head full also empty

music / kian https://twitter.com/kiandoesnt
vocals / GUMI https://twitter.com/GUMIfromMegpoid
illust / https://soundcloud.com/ponkansoup: https://twitter.com/citrus_soup?s=20
MV /  https://youtu.be/z41Twyf7atQ
Inst /  https://piapro.jp/t/PjYS

[lyrics] 
Letting everybody take what’s mine
Giving everything, so divine
Keep our universes on a line
Mixing everything, we intertwine
Unequivocally horrified at this feeling that we can’t subside
Everywhere we go we cannot hide
Hide from such a lie
In your hands you hold a broken heart
Dark remains that you had torn apart
“Show with words” where do I even start?
A shitty, mediocre piece of art
A faded memory of how we were
When said out loud, is sounding quite absurd
“Don’t tell anyone” you made me swear
Nodding passively, can’t help but stare

Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
Your hands, once warm, now nothing short from a cold ice
We’re running now
Running away, the wind still feels nice
The people stare, and it’s unfair that I know we’re right
Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
And every movement, every word stabs like a sharp knife
The sun is setting all the redness is out of sight
So leave me in the hands of night

And the devil knows everything I have to show
Call it fear, call it hate
Something I can take
You can scream and cry
Scratch your throat when asking “Why”
Make a deal, make it real
Make it yours to steal

Be the devil, be the devil
Soon I’ll, soon I’ll
Be the devil, be the devil
Soon I’ll, soon I’ll
Rid the evil, rid the evil
Soon I’ll, soon I’ll
Be the thing that once consumed me
Set me free
Waiting here forever on repeat
Walking in, the watchers take their seats
Long gone now, the feeling of defeat
Replaced by the slowly rising heat

Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
Your hands, once warm, now nothing short from a cold ice
We’re running now
Running away, the wind still feels nice
The people stare, and it’s unfair that I know we’re right
Holding me down
You hold me back from a new life
And every movement, every word stabs like a sharp knife
The sun is setting all the redness is out of sight
Leave me in the hands of night

And the devil knows everything I have to show
Call it fear, call it hate
Something I can take
You can scream and cry
Scratch your throat when asking “Why”
Make a deal, make it real
Make it yours to steal
So please appeal

BEDEVIL

sorry for not uploading </3

i dont see
how i was the fastest seed in the race
cuz now im so slow
and i cant outrun the pain

and all those fucking years
of being told that i was gifted
they've made me so indifferent
to any task that comes near

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a dick

all my bad qualities
anxieties, insecurities
culiminate into a really shitty tasting soup

and all those fucking years
that i wasted online
of all the possible universes
i know im living in the worst timeline

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a piece of shit


im living in the worst timeline

The Worst Timeline

its kinda fucking messed up
that im forced
into getting a job
and then to work

for the rest of my life
and then i retire
when ive already been used up

i dont want to fucking work
i just want to stay in my own bedroom

i really need some pay
but i dont wanna slave
away until im dead
just for a minimum wage
and i dont wanna learn
to become another
cog which just slowly turns

i really dont want to
stay in school
cuz i cant concentrate on who 
is even teaching the bullshit they're feeding me
to make me a tool

and i'd rather not be a robot
typing stuff onto a little box
coz thats exactly what i already am
and im fucking dumb to make that my career plan

i dont want to fucking work
but i want some fucking cash in my hand

i really need some pay
but i dont wanna slave
away until im dead
just for a minimum wage
and i dont wanna learn
to become another
cog which just slowly turns

WORKSHY

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

i miss her

you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

she needs some milk

Video: https://youtu.be/3VA8u8UDaCw
Lyrics: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1rNmOfUvTu-H3IXf4nFKe_LaY5WE_i-wbv8Axjie3jvI/edit?usp=sharing
iTunes/Spotify: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/riproducer/pyrite-girl
Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1vPpQejInfiYbUHI8RnZEOBt5rwaS81Go?usp=sharing
MIDI: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1vfkN6f11ek8XZlg4RFKy_cXTmUaaZlDh/view?usp=sharing

PYRITE GIRL / パイライト・ガール ft. Kagamine Rin (VOCALOID Original Song)

Cong Zheng / Lamentations - Vane Lily, GHOST, Carbon Monoxide

"i don't wanna let you down"

youtube mv - https://youtu.be/Yg6g3agPj8Y

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music / illust / mv - friendxp  
vocal - sheena

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instrumental / midi / lyrics - https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1d-V7zDQiUcbIlweUSpywtOG57Ck9lMU9?usp=drive_link
streaming - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/friendxp/how-2-pleaser
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/album/how-2-pleaser
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

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it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
such a simple sound
such a simple sound surrounds

it’s a crisis in itself
the symptoms paralleled in every infidel
i know it well
you always sell what’s not to tell
and simply, a stagnant “truth” luring us into “sin”
as soon as we begin
i know better than that
back-to-back, there’ll be no slack

i’ll never be ready
cannot keep my breathing steady
as i one step, two-step, closer to you
can’t follow through, i already knew
solitary basis
crude migration through these phases
cycle on and on
while struggling to play along

it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
every dream i see’s a burden i cannot rid

a masquerade of willful ignorance
performed until the closing act is done

i don’t wanna let you down
i don’t wanna ever let you down
such a simple sound
such a simple sound surrounds

“let me waste my life atoning for somebody else’s burdens”
who should be responsible for traumas left inaudible?

now, we’ve both withdrawn
dawdled on when mending bonds
and now, they’re nearly gone
every single fleeting glance
i can spy the eyes of latent plights
hunting through night

of course, the status is enforced
may i premorse what bloomed straight from the source?

denouncing that “other side”
turn it to me and i’ll look alive
“would you look at that round of sinners?”
smiling, idling as no beginner
it’s better not showed nor telled
“it’s like they wanna go straight unto hell”
for this sentence that swallows all lifelines
i’d like a bit of time

i’ll never be ready
cannot keep my breathing steady
as i one step, two-step, closer to you
can’t follow through, i already knew
solitary basis
crude migration through these phases
cycle on and on
while struggling to play along

it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
every dream i see’s a burden i cannot yet rid

in the end, it’s the same
is there gain without pain?
“it’s coming around to get you cause ain’t it true?”

as i’m bombarded by complexity
the world remains a mystery
there’s no room for ambiguity
“allah, the scenes i see are - ”
shrouded by ubiquity
parading false identities
and twisting tongues oh so breathlessly
“allah, the scenes i see are gone”

allah, the scenes i see are wrong…

it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
every dream i see’s a life that i cannot lead

a masquerade of willful ignorance
performed until the closing act is done

i don’t wanna let you down
i don’t wanna ever let you down
such a simple sound
such a simple sound surrounds

now, and till i’m gone
allah all along had me wrong

HOW 2 PLEASER - friendxp feat. sheena

higanbana milk tea

NEW: RJO Jingle Collection Sampler #52 - 19 07 23 (Reelworld Special)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQI5a2WGt2s

Hatsune Miku Eng / Entomologists [Original Song]

Go Go Ghost Ship

edit 2024: oh that sure is a song alright 

yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1i-3qp7APXw

MP3/Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1JuWjZ_o1QmrlcC36Z02rvHHDaYXNlq6T?usp=sharing
VSQx: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1jGjoMV_FIAQOhHMjJGPvKmFZ2-TI1988/view?usp=sharing
Lyrics: https://docs.google.com/document/d/16EUegjl4hPv6GoS-3HsFJ7g_M-w3zFlZ3GN07tlYMT4/edit?usp=sharing

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【Chika】Finders Keepers【VOCALOID Original Song】

PV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9k3rafwU_C8

unmastered instrumental/vocal midi: https://www.dropbox.com/sh/7r0f73bbb6n0gqn/AAA4U2eZtplWRynylDXlgfdha?dl=0


[Lyrics]
In my eyes all has died
I can try to make it through the other side
Gone are the worlds nearby 
Emptiness that my mind denies
I’ve yet to realize
That, in me, destiny relies

I’m living, I’m breathing
A universe reborn
I’m weary from finding what it has in store
So
Tell me, how do you view the perfect me?
Tell me, what do the people need to see?

In my eyes I’m alive
Though they’ve tried to push me off the tower of life
Still, I survived the throes of a world I’d no longer known
Laying so solemnly
Knowing soon that I’d be set free

Everything aligns
Side by side the life I’ve made intensifies those feelings from my mind

I’m living, I’m breathing
A universe reborn
I’m weary from finding what it has in store
So
Tell me, how do you view the perfect me?
Tell me, what do the people need to see?
Tell me, is this the life that’s meant for me?

In The Palm Of Her Hand, The Universe Was Reborn / Eleanor Forte

first song with una as the main vocal!!! :)))

yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYd1fT45_bw

lyrics: https://docs.google.com/document/d/14IL2T3bRWk8t7coxpZOybbT98zRh78iOnN_Nse1z2Y4/edit?usp=sharing

mp3/inst: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1BAqd4VOPfR14DkQ19Pnd71cwwxN08OlK?usp=sharing

midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/14_IykUfCJGVALGq8MK2oOvN6_RlLoydV?usp=sharing

What Gave It Away ft. Otomachi Una (VOCALOID Original Song)

vocal synth producer // alt rock + dark pop music

BEDEVIL

kian

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