a remix of a score i made for a friend's thesis. generative edit
SEND FOR PERCENTIUS
SPAAWN
IZE
DOT.JAIME
LUI. 
AHJU$$I
JP HILL
BABYBLUE
MAALIW
ESCURI

Cocoon (WARJUKE 2021)[SEND FOR %, SPAAAWN, IZE, DOT.JAIME, LUI., AHJU$$I, JP HILL, BABYBLUE, MAALIW]

From Rogue Media:
"Someone taps you on the shoulder and offers you another drink. You graciously accept and walk to the kitchen, away from the clutter and the high-stakes pusoy dos game currently underway. Your friend sits on the counter next to a half dozen unopened Coke bottles, you lean against the fridge covered in family photos.

 “We really should get the band back together.”

“Hey, just say when!”

You dive back into memories that feel like they belong to other people. You talk about your high school dreams that have been put on hold, and for a while, they feel like they’re within reach again." ~ Emil Hofileña

last solo song from me this year; gonna hibernate; see you homiez next year

[ capsule ja:09 beat tape due Feb 2017 ]
American Beauty Dialogue

Yooooooo. If u ever see this, thank you. Thank you for accepting me as a part of ur life. Thanks for walking with me, and bearing my weirdness. Most importantly, thank you for healing my heartburns. You will eventually find out it was you all along. I just wish you were with me longer. There are so many things left unsaid. I noticed after the glances you gave me. To this day, it remained with me. It was a sign that you either want to delete me in your life, or I mattered to you. I just want to let you know that because of how your presence dwells in my life, I make beat offerings like these. I owe my success to you. For now, I will be silent, as i watch you smile making other people smile as well. There will never be anyone like u. It will be a while to admit to u. I aint ready yet. The vibe will flow soon. 

i wish u stayed, there's still a place in my heart for u. this beat is the relief i finally have because i still exist in your life [i still think you find me annoying]

WHY AM I MAKING SUCH A BIG DEAL OUT OF THIS??? WHY AM I STILL INTO YOU?? WHY DO I KEEP TELLING MY FRIENDS THAT I LOVE YOU???

WHEN CAN I EVER ADMIT HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU???????

I MADE THIS BEAT CUZ IT'S WHAT I HEAR IN MY HEAD WHEN U WERE WALKING WITH ME ONE MORNING. GREATEST FEELING I FELT.I KNOW I CAN NEVER WISH U BACK, BUT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE 10 MINUTES OF YOUR TIME WITH ME. THANK U AND I LOVE U AND I AM SORRY FOR MAKING UR LIFE SHIT.

11/20 I WONT MATTER TO YOU ANYMORE

for naomi

_melonforest [demo]

tiny rant on lofi hiphop

idk i feel like lofi hiphop became a lazy type of way to create beats; it's like "quick beats" that u can make in under a minute or two. it's been increasingly on demand, yet it lacks depth; therefore, it turns bland and not creative

i jus wanna let the rant out because i've been extremely guilty of producing these lazy type beats [for real, you can make one in 1 drum rack in ableton] as it lacks creative sampling godfathers Dilla and Nujabes have been making

however, if this is the only way that can lead me to push for finding my own sound, i'd gladly use these as exercises

u be the judge; i'll just make these for fun and for the lols

~~~
also for Pride 2017
tiny rant about a former friend

hi, uh i had dream about u lately
i was always there when u need me
u were never there when i needed you only once

from there, it's like we drifted apart, but you wont give a fuck
u started the silent treatment
i still wanted to greet
but u didnt want too
i followed suit

u were happier when im not with you
of course you were
for a minute, i was your most valuable asset
after we graduated, i kept forgetting your value in my life

honestly, does your apology really matter
when u've spent your entire year
hanging out with the fakes
drinking 'til your fat and you lost your curves
hoping u'll finally choke on the d u always wanted

slutty hoe
i thought i could tolerate you
but as each day passes
i just feel like i might just waste another day
deciding whether to talk to you or not

maybe im overreacting
it's just one mistake

but u formally chose to break the rules
u shortcut ur way around everything
u cheat 

and i was always the one who asks how r u
or tease u back
or discuss theories
the things u always cared about

and i really wanted to be with u 
studying in your dream school

u made me do ur shit during cet review
hopefully for better chances of getting in

but u didnt
and it's not really where i intend on studying

am i going to your dream school just to rub it in ur face
that's pretty selfish

but that was ur choice
to fonder around and collect all the daddies you want
where u shud have focused on the long term

and u just used me

all u did was ask for problem set leaks
all u did was choke and blow
all u did was ask me to take a pic with ur friend, never with me
u never greeted me on my birthday
u never gave me a peace sign
and u wont leave me alone when i want to
for all the burden u gave to me

fuck

now look where i am now the past summer
im in the 'success' mode so to speak

was it for him (my new friend)? yeah
but maybe i was also trying to impress u too
the person whom i always thought will care about me forever
someone who i can relate with new music
someone who i can watch GoT with
or whatever u want, that's what matters the most to u right? u selfish hoe

im just fleeing away from the feelings
of how i can lose someone like u
and suddenly end up hanging out with someone else

i really thought u were gonna be the greatest friend i ever had

u chose someone else, im backing off

i just wish u are just as happy as i am when i don't give a fuck about u anymore
u love it when im silent
i'll be mute, but my beats will forever reflect about the shit u gave
and how i always fall short
and how it does not really matter now

im not in it for the fame tbh

cant save u again, when u were supposed to save me

i just miss the old u

it probably does not exist anymore

will i welcome u back? one day
i'll probably be dead by then
when i realize how little u changed
and how big i changed urs bitch

regards
anton

flee

yeah im EMB



originally a letter for the motherland, peep

I LOVE U BUWANBUWAN
I LOVE U K
I LOVE U N
OK FUCK I LOVE U TOO L

【 mariposa 】

I LOVE 2017

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING I FEEL SO ALIVE 

THANK U BUWANBUWAN
THANK U LUI
THANK U JORGE

MC BBOY 
MELONFOREST
AMP

HOPE TO CONTINUE MAKING BEATS CUZ IT'S MY THERAPY

ALABYOW ALL

SOME OF MY FRIENDS MISSED THE BAKUNAWA, SO HERE, ALL THE BEATS I MADE IN OME LONG MIX

panels

my next copyright strike

for the homies

sorry ian and raj and the perkywasted crew for this

justo

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