intro

prod. medium

i wish i could save you
but i only got so long
and i only got one song
to sing to you tonight
why do i escape you?
i really thought i'd run
it wouldn't be the same
i wouldn't have it any other way
put my fists up so i can
better defend from all the 
times when they're knocking me down i
always told myself i'm alone
give me good luck so i can
try to get it on again
you don't gotta wait around
you can make it safe and sound on your own
i shoulda known
there's something better than medicine
and it's not what they promised
i took a look and i saw it, it's close
so close
i remember who i am again
i finally figured out
what to do when i'm acting like this, i hope
i know, i know

i wouldn't have it any other way
i did everything i could for you
i didn't listen to a word you said
now tell me what i'm supposed to do
i think you're bad as my medicine
use your words to get in my head
even though i knew it wasn't true
baby you're so unpredictable
got me stuck on the pedestal
can you show me what this means to you?
lie back down (lie back down)
rest my head (rest your head)
go to sleep (go to sleep)
did you even like me anyway?
i just wanted to hear the truth
do you see what i was trying to tell you?
to show you?

any other way ft. slptlk (medium)

deer in the headlights (noah thomas)

prod @srypedia & @ilyl1ght 

-
ilyl1ght:
yeah yeah yeah, 
i guess the old me woulda killed you on the low
but i'm different now i guess well never know 
backed up into a wall 
swear to God  its not my fault 
i guess the old me woulda killed you on the
yeah yeah 
i guess the old me woulda killed you on the
i need to lock in, no time to stop and think about it 
need to focus, but you just make it hard to 
breath x6
i got scars all on me 
breath x6
i got scars all on me 
breath 

srypedia:
ig the old me woulda killed u on the low
ur crying to my face its rlly getting old
i tried to change u but a whore will be a whore
when u talked about ur past i simply cant ignore
u saw my best friend’s dick, u got too curious that’s what u get
stop getting mad at me for something i can’t control
never give me time, let my message rest and die
an “L” to signify, tell me r my words sublime?

ilyl1ght:
i guess the old me woulda killed you on the low
but i'm different now i guess well never know 
backed up into a wall 

ilyl1ght & srypedia:
swear to God its not my fault 

yea x (a lot)

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scars II

crushin demo for soundcloud

real version May 9th on all platforms :))

*+ (star positive) EP MAY 31st!

crushin (sapjer)

produced by: ilyl1ght 
lyrics:
why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see oh 

𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚 
𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩, 𝙞 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙 
𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 
𝙞 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪

i feels like i’ve nowhere to go
your not here and im trying to cope 
that look in your eyes feels like home 
home, home 
ohh 
with you it feels like i belong 
with you i don’t feel im alone 
ohhh

why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see ohh

you, i wont cope in a world without you
i wont live in a world without you 

<3

comfort

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

headlights (p. sapjer)

BETTER (p. sapjer)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i'm a mess
i barely know me
and my head
is so unholy
but i'm good
somethin pulled me
i don't know
she kiss me slowly

i gotchu figured out
you did me wrong and u wonder why i'm distant now
i stepped away cus i got sick of the room being loud
staring at a screen for hours designing sounds
and bringing in a crowd
how did i make it work
and i never thought i'd be saying "i did it first"
projects so big to where i couldn't even finish dirt
got my speakers shaking like this shit could blow a surge
i think my neighbors heard

open my window
breathe in air
sun sets at 8
wrap my arms around her body
while she kiss my face

whatever they said, don't believe em
don't let your own friends deceive you
whatever she said, don't believe that
i'll always look out for your back
don't believe a single word that she said
everything you heard is far from the truth
don't believe a single thing that she says
she says
she

don't be nervous
take a deep breath in
who you know doing it like this
face first going straight in the pavement
might as well just embrace it
weekend night
everybody goin out
except for me
it's the gym or my house
saw you just got back from the bar
that's cool
i'm just locked in makin art
prolly knocked out
2am i'm working
making my sound
i'm my own person
couldn't really tell you where i'm at for genre
i do everything and i'll do what i wanna
put your phone down, i don't want a photo
put a song out and don't even promo
post it on the gram, lotta people on it
post it on my story and your sister saw it
gotcha 
knew you wouldn't like that
flip flop
watching this moron crash
can't blame no one except for yourself
that's gotta be a record for switching that fast
how you gonna call me ugly
but stick around still obsessive w me
like i ain't dumb enough to put you under my sleeve
knock out, ya shoulda thought before u said anything

spotify

obsessed

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3MyYxx8xvAuXSBjaWn3Ytx?si=gVcNjko9TNmK31A6EsnxLA
video: https://youtu.be/aSLd-sA_r8E?si=zJtO76JZEkzhwppL
amv: https://youtu.be/EFWBgiBOOsI?si=xGHMcNo8ZR7M7D4_

produced by heylog

i was looking at her eyes
i could tell she wanna die
wait, don't
i will be alone no
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go)
please don't go (please don't go) (please don't go) (please don't go)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)
i was looking in her soul, she remind me of a ghoul
i think that she want me gone
come near me i'll bash your skull (bask your skull)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
i watch 'em all pretend (i watch 'em all pretend)
this is how it ends (this is how it ends)
drowning in our sins (drowning in our sins)

it's time to speed up
i am fed up with these people
go home
the world is falling off
i wanna go home
this ain't us
rewind
i wanna rewind back to you
beside
i wanna be beside close to you (close to you) (close to you)

heylog - how it ends

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the salvadoran anti-hero
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