Mix n master:  @iwannabemissed 

Lyrics </3:

Woke up feeling like not myself 
Woke up feeling like it’s okay 
I jus -I jus wanna be myself 
You can’t tell me it’s not okay

Stay away from me if you wanna hate me
You can take my screws apart but can’t replace me
I can’t even see a reason why you’d date me 
Cause I really hate myself but they still chase  me

There’s a party in my bedroom 
I think you should come too
Sorry I aint text you 
Promise I’ll be sober soon 

There’s a party in my bedroom 
I think you should come too
Sorry I aint text you 
Promise I’ll be sober soon 

Walk into the party there’s too many people 
I jus came here so I could see you 
We can be together maybe in the sequel 
Cause I could never never find a way that I could keep you

wanna be my freind but talk about me after 
I don’t even care address it with some laughter 
I just shut you out too, so what’s the matter? 
I don’t even careeeee I don’t even careeeeeee

Woke up feeling like not myself 
Woke up feeling like it’s okay 
I jus -I jus wanna be myself 
You can’t tell me it’s not okay

Stay away from me if you wanna hate me
You can take my screws apart but can’t replace me
I can’t even see a reason why you’d date me 
Cause I really hate myself but they still chase  me

Its Okay >_<

we'd be cute together (prod. tsein)

im js sayin @omgartixan

outside bitch n ur really looking so cute
fragile bitch idk what ima do w u
i stay crossfaded, im so fucking hated
dont u act so surprised, u’ll b my corpse decapitated

cigarette burns onto my fucking arms
bleed out dry onto my scars
in the backyard, do u smell the burning roses?
dead in the trash, as it slowly decomposes

pretty suicide, do u wanna come w me
lets go out for a walk i feel so fucking empty
killings so much fun once ur in love
its not your fault, ur not the one

uhhhh who knew that itd be this fun
uhhhh all these pictures im gonna throw up

ribcage shown i look like a skeleton
feel so sick im gonna need some medicine
putrid and pretty, in the snow come w me
play me like a puppet, post me on ur ig

i wanna die famous, put me on ur playlist
she gon break my heart #StayFaceless
scared me so bad, u just make me sad
tell me what u want, ill tell u something bad

uhhhh i js thought u were the one
uhhhh show me how to make life fun

its not your fault (glorygasp)

-
tear my heart
cut my arm
tell me that its not true
always crying wen u say shit
ion wanna argue 
i js wanna fix it
all my love
take my thots
cloudy day wen ur not round me
n u told me that u found me
always knew we were the black sheep
its always darker in the night
u said no its not a lie
no its not a lie
but its a lie 
but its a lie
yea its a lie
its a lie
all my life
all my life
yeah, ohh
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie 
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie
yea its a lie

its a lie @omgartixan

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The track is currently deleted/unavailable. Original artwork has been salvaged. Part of the archival project 'Sarajevo' (Internal) - track archived on the 30th of June, 2025 saved. 

ADORE YOU - lavendr, fallen ang3lx, nightiger

prod kuva
i got bored

instagram.com/2011raver

@p7e

i dont feel affection
kill her on the first date
dats my first impression


i dont need ur questions
better kyx
thats just a suggestion (dont ban me sc)
i dont feel affection

you wont get the best of me
i hate u bb cxant u see
i dont feel affection
kill her on the first date
dats my first impression

(vocal chops)

affection

beat produced by my brother @misalivee ilyy #BFC

𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬://
@disoc8
are you even human?
my wrists are in a ruin,
i feel so alone doing drugs in my room :c
stop.
popstar, smokin OG at the partyyy
rockstar, mix amphetamines in my molly,

crush a pill, cuz i luv the way it makes me fuckin feel <3
make a deal, keep it fkn comin i don't wanna heal.
(dissociate), every single second i feel so surreal,
bby come with me i'll show u something real.

i don't need sense of direction
i live in fucked up perfection
take more, no need for reflection
friends always leave i'm so used to rejection

cut here, cut there, nobody's gonna care
i feel so scared, i fucking hate it here
i don't care about a thing i'm gonna die this year
i don't care about a fucking thing i'm gonna die this year

my girl is a bad bitch,
last one was a catfish
checkin on ur fkn ig that shit was tragic
they say i'm bipolar,
they say that i'm manic,
i just think i'm boss and see my numbers getting massive

!!!
not everything that is dark is an invitation,
my music does not intend to advertise self-destruction.
i'm not promoting it, i'm surviving it
if you cannot process that, just skip the fucking song
take care<3

POPSTAR SUICIDE (misalive)

cc

produced by me

I saw your picture
Hanging on the back of my door
Won't give you my heart
No one lives there anymore

And we were lovers
Now we can't be friends
Fascination ends
Here we go again

'Cause it's cold outside
When you coming home?
'Cause it's hot inside
Isn't that enough?

I'm not in love

I'm not in love

I'm not in love

I'm not in love

Could it be that
Time has taken its toll?
Won't take you so far
I am in control

And we were lovers
Now we can't be friends
Fascination ends
Here we go again
'Cause it's cold outside

When you coming home?
'Cause it's hot inside
Isn't that enough?

I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love

Now we can't be friends
Fascination ends
Here we go again

'Cause it's cold outside
When you coming home?
'Cause it's hot inside
Isn't that enough?

I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love
I'm not in love
We are not in love
We are not in love
We are not in love
We are not in love
We are not in love

Not in Love

prod @soreu_u

lyrics

i cant even find a reason i cant even find myself
holiday is comming but i wnna kms
the feelings, touch everything it just hurts fkn so much
i keep my razors on me in case i wnna give up
I dont wnna lose you, your rotten body on my mind 
jus forget wat i said i was never thinking right 
i think about suicide i can see it in my eyes 
im feeling putrid tonight, im all dolled up to take my life 
baby look at me, how did i end up like dis?
i jus threw up on the sink, you are jus a another bitch
all drugged up to take my life, its alr past my time 
baby be mine ill never feel fine 
love me if u hold me, damn i feel lonely 
baby show me, they already told me 
throwing up on the sink, you keep lying to me 
im the only one u need, youre the only one i need

I feel sick I throw up, on the rug
reform me jesus i just need another chance (need my soul repent)
its getting cold
baby hold me
i keep crying
cus im lonely 


throwing up on the sink *throw up pt.2* #dolledupsuicide (sore)

Produced by me
-
Gaunt skin and gossamer wings 
Be careful in the rain or you might forfeit your chance to fly again 
-
He met a girl
She said I recognize
In her dream, she’d seen that pair of weary eyes 
-
Beware what frolicking brings 
If you leave your wings outside the wind might sweep both of them into the drain 
-
She met a man
Told that forty candles gets a prize
before the 27th, rope replaced the tie
-
Adorn my hands in porcelain plasters 
Don’t you it think it has something to ask her
A sore throat and a cough from the cold 
The snowy night peppered with cheering and laughter
-
Stuck in a room with nothing but antlers 
The phone rings but nobody answers
Mend the cracks with silver and gold, so if I stumble and fall it looks pretty when I shatter 
-
A seamstress came asking to amend 
To make revisions with their needle and thread
Soft blonde hair for the fractured head 
And chartreuse eyes for its broken legs
But make sure if you ever do the mouth 
To stitch it shut from north to south 
To ensure that those cruel words will never leak 
-
Have you heard about the man 
Who lives inside the wall
Fingers just like spiders legs
I heard he’s very tall 
Have you heard about the women 
Who lives under the stairs 
Eyes as black as night 
And cum caked between her hair 
Have you heard about the thing
That sleeps inside the fridge 
It’s so dark and cold in there it must be shivering 
Have you heard about the angel
Who comes into your room 
I heard he grants four wishes
I’m sure you’ll hear more soon

AS I STAND ON BROKEN LEGS

It's just Kherty.

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ADORE YOU - lavendr, fallen ang3lx, nightiger

Just Kherty

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