loud (greyrock)

prod+mix by me
yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bb2YfbCrFTA

im not ok
fuckin hate
who i am
fuckin hate myself wana end dis shit
fuckin hate myself wana end dis shit
im so sorry mom
i cant sleep at nite
wish dat i could die
y do i have2 cry
everyday i wana kill myself
fuckin hate
who i am
fuckin hate myself wana end dis shit
fuckin hate myself wana end dis shit
everyday i wana kill myself
i cant sleep at nite
wish dat i could die
y do i have2 cry
everyday i wana kill myself

i would much rahter be empty than be what i am rn (bloodcryY)

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor

mv - https://youtu.be/xZp-e5pvB20?si=cT3UnICDpPdJov9a

i don’t wanna die tonight
but you kick in my fight or flight
& your eyes glow like fireflies
baby, i ain’t ever felt so right

i just wish you’d tell me what i mean to you
baby, all i ever do is dream of you

they ask me if i’m ever gonna see it through
but i don’t have a reason to
cold air, white tee that i’m bleedin’ through

it’s freezin’
you’re freezin’
i’m freezin’

i say i don’t need it
but i can’t release it

redeem me
my heart isn’t beating
an ocean between us
on my side, no breathing

snow falls down from the sky
i can’t tell wrong from right
it makes me wanna die
i’ll take my fuckin’ life

she said ‘i don’t wanna hear that’
it made me feel bad
yeah, like so sad
why can’t we go back? :(

god damn, i’m a wreck
your voice in my head
all of this regret
i’ll still luv you til the end

break down
i hate this place now
lay down
it’s gettin’ late now

stay down
you said you’d stay down
it was all lies
it’s all headin’ south

it’s freezin’
i know that you’re leavin’
you told me ‘be strong’
but there’s no God to believe in

i’m breathin’
you’re my only weakness
you’re playin’ your cards
i still think you’re conceited

it’s freezin’
you’re freezin’
i’m freezin’

i’m tryin’ to heal but i can’t thru the bleedin’

just leave me, you don’t even need me
i won’t beg you to stay
yeah, you don’t even see me

& you could put all of the blame on me
guess it’s shame on me
i’m not what you need

freezin'

Rain, rain wash it away 
Rain, rain wash me away 

Stuck under storm clouds
the forecast said lightnings 'round
You saw me, looked me in the eyes
and turned around
You turned around
You don't care now
Now I'm left begging the gods for..

Rain, rain wash it away 
Rain, rain wash me away 
Rain, rain end all this pain
Rain, rain I'll go into the sewers, drown	

Darkness coming
I can't escape it, it's approaching rapidly
The sun's setting
I love the cold
But without you it's consuming

You are my sun
Now you are setting
You are my world
Now my world's ending

I love the cold even though it stings
inflicted pain from beautiful things
Sick of the summer
It lies through it's teeth
I breathe in the Winter
this is what it means to be me

Down in the sewers
Rats scatter and scream
"please don't hurt us"
Don't worry
The storm's come for me
A fitting ending

(Rain, rain I beg you to wash me away..)

sewers / drown (prod. Saint Mike)

prod. W.FALLS

We could hangout 
You won’t like me
And I know that 
It’s so unlikely 
Drive ur car here
Don’t live far away 
Let me know what’s up 
Before its too late 

She saw potential 
In everyone we knew

I’m not special
Ur not either…

I would love
To get to know her well 
I can tell people like that 
Don’t open up easy 
Barely even know myself 
Spend most of the day 
Staring at the TV

Roll out of bed 
Force myself awake 
There’s something wrong with this 
Friends worried ur obsessed with him 
Love must not be real If this is how it is 

*love must not be real if this how it is*

We could hangout 
You won’t like me
And I know that 
It’s so unlikely 
Drive ur car here
Don’t live far away 
Let me know what’s up 
Before its too late 

She saw potential 
In everyone we knew
Im not special 
Ur not either

late nights talking to strangers

Bloodstains (Autotune)

double parked engine running
said she hate me, been a long time coming
i came up from nothing i feel like i’m at the summit
don’t think this world was made for me cause i was made for loving
baby tell me if u want it
baby tell me if u feel the same way that i feel when i see u
wanting me is not good enough girl, cause i need u
haven’t left my mind since the first time meeting u
she said that i’m bad news u know u should believe it too

on my shit again
shortcuts in my head
in a loop
spun around the bend in my living room
another doorway
i could put a pullup bar
just a little more
all depends, make a fool of us

i just paid my rent
I deplete my bread
in the pond it go
there it went, cut it off, better when
gone
in the wind
i'll just start again
square one, watch it go around, what a fitting end

it's a big joke
tiptoe
tripping either way
i dont know a thing, we all die alone, what a big weight
made it through
making do
they wont hear a thing
not a peep, its a long haul, how could i compete

double parked engine running
said she hate me, been a long time coming
i came up from nothing i feel like i’m at the summit
don’t think this world was made for me cause i was made for loving
baby tell me if u want it
baby tell me if u feel the same way that i feel when i see u
wanting me is not good enough girl, cause i need u
haven’t left my mind since the first time meeting u
she said that i’m bad news u know u should believe it too

bad news w/ flesh (shinju)

racks up bands up
hit that bitch from the back i put my hands up
big glock it’ll turn u to a phantom
w my brothers i ain’t fucking w the randoms
her friends hate me but her momma think i’m handsome

i don’t want her if she don’t look like midori
if she bad i don’t care if she ignore me
when i’m gone i hope they carry on my story
take my life there ain’t nothin here for me

nothing here for me
walk around town bloody cup it be gory
i just wanna fuck but that bitch say she adore me
i stay in the house steady chillin like im cory

i just got my bands up
got my racks up
flip it like a dancer
in a mack truck pull off with the gang yeah
my money stack up it bout to hit the fan yeah
aye bad bitch tryna take my pants off

i spent 13 racks like i'm hannah
got a 30 round clip in the banana
me and august steady snappin like a camera
hollowbody on my fit you in pajamas

racks up bands up
hit that bitch from the back i put my hands up
big glock it’ll turn u to a phantom
w my brothers i ain’t fucking w the randoms
her friends hate me but her momma think i’m handsome

i don’t want her if she don’t look like midori
if she bad i don’t care if she ignore me
when i’m gone i hope they carry on my story
take my life there ain’t nothin here for me

rubu w/ treez (shinju)

INTERSTATE 80 [PROD.YUNGMEXIC$NBIH]

Nonprofit, shoutout white shinobi 

Lyrics:
Girl it’s on video 
Where were you going?
Where were you going?
Baby you owe me 
Girl it’s on video 
Where were you going?
Where were you going ?
Girl you control me 

I’ll say yes to the pills in the morning 
I’ll say no to the girl that adores me 
Why can’t I feel anything important?
I just can’t accord it 
Everything is boring 

Everything is boring 
Till it’s lost or forgotten 
This hell that I’m held in
In my chest I have a lot held in 
Prisoner of Helgen 
Passionate like I’m Mackned 
Eager yet for the heaven

Helgen (prod.white shinobi)

444 on my life +halo +august (usbhalo)

You said 🔪 on me 🩸on me 🤷‍♀️
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