i've been feeling like shit for these past few months. i'm really trying to hold on...just thanks man, for the song, it means a whole lot

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Written by Kai Straw
Produced Kai Straw
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by Hailey Badovinac

LYRICS:
Am I losing my mind?
Am I losing my mind?
Maybe
Am I losing my mind?
Am I losing my mind?
Maybe

Once upon a time in the suburbs
The fog was thick and I was feeling twisted
I had a friend doing lines with a lover
And another was sick throwing up in the kitchen
We had Mac Dre on
We made a club out the living room, turn the bass up
We had Mac Dre on
Our sun was the moon, our day started at dusk

There was something about it that I think I loved, though
Something ‘bout the fights in the street made the blood flow
Something about the lights from police when the sun rose
Seeing red and blue lights hit the blunt smoke
There was some kinda home in it
Like in the moment, drunk and stoned, we were owning it
Like we sunk so low we painted hell gold
And we faked like our wings weren’t broken

Am I losing my mind?
Am I losing my mind?
Maybe
Am I losing my mind?
Am I losing my mind?
Maybe

Once upon a time in the suburbs
I found freedom in my cup of who gives a fuck
I was mending a mind full of gutters
With a dream I’d get inside through a doorway made of slime
We had Young Curt on
Get me fucked up, let’s burn one
We had Young Curt on
‘Till the sun’s up, I’m another person

It’s like I found suicide in the night
To grab another drink was to slide in the knife
To take another hit was a .9 to the mind
and I’d lie like - boy, this the time of my life
So gimme that shot, yeah, I’m trynna get fucked up
Gimme a broad, yeah, I’m trynna get sucked up
I wanna be gone like one drip to the sea
‘Till dawn, I’ll forget that I’m me

Am I losing my mind?
Am I losing my mind?
Maybe
Am I losing my mind?
Am I losing my mind?
Maybe

Stream

Once Upon a Time in the Suburbs

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Written by Kai Straw
Produced James The Bear & Kai Straw
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by Robert Mine

LYRICS:
I could use a little hallelujah
Tell me ‘we’ll be okay’
If I’m honest, I could use a
Peek through the grey
Just a little hallelujah
Maybe a hand I could take
‘Cause to be honest I could use a
Reason to face the day

I’m facing a time when
Nothing is fine and
I’ll be alright, yeah
But I’d like a sign, yeah
Some light in the dark, maybe
Write it in the stars, maybe
Proof that a dawn is
Coming up over all this

‘Cause I could use me some heaven
Who made a hell out of this place?

I could use a little hallelujah
Tell me ‘we’ll be okay’
If I’m honest, I could use a
Peek through the grey
Just a little hallelujah
Maybe a hand I could take
‘Cause to be honest I could use a
Reason to face the day

You hope it’s a phase, yeah
Try not to complain, yeah
Say I’ll be okay, yeah
Or maybe I’ll just learn to fake it
Yeah, that knife isn’t sharp, baby
It’s not through the heart, baby
That drippin’ is polish
Lets make my kitchen red as the crawfish

‘Cause I could use me some heaven
Who made a hell out of this place?

I could use a little hallelujah
I want a ‘we’ll be okay’
If I’m honest, I could use a
Peek through the grey
Just a little hallelujah
Maybe a hand I could take
‘Cause to be honest I could use a
Reason to face the day

I’ve been weak
Pick me up
Take me home
Keep me closer, love
I’ve been weak
Pick me up
I feel alone when I sober up

I just need a little hallelujah
Give me a little hallelujah
Give me a little hallelujah

Little Hallelujah

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LYRICS:
Sometimes you hide when shaken up
You’ll say I’m fine and fake it
You’ll say I’m good
But them eyes ain’t lying
You’ve said the dreams you chase can look
So out of reach you hate them
You’ll say I’m good
While your mind is violent
And since I’ve known you I’ve known
You were prone to shame when you’re aching
I think you cope all alone
As you hope its a phase
And since I know that you won’t
tell me all of your pain when you’re aching
Listen close this a note
that I wrote for your bad days

You’re gonna find a way
You’re gonna make it through
You’ll see it someday
All this made a better you
You’re gonna find a way
You’re gonna make it through
You’ll see it someday
All this made a better you

Keep this note — t’s a paper cup
Sip when your hope has faded
When you’re feeling no good
When your light ain’t shinin’
I’ve seen you reach so far you rip
Hidden seams you try to stitch as no one looks
I think you’d die in silence
And since I’ve known you I’ve known
You were prone to shame when you’re aching
I think you cope all alone
As you hope its a phase
And since I know that you won’t
tell me all of your pain when you’re aching
Listen close this a note
that I wrote for your bad days

You’re gonna find a way
You’re gonna make it through
You’ll see it someday
All this made a better you
You’re gonna find a way
You’re gonna make it through
You’ll see it someday
All this made a better you

You’re gonna find a way
You’re gonna make it through
You’ll see it someday
All this made a better you
You’re gonna find a way
You’re gonna make it through
You’ll see it someday
All this made a better you

Listen close this a note that I wrote for your
Listen close this a note that I wrote for your bad days

A Note For Your Bad Days

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Produced Kai Straw
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Artwork by Alex Fyock

LYRICS:

I think love’s too hard
What’s kissing start?
What little lies?
For whom would I betray my heart?
I’m undecided
Is love just violence?
Is loving you killing me in silence?

Do I degrade so we still fit the same?
What part of me is missing?
Who did I trade for these lipstick stains?
Ooooo — what’s the cost of consistency?
Have I been in place too long?
What have my days become?
Have I started to fade?

I think love’s too hard
What’s kissing start?
What little lies?
For whom would I betray my heart?
I’m undecided
Is love just violence?
Is loving you killing me in silence?

I want to save what I know decays
Like hope — if I could grip it
I wish you’d stay as you drift away
Ooooo — what I’d give just to hear you speak

I think love’s too hard
What’s kissing start?
What little lies?
For whom would I betray my heart?
I’m undecided
Is love just violence?
Is loving you killing me in silence?

Or do I want to run
because I’m never one to blame my disfunction?
Or do I want to run
because I’m never one to blame my disfunction?

I think love’s too hard
What’s kissing start?
What little lies?
For whom would I betray my heart?
I’m undecided
Is love just violence?
Is loving you killing me in silence?

Violence

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Produced Kai Straw
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by Alex Fyock

LYRICS:

Take my hand
You gave me an awakening
Tonight — this is our LA
This is our LA

I was feeling so done so through with it
Like all love was some way polluted and
To have this was to someday lose it - it’s
Like I saw you as some someday bruises
And maybe that’s true
Maybe love, when it hurts, it can tattoo
But who would I become
If all I did was run from what I love?

So tonight under this Hollywood sign
I’m feeling different
I think my pain is eclipsing

So take my hand
You gave me an awakening
Tonight — this is our LA
This is our LA

So I’ma run to what I’m scared of losin’, yeah
I’ma believe when I can’t quite prove it yet
I’ma try when they say, ah, you should quit
And I’ma love, I’ma dare to be human
‘Cuz when I have you
In my arms - the past I’m attached to
It fades into the light
As we stand above a concrete sky

It’s like under this Hollywood sign
as we share these kisses
My pain is eclipsing

So take my hand
You gave me an awakening
Tonight — this is our LA

So take my hand
You gave me an awakening
Tonight — this is our LA
This is our LA

I can feel the city now
It’s like I’m in a wish that got away
So kiss me like it’s trivia
From the movies we’ve forgotten how to make

This Is Our LA

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Written by Kai Straw
Produced Kai Straw
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by KloudM

LYRICS:

It’s easy to feel alone
It’s easy to feel unnoticed
It’s easy to want to let go
To give into feeling hopeless

I once hated who I was
I used to think I was a waste of time
Like I wasn’t good enough
It’s like I wanted to escape my mind
I had to find a way to breathe
And find a way to love
And find a way to know
That no matter what

I got everything I need
I am my victory
And I’m good enough for me

It’s easy to feel like you’re broken
It’s easy to feel like your throat’s closing
And you think, who do I fight
if my villain is inside?

Well, I once hated who I was
I used to think I was a waste of time
Like I wasn’t good enough
It’s like I wanted to escape my mind
I had to find a way to breathe
And find a way to love
And find a way to know
That no matter what
I got everything I need

If I’m awake, I’ll find a way
I got everything I need
Say, if I’m awake, I’ll find a way
I got everything I need
I am my victory
And I’m good enough for me

Oh, I’m good enough for me
Oh, I’m good enough for me

Breathe

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Written by Kai Straw
Produced Kai Straw
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by KloudM

LYRICS:

No one gave me shit
I worked for this
At this point I’m just
done with encouragement
You say talented
I say calluses
I’m tasting my blood just pronouncing it
Since Fairfield days
The beats I made
I may have quit drinking but dream the same

I was told this the moon
Like good luck, Mr. Rocket Shoes

And they ask me why you workin’
All days of the week
To get somewhere you’ll never reach

I’ve been wishin’ for better so long
I guess I’m sick of wishing in by bed alone
If those wishes were weapons
Their full metal jackets are stuck
So fuck wishin’, I’m here with a gun
Jiminy Cricket never made me anyone
All my clips are full of bitterness
And I’m coming for you
I’ma bloom like a wicked magnolia

I’m not stoppin’ this
Just the opposite
I won’t drop when most people need oxygen
Since the green Lexus
Since the weed excess
Since the drink was my treatment for depression
Man, my lips been blue
Fuck what stitches do
I’ll put red on this mic like it’s ’92

I was told this the moon
Like good luck, Mr. Rocket Shoes

And they ask me why you workin’
All days of the week
Toward something you’ll never be

I’ve been wishin’ for better so long
I guess I’m sick of wishing in by bed alone
If those wishes were weapons
Their full metal jackets are stuck
So fuck wishin’, I’m here with a gun
Jiminy Cricket never made me anyone
All my clips are full of bitterness
And I’m coming for you
I’ma bloom like a wicked magnolia

Until I’m taken by weeds
My will is my leprosy
Instead of wounds that scrape the sheets
I’ve got no turn back in me
So set glass beneath my feet
Take the last breath that I need
To meet what glows beyond my reach
I’ll become a tragedy

There’s is no hell that spells retreat
Fuck your gravity
This to the grave
This to the grave

Mr. Rocket Shoes

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Produced, Performed & Written by Kai Straw
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by Alex Fyock

Lyrics:

Sometimes I can get caught up
I can get let down
I can get let go of by someone I found
It can feel like I’m up all the way to my ears
In thoughts of what I’ll never be
It’s like what don’t I got?
To what do I amount?
Am I living some way that I shouldn’t somehow?
Is there more I should be, or should do, or should find?
Am I enough or will I ever be?

I try to give myself a minute but the clock won’t approve
Won’t approve, won’t approve
If I could use a genie from this bottle like the liquor was blue
I would choose, I would choose

A little less pressure
A little less pressure on me
A little less what could I be
And more of who’s in front of me
A little less pressure
A little less pressure on me
A little less what could I be
And more of who’s in front of me

Sometimes I can get caught up
And forget who’s around
And live like the future’s more precious than now
It’s like no matter where I stay or who sits beside me
I can feel alone and somewhere else
And sometimes I can feel unloved
I can feel burned out
I can feel unseen like I’m the ghost of myself
Maybe I need a change
Maybe I need some help
Or maybe I need to scream just to feel out loud

I try to give myself a minute but the clock won’t approve
Won’t approve, won’t approve
If I could use a genie from this bottle, get a wish from the booze
I would choose, I would choose

A little less pressure
A little less pressure on me
A little less what could I be
And more of who’s in front of me
A little less pressure
A little less pressure on me
A little less what could I be
And more of who’s in front of me

Pressure

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Written by Kai Straw
Produced Kai Straw & James The Bear
Engineered by Fred Sorenson
Artwork by Hailey Badovinac

LYRICS:
I should’ve left all this behind me
But now you’re taking off your clothes
You look at me saying ‘try me’
It’s like you’re dripping down the cone
But I don’t wanna weaken anyone
And oh, I’m feeling weak you’re not just anyone
So tell me what its means if it’s just once
Are we in a dream of what never was?
Now we’re kissing
It reminds me of everything we’re given up
It’s got me wishing for a time machine
I’d go back and fix us up
It’s like inside each kiss I’m seeing us
And all we could’ve been if we never broke up
It’s like we’re back in time when we touch
In a new scene but the credits been done

Hmmm oooo ooo
Sometimes I feel like a fool
Hmmm oooo ooo
Sometimes I feel like a fool
(Feel like a fool)

I take your hips and let them guide me
It’s like I’ve slipped inside your soul
Is this a sin within my sheets?
If after this we let it go
Oh I don’t want to weaken anyone
But I don’t feel weak with my neck on your tongue
So this is either treason or it’s love
Or maybe this is heaven
And the death was us
(Yeah)

Hmmm oooo ooo ooo
Sometimes I feel like a fool
Hmmm oooo ooo ooo
Sometimes I feel like a fool
(Feel like a fool)

Why do mistakes feel like medicine?
How come you still feel like home to me?
It’s either shame or depression
I guess we’ll trade our health for heaven
Singing..
I don’t really care about that
I care about feeling good
We could feel better right now
If we do what we shouldn’t
I don’t really care about that
I care about feeling good
We could feel better right now
If we play like we’ve just fallen in love

Hmmm oooo ooo ooo
Sometimes I feel like a fool
Hmmm oooo ooo ooo
Sometimes I feel like a fool
(Feel like a fool)

Feel Like a Fool

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A Note For Your Bad Days

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