This song debuted on @viadeacceso for the March 18th show.
https://www.mixcloud.com/viadeacceso/via-de-acceso-radio-ensayo-18321-awareness-of-femmenessence-vol-2/

Original composition, lyrics & spoken voice & singing by kaerian
Singing, photo-art, final master by Mariam Zohra D : https://soundcloud.com/myrhyum

<3



words:

we all come from the same place
this is rooted in our origin
we are the same genetic memory
our roots, ancestral roots
our ancestral roots are the same
we just forgot...

the roots
deep inside
underground
vibrating in rhythm
the innate rythme

initiate the great move
the first great move
from deep inside
the first great move
from deep inside
to the outside
to reach outside

a first great move towards life
to reach outside
to reach the others
to get back to your roots
our common ancestral roots

we just forgot that we share these roots
that we share this genetic memory
that we share this innate rhythm
vibrating inside each of us
in unison but out of tune if we don't connect to others

Collabs

Vibrating Roots

Vibrating Roots | Myrh & Kaerian

A track that was specially created at the request of my friend Lea Mona (who did https://soundcloud.com/kaerian-1/tiefe-feat-lea with me)
The track was inspired by and for the exhibition of her artwork that starts on May 6th, 2021 for one and a half month. The music will be played as background during the whole exhibition.

The music express what her work inspires me, I imagined her while she paints, works and experiments on metal, shapes her ideas through matter to create her unique vibe. 

The cover is just a tiny example of her work. This is not a paint, this is a metalic frame.

Metalic Frame

New vocals created on a track of https://soundcloud.com/pablomoretti

Lyrics:

is it possible?
make life better
take a step further

is it possible
to do something good
when I have nothing to give
but me
nothing but me

just me
the ugly me

fear and doubts are on the menu
my own skin becomes the venue of the fight

can you feel the stress
don't you feel opressed
no, I'm not obsessed
don't you be upset

can't you feel the stress
no, I'm not obsessed
I just feel opressed
and you make me upset
oh you make me upset
denying your strengths
ignoring your worth

why can't you see what I see
I wish you could see throught my eyes
that you are in the sunrise

is it possible
can I stop it?
to bash myself
can I trust it?
having faith in me
finally

cauze you're digging you're hole
and you're bashing your soul
by trusting your failures
is the fate you deserve
oh you're bashing your soul
and you're digging your hole
by trusing your failures
condemn you to the same behavior

Collabs 2021

Possible

Possible Feat. Pablo

This track has been created years ago but never released as it is.  I think it is finally the time to make it public.

Spacious Desert

Just feel like to do stuff by myself. And I cannot last too long on the same thing so I finally release this. Not perfect, but useful to my blossom

By myself 2021

You just move me

You Just Move Me

Another old track, I don't know why I waited so long to post this track I really love. I made the lyrics and vocal years ago  (and I admit that I might probably do better today with the aquired experience) on the splendid track that I loved at first second. 
https://soundcloud.com/evellish/evellish-hybrid
the final mix is from https://soundcloud.com/evellish as well. 
Enjoy, you hybrid!!




It's like organic elements
are mixing lovingly 
swirl of matter
flood of water
bustle of life

This world is a mixture
we're all hybrids

Life is more
than some defined patterns
you can create
no need to hate  
it just feels great
be that plant
be those cells
a hybrid
in society
cauz you need to be free

Hybrid

eVellish and kaerian - Hybrid

still sorting my stuff, this is a 2018 composition. Thanks for listening to my old stuff. I know it's really not so good, but it's part of my path...


Frozen tears on my cheek
a broken heart lies under my eyes
my eyes with no sight
in this din, I hear nothing but a cry
the sound of my silence
listen to the cry of silence
listen to the cries
listen to the cry of silence
your own silence that guides you
for the light to reach you
when there's pain, there's to gain
when it hurts, until shattered
wash yourself with your dreams
and stand up, wake up, open up
listen to your silence
the sound of your silence
there's something in it
in your silence
there's something in it
look for it
in the sound of your silence

The Sound of Silence

The Sound of your Silence (2018)

A hidden gem was waiting in my folders. This is a collab with @https://soundcloud.com/mentufacturer  initiated some years ago.
Time and life made us wait until now to release it. Hope you'll enjoy it.


Dangerous things
for the mind
dangerous things 
for my mind
do I play that fkn game?
oh I suck at this...
oh I'm bad with this
should I try to take part to the meal
to get my part of the deal
using my sex appeal
but it's a dangerous game
for my mind
it's a dangerous thing 
for my body
I can't stand playing these games
I'm tired
I can't stand playing these fkn games
oh I'm bad at this

fkn games

Fkn Games - Mentufacturer & kaerian

Still in my 'cleaning process'...another old project made in 2017
Anguille sous roche is an expression in french, litterally 'an eel under a rock' meaning something fishy.

An hypothesis: this expression would be the transcription of a verse from Virgil's Bucolics (70-19 BC): Damoetas: Qui legitis flores et humi nascentia fraga, frigidus — o pueri, fugite hinc — latet anguis in herba. DAMETAS. You who pick flowers and the strawberries that are born on the ground, flee from here, children; a cold serpent is hidden under the grass. The Latin anguis, "serpent", gave the diminutive anguila, eel. The eel may have inherited the snake's reputation for deception. This ancient origin suggests that this expression is medieval. However, it is found in the form we know it from the 16th century, in Les Grandes Annales et histoire générale de France (1579) for example, or in Les Contes et discours d'Eutrapel (1598) by Noël du Fail: This ugly espouventail, because he did not say a word, did not move, held them in very great difficulty, considering that there was indeed eel under the rock […] 
The expression is still very common today.

Evidemment, tu croyais quoi
tu le savais en plus
y a toujours anguille sous roche
tu l'savais 
tu croyais quoi
évidemment
comme à chaque fois
anguille sous roche

old projects release

Anguille sous Roche

Anguille Sous Roche (2017)

by myself

Interlude (2020)

Music by https://soundcloud.com/slyarte
lyrics and vocals by kaerian

Pensées bancales:

Mon ami, je t'en prie, regarde mieux
relève-toi, qu'est-ce qui va pas? Lève les yeux
toi aussi, tu te sens pris 
dans un piège
tu te protège

j'ai appris par des faits
et par défaites
que j'étais responsable
de ma vie et de ce que j'en fais
même quand c'est effroyable
Je fais ce que je peux
mais mes yeux
jouent à des jeux
mon mental qui s'emballe 
et déballe un dédale
de pensées bancales

Je fais ce que je peux, est-ce trop peu?

j'ai appris que la vie comporte tout cela
moi aussi j'ai grandis dans cette haine
celle qu'on sème
perdu dans l'oubli
j'ai laissé s'enfuir
l'espoir de guérir

ma plus grande blessure
ne pas comprendre d'où vient la cassure
ne pas arriver à m'empecher de recommencer
à m'embourber dans un tel merdier que j'ai provoqué
toujours décider d'y retourner
inlassablement capituler
éviter toutes responsabilités


dans un dédale de pensées bancales
mais j'aimerais changer
dans un dédale de pensées bancales
c'est vrai
je vais changer
mon mental qui s'emballe
personne va m'aider 
alors je dois croire 
que j'vais y arriver


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ENGLISH TRANSLATION:


My friend, I beg you, look better
get up, what's wrong? Look up
you too, you feel caught
in a trap
you are protecting yourself

I learned by facts
and by defeats
that I am responsible
of my life and what I do with it
even when it's frightening
I do what I can
but my eyes
are playing games
my mind goes wild
and unpacks a maze
of wobbly thoughts

I do what I can, is it too little?

I've learned that life includes all that
I too grew up in this hatred
the one we sow
lost in oblivion
I had let go
the hope of healing

my biggest wound
not understanding where the break comes from
not being able to stop myself from starting again
getting stuck in such a mess that I caused
always deciding to go back
relentlessly surrender
avoid all responsibilities

in a maze of wobbly thoughts
but I would like to change
in a maze of wobbly thoughts
it's true
I will change
my mind is going crazy
nobody will help me
so I have to believe
that I'll make it

Pensées bancales

Pensées bancales - SlyArtË & Kaerian

I am so grateful to post this track which is a collab with https://soundcloud.com/grevusanjl

He totally sublimated this piece by pushing it to maturity. The track existed first as https://soundcloud.com/kaerian-1/spacious-desert but in the hand of GrevusAnjel, this became finally complete, whole.
Thank you!

GrevusAnjl & Kaerian -  Sojourn In The Holo - Desert

A new original music compo inspired by a beautiful poetry written by https://soundcloud.com/lukowig
Lyrics by https://soundcloud.com/lukowig
Music by kaerian

Quiétude:

Quiétude qui es-tu ?
Quiétude de qui es-tu épris ?
Quiétude qui étudies-tu ?
Quiétude que dis tu ?
Quiétude qui te tue dis ?.. le mépris ?

--------
Quietness 
Quietness who are you?
Quietness Who are you in love with?
Quietness  Whom do you study?
Quietness what is it that you say?
Quietness Who is it that kills you ?... contempt ?

Collabs 2022

Quiétude

Vocals and Lyrics: @kaerian-1

Music:  Laar @https://soundcloud.com/user-325797522 (Recorded with Squire Jaguar, Squire CV 70s Jazz Bass and Fruity Loops. Drum patterns are taken from FL FPC plugin

Photograph: by Eric Pitteloud (all rights reserved)

Lyrics
------

Ne t'approche pas trop près de moi
(les dramas c'est pas pour moi)
Je n'aime pas
Je n'aime pas être entourée
par tous ces gens bien intentionnés
qui cherchent à me corriger
me conformer à leurs normes
modifier ma vraie forme
(j'essaie de m'échapper, mais je me fais toujours rattrapper)
les vieux réflexes me laissent perplexe

La vérité c'est que j'aime être entourée
par des gens apaisés
sans combats de guerriers
non je peux plus digérer (gérer)
cette atmosphère de guerre
constante
idiote compétition
envahissante
incessante et persistante
Ne t'approche pas de moi
pour initier un combat
non je ne veux pas
que mon temps serve à ça
fatiguée de lutter
il y'en a si peu
il est si précieux
dépitée de gaspiller

rien ne sert de faire un drame
inutile est ce vacarme
l'expérience est faite
même si c'est une défaite
rien ne sert d'abimer le passé
inutile de vouloir l'effacer
juste avancer

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Don't get too close to me
(dramas are not for me)
I don't like
I don't like being surrounded
by all these well-meaning people
who try to correct me
to conform to their standards
change my true form
(I try to escape, but I always get caught)
the old reflexes leave me confused

The truth is that I like to be surrounded
by peaceful people
without warrior fights
no I can't digest (manage)
this atmosphere of war
constant
silly competition
invasive
incessant and persistent
Do not approach me
to initiate a fight
no I don't want
my time to be used for that
tired of fighting
there's so little of it
it is so precious
sorry to be wasteful

there's no point in making a mess
it's useless to make a fuss
the experiment is done
even if it is a defeat
there is no point in damaging the past
no point in trying to erase it
just move on

Ne t'approche pas

Ne T'approche Pas (Kaerian & Laar)

I am glad to release this new track, composed on the great lyrics written by https://soundcloud.com/lukowig

Thanks to him for providing me (for the 2nd time) with great french lyrics

Translation in english is below french lyrics


On se craint
on se croche
on s'étreint
on s'accroche
et puis plus rien...

Plus rien
plus de rire
plus de liens
notre bâtisse de pierres
s'effondre à terre...
Plus rien
dans nos mains
plus aucun
lendemain
et ça va faut l'dire
de pire en pire...

On s'effraie :
bas les mains !
On se fraie
un chemin
vers quoi ? Vers rien...

Plus rien...
Même plus faim.
Plus rien
que la fin
d'un chemin
menant sur rien...

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We fear each other
we hook each other
we embrace
we cling to each other
and then nothing...

Nothing more
no more laughter
no more ties
our stone building
collapses to the ground...
Nothing more
in our hands
no more
tomorrow
and it goes on
worse and worse...

We are afraid:
Hands off!
We make our way
a way
towards what ? To nothing...

Nothing anymore...
Not even hungry anymore.
Nothing more
than the end
of a path
leading to nothing...

Plus rien

Plus Rien

In collaboration with Laar @https://soundcloud.com/user-325797522
and Muterial @https://soundcloud.com/muterial and his open collab: https://soundcloud.com/muterial/off-the-rails

Music: Laar (Recorded with Squire Jaguar, Squire CV 70s Jazz Bass and Fruity Loops. Drum patterns are taken from FL FPC plugin

other collabs here -> https://soundcloud.com/muterial/sets/off-the-rails-collaborations

Off the rails
get off the rails
you'll find much different beauty, you'll see
don't be afraid to be alone
don't be afraid to go on your own
believe me you don't need your phone
no, you need to get lost
and to get out of the frost
can you imagine a second
the world differently
can you take a decision
without someone to agree
look differently
try sometimes differently
can you be brave enough
to stand up by yourself
can you be courageous enough
to choose for yourself
despite what may happen
follow the flowers
follow the smell
that attracts you
whatever happen
remember
you are the one
you are alone

Collabs 2023

Off the rails

Off the Rails (Kaerian and Laar / Muterial Open Collab)

Very fun to create a new piece with a same base but this time worked by another lovely fellow 
open collab offer by https://soundcloud.com/muterial
original track: https://soundcloud.com/muterial/off-the-rails
music by https://soundcloud.com/mzrpklps

full playlist: https://soundcloud.com/muterial/sets/off-the-rails-collaborations

my vocal contribution written below

salt and sugar look the same
could be mistaken but that's okay
mistake do happen yeah
mistake do happen every day
every day of life

all those things I didn't mean to break
all these things I didn't mean to forget
I didn't mean

straighten your shoulders, girl
take a deep breath or wash your face girl
but don't get stuck girl

to brood about
linger over
crying over failures again
cry on your grave
flowering your grave
carry your cross
to the death
flowering your grave
while you are not dead yet

Love and pain don't feel the same
but sometimes you're lost
and feel love is pain
mistake do happen yeah
mistake do happen every day

secrets that I forgot, yes indeed
dreams that I gave up, not really meant that
people that I forgot, on purpose
houses I will not build up, on purpose

Cannot see the world as it is
through filters
greed, hate wrath
whatever it is
it affects your judgment
don't brood about
try to by wise
instead of crying over failures
that happen every day
take the lesson with you

Open Collabs 2023

Salt & Sugar

Salt & Sugar (Kaerian and MZRPKLPS / Muterial Off the Rails Open Collab)

Time goes by so fast.... I just wanted/needed to get back to basics, back to the days when I just did it as a game, with no expectations, no direction, just playing with my software and my voice. I don't care about fitting into a style or following a line. 
It may be a load of crap, but it was time for me to do it.
I don't know if the mix is any good, I know I can always work better, but there comes a time to stop and share.
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J'ai besoin d'air

2024 by myself

sanctuary

Thanks to POLSTEAM BELUGA for the help in the mix and for adding his unique touch to that song.

Cry or don't cry, but continue to feel what is life.

https://soundcloud.com/polsteam-beluga

Inside

Cry don't cry feat POLSTEAM BELUGA

Cry Don't Cry Feat POLSTEAM BELUGA

Off Grid is
- Kaerian: vocals, lyrics, post production 
- Mahan Mahan: music, production

Check the instrumental here --> https://soundcloud.com/mahan-mahan/mmk3final

`"Sweet precious thing that is life
strong bravery of the sprout
powerful force of nature
the thirst for life
little sweetness 
little sweetness that grows through the dark
dark is part of light
life is kinda lark
mistakes are excusable
if you don't become accusable
neither abusable
oh please through the darkness
keep your sweetness
life is looking for light
deeply rooted in the dark
seeds are everywhere
fruits depend on the care
you have given
Oh little sweetness that grows through obstacles
could look like hope
but it's pure confidence
Cauz life knows how it goes"

Little Sweetness

Off Grid ~ Little Sweetness

I am very honored to share a new vocal composition on the track Oxygene of the very talented https://soundcloud.com/laurent-toupet-930624560
I loved the instrumental at the first second! You can hear it there --> https://soundcloud.com/laurent-toupet-930624560/oxygene

Lyrics:

I felt a connection
but it was just an impression
message tumbles down
connection rattles down
thick smoke invades the room
smell of misunderstanding
my faith is bending
but it's a person's duty
to keep open warmly 
the doors of community
the will of communication
the effort is outstanding
but it's a person's duty 
to keep open warmly
the doors of community
the will of communication
oxygen of our relations
the effort is outstanding
but it worth it

The Duty (Feat. Wypernet)

So happy to share with you a collab I enjoyed to do with https://soundcloud.com/enternetboy

Music composed by Enternet Boy
Lyrics, vocals and flute addition by kaerian

High Vibrations
I fear collapsing
so tied to life
my soul clings to feelings

Inspiration
or madness
or wisdom

Altas Vibraciones

Altas Vibraciones Feat. Enternet Boy

Glad the present an explosive cocktail!

A very good song of https://soundcloud.com/echo-garage
https://soundcloud.com/echo-garage/traurigkeit-ist-nur-ein-gedanke
+
A great remix done by https://soundcloud.com/meezerpocalypse
+
Vocal and lyrics by kaerian


Down on her knees she cannot breath
in this freezing atmosphere
snow surrounds her
winter, cold winter
snowflakes on her nose
that's what happen to the drops
teardrops of her sorrow
snowflakes on her face she stands up
naked feet on the ground
she can still walk, through blizzard
wind whips her hair she moves forward
head looking down she walks with conviction
she walks through fog or maybe smog

a thick cloud a cyclone
noise out loud here's my dropzone
falling down on a headstone
there's a big crowd all of them clones
acting the same, doing the same, thinking the same

it's a hard task to keep free
from the mold that was build for me
I know it's stronger than me
I don't wanna be a controled clone
(like a soldier)
don't wanna do the same, don't wanna act the same 
(new army)
anyway, I don't think like them
(kind of soldiers of the society)
wanna act my way, wanna think my way
wanna do the things my way
I don't care if it's the right way

a thick cloud a cyclone
noise out loud here's my dropzone
fallin' down on a headstone
there's a big crowd all of them clones
acting the same, doing the same, thinking the same

Them Clones on Echo Garage remixed by Meezerpocalypse (Traurigkeit Ist Nur Ein Gedanke)

Them Clones  on Echo Garage remixed by Meezerpocalypse (Traurigkeit Ist Nur Ein Gedanke)

Glad to present a new collab with the exceptional https://soundcloud.com/muterial

The ambiance of https://soundcloud.com/muterial/chroma is incredible and it inspired me the below lyrics! Enjoy!

Blind, I'm blind
I can't see your colors
cauz I'm blind
But I can feel that you're bright
I can't see but I can feel
your warm being

But in the darkness the colors have a smell
the black of darkness colors my hell
but I can feel your warm being
by my side heating up with a light
a light full of colors

Black is all I know
I sometimes see a light
I sometimes feel a light
a colorful light

Blind (Chroma)

Blind (Chroma) feat. Muterial

Just a track I started basically for a potential project with a brass player (euphonium) but finally this was not retained.

PS 1 : the project will happen, just with another track ;)
PS 2:  if any vocalist would like to play on that, I will with pleasure open the download! Just let me know

check what others did:
https://soundcloud.com/kaerian-1/sets/dead-sea-friends-rework

By myself

Dead Sea

Dead Sea (free download for open collab!)

Glad to finally have the privilege to work with https://soundcloud.com/jameshootman

Music: Order Ov Thee Octopi
Lyrics and vocal: kaerian

The Wave:

Time is moving fast
you can't catch up on time

Seconds after minutes after hours
I inspire the air, the atmosphere
days after weeks after months
I expire the same air from my lungs
(caught by a wave)
you're just taken by the wave
taken by the wave
a wave that destroy the fake
the fake that you strive to preserve

your fake plastic shit
you get used to your bad habbits
relaxing on TV bullshit
You maintain inertia
like stagnant water
stuck in boredom

waiting for the moment to come
waiting for something to be done
day after day, year after year we grow

bogged down in envy you're missing the wave
asleep by ambiant idiocy
you're hit by the wave
empty shells that need to be filled
asleep by ambiant idiocy, sleeping in front of your tv
rocked by the lullaby that will make you buy
all these schemes to make you buy

bogged down in envy you're missing the wave
waiting for the moment to come
waiting for what to be done?
you get hit by the wave but still clinging to your things
you're still waiting for the moment to come, for something to be done
waiting for nothing cauz nothing will be done without you
let yourself be carried away
by the wave

The Wave

The Wave Feat. Order Ov Thee Octopi

Once again, an adventure created on Muterial's work 
The original instrumental music is available here --> https://soundcloud.com/muterial/muteia

This time, I have worked a bit on percussions


You are staring but you don't see a thing
cauze your eyes are full of sea stars
when you look at the surface
reflection of the stars is grace

I'm expressing but I failed to be clear
cauze my mouth is full of seaweed
spit it, spit it, spit it out
while my feet are digging the ground

when my shower becomes a waterfall
I can deconstruct the wall
to dive in this wonderful world of mine

You cannot see my reality
and my sensitivity
is not something you have to agree

you don't wanna see what kind of beauty
can be found in our eerie
if you bother to take a look
if you take the trouble to watch

Collabs 2020

On eerie Muteia

On Eerie Muteia Feat. Muterial

Very happy for this funky collab with https://soundcloud.com/roger-one based on his open collab https://soundcloud.com/roger-one/all-track

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I don't want to sleep
when there's a ton of things I wanna do
I don't need my bed
when there's a rhythm that makes me move

But my tired body
is attracted by gravity
and I will fall asleep

I feel like sleep is a waste
when I'm crazy about the moment
I feel like there's something else to do
going to sleep now will make me blue

But my tired old shell
can't stop rining the warning bell
and I will fall asleep

I want it to last, this moment, always the same
I try to be wise, but I can't, I just want it again

I will fall asleep
oh no, gravitiy is appealing me, is attracting me
I feel like I'm in cotton, bottomless wadding
never reaching the bottom, till I found myself
laying down

Now I deeply sleep
and my body can get the rest it needs
I don't want to wake up
cauze I don't know what things I'll deal today

But my tired body
just want to stay casually
in my happy dreams
yeah my tired body
want to stay comfortably
in my lazy dreams

and the cycle repeats itself
I never want to sleep, I never want to wake up

Never want feat. Note or not

Never Want Feat. Note Or Not

Once again, happy to work on the music of https://soundcloud.com/muterial
this time on a collab with https://soundcloud.com/encym

original track here-> https://soundcloud.com/muterial/slow-render

Thanks to both for letting me play my games on it! It is always a pleasure to push my limits with others to discover and maybe even improve  my voice a little more everytime...


Eternal sunshine
offline and no time
is this cloud nine?
don't be hasty with your judgments
maybe this is cloud nine?

Is this cloud nine
is this a dream or my dream comes alive
Am I really able to see how it is
don't be hasty in your judgements
cauz you never know what will happen

could be anything
it doesn't matter what
cauz it's a chance 
to live your life

Is this cloud nine
or is this a fake dream I'm thinking about
Am I really able to open my eyes
cauz this has no price
don't be hasty to be happy
cauz you will miss the reality
and even when nothing happen
right now the time is running 
the wheel is turning
fruits are growing to be 
ready for you and your needs

There's no cloud nine
only moments of joy
don't be in a hurry
don't get hasty
There's no cloud nine
life has some high and some low
don't be hasty in your judgements 
don't be in a hurry

Don't be hasty (Slow Render)

Don't Be Hasty (slow Render) with Muterial & Encym

An original experimental track to celebrate my new sound system

Fainted cry

Fainted Cry

I do, without knowing.
I  do it for fun, not for fame so,
ALL PROMOTION PROPOSAL WILL BE BLOCKED AND REPORTED AS SPAM
because it annoys me...



Also part of 
https://soundcloud.com/blending-altitudes with https://soundcloud.com/sonicrider
and
Off Grid with https://soundcloud.com/mahan-mahan



https://soundcloud.com/sleeplesscollective

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