oh no! (ft. skele) (prod. jolst)

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

Listen on Spotify!

When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

amv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LT7FyConbo
thank you all for the amazing support just in general.
love you all. take care
featuring my extremely talented friend @sleepywater 💙
prod. @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
[autumn]
you ok?..

so i tell myself
don't die on me
don't lie to me

i lie here, ask how i'm doing
words out my mouth 
is it trash that i'm spewing?
i deserve hell for every wrongdoing
you sewed up my heart
just after i skewed it

hate when anybody talk to me
there's not a lot to me
i'm just distraught and weak
there's so much to do in the day (day)
what do i have to do to make you stay (stay)

how does this world expect me to keep going
when all that i have are depleting emotions
and all that i am is pathetic and hopeless
and all that i ask, and all that i ask is to leave

i'm begging please
i'm falling down
whenever you leave
don't make a sound
don't even breathe
i finished counting all my steps
a cliff they lead

[sleepwater]
i'll be ready, drowning
heart beat too fast; anxiety
in my hollow frame
lost cause, puppet brain

spewing my heart 
over a fire; got dark
will you be my ember 
stuck in a cauldron
do you remember when i was holding
your achy arms i was all upon it
you got my clothes but 
you could of stopped it
sorry for the vacancy i wish i locked
it was a fucking job to you 
i wish i stopped it

[autumn]
lawless; aching doesn't stop
isn't this what i wanted from you
i'm so awful

[sleepwater]
don't make a sound, don't make a scene
filling my lungs with nicotine 
oh damn ur the one that i'll ever need
damn ur the one that just let me be

[autumn]
(let me be)
don't really know why you like me
are you just starving
for someone's pysche?
i can hear the hounds
yeah they're howling in the darkness
wonder what they found
either molly or a carcass

[sleepwater]
im prowling in the twilight
everything you say now its a delight
maybe ur an angel in disguise 
fucking up my psyche, cutting all my ties

[autumn]
i cannot talk for long
there's somewhere i gotta be
the green of the forest it calls
yeah i got a date with the-
i got a date with the trees

tell me who i am
and who i'm supposed to be
won't be here for long
bitemarks made with teeth
the frostwalker it crawls
arriving at your feet
let it rest beneath...

puppet brain w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @imperial223
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

produced by imalmostjoey
completely non profit

lyrics

u gotta listen
i got an ear for the music
i got some thoughts for u to listen to 
cus lately im winning
like half the lyrics are stupid
u aint got shit that u proving
least when i run my mouth 
i ditch the couch and get up n prove it

honestly 
when did everything become so damn trife
watchin me
why does every body think theyre damn right
totally
to say this is a skill is fucking toxic? right..
totally
insulting to the ones who live this damn life

thats how i know u aint about it like i am
i know a lot of fuckin artists who are honestly just fans
it aint about what u accomplish but the texture of ur hands
cus if u had a spine at all u'd plant ur feet n take a damn stand

damn tramp
u aint ever caught a damn hand
trust a good knock to ur head will shake ur brain n all that damp sand 
wam bam
love to see ur back bend
how u getting pressed about a fight u fuckin started man
shady plans 
why u throwin shade out on ur twitter fam
make amends
never gonna happen if u play pretend
i just had to say my piece 
oh who knows if it was a waste of breath 
its sad i hit the scene nd had to ask 
like where the music at

honestly 
when did everything become so damn trife
watchin me
why does every body think theyre damn right
totally
to say this is a skill is fucking toxic? right..
totally
insulting to the ones who live this damn lie

nevermind

sleep talking (imalmostjoey)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

❣6 missed calls (ft. noah2000 and lil skele) (prod. nevrfall)❣

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