cant get outta bed </3
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cant get outta bed
i cant get outta bed 
they say that im depressed
they say that im depressed
yeah then tell me something i dont know
cant get off my phone
i love to be alone 
or do i hate to be alone

im fucked up
thats 4 times this week
i fucked up
she cant look at me
my mind races
time races
trapped in my head 
i hate tight spaces
trapped in my head 
i hate tight spaces 

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<3

-emo fruits aka young cant get outta bed

CANT GET OUTTA BED (prod. wetgropes)

Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6Yu7kr0WSMVgoxEVdvuDXr
Apple Music: music.apple.com/us/artist/zen-online/1556118682

lyrics: 

hook: 

don't share my thoughts, don't wanna be a burden
i just keep it to myself cause im always hurtin'
i'm just living see the bright side, its so amazing
anime to pass time, watch it till the night ends
too bad they dont even really notice
wanna give up, i can't focus
see the moonlight, its always showin'
swallowing my pride, know that I can do this

bridge: 

know that I can do this
move on to the next day
it gon' be ok

verse: 

awkward boy I be on the movin'
find new friends, never included
nerdy boy high school, im acting stupid
needa clear my head, looking so polluted 
colors on my neck like some pikmin
we just found a glitch in the system
no, i ain't miss em
we don't have whips, flying in a gundam




the cover is my fav gundam, im tryna get the kit but its an old one so its hard to find :(
prod. me

Lyric Video

midnight

long story short
7 songs all me, my story
I wanted to give up plenty of times
I couldn't do it
I have a smart,amazing beautiful daughter 
the last thing I want her to see is me quitting 
I do this for you raina 
and for anybody who's shown my art love 
I thank you
music is art and art is apart of my story

2morrows sorrow + witch hotel (dash)

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

Cold lips on your cold hips
Close your eyes 
Baby girl we'll make love in the Afterlife
Benjamin.

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

AFTERLIFE  w/ YungJZAisDead (prod. tothegood)

I'm a pop punk disney princess </3
VIDEO OUT NOW! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZUGto2UO80

avril lavigne 
avril lavigne 
i just wanna bad bitch like she avril lavigne 
from 2003 way she lookin’ at me 
i just wanna bad bitch come & fuck up me plz ya 

like she avril lavigne ya ayye 
from 2003 but it 2018

i think i need a second can u wait ya
don’t mean to make it complicated now 
i don’t think u understand 
ya i been making plans 
oh life be moving fast but i been makin moves so 

go and get it again ya
I steal your girl now 
jakky fuckin finna like win 
i never try to it just all works out in the end 
fuck that old mood 
never going back in with it

she likes that i spit 
play guitar little bit 
don’t ask me for a song about ya
u already got it

Avril Lavigne

what i do to u? w/ SlugChrist (Prod. Nedarb)

spotify

watching stars die ft. tommy ice (prod. jakkyboí)

lyrics:
There’s something going on inside me I used to try to hide
But you’re keeping me alive with the green that’s in your eyes
I was lonely and addicted and I’m honestly surprised
That this broken boy would end up with an angel by his side
Before I met you I was lost
You’re the only thing I could ever want
And I just want to be there 
I just want to see you grow into who you’re meant to be
I will always be yours, i will always be yours
I never knew that it would be this way
Never knew that I could be the man I am today
I would go to hell and back if I could take your pain away
You never have to miss me baby girl I’m here to stay
There was always something missing but I found it in your face
A smile that could put a broken heart back into place
From the moment that I met you swear to God that I was saved
Who knew that in an instant my entire life would change
Before I met you I was lost
You’re the only thing I could ever want
And I just want to be there
I just want to see you grow into who you’re meant to be
I will always be yours

before i met you pt. 2

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

2morrows sorrow + witch hotel (dash)

kev7 (@bevyung)