i look in those eyes of yours
u look in these eyes of mine
i know that you're unsure
if what we had was right
i wanted you for my whole lifetime
i want you love but you dont want mine
there's blood on my hands and blood on my shirt
and i been taking xans but it still hurts
i saw you at the mall now im feeling worse
and the drugs they gave me didn't even work
i wish they would've worked
wish they would've helped
i wish that you were here because you'd really help
i hate how perfect you are to me
am i part of you? cause girl you're still a part of me
the way you smile at things is engraved in my memories
and all my friends are doing better than i'll ever be
look at our pictures in my phone and i still smile at them
for a moment i forget just how long its been
its been a year without you
i hate being here without you
look in my mirror and i hate what i see
i bet i hate myself more than you hate me
the way you made me feel was like ecstasy
but you're still here with me in my dreams
look in my mirror and i hate what i see
i bet i hate myself more than you hate me
the way you made me feel was like ecstasy
but you're still here with me in my dreams

eyes

i look in ur eyes
but theres no love in them anymore
im sendin u these messages that u ignore
u aint fw me anymore
remember we was ridin in my 4 door
smokin 3.5 couldnt afford more
i was down bad i had nothin to my name
so i was so suprised when u wanted me
fuck a side bitch u my main
n we both broken we the same 
i fell in love once wont do that again
i was takin pills when we met to numb the pain
she told me that she dont want me gone "stick to the strains"
i could see the cuts on her arm tears on my face
i was rlly stuck in hell she pulled me out this place
remember on the day she left i didnt know what to say
so all i said was "thank u for everything"
so all i said was "thank u n goodbye" n thats okay
i wont even lie i still miss her everyday
the picures in my phone of us still feel like yesterday
i miss the way
the way id hold u in my arms n all my pain would fade away
man these lyrics fucking cringe but thats the way i feel
i put my pain in all my songs cuz thats the way i heal
when i was young n naive i thought that love was real
u said that ud stay with me but u not even here
n now im all alone cant believe its been a year
n now we not together 
i hope u doin better
"i guess im doin better"
"than when we were together"
i wish id never met her
i wish id never met her

goodbye

when we were together i put you over everything
if you came back i'd put you over everything, again
i quit the drugs once i can't do that shit again
relapsed last week can't believe i did
2 pills in my stomach recording this
if i died right now would anybody give a shit
if i died right now would anybody even care
i'm making sad songs that nobody will hear
i don't think that you will even hear this
wish i could hold you close like the nearest
and girl to me youre just like a cigarette
cause when you're on my lips i can feel it in my chest
and i put all my pain in my lyrics
i made this song and i hoped you'd hear it
and girl to me youre just like a pill
cause without you i can't feel anything
girl i would put you over everything
girl i would put you over everything again
2 years with me meant nothing in the end
thought you needed love all you needed was a friend
i was lying when i said we meant nothing
honestly you helped me learn alot
if i could turn back the clock i would
even if it meant it'd turn out the same way
even if it meant youd end up hating me
i bought you flowers and you left on the same day
i don't hate you, i don't blame you
if i was in your shoes i would leave too
and if i was in your shoes i would hate me too
so i'll just take a pill so i don't think about you
so i don't think about you
so i'll just take a pill so i don't think about you

letter

bow//hatemee (produced by @v6y)

produced and mixed by me

they say "follow your heart",, but what if i dont have one?
i spend too much time online and on drugs
and i hope that youre fine, i know you never was
is it too late to say that youve won?

cuz youve won.

cuz im still broken
i cant look in the mirror
cuz all i see is my fears
and i dont love you anymore
tried to hurt you girl, but you dont get hurt
i guess youve won

you winning was exactly what i wanted
you only won because i let you
her body is still flawless
and my heart is the issue

i give up, you win

@maisonsinclair
we gon hit the mall
go and run it up
trippin bout hoes -_-
now i dont give a fuck
tripping off the xans 
damn near spilt water on the cloth
i was all alone
now im running it up

damnnn
ina AMG in Japan and we switching lanes
in the way with nakuyo san playing tory lanez
and we getting paid
give a fuck bout these lames

@nakuyoo
got Tis amg for u
i did it all for you
my blood drippin for u
pain inside my heart
i know u feel it 2
everyday im counting down
hope i can see you soon
strawberry cough but its jus not enough
hearts been cold for too long im waiting on ur love
i could really treat u right dont mean 2 b whakama
i know that ur bfs buns im not like that lil fella T_Ttt

maison sinclair& nakuyo - amg4you  (prod. sor2ta & symelz)

produced and mixed by @p4le_sk1n

#agirlisagun

uh i guess that we're done
cuz im so fucking sick of this putrid sun
nobody told me that a girl is a gun
i guess that i just needed someone 
someone to love
is it too much to ask for?
somebody to love
and ive wrote you so many poems
i wish i could show them to you
to you
show them to you
all to you

why does music that comes from pain sound so good?
you a sinner baby i hope your soul good
drop a xan in to my sprite then smoke the whole wood
they thought i couldnt do it but i guess i could
i dont know why i thought that we could be together
its 2025 and you still perfect as ever
i took you for granted that was so fucking dumb
i protect my heart because a girl is a gun

ive wrote you so many poems

produced and everything by me
jane sample
last song for awhile

say she an expensive girl
luckily i got money now
last week i was outta town
last week i spent 50thou
should i flex my bank account?

thats pretentious
and she rocking vintage affliction
i swear i just want your affection
it ok if youre drunk and we texting
i hope that you smile at my message
cuz i swear your smile infectious
i swear i just wanna protect you
cuz i think your heart is too precious
my precious, my grace, my angel
i smoke away the pain

imma do my own shit
produce my own shit
and smoke alone and shit
how lonely is it?
how lonely is it?
how lonely is it?

dont wanna be friends
need a reset
angel of death
she'll be right back
but she dont mean that
two feet in the sand
wish i could get you back
i know why you left
cuz im the reason

heart too cold, she know
underworld, she from

cant get my hopes up
we been thru this so many times
just reach your hand out
i promise itll be alright
cuz i feel something 
whenever i look in your eyes
wish i could get you back 
with everything ive sacrificed

im the reason

maison sinclair trauma prod avril mori

@nakuyoo
its you, if you knew
you'd fall too
you'd fall too
i getanyting 4u,
GLE4u
in my Diary, "dear diary, are you hearing me?" :(
its you
if you knew

@maisonsinclair
id do anything 4 Uu
o girl i Wud Bleed4Uu
whateva uNeed 4U 
new GLE4 uUUU
new AMG4 UUu
hurt Me is Okay itZz u 
pain girl i Hurt 4U 😔
im goinThru thaWorst 4 Uu

н3 м0г7 дblш4тb (p. diegointhedark)

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