us against the world - juli

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

break a broken heart

@sorrow x @no.cape x @juli x @thebootlegboy - deeper than before

cursed

the pain of things being too good

ashes - Julia Alexa

if i'm being honest - Julia Alexa

something so fake...

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lyrics:
there’s a bomb
in my chest
and i can’t
fall asleep
with it ticking so loud
know it’s burned in my dreams
you don’t notice the sound
you don’t notice anymore

i buried my face in your chest
just to learn how to breath
how to pick through the silence
hear when it speaks
i’m afraid to get out
i’m afraid of an open door

and i’ve been talking to myself
i don’t wanna let anybody know what he’s been saying

and i’ve been calling out for help
i don’t wanna give anymore of the person i’ve been trading

all for nothing


there’s a knife
in my gut
but it’s giving me peace
cause there’s order in circles
i’m twisting to read
in between all the lines
inbetween empty promises

and i’m breaking apart
to learn how to rebuild
all the vessels inside of my heart that were killed
when i crashed into shore
i’m atop of a sinking ship

and i’ve been talking to myself
i don’t wanna let anybody know what he’s been saying

and i’ve been calling out for help
i don’t wanna give anymore of the person i’ve been trading

all for nothing

disappearing on slow motion

far from home (w juli) prod blocktane & nate2timez

Dark Days Anyway.m4a

hi, i write & sing <3
contact me on insta juliaalex.a
my spam: @ilyjuli
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us against the world - juli

☆Julia Alexa☆

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