blues

i’ll believe in what you say

let you take control of me

hypnosis; the way you sway

i could do this everyday


i can see you in my dreams
window panes illuminating
told you “you ain’t gotta leave”
don’t you know you drive me crazy?
puff my chest like hercules 
when you here, i’m at my bravest

can’t nobody fuck with me
as long as i got my baby

never thought i’d fall this hard
sit back and reminisce

only need one shot
cause girl, i promise i won’t miss


i’ll believe in what you say

let you take control of me

hypnosis; the way you sway

i could do this everyday


weighed down
my soul too heavy

starbound
stairway to heaven

you got
me second guessin

myself
too many questions


are you my partner?

or an opponent?

what i’m gon do with these guns and these roses?

long nights together
so solemn these moments
my soul seems to linger 
the touch is controlling

mixing my words; make a potion
know it sound selfish
but i need you closer

help take my mind
off the world on my shoulders
my heart was frozen
your energy solar

right now i feel warm
from this lil fire we sparked
keeping it bright after dark

love isn’t hard 
when you can give it your all
take a trip; stare at the stars


Get aligned with the vision you described
Reach into ya soul
As you fuse with the vibes
Indulge with the fruits of the loom you provide
Heavy circulation as I trance through ya mind
Inner missions with the intermissions of the mentions that you mentioned through yo eyes at night
Got lost in the sauce when you touched this light
Quick pleasure giving thoughts from the afternoon delights

On time when you ring, yea
Soft mission when we swinging
Shea butter melanin been melting
Can you climb another mountain
Heal the construct of yo anxiety
Take a breath, let it out and repeat
Ain’t tryna impose on the path that you seek
We can slow it down to a new speed

Enter the realms of my mind
A, Sign above your existence lingers quality air

What is Real?
Physically
You? Soulfully
Time? Mentally
Tuning into the desires of yours truly (ahh..)

HYPNOSIS (feat.  SpeciàlK) [prod. Stoic] [mix/master by Bang]

comfort zone (prod. skyrizzy)

@TomadachiUnited on instagram
@cbarrgs featured on this track

Tomadachi Radio Medley

Oh, all these hours staring at my phone.
Wait for you to hit my screen.
Memories I can’t delete.

You struck my heart again, love.

Thoughts of you make walls collapse.
I can’t hide.
Don’t need a mask.
Love how you stay on my (ahh...).

I really can’t pretend.


Got new direction.
I can't combat this connection.
Won't but could wield it as weapon.

To detach the domes off my demons.

And make it look easy.


Wo-wo-woah wild daydream.
Every night, you're on my mind, oh.

Feel so high...


Every night, I’ll pull you closer.
When the world feel a little bit colder.

Watch the music blend with the motion.

The motion.


Wrote a song for whenever you don't hear me.
Why we always in different cities?

Guess I’m really in my feelings.

My feelings...


Know that you are not alone.
Hold my hand, let's learn to breathe.
I know these things all too well.

We can go beyond, lover.

Trial of time will take its toll,
But you are something beautiful.
Highs and lows and all between.


The only one I adore.
My cherie amour even make winter feel warm.

See you in tiles on floors.
And windows on doors.

I feel so blessed to be yours, yeah.

Patience guide all our tomorrows.
Bond so strong, we bind the cosmos.
What's it take to quell that sorrow?

I need to know.
I gotta know.
I wanna know, lover.

Please, see what I see.

I know life can be so fearful.

Circumstance & codependency that we adhere to.

Shine on, starlight.
Despite what you've been through.

I'd do anything from slaying gods to pushing pencils.

For you.
For you.
For you.




(if ur still reading, here's some exempted lyrics from the final cut. pcenluv.)

baby, if these walls could talk
I'd commit every word
trace your contour
be dramatic
every night we can rehearse

feelings.wav (prod. yogic beats)

https://youtu.be/8T4ttqqQ7Sg

original track is "vic mensa - orange soda"

shh..
uhhh..

from the top, yeah?
okay, okay!

the truth could hit you like a flash 

(verbal thunderclap)

if yeen ready

fate control like claymore
just make sure you clutch with both hands

kick drum hit like a blast from a past life
lines intertwined
every thread
every strand

feelings came together, 
now they call themselves a band

sharpen my discernment 
watch me dress it to the nines

see, eons turn to hours when you live to understand

why does every sentiment lose value overtime?
 
over-

overtime

I wonder why-y

the youth in need of action
most can't speak thru hallelujahs

POOF

they'll wipe you off the map
and act like no one ever knew you

brutality the backing track
we can't say it's unusual

all them burdens weighing as boulders
still, we stand for the future

had a dream as a jit
we all stood belting like Luther

grief'll loop you
like lasso
It's been like this from the get go

parasitic teachings steady leechin off my kinfolk

drew madness seeing magic mangled
morphed to mere mementos 

watching genocide get televised
perceived as nothing special

(wha-?)

I refuse to make light of the life they've stolen
I leave my mark, and then I dip like I'm yajirobe

we bear the burden of proof
feel like I’m covered in opulence
we was lost and confused
can’t drag our hands in the dirt
was clearly given the tools

to bring the sky to the earth
& drag these hopes to the moon

essence bioluminescent
got a grip of that depression
stable mind is lethal weapon

step to me? you a fool

feelin like I cracked the code
movin in a different mode
gotta watch out for patrol

cause the tree got us screwed

been down since the takeoff
greed I had to break off

countin all the pain accured from all of my days

"wealth" is bondage
where my brothers?
burdens lurkin
barely covered
reaper had me on a tether

pride blocking the way

fuck an attendance and honor roll
my honor? 
my skin
my name

like player profile completion
been peepin holes in the game
they posture off of statistics
and sit on the will to change

them struggles spin in a cycle
we takin it day to day

know many that can relate
too many that can relate

semantics subject to spiral
the mind is often a maze


we bend & twist to linguistics

calamity the condition

progress as juxtaposition

WHERE'S THE LOVE THAT WE CLAIM?


WHERE?


I BEEN WATCHING BOMBS FALLING

THEY BEEN CLAIMING GOD CALLING

IS IT REALLY "GOOD FAITH?"


WHAT'S FAITH WITHOUT WORK?

HEAR EM QUOTING EVERY VERSE

TELL ME, WHERE IS REALLY "SAFE?"

004 // orange soda // "overtime!" *read the typo and didn’t fix it kmsl*

dismantle s3ttler-c0lon!alism!
liberate the diaspora!

-

through the notes in my phone
I been building worlds
driftin outta my zone


learned the lengths of life's lows
so come hell or high water, 
imma let it be known


we don't bond to boundaries of the state

like

bombs, guns
doubt, none

stepping either way

I see

people trying
dying by the day, uh

all falls down
so, we jumpin' anyway

aye! aye!

life can get wicked
i ain't gon hold y'all
linger with apparitions lately
lookin' like roll dawgs

karma spin the block like solar cycle
light that burns the sky
sparkles and spirals

got so hard to find my station
had my feelings goin ghost
paintin' phantoms with the damage
help my defense in the post

all the agony was vibrant
oh, the hate had many hues
we riff rage like rock & roll
that's the truth

yup!

smoke float from ashtray
haze on the pathway
shadows we've embraced here,

here...

let all the context
swang from the ceiling
noose or a chandelier, 

-lier!

say it how it's needed
seldom shift my tone
searching for some love to put the whole world on


if no one could hear me,
still would sing my song



chandelier! (prod. @jwgans)

[cover art shot by Justin Rutledge / @l0rdzone 🌠🤎 & edited by me]

https://youtu.be/9p0YGqg3XQ0

All of that money won't heal.
I made a pledge to be real, yeah!
I ain't got too much to give, but n-ggas is dying to live.
Don't let desire deceive you.
Drape the dread most would die to conceal.

Imma do it for the feel.
Imma do it for the feel...

Make it go up for the gang. (Hmph).
This sh-t right here for my dawg!

All of the burdens you earn.
Growing up black in the south.

Better tuck in yo' shirt.
Learn to button yo' mouth.
Work for yo' worth to end up on the couch.

I was a child with my head in the clouds.
You dream too big, they ain't hearing you out.

Take it in.
Reference.
Let it go, let it go...

IIGHT!

I lost some ones I loved too soon.
Still sowed the seeds.
I grew.
We bloom.

The regret ricochet bouncing off them walls.
When the loss turn to list, start to lose yo hope.
Demonize all the ways we express our pain.
Hate the way when it hurt, I get in my zone!

So many holes in the game.
System leakin' with envy.
Exit my orbit, and enter a frenzy!

Spaced out in most of them classes.
Freestyle in my head to the clock as it ti-ti-ti-ticked.
Now, I'm punchin' my ticket.

We build our merit from scratch at the lowest positions.
Reap the resentment.

Coat the whole globe with this love.
Ain't gon' break.
We won't bend.

Knockout with flow.
Speaker comatose.
Flow to float and greet the cranes and crows.
Persevering thru pits, the lows...
Now, we know how it go.

Motives monochrome!
Mow us over, make us feel alone...
Blast these burdens out in baritone!

Many moments we can only sort it when it come in song.

Lock in.
Only angle is to open up.
Ain't no cutting corners out here, kid.
Gotta dream for more than me and mine.
Made it thru the motions; reminisce.

Moving on feel cyclical at times.
Love and falsehood cannot coexist.
Often, I feel failed by ones that raised me.
Walls of adolescence closing in.

Settle never again.
We far too deep to withdraw.
Often, I sketch in my section scoring how freedom befalls.
Challenged to carry the effort.
Making our mark off the record.

Status had us all enthralled.
Shed our hide(s) despite it all.

All of that money won't heal.
I made a pledge to be real, yeah!
I ain't got too much to give, but n-ggas is dying to live.
Don't let desire deceive you.
Drape the dread most would die to conceal.

Imma do it for the feel.
Imma do it for the feel.

4thafeel (prod. sasbo)

https://youtu.be/JKaq2soE_lI

original is "noname // casket pretty" one of my all-time favorite rap songs, ngl. saba and phoelix did magic with this instrumental.

thank y'all for this past year. forever grateful.

-

remember dorm days
we would argue top fives
in the back of my mind
i would wait on my time

way too concerned with the image
couldn't hang a bigger picture
so, with current drama,
gotta decline

lose so many in the middle of the night

pride don't tell folk "bounce"

'fore clock say "slide"

we ain't moving
we been seen the shit that's coming
peeped the pressure
so go 'head, and push a button
swing the score for the team with a triple-double
throw a tech, toss a card if we causing trouble

swear, it's up for like any and everybody
when you think out the norm, they don't hold you highly

rap a verse
rock the earth
watch it break the richter

rakin' scraps while the rich steady getting richer

nah...


from the 'ham
we equipped for the combat

sub got a lotta boom
you can feel that

log off to get hipped
they got the phones tapped

lurkin' on the next act

gotta calm down

hit the yard
all bark
got me mad, now

label "loud child"

everyday ridicule, reprimand

everybody a means to an end

turn of the tides got my body wavin'
train all our egoes for elevation
had to detatch from my bitter basis
lean towards the love when i'm feeling anxious

seen them conditions creep up to cravings
way that i spit, they may...

they may call me "lazy..."

005 // casket pretty // "loud child"

https://youtu.be/D8mKUW-xdwQ?si=0dlRvK5nf4j9y5su

cover art by me :)

in the trench of emotion,
truth a trident

trust the waves and the wind as my only guidance

with faith made a mano
topple a tyrant, 
or two

...

swear, times so crazy
still, thru it all
stand a southside baby

live thru enough, "fo sho" turn to "maybe"

rippin rhythms
try to hit 'em with some blues, watch 'em lag
manufactured mass demise,
no disguising the madness

sailing optics
overlooking ways will harbor detachment

pride like magma
swallow mine
to spit like "enter the dragon"

let the ceiling cave in
breakage blossom to besiegement,
occupations
pinned too many aspirations on a wait-list
critiques i mailed to myself then
kept a tight lip

it's like this..

elements that we inherit must get held to the litmus
empathy get periodic when you lackin in kinship
got a read on them reactions
dream get pillaged for profit
all the rhetoric got ridges, and it's chippin my conscience

struggle stretch from sand dunes to the bayou
step one say "you are the ones besides you"
dead procedures, options "either, or"
miss me with the bullsh-t,
matador

shiftin facts with madness fairly-formed
war that get endorsed
clippin all the noise
wavelength, peak to crevice
limits on rapport

miss how malice conduct most our metaphors

etch-a-sketch ya essence
shake to clear the board
scribbles when we started
still, could scrub the lourve
mentions twist medulla
oblongata music
ravish all our muses
stalling thru influence

(hmph...)

let's just ride
southside, my side
round my way
final bell, we hit the rec
scoop malik & baby j 
routes & plots the way we played
runnin round with paper planes
living aimless
chasing change
ain't realize it's all the same

bred a fighter, still a cuddlebug
you know the tale,
gotta plow that pride to keep the muscle tough

still, give my time, 
my skin, 
my blood,
might say it ain't enough

won't be no building from misguidance from previous...

replay every function
dice, dominoes, and spades
picture so perfect, wanna put it in a frame
babies brought together for some peace you couldn't paint

wish it didn't end,
but ends revealed we sought a break

left without a base
once the pillars start to fall down
tension start to sink in
wipe away them big smiles

coast without a captain
hope we never capsize

love a lighthouse and a lifeline...