first of all i held it in
for too long
i try to change
but you know
its in my veins
no control
i lost my faith
for it all
you dont look up to your own values
what does that say about you?
one thousand know my value
your girl dont talk about you
im happy, sun exposure
were getting close and closer
im spending bracks cant fold them
i know you been a poser

first of all i held it in
for too long
i try to change
but you know
its in my veins
no control
i lost my faith
for it all
you dont look up to your own values
what does that say about you?
one thousand know my value
your girl dont talk about you
im happy, sun exposure
were getting close and closer
im spending bracks cant fold them
i know you been a poser

value (vinso)

featuring @820 

produced by @176s @kggn @f3arme (-‿◦☀)

[nurse]
u piss me off x4

what were u thinking
its all lost
the shots that im missing
all went wrong
i talk u wont listen
im not a ghost
i thought u were different
its all gone
i spread all my feelings
and now im cold
emotional damage
oh here we go
im starting to panic
where do i go?
erase all my feelings
dont want em to show
cuz its all gonn (ﾉД`)

u piss me off x4

[nosg]
i know what you were saying behind my back
i would love to feel poison inside my veins
u treat my like weirdo, why is that?
got me counting to 1000 in my head
i would wait
for you but it doesnt really seem like youre coming
but ill wait
im still choosing silence, unveil something

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ghost w/ nosgov (sense kuru feardorian)

produced by pearlblade

u jus another issue
didnt mean to piss u off
put u fkn piss me off
ten a pop ain goin home
ten a pop ain goin home
popping tags im at the store
they doubt wen i been knowingly sore

tell me whats the issue
sorry ain miss u
nobody cud fix u

Ten a Pop (prod. pearlblade)

w/https://soundcloud.com/k1lltr4sh

- lyrics -

(intro)
i don't like phone calls i just wanna be alone
i just wanna be alone 
i just wanna be alone
drugged out in the party, i just wanna get stoned
i just wanna get stoned
i just wanna get-
i don't like phone calls i just wanna be alone
drugged out in the party, i just wanna get stoned
i just wanna get stoned
i just wanna get stoned
i wanna overdose 
i wanna over-

i don't like phone calls i just wanna be alone
drugged out in the party i just wanna get stoned
taking my feelings with me i wanna overdose
loving myself loving one dose

(k1lltr4sh)
Said it about 100 times
I just wanna be alone 
Way too much anxiety 
From jus checking my phone 
Feel like I’m gonna die
I’m not alright 
Now I’m not eating 
I’ll don’t think I’ll be fine 

i don't like phone calls i just wanna be alone
drugged out in the party i just wanna get stoned
taking my feelings with me i wanna overdose
loving myself loving one dose

(k1lltr4sh)
Said it about 100 times
I just wanna be alone 
Way too much anxiety 
From jus checking my phone 
Feel like I’m gonna die
I’m not alright 
Now I’m not eating I’ll don’t think I’ll be fine 
What you say 
Going thru my brain 
Ur a parasite honestly 
I clearly remember what u promised me 
A life full of happiness but now i'm insane

isolophilia w/k1lltr4sh

prod me

*lyrics*

i said what's the problem?
idk what 2 call it
i said what's the problem?
i think there's something wrong with u

i keep on trying 2 forget
that we evr met
im so lost but i keep on driving straight ahead
i've had enough of this

i wish we could put life on hold
there's no time 2 get 2 know u
n i get u gotta grow 2 break the mold
but i think i like the old u

i said what's the problem?
idk what 2 call it
i said what's the problem?
i think there's something wrong with u

u luv the pain
luv the pain
luv the pain
there's another way
i can make it go away
let it sink in
over ur body, novacane
n i pray
we'll be ok

i wish we could put life on hold
there's no time 2 get 2 know u
n i get u gotta grow 2 break the mold
but i think i like the old u

i said what's the problem?
idk what 2 call it
i said what's the problem?
i think there's something wrong with u

*entry3*

	today i spoke with myself
	and for the first time
	i listened

i think there's something wrong

Thank you @ssoh @vairrin for Helping making this song Go a thousand Times Better :) Very proud of this one i hope you enjoy it :-)))

Produced by : @ssoh
Featuring : @arid
Artwork : @erdo
Lyrics :

erdo :
Losing thoughts of what i could've told you
Felt so trapped i went insane
all i need is self-forgiveness
tired of pushing all the Walls

and i don't wanna be this way too
and i don't wanna be this way Again
and i Don't wanna be this way too
please give me one More chance

you Know i want it better
you know That i won't let it go
i chased this Path forever
i couldnt make it Work

and i don't wanna Be this way too
and i don't wanna be this way again
and i don't Wanna be this way too
please give me one more Chance

arid :
'Cause i Feel it everyday
and i don't wanna run away
yea it always All felt the same
all your words Stuck in my brain
Wastin' every second every Moment here with You
I Don't care, i don't know if it's all even True

my skin Keeps crawling
i keep Falling
i can see it in your eyes
every moment Every memory
its Binded in the lies
you rip my heart Right open
our Pictures i keep coping
i don't know if its Right
i want you by my Side

erdo:
and i don't wanna be this way too
and i don't wanna be this way Again
and i Don't wanna be this way too
please give me one More chance
x2

The ends :P

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self-forgiveness (ssoh)

@sleepctrl
@flxffyowo
@enhanccce

https://open.spotify.com/track/5DKWbTawws0Pxt3nnQhOCJ?si=9af669077d6e4db0

plattmade - rotting like a corpse (prod. plattmade)

PLATTMADE/KANE DECAY ARCHIVE