Sad 悲しい

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I Was More Than

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structured air

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i've been doing well

i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed 
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess 
i'm sorry that i missed your call 
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show

i'm sorry, i'm trying.

twenty something

Remixed Sample: the story so far - navy blue

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I walked her home, for the last time

dreams in my head (anika moa cover)

you don't act like you used to.


cover art by .philo  
twitter @philosophimage

neither here, nor there.

vocals produced at bridge east studios by john dello lacono 
thank you all for the love so far, without you i probably wouldnt have kept at this, <33333


my existence
is just something
that i would ignore
dont try too hard
you might fall
on your way out the door
i still feel quite alone
surrounded by the people i love
taking time
ill hurry up
still trying my hardest
but it wasnt fast enough

everyday the same routine
of forcing myself out of sleep
itd be much easier to breathe
if i didnt want to leave my dreams

can you look me in the face
and say the things you really think
before i end it all
and bury myself 
with these memories

the same routine

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lyrics:
i dont wanna fucking die here
cant watch the stars shine here
i cant lie in this bed

im turning to a ghost
watch me go
the curtains close
i told you so

i been flexin on my exes
dont reply to no message
they wanna get on guest list
i guess i need to stress this

dont hit up my phone 
im all on my own
dont need no one to hold

but if you stay here with me
well fly away in the clouds
never go back to the ground

turn off all the lights
say goodnight
shut my eyes tight
sweet dreams tonight

im pullin up in my 240
babygirl cant ignore me
skrrt off with windows tint 
spark up now the functions lit

falling asleep cos im faded
ill never be complacent
i feel numb and i hate it

your eyes twinkle like the nightsky
tears like diamonds when you cry
let me sing you a lullaby

its like a scattered dream
a far off memory
something that you cant see

grimworld thats the fuckin set
cant feel shit im such a mess
sometimes i wish i was dead
instead of sleeping in this bed

but then i cant be with you
alone in my room
watching the stars and the moon

save my soul
it wanders every night
thru the wind and trees
i guess this is goodbye

the sky lights up at dawn
its such a sight to see
roll my windows down
i feel you here with me

ghosts 👻

Gallows

the mother fucking suns coming up 
picturing it all again
laptops burning my lap 
and my face feels hot from the glass
looking for the words too fast
this needs to last
keep pushing for too much 
don’t let the things i think be said
too busy trynna make things seem not rushed

never ready
stalling too much 
keeping up the pace
can’t trust 
somethin bout the things we touch 
as if we mean it
but have never seen it
believe me
and make this easy 
but either way 
I’m throwing in 
the rest of this
what ever you said it is
nothingness

still stay fucking up
never letting things go 
I’m always fucked up

i got a tight grip 
on the things i should let slip
my head is full of hate 
but my hearts in a better place

picturing it all again (prod ʎpoqou)

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vocals produced john dello

im trying to behave
but i just cant sit still
and im dying to see myself
as you do
but im dying inside
if you just knew
i care and i swear ill take you
and im found in myself
just trying to buy time
filling up my lubgs
smoke leaves my breath white 
and as if sleeping in everyday till the sun goes down
brings no shame
and i play my part
in whatever game
this is to you
so end it please
save myself from
the breathing leaves
my eyes see your name
but the lights not in frame
blinded by the little things

for now (prod tothegood)

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I can't do this (Prod. fats'e x keeper)

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Kiss my eyelids (prod. Shinigami)

SINGLE OFF THE ALBUM
'BITTER BLUE'

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And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

And thought i was right for too long
Now its time to face it
I can feel it inside of my bones
And its so hard to shake it
And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

a rendition of tears don't fall by bullet for my valentine.

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'Bitter Blue '
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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

Smoke Peep EP

smokepurpp on a bean (prod. willie g)

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Sad 悲しい

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