"lets turn up the volume let the feelings engulf u" Don't mind if I do

I'm the worst

i'm the worst

1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

i find it kinda fucked up
how you fucked two guys and called it bad luck
(called it bad luck)
im never, okay
i haven't been the same since 2018
and what a shame that is
it really coulda been nice 
but you marked my heart 
and tore it out with a knife
and no i dont think its fair
you put me on life support
and now you're pulling the cord,
baby, why so short?
yeah, why so short?
you cut me off the leash
and now you're never gonna get me back
(why dont they want me?)
yeah my nose is running
and my heart is hurting
i dont wanna do it now
i dont wanna go outside
i been falling

i find it kinda fucked up
how you fucked two guys and called it bad luck
(called it bad luck)
im never, okay
i haven't been the same since 2018
and what a shame that is
it really coulda been nice 
but you marked my heart 
and tore it out with a knife
and no i dont think its fair
you put me on life support
and now you're pulling the cord,
baby, why so short?
yeah, why so short?
you cut me off the leash
and now you're never gonna get me back
(why dont they want me?)
yeah my nose is running
and my heart is hurting
i dont wanna live if its not with you
i dont wanna be someone you knew
i guess it was fun while it lasted, now im dead
only 17 but im lying in my bed.

bad luck (boyfifty)

Come Back (prod. switch)

u cannot tell me 
different at all
im livin a cycle
i js wanna ball
i dnt wanna fall 
so im tryna crawl
away
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so
☆
yeh yeh
even more so
hows it feels to have pills in ur torso?
really bad.
when im out of my room doin tours n shit
i rly need my god damn milli back
im use to havin snakes in my friends list
if they hold me close 
imma hold em closer
godspeed
i dont want that to be likely
but if a bitch try me one more time 
they gon have to fuckin fight me
☆
im growing up
unlike u 
ur throwing up
gang signs 
n throwin bands
even tho they fake as hell
u just doing this for the clout
no one even likes u 
but ill shut my mouth
ur a sore to be around
i dont love u.
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so.
☆

sampled comfort chain by instupendo
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thank you

im trying everything possible.

use me up to tell me that u never loved me
I feel like I’m never nothing
I’m tired can u just leave me alone
Please stop staring swear my face is fucking boring
I don’t need to be important I’m swinging until I knock him cold
Staring at the mirror
Should I be alive
I’ve got reason to believe that it’s just not my time
Maybe in another life

I only eat when I deserve to
Clouded mirror sit and stare in the bathroom
I been thru it all before I’m just like you
I never wanna let you down but I had to

I’d give up on everything to be a better me
I’ve got people streaming songs
but no one listening
Every lyric that I write, you know I fucking mean
You only hmu to make a song with me

I won’t get that mad
I’m just frustrated
I can’t seem to get a break and I just hate it
If you lived in my shoes maybe you’d get it
Why I get pissed off and I’m not patient

WRITING EVERY FEELING BUT I’LL ALWAYS FORGET
EVERYTHING I EVER DID OR EVER SAID IN THE END
BUT I’M TOO FAR GONE TO CARE
I DON’T LIKE YOU
I WISH THAT YOU’D CARE FOR ME
YOU DON’T TRY TO

won't watch us wither away... 🥀

lyrics:

wake up from the sun dancing through the curtains
illuminating places where you used to fall asleep in my arms
the spotlight that won't let me heal from my scars

i can almost see you

i still water your flowers
as the leaves crumble down into nothing at all
i still water your flowers
i watch them wither away, won't watch us wither away

i can't even bare to look myself in the eyes
cuz the mirror glares back and you're right by my side
rain falls down and my head's in the sky
don't forget i love you til the day i die

no you don't deserve this
and i hope you heard this
and you felt the same way you did
when i pressed my face up against your forehead

i can almost see you

i still water your flowers
as the leaves crumble down into nothing at all
i still water your flowers
i watch them wither away, won't watch us wither away

i still water your flowers
as the leaves crumble down into nothing at all
i still water your flowers
i watch them wither away, won't watch us wither away

i still water your flowers

spotify

flowers (ft. yesterday)

Recorded/Mixed/Mastered Naive 
Produced: prodbytheswitch

Better Hope that I don't end up famous
Cuz your timeline will be dangerous
Won't remember what your name is
Better Hope that I don't end up famous
Cuz your timeline will be dangerous
Won't remember what your name is

Tell me that you think we in the past tense
Fuck these memories I can't manage
Tough times and they always leave damage
You do every single thing you can to leave me callused
Let's play dress up fess up while you pretty
Everyone tell us we a mess I feel guilty
Curtains when we shut the door this time
Best friends till when you say you're not mine

Fell too hard and I know that I'm in it now
Shell come apart every time that I figure out
Maybe as of lately I been feelen too much
Hate fate on the days when I see all your bluffs

Downtown mood fades like these streetlights
She got on her best face doesn't mean her heart nice
When you need it know that I should go delete it
Where you keep it that thing that should be beaten
Pieces run together when she hates all of the weather
And I know that I know better but I'll leave you alone never

Tell me that you think we in past tense
Fuck these memories I can't manage
Tough times and they always leave damage
You do every single thing you can to leave me callused
Let's play dress up fess up while you pretty
Everyone tell us we a mess I feel guilty
Curtains when we shut the door this time
Best friends till when you say you're not mine

It's okay if you wanna just fake this
I know that you love every single fragrance
Of me good or bad as of lately
Love me as you should no maybe
This Mirror reflects more than I remember
Hope I don't give more than I can lend her
Cope through the cold all of this December
I know we'll make it
If not your jaded
Better Hope that I don't end up famous
Cuz your timeline will be dangerous
Won't remember what your name is

Tell me that you think we in the past tense
Fuck these memories I can't manage
Tough times and they always leave damage
You do every single thing you can to leave me callused
Let's play dress up fess up while you pretty
Everyone tell us we a mess I feel guilty
Curtains when we shut the door this time
Best friends till when you say you're not mine

Spotify

dress up fess up (prod. prodbytheswitch)

prod. recyclebin

Lyrics: 
i dont really know how to turn this into
positivity...
and between u and me
these songs dont help with anything 

im stuck inside of my own head
yeah these messages will remain unread
cuz i never gave a fuck about what u said
and ima stay right here in my bed

yeah im gonna stay right here
these pills ill keep them near
this blood will rush to my ears
ive felt like this for so many years 
so many nights wishing i would just disappear
yeah wishing i would disappear 
cuz i can never keep anyone near 

empty pill bottle on the night stand
drink the liquor til i cannot stand 
when i die itll be by my own hand

drink drink drink
until im 
free free free
im out of time
beep beep beep 
im not alright 
(not alright)

yeah u know im not okay
i kinda sorta feel like shit every single day 
but hey at least i write some songs to vibe to 
lets turn up the volume
let the feelings engulf u
man i feel so bad 
let me open up this bottle again

(let me open, yeah open)

by my own hand [+recyclebin]

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

i can't catch a break.

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Prod. @user-597676997
Mix/master by @farhantnvr 

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Lyrics:
// geist
ghost inside of my walls they know
every time it comes and goes
light inside of my eyes won’t show
i think it’s gone for good

i tried to tell you,
there’s something wrong with my head
it’s see through,
cant get out of my bed
what’d you do?
to captivate me
every night you’re haunting my dreams

i guess i should’ve tried a bit harder
my heart skips a beat when you talk to me
you couldn’t hold on much longer
feelings get lost at sea

// hook (geist x envy)
tethered inside we’re caught in the silence
tell me would i be dead when the night ends?
i don’t wanna feel left out when you’re smiling
i don’t wanna hear a sound from the lightning

// envy
i struggle to say what i need to
and you say that i would complete you
so many things i would undo
i didnt mean to mislead you
and i cant be true to myself
left you when you needed help
and i swear that i couldnt tell
it feels like im frozen in hell
cause nothing makes sense anymore when youre not around i forget what im living for
and i cant sleep i swear i see you in my dreams

// hook (geist x envy)
tethered inside we’re caught in the silence
tell me would i be dead when the night ends?
i don’t wanna feel left out when you’re smiling
i don’t wanna hear a sound from the lightning

by my own hand [+recyclebin]

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