Lyrics-

They say that bad things happen for a reason,
But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?
Like I already hate myself….

Yeah

I hate what I’ve become
All the pain that I feel, I wish I could let go of some

All the thoughts in my head
Wish I could sleep off in my bed

Instead I lay awake
Replaying all the shit I wish that was fake

All the people I lost
The things I’ve done, at what cost?

Chances I had
Things I shouldn’t have said, my bad

I never think before I speak

I just run my fucking mouth
Thats a shitty thought

But hell its true

They say that bad things happen for a reason,
But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?
Like I already hate myself….

I always lose my judgement
When I drink

Fuck I hate myself
I really do

Like you don’t even understand
Being me is so fucking hard

Trying to make everyone happy
But there’s always that one people who’s snappy

Ex girls needed to much
And I still cared a bunch

Family expects too much
And I still tried a bunch

Fuckkkk

Work and school, I try my hardest
Really I think I do my best

But I just keep on failing
And all this shit is all building

Turning to drugs
Or something to help me stay numb

This ain’t a healthy life
And I don’t want it

I just wanna be happy
Instead of waking up feeling crappy

But I don’t know what else to do
I don’t know what else to fucking do
All my chance I already blew

Fuck I need help…..

I hate what I’ve become
All the pain that I feel, I wish I could let go of some

All the thoughts in my head
Wish I could sleep off in my bed

Instead I lay awake
Replaying all the shit I wish that was fake

All the people I lost
The things I’ve done, at what cost?

Chances I had
Things I shouldn’t have said, my bad

I never think before I speak

I just run my fucking mouth

They say that bad things happen for a reason,
But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?
Like I already hate myself….

Yeah

I hate what I’ve become
All the pain that I feel, I wish I could let go of some

All the thoughts in my head
Wish I could sleep off in my bed

Instead I lay awake
Replaying all the shit I wish that was fake

All the people I lost
The things I’ve done, at what cost?

Chances I had
Things I shouldn’t have said, my bad

I never think before I speak

I just run my fucking mouth
Thats a shitty thought

But hell its true

They say that bad things happen for a reason,
But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?
Like I already hate myself….

Sorry this ain’t my best work
Its just hard to put in effort

Im so sick of feeling like a piece of shit man
Like why do bad things only happen to me man

I do all this shit and end up with nothing
Im tired of running and overworking 

I need a break
From life

Yah feel me

They say that bad things happen for a reason,
But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?
Like I already hate myself….

Ive already tried to end it
But I can’t hurt the people around me

Fuckk I hate myself

Hate Myself

JrFTW, born Kevin Doyle Jr. on April 23, 1998, in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, exemplifies resilience, ambition, and creative versatility. A self-published digital music recording artist, mental health advocate, and entrepreneur, JrFTW has channeled his passions into multiple ventures, leaving an indelible mark across various fields.

Early Life and Education

Kevin Doyle Jr. graduated high school in 2017 and pursued a technical education to become a Toyota Certified mechanic. While excelling academically, his passion for music and innovation was evident from an early age. He joined the workforce as an ASE-certified auto mechanic, dedicating himself to Toyota Motor Company from 2015 to 2022. During this period, he balanced his professional career while nurturing his creative pursuits in music.

Music Career

JrFTW’s journey as a recording artist began in 2012. With a unique ability to fuse multiple genres—including Hip-Hop/Rap, Pop, Christian Rap, and Alternative—he quickly established himself as a versatile and innovative creator. His self-published works convey deeply personal messages of hope, perseverance, and resilience, reflecting his unwavering dedication to motivate and inspire others.

The name “JrFTW” holds profound significance for Kevin. “Jr” acknowledges his legacy as a junior, while “FTW,” standing for “for the win,” symbolizes his determination to overcome challenges and achieve greatness. Through his music, JrFTW has created a platform to share his journey and connect with audiences on a meaningful level.

Advocacy for Mental Health

In December 2021, JrFTW expanded his impact by becoming a mental health advocate. This decision stemmed from personal experiences and a profound desire to support others facing challenges. His advocacy aligns with his overarching mission to uplift and empower people through music, mentorship, and community engagement.

Entrepreneurial Ventures

JrFTW’s entrepreneurial spirit came to life in January 2022 with the launch of Infinitum Imagery LLC, a drone imagery company. The company specializes in high-quality imagery and videography services, combining cutting-edge technology with artistic vision. This venture allowed him to blend creativity with innovation, further showcasing his ability to excel in diverse domains.

In March 2022, JrFTW founded the TikTok LIVE Creator Network, a groundbreaking initiative designed to empower digital creators. This community-driven network provides creators with tools, resources, and mentorship to optimize their performance and earnings on TikTok. By January 2025, JrFTW expanded his influence further by managing a Favorited LIVE agency, solidifying his leadership role in the creator economy and strengthening his commitment to fostering creative success.

Multifaceted Career and Legacy

JrFTW’s career is defined by his relentless pursuit of excellence across various domains. Whether producing music, advocating for mental health, or leading entrepreneurial ventures, he is driven by a vision to inspire and empower others. His ability to balance his passions and maintain authenticity underscores his commitment to making a positive impact.

As an independent artist, JrFTW thrives on the freedom to create and innovate. His work exemplifies his desire to make a living doing what he loves while inspiring others to chase their dreams. His dedication to self-expression, advocacy, and entrepreneurship continues to resonate with audiences worldwide.

Contact and Social Media

For serious inquiries, JrFTW can be reached at jrftw@infinitumlive.com.

Stay connected and follow his journey:
Social Media: @jrftw
Linktree: https://linktr.ee/jrftw

JrFTW’s story is a testament to resilience, creativity, and determination. From his roots as a mechanic to becoming a multifaceted artist and entrepreneur, his unwavering dedication inspires and uplifts those around him.

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Hate Myself

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