tune stuck on repeat, playing all night long.
I’m diving deeper in the feeling every time you speak,
Every memory of you makes my knees grow weak.
And the more I move on, the more you pull me in,
You’re the loop inside my head that never seems to end.

And I can’t… can’t get away,
Even when the night fades, you still stay.
And I can’t… erase your trace,
You’re written in my mind, in every space.

You’re in my mind…
Baby, deep in my mind…
Even when I try to let go, you come back every time.
You’re in my mind…
Yeah, stuck in my mind…
Like a melody that never leaves the line.

In my head…
In my head…
You spin again, you spin again…
I can’t forget you, no…
Can’t turn you off…

In my mind…
You stay…
You stay…
Till the end of the night…

In my mind

SPOTIFY LINK
https://open.spotify.com/track/0PJejBQxzaJg7w8wTsJtsi?si=76386760192d4c9c

LYRICS
[Verse 1]
I’m staring at the mirror,
trying to find a face I recognize.
But it’s all been changing,
like I’m someone I don’t know yet.

[Pre-Chorus]
And everyone says, “You’ll figure it out,”
but what if I don’t?

[Chorus]
I don’t know who I am
or what I’m supposed to want.
I’m just trying to make it through the day
without losing myself completely.

[Verse 2]
Friends move on, plans fall apart,
and I’m still standing in the same spot.
Trying to act like I’m okay,
but inside it’s a mess I can’t clean up.

[Pre-Chorus]
And everyone says, “You’ll figure it out,”
but what if I don’t?

[Chorus]
I don’t know who I am
or what I’m supposed to want.
I’m just trying to make it through the day
without losing myself completely.

[Bridge]
Maybe there’s no answer,
just walking in the dark.
Maybe it’s okay
to be a little lost for a while.

[Final Chorus]
I don’t know who I am
and I’m scared I never will.
But maybe that’s the point
to keep trying anyway.

Losing Myself

One day you’ll understand,
one day I’ll leave you.
You already know —
굳이 말 안 해도, 숨만 봐도 티가 나.

설명 안 해도 되잖아,
그냥 오늘만 풀어,
딱 하루만 —
우린 서로 모르는 척한 채로.

I just wanna quickie,
제발 질문하지 마.
“What kinda relationship are we?”
그 말… 하지 마.

Do you really want me to be honest?
I can’t be.
난 너에게도, 나에게도
솔직할 수가 없어 — baby.

⸻
You want the truth but
truth is a bit too heavy.
넌 날 잡고 싶은데
난 늘 반 발짝엔 있어 — steady.

네 온도는 뜨거운데
내 맘은 이미 fading.
근데 웃긴 건…
오늘은 너 없인 breathing이 안 돼 — maybe.

⸻
I don’t wanna love you,
but your touch makes me stay.
원래 넌 나쁜 habit,
근데 끊기엔 이미 late.

Baby don’t ask for labels,
우린 이름 없는 state.
Just hold me for a moment,
’cause I might leave —
but not today.

⸻
침대 위 남은 체온이
내 맘을 다시 흔들어.
네 향기는 죄처럼 남아서
도망가도 따라와 — no blur.

매번 끝내려 하면
다시 너로 돌아가.
너의 눈빛 한 번이면
내 rational이 무너져 — 빠르게 crumble.

너도 알잖아,
우린 서로 답이 아니란 거.
근데 이 순간만큼은
너 말고는 아무도 아니야 — not even close.

Baby I ain’t good for you,
but tonight I’m good with you.
이대로 네 품에서
조금만 더 confused.

⸻
Don’t ask for forever —
너도 나도 몰라 그거.
We’re better when we’re broken,
더 위험할수록 서로를 끌어안는 버릇.

Say nothing…
just kiss me,
그게 우리 언어야 —
아프게 달콤한 misfit.

⸻

I don’t wanna love you,
but your touch makes me stay.
원래 넌 나쁜 habit,
근데 끊기엔 이미 late.

Baby don’t ask for labels,
우린 이름 없는 state.
Just hold me for a moment,
’cause I might leave —
but not today.

⸻

One day you’ll understand,
and maybe I will too.
One day I’ll leave you—
but tonight…
I’m folded into you.

Bad habit

Why Me, Why You, Why Us” is a raw, heartbreaking duet about loving someone who was never fully yours. The song follows a woman who thought she found her forever—only to discover he had a whole other life. On the other side, the man confesses he fell too deep, too fast, torn between the family he built and the love he didn’t expect.

superstar (prod. joysick)

joysick

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