A track that was specially created at the request of my friend Lea Mona (who did https://soundcloud.com/kaerian-1/tiefe-feat-lea with me)
The track was inspired by and for the exhibition of her artwork that starts on May 6th, 2021 for one and a half month. The music will be played as background during the whole exhibition.

The music express what her work inspires me, I imagined her while she paints, works and experiments on metal, shapes her ideas through matter to create her unique vibe. 

The cover is just a tiny example of her work. This is not a paint, this is a metalic frame.

Metalic Frame

This track has been created years ago but never released as it is.  I think it is finally the time to make it public.

Spacious Desert

Just feel like to do stuff by myself. And I cannot last too long on the same thing so I finally release this. Not perfect, but useful to my blossom

By myself 2021

You just move me

You Just Move Me

Another old track, I don't know why I waited so long to post this track I really love. I made the lyrics and vocal years ago  (and I admit that I might probably do better today with the aquired experience) on the splendid track that I loved at first second. 
https://soundcloud.com/evellish/evellish-hybrid
the final mix is from https://soundcloud.com/evellish as well. 
Enjoy, you hybrid!!




It's like organic elements
are mixing lovingly 
swirl of matter
flood of water
bustle of life

This world is a mixture
we're all hybrids

Life is more
than some defined patterns
you can create
no need to hate  
it just feels great
be that plant
be those cells
a hybrid
in society
cauz you need to be free

Collabs 2021

Hybrid

eVellish and kaerian - Hybrid

A hidden gem was waiting in my folders. This is a collab with @https://soundcloud.com/mentufacturer  initiated some years ago.
Time and life made us wait until now to release it. Hope you'll enjoy it.


Dangerous things
for the mind
dangerous things 
for my mind
do I play that fkn game?
oh I suck at this...
oh I'm bad with this
should I try to take part to the meal
to get my part of the deal
using my sex appeal
but it's a dangerous game
for my mind
it's a dangerous thing 
for my body
I can't stand playing these games
I'm tired
I can't stand playing these fkn games
oh I'm bad at this

fkn games

Fkn Games - Mentufacturer & kaerian

Still in my 'cleaning process'...another old project made in 2017
Anguille sous roche is an expression in french, litterally 'an eel under a rock' meaning something fishy.

An hypothesis: this expression would be the transcription of a verse from Virgil's Bucolics (70-19 BC): Damoetas: Qui legitis flores et humi nascentia fraga, frigidus — o pueri, fugite hinc — latet anguis in herba. DAMETAS. You who pick flowers and the strawberries that are born on the ground, flee from here, children; a cold serpent is hidden under the grass. The Latin anguis, "serpent", gave the diminutive anguila, eel. The eel may have inherited the snake's reputation for deception. This ancient origin suggests that this expression is medieval. However, it is found in the form we know it from the 16th century, in Les Grandes Annales et histoire générale de France (1579) for example, or in Les Contes et discours d'Eutrapel (1598) by Noël du Fail: This ugly espouventail, because he did not say a word, did not move, held them in very great difficulty, considering that there was indeed eel under the rock […] 
The expression is still very common today.

Evidemment, tu croyais quoi
tu le savais en plus
y a toujours anguille sous roche
tu l'savais 
tu croyais quoi
évidemment
comme à chaque fois
anguille sous roche

old projects release

Anguille sous Roche

Anguille Sous Roche (2017)

by myself

Interlude (2020)

It really feels Im back collaborating and it feels good!
I asked https://soundcloud.com/muterial to work with him again, as our last collabs were challenging to me and also deeply satisfying to do. So Im glad to share with you now the latest (but not last!) track composed on his great track https://soundcloud.com/muterial/pointing-out-the-oblivious

Is it now
or never
is it why
I'll never
go further
is it while
your anger
comes over
and over again
same old pain
breaking down my brain

I never remember
the time gone forever
I can't stand
what I don't understand
i am just oblivious
oblivious to my life
oblivious of my chance
(so tell me when)
unaware of the gift
(so tell me when)

is it now or never
tell me when
when I can get better
when I will remember
when I'll stop to suffer
when this will be over
is it now or never
can you tell me what's after
tell me when it's over
is it now never
I just can't remember

Collabs  2022

(Is it) now or never

(Is It) now or never feat. Muterial

Music by https://soundcloud.com/slyarte
lyrics and vocals by kaerian

Pensées bancales:

Mon ami, je t'en prie, regarde mieux
relève-toi, qu'est-ce qui va pas? Lève les yeux
toi aussi, tu te sens pris 
dans un piège
tu te protège

j'ai appris par des faits
et par défaites
que j'étais responsable
de ma vie et de ce que j'en fais
même quand c'est effroyable
Je fais ce que je peux
mais mes yeux
jouent à des jeux
mon mental qui s'emballe 
et déballe un dédale
de pensées bancales

Je fais ce que je peux, est-ce trop peu?

j'ai appris que la vie comporte tout cela
moi aussi j'ai grandis dans cette haine
celle qu'on sème
perdu dans l'oubli
j'ai laissé s'enfuir
l'espoir de guérir

ma plus grande blessure
ne pas comprendre d'où vient la cassure
ne pas arriver à m'empecher de recommencer
à m'embourber dans un tel merdier que j'ai provoqué
toujours décider d'y retourner
inlassablement capituler
éviter toutes responsabilités


dans un dédale de pensées bancales
mais j'aimerais changer
dans un dédale de pensées bancales
c'est vrai
je vais changer
mon mental qui s'emballe
personne va m'aider 
alors je dois croire 
que j'vais y arriver


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ENGLISH TRANSLATION:


My friend, I beg you, look better
get up, what's wrong? Look up
you too, you feel caught
in a trap
you are protecting yourself

I learned by facts
and by defeats
that I am responsible
of my life and what I do with it
even when it's frightening
I do what I can
but my eyes
are playing games
my mind goes wild
and unpacks a maze
of wobbly thoughts

I do what I can, is it too little?

I've learned that life includes all that
I too grew up in this hatred
the one we sow
lost in oblivion
I had let go
the hope of healing

my biggest wound
not understanding where the break comes from
not being able to stop myself from starting again
getting stuck in such a mess that I caused
always deciding to go back
relentlessly surrender
avoid all responsibilities

in a maze of wobbly thoughts
but I would like to change
in a maze of wobbly thoughts
it's true
I will change
my mind is going crazy
nobody will help me
so I have to believe
that I'll make it

Pensées bancales

Pensées bancales - SlyArtË & Kaerian

I am so grateful to post this track which is a collab with https://soundcloud.com/grevusanjl

He totally sublimated this piece by pushing it to maturity. The track existed first as https://soundcloud.com/kaerian-1/spacious-desert but in the hand of GrevusAnjel, this became finally complete, whole.
Thank you!

GrevusAnjl & Kaerian -  Sojourn In The Holo - Desert

A new original music compo inspired by a beautiful poetry written by https://soundcloud.com/lukowig
Lyrics by https://soundcloud.com/lukowig
Music by kaerian

Quiétude:

Quiétude qui es-tu ?
Quiétude de qui es-tu épris ?
Quiétude qui étudies-tu ?
Quiétude que dis tu ?
Quiétude qui te tue dis ?.. le mépris ?

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Quietness 
Quietness who are you?
Quietness Who are you in love with?
Quietness  Whom do you study?
Quietness what is it that you say?
Quietness Who is it that kills you ?... contempt ?

Collabs 2022

Quiétude

Vocals and Lyrics: @kaerian-1

Music:  Laar @https://soundcloud.com/user-325797522 (Recorded with Squire Jaguar, Squire CV 70s Jazz Bass and Fruity Loops. Drum patterns are taken from FL FPC plugin

Photograph: by Eric Pitteloud (all rights reserved)

Lyrics
------

Ne t'approche pas trop près de moi
(les dramas c'est pas pour moi)
Je n'aime pas
Je n'aime pas être entourée
par tous ces gens bien intentionnés
qui cherchent à me corriger
me conformer à leurs normes
modifier ma vraie forme
(j'essaie de m'échapper, mais je me fais toujours rattrapper)
les vieux réflexes me laissent perplexe

La vérité c'est que j'aime être entourée
par des gens apaisés
sans combats de guerriers
non je peux plus digérer (gérer)
cette atmosphère de guerre
constante
idiote compétition
envahissante
incessante et persistante
Ne t'approche pas de moi
pour initier un combat
non je ne veux pas
que mon temps serve à ça
fatiguée de lutter
il y'en a si peu
il est si précieux
dépitée de gaspiller

rien ne sert de faire un drame
inutile est ce vacarme
l'expérience est faite
même si c'est une défaite
rien ne sert d'abimer le passé
inutile de vouloir l'effacer
juste avancer

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Don't get too close to me
(dramas are not for me)
I don't like
I don't like being surrounded
by all these well-meaning people
who try to correct me
to conform to their standards
change my true form
(I try to escape, but I always get caught)
the old reflexes leave me confused

The truth is that I like to be surrounded
by peaceful people
without warrior fights
no I can't digest (manage)
this atmosphere of war
constant
silly competition
invasive
incessant and persistent
Do not approach me
to initiate a fight
no I don't want
my time to be used for that
tired of fighting
there's so little of it
it is so precious
sorry to be wasteful

there's no point in making a mess
it's useless to make a fuss
the experiment is done
even if it is a defeat
there is no point in damaging the past
no point in trying to erase it
just move on

Ne t'approche pas

Ne T'approche Pas (Kaerian & Laar)

I am glad to release this new track, composed on the great lyrics written by https://soundcloud.com/lukowig

Thanks to him for providing me (for the 2nd time) with great french lyrics

Translation in english is below french lyrics


On se craint
on se croche
on s'étreint
on s'accroche
et puis plus rien...

Plus rien
plus de rire
plus de liens
notre bâtisse de pierres
s'effondre à terre...
Plus rien
dans nos mains
plus aucun
lendemain
et ça va faut l'dire
de pire en pire...

On s'effraie :
bas les mains !
On se fraie
un chemin
vers quoi ? Vers rien...

Plus rien...
Même plus faim.
Plus rien
que la fin
d'un chemin
menant sur rien...

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We fear each other
we hook each other
we embrace
we cling to each other
and then nothing...

Nothing more
no more laughter
no more ties
our stone building
collapses to the ground...
Nothing more
in our hands
no more
tomorrow
and it goes on
worse and worse...

We are afraid:
Hands off!
We make our way
a way
towards what ? To nothing...

Nothing anymore...
Not even hungry anymore.
Nothing more
than the end
of a path
leading to nothing...

Plus rien

Plus Rien

In collaboration with Laar @https://soundcloud.com/user-325797522
and Muterial @https://soundcloud.com/muterial and his open collab: https://soundcloud.com/muterial/off-the-rails

Music: Laar (Recorded with Squire Jaguar, Squire CV 70s Jazz Bass and Fruity Loops. Drum patterns are taken from FL FPC plugin

other collabs here -> https://soundcloud.com/muterial/sets/off-the-rails-collaborations

Off the rails
get off the rails
you'll find much different beauty, you'll see
don't be afraid to be alone
don't be afraid to go on your own
believe me you don't need your phone
no, you need to get lost
and to get out of the frost
can you imagine a second
the world differently
can you take a decision
without someone to agree
look differently
try sometimes differently
can you be brave enough
to stand up by yourself
can you be courageous enough
to choose for yourself
despite what may happen
follow the flowers
follow the smell
that attracts you
whatever happen
remember
you are the one
you are alone

Collabs 2023

Off the rails

Off the Rails (Kaerian and Laar / Muterial Open Collab)

Very fun to create a new piece with a same base but this time worked by another lovely fellow 
open collab offer by https://soundcloud.com/muterial
original track: https://soundcloud.com/muterial/off-the-rails
music by https://soundcloud.com/mzrpklps

full playlist: https://soundcloud.com/muterial/sets/off-the-rails-collaborations

my vocal contribution written below

salt and sugar look the same
could be mistaken but that's okay
mistake do happen yeah
mistake do happen every day
every day of life

all those things I didn't mean to break
all these things I didn't mean to forget
I didn't mean

straighten your shoulders, girl
take a deep breath or wash your face girl
but don't get stuck girl

to brood about
linger over
crying over failures again
cry on your grave
flowering your grave
carry your cross
to the death
flowering your grave
while you are not dead yet

Love and pain don't feel the same
but sometimes you're lost
and feel love is pain
mistake do happen yeah
mistake do happen every day

secrets that I forgot, yes indeed
dreams that I gave up, not really meant that
people that I forgot, on purpose
houses I will not build up, on purpose

Cannot see the world as it is
through filters
greed, hate wrath
whatever it is
it affects your judgment
don't brood about
try to by wise
instead of crying over failures
that happen every day
take the lesson with you

Open Collabs 2023

Salt & Sugar

Salt & Sugar (Kaerian and MZRPKLPS / Muterial Off the Rails Open Collab)

Time goes by so fast.... I just wanted/needed to get back to basics, back to the days when I just did it as a game, with no expectations, no direction, just playing with my software and my voice. I don't care about fitting into a style or following a line. 
It may be a load of crap, but it was time for me to do it.
I don't know if the mix is any good, I know I can always work better, but there comes a time to stop and share.
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J'ai besoin d'air

2024 by myself

sanctuary

Just a game done during this sunday afternoon done with my friend Raphy to show him how I do music

Junkie Sunday

So happy to share with you a collab I enjoyed to do with https://soundcloud.com/enternetboy

Music composed by Enternet Boy
Lyrics, vocals and flute addition by kaerian

High Vibrations
I fear collapsing
so tied to life
my soul clings to feelings

Inspiration
or madness
or wisdom

Collabs

Altas Vibraciones

Altas Vibraciones Feat. Enternet Boy

Glad the present an explosive cocktail!

A very good song of https://soundcloud.com/echo-garage
https://soundcloud.com/echo-garage/traurigkeit-ist-nur-ein-gedanke
+
A great remix done by https://soundcloud.com/meezerpocalypse
+
Vocal and lyrics by kaerian


Down on her knees she cannot breath
in this freezing atmosphere
snow surrounds her
winter, cold winter
snowflakes on her nose
that's what happen to the drops
teardrops of her sorrow
snowflakes on her face she stands up
naked feet on the ground
she can still walk, through blizzard
wind whips her hair she moves forward
head looking down she walks with conviction
she walks through fog or maybe smog

a thick cloud a cyclone
noise out loud here's my dropzone
falling down on a headstone
there's a big crowd all of them clones
acting the same, doing the same, thinking the same

it's a hard task to keep free
from the mold that was build for me
I know it's stronger than me
I don't wanna be a controled clone
(like a soldier)
don't wanna do the same, don't wanna act the same 
(new army)
anyway, I don't think like them
(kind of soldiers of the society)
wanna act my way, wanna think my way
wanna do the things my way
I don't care if it's the right way

a thick cloud a cyclone
noise out loud here's my dropzone
fallin' down on a headstone
there's a big crowd all of them clones
acting the same, doing the same, thinking the same

Them Clones on Echo Garage remixed by Meezerpocalypse (Traurigkeit Ist Nur Ein Gedanke)

Them Clones  on Echo Garage remixed by Meezerpocalypse (Traurigkeit Ist Nur Ein Gedanke)

Glad to present a new collab with the exceptional https://soundcloud.com/muterial

The ambiance of https://soundcloud.com/muterial/chroma is incredible and it inspired me the below lyrics! Enjoy!

Blind, I'm blind
I can't see your colors
cauz I'm blind
But I can feel that you're bright
I can't see but I can feel
your warm being

But in the darkness the colors have a smell
the black of darkness colors my hell
but I can feel your warm being
by my side heating up with a light
a light full of colors

Black is all I know
I sometimes see a light
I sometimes feel a light
a colorful light

Blind (Chroma)

Blind (Chroma) feat. Muterial

This was done to take part to the open collab initiated by https://soundcloud.com/bissecta

https://soundcloud.com/bissecta/sets/open-collaboration-cause-we-stand-with-wetsuweten

I used the below track
https://soundcloud.com/bissecta/water-is-sacred-because-we?in=bissecta/sets/open-collaboration-cause-we-stand-with-wetsuweten

And the words were inspired thinking about all the people that have to fight for basic rights. Power to Wet'suet'en community! Power to the humble and true people.


Power to the humble

(Peace for the meek)
cauz' sweetness is the power of life
for ever
(even if it doesn't seem so)
cauz' love
is the language of life
for ever

We stand for Wet'suet'en

Humble People (cause we stand with Wet'suet'en

Humble People (Open Collab Cause We Stand With Wet'suwet'en)

Just a track I started basically for a potential project with a brass player (euphonium) but finally this was not retained.

PS 1 : the project will happen, just with another track ;)
PS 2:  if any vocalist would like to play on that, I will with pleasure open the download! Just let me know

check what others did:
https://soundcloud.com/kaerian-1/sets/dead-sea-friends-rework

By myself

Dead Sea

Dead Sea (free download for open collab!)

Off Grid is
- Kaerian: vocals, lyrics, post production
- @mahan-mahan: music, production

Check out the instrumental version here --> https://soundcloud.com/mahan-mahan/disconnected-instrumental

My biggest heartbreak is my disconnection to others
cauz deeply I know, others help me to grow

Others help me to grow
to face the truth of my behavior
but we're all in the same show
and in the end there is no savior
oh, I don't know, who is the biggest foe
cauz everyone suffers on his own
oh human....
complicated relations fed by reckless bondings
and deeply hurting passions that ends up annoying
I don't know anymore how to deal with others
I don't know anymore if I'm still able to communicate

Oh, I don't need to put words on it but everyone does so how do we do
when we bring the mental in feelings it's destructive
and it seems we need to define things, to label it to get, to understand it
I don't how to deal with it

I wish it was easy
I would not be clumzy
all this makes me dizzy

and I end up socially lazy
and I hate it

Disconnected

Off Grid - Disconnected

Glad to finally have the privilege to work with https://soundcloud.com/jameshootman

Music: Order Ov Thee Octopi
Lyrics and vocal: kaerian

The Wave:

Time is moving fast
you can't catch up on time

Seconds after minutes after hours
I inspire the air, the atmosphere
days after weeks after months
I expire the same air from my lungs
(caught by a wave)
you're just taken by the wave
taken by the wave
a wave that destroy the fake
the fake that you strive to preserve

your fake plastic shit
you get used to your bad habbits
relaxing on TV bullshit
You maintain inertia
like stagnant water
stuck in boredom

waiting for the moment to come
waiting for something to be done
day after day, year after year we grow

bogged down in envy you're missing the wave
asleep by ambiant idiocy
you're hit by the wave
empty shells that need to be filled
asleep by ambiant idiocy, sleeping in front of your tv
rocked by the lullaby that will make you buy
all these schemes to make you buy

bogged down in envy you're missing the wave
waiting for the moment to come
waiting for what to be done?
you get hit by the wave but still clinging to your things
you're still waiting for the moment to come, for something to be done
waiting for nothing cauz nothing will be done without you
let yourself be carried away
by the wave

The Wave

The Wave Feat. Order Ov Thee Octopi

Very first collab with https://soundcloud.com/udiooy

ambiant background and atmosphere, final mix: Mrs Audioboy
vocal, lyrics, church bells and percussions: kaerian

I know why I wrote these lyrics.

no one will never really know someone
no one will never really know you
don't wait for that
cauz you gonna be disapointed

Appearances are hidding many things
in the dark, on your back
apprearances are hidding many things

you never really know someone
no one will never know who you are
under cover
no one recognizes anyone

you never really know someone
no one will never know who you are
you never really know someone

Under Cover

Under Cover Feat. Mrs AudioBoy

Third vocal impressions on the excellent music from  Electric Supply Station ->https://soundcloud.com/user-803769891

Original music from Electric Supply Station
Lyrics, vocal and some percussions by kaerian

This is more a poetry than a song. 

Discoveries overwehlming
wonders of life and time
when my eyes are crystalline
joy of life touch my heart
and my brain
is able to transform pain
in compassion and love

I'm here but I don't exist
wind in my hairs, earth in my fingers
forrest arround
grass moistens my skin
and I'm lying as in my craddle
everything seems more real to me
everything seems so new
everything seems so different

In the end there is nothing left
except ashes and its smell
burn in fire better than live with liars
the ugly truth is better
than a beautiful lie

Collabs 2020

Season True

Season True Feat. Electric Supply Station

Once again, an adventure created on Muterial's work 
The original instrumental music is available here --> https://soundcloud.com/muterial/muteia

This time, I have worked a bit on percussions


You are staring but you don't see a thing
cauze your eyes are full of sea stars
when you look at the surface
reflection of the stars is grace

I'm expressing but I failed to be clear
cauze my mouth is full of seaweed
spit it, spit it, spit it out
while my feet are digging the ground

when my shower becomes a waterfall
I can deconstruct the wall
to dive in this wonderful world of mine

You cannot see my reality
and my sensitivity
is not something you have to agree

you don't wanna see what kind of beauty
can be found in our eerie
if you bother to take a look
if you take the trouble to watch

On eerie Muteia

On Eerie Muteia Feat. Muterial

Im very happy to share a collab with my friend Lea-Mona. She is a talented multi aspects artist (painting, sculptures, poetry and much more) and her mother tongue is german so here is a poetry she wrote and says on my music and some vocal ambient, for our first collab :

Tiefe:

In Steintreppen geschrieben
Geschichten aus alter Zeit
Geschichten von Beton und Stein, Gips
die ineinander verlaufen
Man kann immer wieder Phantasien entwickeln
die dem Stein entspiringen
In ihm und auf ihm stehend, heruntersehend - ein Abgrund - ein Stein.
Fuss auf dem Boden - pieds sur le sol
Treppen steigen, Treppen gehen, 
so wie im Leben, nach oben, nach unten
Mich immer wieder zusammenreissen um die Anstrengung
 zu überwinden - ständige Motivation - 
anstrengend wenn man nicht nach oben kommt 
und sich sagen kann
Ja, Ich hab's geschafft! oben auzukommen
Ausser Puste, aber doch.
Jeden Tag versuche ich mich auf Neues zu motivieren 
um endlich etwas zusammenzustellen
das mein Leben bedeutet
Im Leben zu stehen, mit beiden Füssen
im Gleichgewicht auf dem Boden
in ihm - auf ihm - hinein 
Vereint mit meinem Körper

Tiefe

Tiefe Feat. Lea-Mona

A new, second collab with @jameshootman
Unspeakable alchemy ends up in this piece.

Music: OTOO
Vocal, lyrics, musical arrangement: kaerian

The moon is full tonight
lightening up the earth
the moon is full in the dark
chasing up my fears

but the light is temporary 
and the night comes again
yeah the light is temporary
as the dark that comes again and again

a cycle, a cyclone, a spiral
no start, no end
a cycle, a cyclone, a spiral
always the same

The gibbous moon is waning tonight
blurring the outline
the gibbous moon is waning to hide
tired to shine

But the dark and the light
are temporary
as your life, temporary

the moon hidding temporarily

Gibbous Moon

Gibbous Moon Feat. Order Ov Thee Octopi

So happy to work on the track https://soundcloud.com/pablomoretti/2001-maniacs
from https://soundcloud.com/pablomoretti
Because his work inspires me very much!! Love his style, check it out!

Lyrics:

Travail, achète, répète
ne sors pas, confine-toi mais achète
(est-ce que c'est ça le nouveau monde?)
parce que si tu ne consommes pas
tout s'effondrera
(travail, achète, répète)

where are we going
the world is burning
(mais t'as l'habitude, t'es habitué à ça)
like fire
a fire of joy
or a fire of hate
a fire that burns
more than heating 
it bursts
destroying everything
and you're still feeling nursed
you don't feel the curse

tu sens pas ce qui va nous arriver?

Travail, achète, répète
ne te rebelles pas, confine-toi
et n'oublies pas
travail, achète, répète
le système compte sur toi
il n'est rien sans toi
si tu ne consommes pas
il s’effondra

Translation of french parts:
Work, buy, repeat
don't get out, confine yourself but buy
(is it the new world?)
because if you don't consume
everything will collapse
(work, buy, repeat)

(but you're used to it, you're used to that)

Don't you feel what is going to happen to us

work, buy, repeat,
do not rebel, confine yourself 
and don't forget
work, buy, repeat
the system is counting on you
it is nothing without you
if you don't consume
it will collapse

2020 Maniacs (the curse)

2020 Maniacs (the curse)Feat. Pablo

I do, without knowing.
I  do it for fun, not for fame



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