lost cause (ft. sendflowrs) (prod. jolst + remghost)

prod @taurs and @jolst

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

dead weight (taurs x jolst)

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

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death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

bombay

~2300~

@lilskeleskrrt @slmnmore

Lyrics:

[HOOK]
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs

[skele]
i always do this every month should prolly heal up
i think you need me too much
i think i want you no love
painting the wall red maroon
dreams of the champagne
“i do”
know my heart bled
leave you
it’s so hard to see you
i need you here tonight
put the nine up to my skull
i wanna feel alive
hold me until i’m close
i’m saying why do you keep me around 
i always weigh you down
it’s not the way that i want
to make you feel stuck
baby i won’t make a sound 
need you to cover my mouth 
put my head to the gun
and let the steel touch
this is so fucked
you used to love me so much

[HOOK]
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs 
I’m on the borderline
Seen death in my sleep
Tell me there’s more to life 
I’m in your crosshair
Pull the trigger let it fly
It’s me and you tonight
I’ll be my own demise
And you won't see the signs

[VITO]
Watch ‘em labor away
They’re digging the grave i’ll lay in 
Counting the days i’ve been
Just wasting away
Unfazed by your influence
You saw what it coulda been
But i’m drained out i’ve been hollow since 
Not a lot of those options left
Can you deal with the consequence?
I’ve never been good at this
Nine lives I ain’t got one left
You threw all your caution west
Still breaking your promises

borderline w/ skele & slmnMORE

curse

Night Shift

thank you to https://soundcloud.com/sendflowrs https://soundcloud.com/remghost https://soundcloud.com/jvbeats666

it's so ugly
i let everyone control me 
and i can't think 
so i just lay awake and worry
blurry
your words just cut me , have some mercy
you never fail to leave me scars
that's why i'm hurting

it's why i'm hurting
i can see your eyes
i know they're burning
and i can't feel you in the dark
i know you're lurking
you really love to see me bleed
i'll close my eyes now
you really love to leave me scars
so bring the knife out

(flowrs)
knife out, knife out
baby bring the knife out 
and i’m so fucking sick of this
i guess i’ll say goodnight now
and i know you’re laying with him 
so i’ll scratch my fucking eyes out
you’re tryna match his breathing
he’s asleep, i’ll fucking cry now
gave me 3 chances, 
blew em all i guess i’ll strike out 
your rope is weak, this fucking hole i’ll never climb out 
she told me “never go to sleep with all the lights out”
cus she won’t show me mercy, wants me dead, i guess i’ll die now

lost cause (ft. sendflowrs) (prod. jolst + remghost)

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