𝗡𝗮𝗺𝗲(𝘀) :
Elliot or pizza boy



Life has a way of shaping us—sometimes through joy, and other times through pain. For me, it’s been mostly the latter. My story is one of gradual unraveling, where hope, self-worth, and dreams slowly faded as I fought my own battles. Once, I believed in the future, in the idea that with enough effort, things could get better. But somewhere along the way, I lost that belief.

It wasn’t one defining moment but a series of setbacks and failures that chipped away at my optimism. At first, I tried to pretend everything was fine. I put on a mask for the world, showing a face that was far from what I felt inside. I smiled on the outside, but inside, I was dying. I felt isolated, not because I was alone, but because I couldn’t connect with anyone. I didn’t know how to explain the darkness I carried within me.

No matter how far I ran from the pain, it always found me. Disappointments, failures, and heartaches piled on top of each other until they became too heavy to ignore. I withdrew from people because I was afraid that if they saw who I really was, they would abandon me. So, I built walls—tall, unbreachable walls—to keep everyone at a distance. But in reality, I wasn’t protecting myself. I was just digging myself deeper into a hole I couldn’t climb out of.

I became exhausted. The weight of it all wore me down physically and emotionally. Sleep was no relief. I didn’t have the energy for the things I once loved—hobbies, friendships, even basic self-care. The idea of success felt foreign to me. I couldn’t picture myself achieving anything. Hope had evaporated, leaving only resignation.

I tried seeking help—therapy, medication, talking to friends—but nothing seemed to work. The advice was well-meaning but felt empty. No one understood. How could they? No one knew what it was like to feel so disconnected, to carry so much pain and not know how to escape it.

Over time, I realized there was no quick fix. The scars of my past don’t fade easily. They’re a part of me now, shaping who I am. But despite everything, there are moments, however brief, when the weight becomes lighter. I’ve learned that I have to keep moving, even when it feels pointless. Some days are harder than others, but each step, no matter how small, is a step forward.

I may never fully understand why I’ve gone through so much, but I know that I can’t give up. The past has been cruel, but there’s still a part of me that’s willing to fight for a better future. Even if that fight feels impossible at times, it’s the only thing I have left—and that, in itself, is something worth holding onto.

To those who read finish, thanks for reading. I wish you a blessed day ahead.
A huge thanks to my girlfriend. You really make my day worth living. Thank you to my friends too. I'm glad that I have you guys.

Milestone is to hit 100 likes. Right now at 17!

CHALLENGE ME IF YOU DARE!? also i like starburst:D BUT DONT TELL ANYONE! DONT EVEN TELL THAT MAGGOT MAFIOSO OR WGAT EVER HIS NAME IS 😡 AND DONT EVEN TELL JOHN DO! OR YOU WILL SEE DEATH KNOCKING AT YOUR DOOR >:(

" i just wanna die, please just let me die.. " 
michi , nic , raven - 20 / 11 / XXXX= 
he / they ( any but she ) ~
~bi , asex , genderfluid , trans 
i am a minor ( 3teen ) ~

more of my fws !! 📸 ^q^ 
interest(s) : forsaken , pjsk , cookie run , trud , r1999 , alnst , boboiboy , osc ( ii , animatic , tpot ) , matsuro palette , let him go , dw , fear and hunger , dead plate , elevator hitch , cold front , married in red , regretevator , bsd , rimuru tempest , block tales , sprunki oh i have so many interest that ion think it'll truly fully all fit in this little bio..haha

i love : 1x1x1x1 ( roblox myth ) , astro novalite ( dw ) , elliot ( work at pizza plc ) , hinomori shiho ( pjsk ) , two ( bfdi ) , taph ( forsaken ) , melania ( r1999 ) so far these r the characters i highly fw !!

ships i fw : electricflower , moonberry , moonflower , funnyberry, moonshell , reflectivedetective , detectivetea , cleanbrowserhistory (dw) , twogaty , payjay , phonejay , xfour , clockymatic( osc ), polyneed , ichishiho , emurui , mizumafu , kanamizu , enamafu , enamizu , enakana , anmizu , antoya ( pjsk ) , noobpizza , gamblinguest , 1xdoe , silenthatred ( 1x x taph ) , dusetaph , luckypizza ( forsaken ) , isolkania , sonetilda (r1999) , splitbive (regretevator) , darksheriff , sheriffcult , yellowtrumpet (sprunki)

mainly to music taste . 🎹🎼
artists : icp , tyler the creator , mitski miyawaki and msi ( i dont support msi btw )
ofc i have some songs i listen outside from this 3 artists i mostly listen..haha
this is a good example of tracks i always listen !! ha
- a tad of azealia banks and ayesha erotica , odetari , durpo1x : in which i listen to some of their discography but not that much i fw

- bloodhound gang , pinkpantheress , banshee : i only listen to like 2 tracks of em

thts all i can fill in and.. more than my music !!

not-too-important-datas .🔌🎬 !
mbti / enneagram.. (which is weird but i get tht results) : intp / 9w5
i kin kamishiro rui ( pjsk ) , astro novalite ( dw ) , sigma ( bsd ) , mephone4 ( ii ) 
socials : 
dc / nixcole_xzs
  tt / n1cole_xs
   twt / n1cole_xs

my notes ~ !
love typing here than typing on janitorai.com honestly.. writing here feels so damn smooth and the text limit too, is this even so usual for a bio to be this long?? no?? thats why i love soundcloud more than spotify even if i use both listening apps..lol i mean everytime i type a single sentence on janitorai.ai i can feel lag as i type therw
why do i dis felt like my own fucking diary now lmao

[  " Be strong. Always.. Be strong.. " ]
                            
           - MARRIED TO JOHN DOE -
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      PLAYING - WHEN THE BELLS GRIEVE.

Posting My Incredibox Mixes on SoundCloud

also hello my name is Aurora I make Incredibox mixes because it's fun

Official Soundcloud of The Living Tombstone. New album 'zero_one' available now!

I like memes if you people wholed like to send memes to me (if it allows people to send stuff) so if you find memes for me so you guys like to try to make me laugh so try!! and also have a good day!!! :) i was like 11 when i made this vro. dont bully me about it

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