shout out to @kaiyko :^)

lyrics:
living in the darkness
colder than the arctic
you know that im harmless
just ignore the carcass
my mind is the darkest 
punishment the harshest
wrist covered in garnets
got it from the market
(2x)
i wake up at night i know everything is over
thinking about all my mistakes like im Homer
you took me through a fuckin roller coaster
why cant i just get some closure

i never thought id tell you why
i drift away when im sober
and now im older
but its like i dont try
to go with everything that comes my way
you say its just a game
so i try to play it cool yeah
try to play it all the same
but i never get far i never get far away
and im back in the same place
so why dont you just go run to your safe space
even if you know you cant run from the pain

its over, bulldozer
im tryin not to lose composure
getting colder, october
you lost your mask you went lower
i deny the truth till it kills me 
movin fast i hope that it thrills me
its nothing, im nothing
im nothing without you with me

Roller Coaster 🎢 (feat. Kaiyko) [prod wheelbot]

https://share.amuse.io/track/vil-synth-machina
Featuring @seenyona
Produced by @prod-oc
Mixed by @vilsynth @prod-oc , Mastered by @prod-oc

My baby asked if I was scared, just a little bit
It’s hard to tell that I could care, well I submit to it
I think the bars too high
I need affection, yeah, something to shape the scars of mine
You beat the bones out my body, baby I couldn’t say
I lose control in the party, maybe I should’ve waited
A single cell trapped in the basement
Just waiting for the roof to cave in

I say I’ve changed, I played the game, I’m hated
You say I’m fake, I say I’m not, I’m jaded
You paid to play, I paid to stay out of your head
Stay out of your bed, out of your head, yeah, yeah

I’m pulling strings, I’m not being blunt
That pussy talking, turn him to the blunt
No face, no case, uh
I pray my days’ up

Babe I can feel the void
Theres a light shinning through the cracks of my door
Babe I can feel the void
Theres a light shinning through the cracks of my door

Suns beating down and I'm feeling it love
Wiping off the sweat and I'll drink some more
Blistering my skin, I'll sow it all up
I don't really think we'll keep in touch

Cause' all that talk is sounding too cheap
I'll get schorhed by the sun, chuck a blanket, and shelter me
And the source of the sun are coming in high seas
With a sandstorm coming, locking me knee deep

I say I’ve changed, I played the game, I’m hated
You say I’m fake, I say I’m not, I’m jaded
You paid to play, I paid to stay out of your head
Stay out of your bed, out of your head, yeah, yeah

Because, when I'm walking that valley below
The caverns echo, drawing me close
With the canyon collapsing around me, no
I'll fight the Machina and bring this to a close

Oh, what I could’ve said
The blood I would’ve shed
Oh, what I’d do to be healthy, cause maybe I would’ve cared
Oh, maybe I would’ve cared, to cut you out my hair

I say I’ve changed, I played the game, I’m hated

Wrap up my arms, I'll take the stage and face it
Roam around the cage heated, I'm blistering
With all you know, I could have came and killed me
Play with the strings of fate, with the guided light and change them

You say I’m fake, I say I’m not, I’m jaded
Oh, maybe I should’ve said
Maybe I should’ve cared
Maybe I should’ve said

Stream

Machina (ft. alyona, oc)

Produced Mixed & Mastered by Lil Bonez
written by kenni
co-written by Brian Reyes & Joey Perez

Good Days

kenni