Been locked away so many times
Always losing my goddamn mind
Maybe they should throw away the key
Cuz I can’t handle reality

It all started when my grandma died
Cancer in the brain made me run and hide
In the shower so my tears would be masked by the water
Hasn’t changed much even though I’ve gotten much older

My hormones started raging and I found out I was gay
My best friend Jacob stopped wanting to play 
Learned to trade my looks for attention that I need
But if you cut me I’ll still bleed

When I was 18 I ran away
Hopped on a plane ended up in LA
Lived with bunch of twink porn stars
We were all trying to hide our scars

Cuz being a faggot is a hard row to sow
Especially when your highs are high and your lows are low
My parents couldn’t give me the love that I need
They act like I’m from another breed

So I grew up not knowing who to trust
If it’s love or if it’s lust
I numbed the pain by fuckin up my brain
And watched my life go down the drain

Finally it all took its toll
And I ended up in a starring roll
As the local crazy homeless guy
All I wanted was to get by

So i cling to the few that remain
I bitch and complain about all of my pain
To the ones who don’t care if it rains
On their parade or that I’m insane

Still I spend nearly every single day 
Looking for a slightly better way
To die cuz I’d be better off dead 
If someone put a bullet in the back of my head

Been locked away so many times
Always losing my goddamn mind
Maybe they should throw away the key
Cuz I can’t handle reality

locked away (rap)

on the first day of spring (acoustic)

I don’t wanna go crazy no more
I don’t wanna go crazy no more
I don’t wanna go crazy no more

I don’t wanna be sad no more
I don’t wanna be sad no more
I don’t wanna be sad no more

I don’t wanna be in pain no more
I don’t wanna be in pain no more
I don’t wanna be in pain no more

I just want something real yeah
I just want something real yeah
I just want something real yeah

I just want your arms around me 
I just want your arms around me 
I just want your arms around me

I don’t wanna die alone no
I don’t wanna die alone no
I don’t wanna die alone no

Hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
Where are you you you you you you you you you you
Hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
Where are you you you you you you you you you you
Hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
Where are you you you you you you you you you you
Hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
Where are you you you you you you you you you you
I need you now

where are you

Dear Princess
My mitochondrial DNA is really common where you were born
What do you think about that
Would you marry
A homosexual with mental illness if he had a meta-verse world  that your children could inherit
And be an emperor of two entirely different worlds
Can you fathom
A life of middle class country food and American cable tv
Or we can go all over the world
I dig all kinds of things
I like to know, I like to explore, I like to dig
I’d like to do things good for me
My track record hasn’t proven very good
But I’ll do better
If you will ask
Your mom and dad what they think of what I ask
Cuz if you do
Marry me
Maybe we will be happy for a little while

marry me, princess of orange

I did drugs today with my best friend
She got thirsty but said water makes her dehydrated
Oh, yeah
Her sign is Aquarius, but she lies a lot
I’ve known her for 25 years
But I don’t think that'll stop anytime soon
We used to stay up til dawn and drive to the beach
But she would make sure the ocean was always out of reach
I wonder why
I’m not surprised she hates the thing that makes up who we are
It’s probably the same reason she gets kicked out of so many bars

Hydrogen and oxygen are necessary for life
But that doesn’t mean they don’t cause unnecessary strife
When they evolve into a lump of shit that has a brain
And can walk around creating all different kinds of pain

Oh water water everywhere, but no one stops to think
What would happen if it all dried up, and there was none to drink
Who would be a tank girl or a kangaroo mutant
We could move into the desert and live in a tent
Cuz at least there we wouldn’t even notice any difference
And we wouldn’t have to worry about paying rent
We could be like all those holy men who meditate in place
Instead of consuming liquids for 40 days
That could be all bullshit, but that’s what they say


Solid, liquid, or gas
It can be a pain in the ass

Solid, Liquid, or Gas

Walk Down Any Street

I’d believe if you would just say so
Down on my knees not knowing where to go
I don’t need all the knowledge in the world
These pages leave my mind in such a whirl

Give me a sign
Is it the end of times
Am I doing fine
Walking this blind line

The story’s been told too many times
everybody wants their lime light
holy roles  made up for them
Head to toe and limb from  limb

Blind Line

secure (guitar)

they say i'm lost and with no cause
but i'm a man with debt that money won't pay
i roam the streets inside my own head
and i'm pissed because i haven't found god yet

paper matters like a pound of shit
lost my bible four years ago and still haven't looked for it
i drink just a little and smoke way too many cigarettes
and i'm living off the hope that it gets me by

cause i'm a good bad man
i know too many worse, but i know my own sins

some say there's no direction for lost souls
i just don't know where i'm going yet
i follow stars and i pray to the moon
but sometimes the moon runs away

cause i'm a good bad man
i know too many worse, but i know my own sins

Good Bad Man

neurodivergent asexual being from Georgia

Blind Line

Jupiter Davidson

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