all this and more, plus a cool side project coming soon/not as soon/whenever i finish

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i'm not dead (demoreel 2022)

If you exist, so does your very own antithesis

Art by Michael Dziedzic: https://unsplash.com/photos/ir5gC4hlqT0

Void Edge

Video

she was born on a spring day
'cause here the sun doesn't shine till the middle of july 
won't see her until may 
i don't wanna see her change 

a blemish made on a perfect scene
heart in spades, and cardinal sins
scarlet stains on our memories 
forget that the seasons change

she said, "you can't go home, you can't stay here" 
desperately tryna relive these years
she was a constant reminder
that nothing can last forever

yesterday was her birthday 
a heart of fool's gold, i've been reluctant to give away
the hand that you dealt
the hand that i held back then

i think that i made a mistake
got up and left and gone without a trace
on a temperate spring day
maybe we'll meet again someday

quarter to eleventh hour
‘cause winter skies mean april showers 
but i still mistake the weeds for flowers 
in your decaying abandoned garden

can't go home, you can't stay here
desperately tryna relive these years
she was a constant reminder
that nothing can last forever

can't go home, and can't stay here
bargain with the devil to ease your fears
your friendships fade, you move away
just forget that the seasons change

and in september i got it
the same spark - it's time to depart
but i can't help but stay guarded
'cause i don't want everything to change 

can't go home, you can't stay here
desperately tryna relive these years
she was a constant reminder
that nothing can last forever

can't go home, and can't stay here
bargain with the devil to ease your fears
your friendships fade, you move away
just forget that the seasons change

can't go home, you can't stay here
watching all your cherished ones disappear 
she was the cruelest mistress
with all of her gifts and curses

can't go home, and can't stay here
universe is moving too fast to care
she was born on a spring day 
i've forgotten her name

spring day (ft. Aston)

Hard-Wired Rhapsody feat. Jetdarc, dreamweaver, & withdecay

Neurotica, Polyphia (8 Bit Cover)

made this at 3 am. trying to get comfortable with making and sharing my music just for the sake of it, regardless of "purpose" (whatever that means) or how much polish or intention was put into the process of making it. pretty simple but hopefully tasteful, a little mellow and sad but also kind of a release. hope it puts you to sleep

art: nana - ai yazawa

melanocturna (demo)

edit: if this gets a 100 likes i put out the next track early 😈

this could be heaven - this could be the dream that i've had countless times 
where we had a home 
had a rooftop with a better view of the skyline

but i wake up, still aching for the quiet after storms 
when we're secure - when we're free from the dice 
and set into stone until the day i'm out of time

we've got forever
to find our peace together 
when the clouds part, our journey will start 
into the sunset, into the amber

and though the odds aren't in our favor 
and they say feelings tend to waver 
ready when you are, cause we've made it this far
into the resin, into the amber

when these younger days become the yesteryears 
hung in golden frames along the corridors
as our ash escapes into the stratosphere
this is what i want; nothing less and nothing more

i'm sure we've got forever
to find our peace together 
when the clouds part, our journey will start 
into the sunset, into the amber

and though the odds aren't in our favor 
and they say feelings tend to waver 
ready when you are, cause we've made it this far
into the resin, into the amber

through the coming years of waking up 
to the replica of you - smiling through the other side of my obsolete device

the light that keeps me sleep deprived 
the sound of clicks on glass 
i will never let go of you again

and as the last tree goes up in flames
as the last lake evaporates
as the last star fades into the night
i'll leave it at that - the promise is implied

the time we have together
i know it's not forever
but we'll meet again when we're beyond the horizon 
over the sunset, and into what's after

and now your voice a different timbre
and my bones a little weaker
ready when you are, cause we've made it this far
into forever, into the amber

darling, you don’t have to be afraid
i’ve waited my whole life for you, after all

us against the universe

amber

is it real, is it fake?
is it all just by mistake
she believed long ago
that she would find it

i’m a wreck, and she’s a mess
but when i’m with her all the rest
fades away, dissipates
into the gray

think before i take a step
i’m afraid what’s coming next
do i move, would i regret
yesterday

she played a song 
it sounded good
was from her mom's piano book
all along
misunderstood
at a glance 
was all it took

she was mine 
i was hers
by the ivories we stood 
and poured our hearts out
what do i do now? 

i grew up
a house of five 
she grew up an only child
quiet place
grown up faces everywhere

we don’t believe in fairy tales
pretty sure we know what’s real
haven’t seen it for ourselves
it’s a truth she knows too well

not a damsel in distress
not a prince who needs his character development, oh

i played a song
from the heart
on my brother's old guitar 
out of tune
how to start
when i know we’ll drift apart

separate
never stays
something getting in the way
still, i poured my heart out
so, what do i do now

bridge
you could be the poet if you let me be your muse
know it’s probably stupid, but what do i have to lose?
so pick a sheet of paper and your favorite color pen
and we'll write our story 
again

harmonize here
she played a song 
it sounded good
was from her mom's piano book
i was wrong
maybe we could
if a glance 
was all it took

not the girl of my dreams
i'm probably not the boy she needs 
all i know is
it was real to me

pianobook ~ it was real to me

Adventure For Bread FT. Po-uta

elimination

this upload has been long overdue, here's my last song from p@d rebirth! real talk my man hollow slayed it

https://soundcloud.com/n_hollow_what_up on vocals

cop the dl here 
https://poniesatdawn.bandcamp.com/album/rebirth

listen to this on spotify 
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2Rod7wNBrA89YssI7gW4xT

art by panda prince 
https://panda-prince22.deviantart.com/art/Javon-Patt-Commission-727129208

Rebirth

tap out w/ n hollow

Video Game Music Composer // Kevinseanweaver@gmail.com

Neurotica, Polyphia (8 Bit Cover)

KB3K

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