ONE THING'S CERTAIN W/ SHIKI XO [+love, matt x pekarot]

ｕｎｔｉｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｕｓｋ　ｅｒｏｄｅｓ，　ｏｒ　ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ　ｇｅｔｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ

produced by @cartermetro & @gualabeatz

hey, 
workng on a lot; it's been difficult to come by many things lately, 
but i'm really trying to get there
thank you so much for all your support
thank you so much for listening
thank you for being here
take care of yourselves
i love you
drink water 

i don't wanna lose the emotion
i don't wanna sweep it under the floor
'kay girl fuel that substance
like, somehow it knows you need something more
i don't wanna feel real love yet
'cauese love ain't love, it's knowing your core
and i know you know that you're running
better shape up 'fore you keep that

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird

when my neck goes stiff i try to stretch it
get some leverage into heaven
seen a lot of angry faces, disappointed my decisions
cold bed, lost friends, time spent just forgetting
sharp pains, dull fate; stimulate the seven senses

oh my, don't cry, feel fine that you're falling (2x)

fuck time killed over cheap thrills
like wine spills for some dopamine
i still that i'm unreal, so i choose to be who i wanna be
not swept up like room dust, when it turns dusk and i can't see
how i once felt, if i did well, for the person who had wanted me

never really know if it's a drill
am i really dying? wish i'd know that
write it all on the will
this windowsill really goes back
when all i had was to heal
now all i have is to collapse
coffee cans over pills
hands quake from the cold blast

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

40 minutes pass uh
hot water still rolls off of back yo
never can relax, i
step out the moment the feeling retracts
now i feel in mass
got nowhere to go, so i'm making a track
easy as that
you know that you feel it so fade in the grass

neither fight or flight 'cause i'm aware of my abilities
i'll chalk it up until the dusk erodes or finally gets to me
i guess we tend to trust in what we fight for
but don't let a road become an eyesore
open up your mental, persevere and take a dip
just because you weren't there, it doesn't mean they ain't exist
i create to stimulate when no one's there to fill me in
'cause when your home's a hollow body, i could a little pinch, so

we can probably make it work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect your worth
(worth) 2x
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i am just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

cans [prod. cxrter x gualabeatz]

prod. 1tcyxo & wasterr
@safeatlast

[kill breanna:]
theres not enough beat 4 me
cus i got 2 much hate in me
this shit aint what i had in mind..
im changing my mind like every, every, night
u can see my eyes, so dont ask me how im doing
i think i wanna vomit
i know im dumb, i promise

i cant stand 2 wait on me no more
i feel like my eyes hit the flooor
good try, but i still know whats deep inside of my mind
good bye! to all the fake cunts in my friendss list
i see the fuckn walls spinnin
hold up, i did not finish
i said "fuck my demise", no i am not finished
nah i dont fuck w thermal countries fuck yo fins, bitch
yes im wired up, off that mud and them pills, bitch
reliable asf, im always high, im never low
im happy when not home, buy that shit by the o
fuck. everybody. that i known, i guess
i guess i shoulda waited, but i did it feelin lifeless
yEEEAaahAHAHahAHAHHhooooOOooOOOo

[lil divine:]
feelin lifeless
got no fuckin heartbeat
i gotchu in my sights bitch 

ye i pull up wit a knife quick
stick it in ur corneas 
and leave u fuckin eyeless

i see the fuckn floors spinnin
maybe i should stop sippin

they screamin out divine
this my life and i did it

i fucked up yea i admit it
let me speak for just a minute
i dont ask a lot from you
just let me have my time wit it 

got no time aint no wristwatch  
i got no time for a pit stop
im comin up letcho bitch watch
u aint on my team u got kicked off

no gucci and no saint laurent
rock teen hearts til the day i drop
bitch ima go like pokemon
ima run this shit til the day im gone 

[kill breanna:]
theres not enough beat for me
cus i got too much hate in me
this shit aint what i had in mind
im changing my mind like every, every, night
u can see my eyes, so dont ask me how im doing
i think i wanna vomit
ulooksodumbipromise

[lil divine:]
i dont know what you see in me
its the same shit like every week
this shit aint what i had in mind
im killing myself like every fucking night

you switched up your love
and it sucks,
and it hurts 

[kill breanna:]
fuck grownin up, stay a kid
fuck growin up, this is shit
i fucked around, and raced that shit a bit
fuck a speed limit, bitch im lit
FUCK a bitch who dont believe in shit!
FUCK a bitch who dont try for shit!
nah i dont fuck w thermal countries fuck yo fins, bitch
yes im wired up, off that mud and them pills
reliable as fuck, im always high, im never low!
im dazed, meo!
please leave me alone!
i guess i should've waited, but i did it feeling lifeless.

ulooksodumbipromise w/ lil divine

ulooksodumbipromise w/ safeatlast

she say that she hates me
i just wanna talk
bleeding from my fingers
anxiety my fault 
told me that its okay
but baby it is not
ive been through the ringer
ive been through a lot

i feel at ease when your around me 
i beg i plead come find me
i cant see im blindeed
cant see the future im short sighted
oh i dont wanna know
who you was with what you did let it go
escape from this
feelings on show
i feel too vulnerable 

cigarette smoke is burning my lungs
im faded so you can watch your tongue
pull me aside tell me what you want
told me that everything we hads gone

cant you see im shaking
im tired of waiting
i hate this feeling i hate it

she say that she hates me
i just wanna talk
bleeding from my fingers
anxiety my fault 
told me that its okay
but baby it is not
ive been through the ringer
ive been through a lot

ive been through a lot

Infinite Timeline Parallels, oh, also the city and planets or some shizz

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied

lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home
but in silence
a whisper found its way
a gentle that led her astray
she found solace in his eyes
a beacon in her darkest hours
she saw the beauty in the flowers
he saw the beauty in her eyes
she tried to build a wall between them
the pain she carries inside
with every word he chipped away everyones lies

in his embrace she found her face
no longer silenced by the noise
he held her heart through every storm
no matter what came at them
they would always get through it
and thats the story once told 

(she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied
lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home)

(piano/violin solo)

burden

(vacant)
every breath that i take is filled with all kinds of hate
i need to focus
this is all the same that you told me it'd be
its all love from you
told me to sit down
i was quiet and calm
i see a future with you
im growing in mold the more hesitate with you

let me build up our walls 
protect us from every hazard
i dont need no cause of death
to know that something has happened
coz when im gone
that'll be it for the story i told
and every romance has a ending
but this one is cold
ill fabricate my death
to spend eternity with you
coz your all i need
just me and you

every breath that i take is filled with all kinds of hate
i need to focus
this is all the same that you told me it'd be
its all love from you

(softsystem)
Lately I’ve been distant, 
Wear my heart up on my sleeve but something’s missing.
I’ve been tryna stay afloat but it’s a mission,
Need intermission.

When it all goes wrong will you call my name? 
When it all goes wrong, will it fall into place?
Every time I touch your skin,
I feel it all again.
Was there something that I missed?
I fear it’s on my end.

A man weeps and grieves at the sight of his sacred garden,
Just please believe, it was never my intent to harm you.
In the bleak sunlight I sit and write while I take my time to heal,
Would it be alright if I could just lay down and tell you how I feel?

A man weeps and grieves at the sight of his sacred garden,
Just please believe, it was never my intent to harm you.

quiet conversations (feat. softsystem)

i still see blue

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/user-411557229
prod: saint mike
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

writing out these letters
lately i can't help
but pray that i get better 
i'm stuck in my own hell
talk to me slow,
don't let me go 

we were so happy,
what happened?
stuck on the past tense
sometimes i miss it 
it's hard to forget it 
blue,
(i still see blue)
i still think of you
(i still think of you)

lay by the lake,
i was never the same 

baby ima masochist at best
got a lot of scars on my chest 
i was your porcelain puppet 
cracks line over my stomach
even with my body going numb
i still wished to feel the cuts 
and after everything was done
i still wanna be your one

(residential:)
am i bothering at all?
kinda wish you stayed 
is it someone else's palms
or the portraits that i framed

is it killing you at all?
cause i can't say the same 
the hazel in your eyes
is embalmed into my brain 

i cant sleep at night 
it's better with time
but i'll

pull it together
keep my dignity tethered
guess it's better than never
your words here forever

(skele:)
fucking wasted my time
still on the back of my mind
fucking wasted my life 
oh trust me, i tried
(trust me i, trust me i tried)



after everything (w/ residential)

prod jolst

I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
u don't have to say anything
just hold a tight fist
I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
I cant be myself
so I sit in silence

never been the one to blend in
always felt like I was too different from them
im feeling strange when I should be on the offence
only cheer from the background are they really my friends
so I get so tired
is that what its like
to be so different that you sit an be quiet
leave your thoughts to your own
and that's fine
alright alright alright alright

I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
u don't have to say anything
just hold a tight fist
I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
I cant be myself
so I sit in silence

I never wanna tell you where it begins
I don't wanna ever relive it
school was hell
and now im older
I can hardly tell
that pain got colder
always felt like I was out of place
like a ghost walking In the human space
they laughed while I stayed in my shell
told myself "you don't belong, but oh well"

I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
u don't have to say anything
just hold a tight fist
I can tell u that its like
tell u that im like this
I cant be myself
so I sit in silence

different

My private hell

lyrics:

There’s a fountain in the court beside the mulberry and wheat
Underneath its water rusts a hole fit for a key
Cinderella dressings on the victorian sheets
Wrapped inside the bedding is a metallic-esque gleam

I sit woken shaking from an alchemical dream
Nature overtook us once it could melt thru the greed
Revolution powered by water drank by the seed
Roots that fast devour the cowardice out the fiend

Now its every night im thinking im overdoing the weed
Everything around me changes from fore I was asleep
Waking up outside on top the lawn killing the green
Picking fleshy things out the separations of teeth
Teach to the symbiotic method
I need help from underneath the ground to read the message
Wrap me in the furs of fauna felled to give me leverage
Cinderbrew is kicking out the cup I poured my beverage

Ever since u left me here and drilled in me disparage
I took up my arms and fought the land to build this carriage
Chopping at the trees around my camp to feed construction
I leave on the morrow east to share with u destruction

I come out the forest taken with me parents, peers and cousins
Then I show u how i break their bodies into nothing
I gift u a jar of blood and one I stuffed the dust in
Looks like after ridicule ive found im good at something

There’s a fountain in the court beside the mulberry and wheat
Underneath its water rusts a hole fit for a key
Cinderella dressings on the victorian sheets
Wrapped inside the bedding is a metallic-esque gleam

the cindermen (sorrowbringer)

Just another abandoned dream...
Got a few songs coming out, or not, maybe, whenever… 

Lil deep 

Go cheque it 

Yoyo feelin'

one and the same

i can't explain

never to be released 'Lonely Waters' the album

Infinite Timeline Parallels, oh, also the city and planets or some shizz

Littner

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