i’m either numb or i feel way too much
i’ve come to terms who i am and how it’s just my luck
i always hated change i hate it worse involving breaking up
when i can feel i gotta front
i’m always acting tough
i’m missing all the days with not a worry in the world
cause now i’m in a daze just tryna make some sense of it
as soon as i climb out i fall into a deeper pit of darkness 
leaving me to wonder if i never found my way out
would i be missed

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do i feel like this
anxiety has got a hold on me it’s got a tight grip
my fist striking the concrete while on night shift
so many people but i still don’t know where i fit
i don’t wanna work a normal job 
i got dreams i could reach if i carry on
i have days when i feel like i could be on top
but then most of the other days i hate every single song

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do good people have to go through bad things
why do people like you more when you have a little fame
why do people have advice for you when they are not the same
why can i not explain the reason that i have this pain
i don’t know if it’s cause and effect
i don’t know if it’s something that i’m bound with to my death
all i know is that half the time i feel like i am dead
and the other half anticipate for when it comes again

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

i'm either numb or i feel way too much (prod. cloud cadet)

i don't think love is real

us against the world - juli

cursed

lonely

alone with me - Julia Alexa

the pain of things being too good

cigarettes - Julia Alexa

Maybe you don't want me...

Discover Thomas Reid:
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0dcxj82ddksd6tDDcJgbqo?si=-O1Ii6RgTaKCD8_BdvoQvQ&dl_branch=1
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgwYdPzYFFKWu_7tCAAGQZw
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thomasreidmusic/

Lyrics:
I thought about
Calling your number
I don’t why I couldn’t press send
I’m hovering my heart 
Over a live volcano
Opening up pandora’s box
On the edge

I though about
Telling you I love you
I’m not sure what that feels like now
I know that you don’t think I’m going to heaven
Maybe you don’t want me dragging you down

But do you dream of when
We could be a family
Just be here again
Maybe it’s a fantasy

I thought about
Telling you I’m sorry
I didn’t pick up the pieces right
I’m spending every weekend at your apartment
Wondering if every kid hears the fights

I thought about
Hiding in my bedroom
Watching as the rays from my night light glow
I’m clinging to your coat, oh daddy don’t leave now
Don’t know how to fight the monsters alone

Do you dream of when
We could be a family
Just be here again
Maybe it’s a fantasy

Music video

Maybe it's a Fantasy (Prod. idly blare)

torn up

All tracks on the CD have been written in Quench Arts' Musical Connections project - a longstanding music and wellbeing project for adults. The project uses creative music-making to help people to express their feelings and emotions and build personal, social, artistic and life skills, whilst having fun and making friends.

Quench Arts is a not for profit organisation based in Birmingham in the UK. If you like what you hear and want to help us continue to run our music and wellbeing programmes, please do consider donating to us via: paypal.me/QuenchArts.
You can find out more about Quench Arts and our programmes at:
www.quench-arts.co.uk.
Thanks loads and hope you enjoy listening!!

27. Seeing Into Eyes To Eyes - Victoria Stead

hi, i write & sing <3
contact me on insta juliaalex.a
my spam: @ilyjuli
@lonelymusic18
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us against the world - juli

☆Julia Alexa☆

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