i tried to talk, but i couldnt if you told me to

i took a walk with an angel and they said to me

" you're on your own, i am not the one to set you free-- you're a human being. "

over is this sense of dread-- stay with me here alone my friend!

cause in the end, you feel it doesn't matter!

knowing theres still much more that's left to mend!

꒰აMy Favorite Tracks໒꒱

music / kian
vocals / kevin, kafu
illust / BONES 

[lyrics]
The place I wanna stay
This fucked up game I play
While no one knows my name
I love it all the same
This wretched heart of mine, genuine
Spitting out my bile I shouldn't make
I never had the chance to change

I forgot the way that you would
Say that you would 
Be the one who'll make a change
And it hurts to say what's on my mind 
Given the way you treated mine
You were mine
But you refuse to look inside yourself 
Cause you're too scared of what you'll find
Live in your collective lie

The place I wanna stay
This fucked up game I play
While no one knows my name
I love it all the same
This wretched heart of mine, genuine
Spitting out my bile I shouldn't make
I never had the chance to change

Insults you shout burn like the bile from my mouth
It's exhausting when you try to take away the

Happiness I try to hide

The place I wanna stay
This fucked up game I play
While no one knows my name
I love it all the same
This wretched heart of mine, genuine
Spitting out my bile I shouldn't make
I never had the chance to change

LIKE THE BILE FROM MY MOUTH

music / kian https://twitter.com/kiandoesnt
vocal / SEKAI https://twitter.com/musicalisotope
harmony / hanakuma chifuyu https://twitter.com/chifuyu_info
MV / https://youtu.be/0zz-yXWO27c
stream on spotify / https://open.spotify.com/track/1gnCXGgj6oQjTT7HfqDl9n?si=9Cav7lWoSSKRF0udAvHzeg
project files / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/15_ahyRqC42lnGyJFqcq9EHSTWuVmp4Z_?usp=drive_link

[lyrics]
Taken by a promise on a whim
Don't think that I'd forgotten how it felt to be a
Novice in the center of a whim
I could've gotten better
Could've been forever
Quite the situation we were in 
Just craving for the feeling of your fiery skin
But something kept on twisting from within
I know we should've never
Know I should've never
Followed what all the others had done
Wrangled in whether wanted or not
But you were not the kind to leave a plan undone

I was never one to take it there
Your flames are everywhere
Brighter than the sun
It can't compare
My love is unaware
Thought you were the one to take it there
I was severely unprepared
You didn't even care
Just a dead pointed stare

Burdened with the cold hard truth that only left me scared
(forever)
I can't comprehend the way you made it so unfair
You left me on a dare
A whisper spews from a traitorous tongue
Turned his back on a bountiful love
Doesn't even realize what he's become

Why, I'm fine
So take your time
I'd like to give what's mine
(Made it so unfair, weren't even there, didn't even care, you were unaware)
So make it shine
(Didn't even care, you were unaware)

I was never one to take it there
Your flames are everywhere
Brighter than the sun
It can't compare
My love is unaware
Thought you were the one to take it there
I was severely unprepared
You didn't even care
Just a dead pointed stare

You weren't even there
You were unaware
Die for all I care

A POINTED STARE / SEKAI

sentenced to hard truth ⚖

youtube mv - https://youtu.be/ezldLULi3Ps

✩✩✩
music / illust / mv -  friendxp  
vocaloid - meika hime

✩✩✩
instrumental / midi / lyrics - https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1kzivz15ei9Ofvxc0_qHj4YGG1YspYo3w?usp=drive_link
streaming (will take a bit to go up on spotify, etc) - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/friendxp/all-those-feelings-have-to-go
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/album/all-those-feelings-have-to-go
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

「all those feelings have to go.」 - friendxp feat. hime

music / kian https://twitter.com/kiandoesnt
vocals / tsuina-chan, saros
MV / https://youtu.be/yQLpOQxyF2Y
inst, svp / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1gfmlooi9x7G6kDQYSp1DPfhCtkR5UxBh?usp=drive_link

[lyrics]
I couldn't take it
Had to break it
For the twentieth last time
Tried to fake it
Tried to make it
But it's poisoning my mind

Is it me what you wanted

I've been forgotten
Body rotten
By the choices I made
Tears are caught in
Bloody cotton
Fearful, shocked and in dismay

Tell me what you wanted

In the name of God, I'm here to give you what you want

Call out in the dark
It echoes but I'm not alone
I feel a presence waiting
Waving
And it's deathly stare is tearing me apart
And testing what I thought I knew
Of whispers from the devil
Telling what to do

I'm scared of lying
Scared of trying
Not to be out of the loop
Scared of crying
Scared of dying
Scared of finding out the truth

I have all the answers

For what I'm seeking,
What's the meaning
If I'm running out of time?
Pointless grieving
Mindless seething
For a future that's not mine

I have all the answers

Call out in the dark
It echoes but I'm not alone
I feel a presence waiting
Waving
And it's deathly stare is tearing me apart
And testing what I thought I knew
Of whispers from the devil
Telling what to do

What's been concealed
By the people
With the power to cut the chord?
See no evil
Hear no evil
Speak no evil anymore

Maybe they've forgotten

My head's on fire
I've been tired
It's been dire for way too long
I'm a liar
Even prior to the things that did me wrong

Is it what you wanted? 

Call out in the dark
It echoes but I'm not alone
I feel a presence waiting
Waving
And it's deathly stare is tearing me apart
And testing what I thought I knew
Of whispers from the devil
Telling what to do
Going way too far
It's beating through my heart again
And I don't have a say
I'm breaking more and more
Each time I feel another scar
I'm failing to restart again
I've memorized the path
That's taken every time I spiral
Down into the dark
The devil made me do

I WALKED WITH THE DEVIL

My Eternity

music / kian
vocals / eleanor forte
mv / https://youtu.be/9zpPRuhFTnY
inst, svp / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1QnN3ZpzTuM7GTf7mSGlGZXWH_-Zjzx9a?usp=drive_link


[lyrics]
How could you let me go end up like this?
At least you exist
But is this any way to live?
Just cut your tongue and get a grip
I thought your purpose was to handle me
Handle all your tears?
Why was I unable to fear?
Your mind was well beyond your years
Why don't you know how to get out of here
Isn't it insane?
Your every action comes with pain
This is just the path you paved
But hey, it's just a game
That isn't what you said that day
Don't you speak another word, I think I had enough

Tie me upside down inside my bedroom in the dark
(I think I had enough)
(I think I had enough)
(But have you?)
Let all of my blood rush to my skull then break it hard
(This isn't good enough)
(No, it's not good enough)
But now at least his eyes are fed

I wonder daily that maybe I'm to blame
With choices that I wish weren't made
I couldn't take it, I hoped that you were dead
(Why are you still sulking over little things)
The profound sense of dread you gave me
(It's not like they hurt you in real life

This isn't what you said it'd feel like
Maybe you're too dumb
Why does it make me wanna die?
You're there still mourning hordes of flies
I don't mind, they've been too kind
That isn't what you said that day
Shut your mouth and go away
Don't let me see your face

Tie me upside down inside my bedroom in the dark
(I think I had enough)
(I think I had enough)
(But have you?)
Let all of my blood rush to my skull then break it hard
(I think I had enough)
(I think I had enough)
(But have you?)
Give me all the pain you felt back then when you were young
(It isn't good enough)
(It isn't good enough)
(I hate you)
I don't know how I could leave it, nothing's good enough
(It isn't good enough)
(It isn't good enough)
At least his eyes are fed

FEAST YOUR EYES

music / kian
vocal / Hanakuma Chifuyu
mv / (soon)
inst, svp, midi / (soon)

[lyrics]
Threw away another letter written in your blood
I can't say that I'm not flattered
Though it's tiresome
You're watching me tonight
I can feel your stare
But something else is there
A monstrous glare

Save me, stalker creep, from what's on the street
Come rescue me from what's underneath
My bed at night when I try to sleep
Pick up the phone for me, babe, and
Save me, stalker creep, it's still chasing me
It's in the closet, it's in my dreams
It's taken over the basement stairs
Come save me now
I can't go nowhere

I can't help it if my heartrate quickens at the sight
Of your large, hunched over figure in the hallway light
So if you really care
You'll come help me from the monsters hiding there
Now don't be scared

Save me, stalker creep, from what's on the street
Come rescue me from what's underneath
My bed at night when I try to sleep
Pick up the phone for me, babe, and
Save me, stalker creep, it's still chasing me
It's in the closet, it's in my dreams
It's taken over the basement stairs
Come save me now
I can't go nowhere

Come and meet me in the back
Bloody leather gloves are holding both my hands
God, I could just eat you up
Finally, we share a kiss in the moonlight

Save me, stalker creep, from what's in the street
Don't tell me a thing
Hide under the bed until all the flashing lights go away
Save me, stalker creep, from what's in my dreams
Hold me in my sleep
Be there when I have to face all my fears on this Hallow's Eve
Save me, stalker creep, from what's underneath
Clawing at my feet
Burrowed deep inside of my brain, but you make it go away
Tell me, stalker creep, is this what love is supposed to be?
I could just dig into your chest and pull out your beating heart
When you're here with me

SAVE ME, STALKER CREEP

Five Nights at Freddy's by Scott Cawthon 
Family Comes First by scope_wad / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QfhLYOIVOuo
music, illust / kian https://bsky.app/profile/kiandoesnt.bsky.social
vocal / GUMI SV https://x.com/GUMIfromMegpoid
MV / https://youtu.be/LFAyVsbG2P0
inst, svp / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FVM2J4rE5ILp7Vk928B0yeukGuXYVqwV?usp=drive_link

[lyrics]
I could tell a lie
I thought we'd be fine
Despite the sun having died
I can hear you cry
God, I wonder why
You're not the one in the sky
I could tell the truth
If only you knew
How much I wish it was you
Lying in your room
My hatred for you
While seething, it stopped depleting
It grew

Ashes of the past
Come to take me at last
I rot in this mess
Hoping I end up dead
Dead for years on end
With all your new friends
I have no regret
I'd do it again

I'm a monster too
If only you knew
The hell that I put them through
I'd forgive you if I could
Don't give me that look
Cause things have since gotten worse

Ashes of the past
Come to take me at last
I rot in this mess
Hoping I end up dead
Dead for years on end
With all your new friends
My only regret that it couldn't end
After everything is torn apart
I'll get what I deserve
The atrocities I spread like a curse all will burn
And you'll go to heaven thinking none of this was ever real
Just don't tell me how you feel
I'll die
But, if it's worthwhile
I love you, my child

Family man.

music. illust / kian https://bsky.app/profile/kiandoesnt.bsky.social
vocals / miyamai moca 
MV / https://youtu.be/aA7t0SHga3Q
svp, instrumental / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1RMt4kC7i-fJtPjjYLKek5BY7-xaMSn2M?usp=sharing

[lyrics]
I awake without an end in mind
Supernovae in my eyes
And fear I've left behind any sign
That the future will provide
Lies are all that I've been told
They filled my world with black mold
It's there, but it won't show
Make it known, I have darkness to behold
Shame is locked to me in steel chains
I've been made to bear a guilty mind
Not at fault, but it's me who took the fall

And it's a thing I've been hoping I can say to you
I tried to talk, but I couldn't if you told me to
I took a walk with an angel, and they said to me
"You're on your own, I am not the one to set you free"
"You're a human being"

Brighter days are just ahead
Done away with the hope of death
Over is this sense of dread
Stay with me here, alone, my friend
I get it, that tired laugh
Cause in the end you feel it doesn't matter
But I'll keep you in my head
Knowing there's still much more that's left to mend

I wake with myodesopsias made of rust
I'm slowly losing trust, all for what?
Cause my heart's about to bust

And it's a thing I've been hoping I can say to you
I tried to talk, but I couldn't if you told me to
I took a walk with the devil, and it said to me
"You're on your own, I could be the one to set you free"
The temptation's too distressing
I'm a human being

Bury you into the ground
Turning your life upside down
I am not playing around
Try me, I'll never be found
I only exist to make your life a living hell
I won't stop until you feel yourself turn inside out

Brighter days are just ahead
Done away with the hope of death
Over is this sense of dread
Stay with me here, alone, my friend
I get it, that tired laugh
Cause in the end you feel it doesn't matter
But I'll keep you in my head
Knowing there's still much more that's left to mend

BRIGHT SUNNY DAYS FROM HERE ON OUT

original song by https://soundcloud.com/ponkansoup / https://soundcloud.com/ponkansoup/sinabi-mo-full-version
remix / kian https://bsky.app/profile/kiandoesnt.bsky.social
mv / https://youtu.be/rb6rCytHYwc
vocals / tsuina-chan, asterian

SINABI MO / remix

Hey GHOST I did a remix of your latest thing! ^u^
I hope you like it.

Song & Art: GHOST
Remix: ME

Original: https://soundcloud.com/ghost_number_two/fukase-englishbroadcast-illusion-communications-case-two-part-one

Download: https://www.dropbox.com/s/c6btb7m1y68gylx/BroadCast%20Illsion%20%28on%20vocal%29.mp3?dl=0

Off-Vocal: https://www.dropbox.com/s/jo8vr4ovj8uj5ip/BroadCast%20Illsion%20%28off%20vocal%29.mp3?dl=0

【Fukase English】"GHOST" BROADCAST ILLUSION 【Timid's Remix】

first vocaloid song oop
(TW MENTION OF SELF HARM)
LYRICS:

Spinning falling ever dropping
My mind is constantly mocking 
All the things I shouldn't do my impulses are shining through 
You're alone, nobody's there
Social conscience truly rare 
I can't push away the thought of people lying that they care 
Dizzying, it's like I'm falling 
Look away it's really nothing
Artificial colors flavors, faking authenticity 
It's so good so sweet and tasty 
Melting mouths you're going crazy 
I can't help it reasons gone, and everybody's falling down 

Psychedelic lucid dreams 
Candy made with LSD 
I know they will never see my twisted spin on sanity 
Everybody's asking why 
Don't ya know it's time to die 
Fracturing the human mind with all the pieces strewn around!

Look at you, you're a foul mess!
Then again, we are not too different
Everyone's a disgusting wreck
We are falling once again
look at me, I'm a foul mess!
I can't help it any longer
Now I know this is truly me
Everybody will rot away

You refuse to say you've lost
Tangled up in candy floss
Running out of lies to make, next thing ya know you'll pay the cost
Fake the smiles that we wear
Your facade is quite impaired!
Lying your way through life's not gonna get ya anywhere

Everyone is outta luck
Everybody's time is up 
You and I are quite alike but that means I have gone corrupt 
Why is no one asking why don't ya know it's time to die 
Shattering the minds of many, all the pieces strewn about!

Look at you, you're a foul mess!
Then again, we are not too different
Everyone's a disgusting wreck
We are falling once again
look at me I'm a foul mess
I can't help it longer
Go away just leave me be
Everybody shall rot away so
One two three, and we'll snap our necks!
Don't you get we are not too different
Everyone's a disgusting wreck
We are falling once again
Look again, I'm a foul mess!
Everything is melting away
Go away, this is truly me!
Everybody should rot away

Logically I shouldn't be so mad about the things that people do, but clearly, it's because of you
Don't you know I really do not care if no one's really even there, but really, it's because of you
Candy-coated broken dreams. your minds your souls not truly free. Everything is breaking down, because of you
Spinning falling ever dropping
My mind is constantly mocking 
Everything you know is gone, because of you

Look at you, you're a foul mess!
Then again, we are not too different
Everyone's a disgusting wreck
We are falling once again
Look at me, I'm a foul mess!
I can't help it any longer
Now I know this is truly me
Everybody will rot away
Now I know this is truly me
Everybody will rot away

MP3: http://www.mediafire.com/file/aaisdta7726om5v/Candyman.mp3
Instrumental: http://www.mediafire.com/file/e4dysxoadhusgkd/Candyman_INST.wav
VSQx: https://drive.google.com/drive/u/1/folders/1r1cSREsGi7cB2bFgrHOT67mqBHUA3kql
BPM: 128

My social media:
https://twitter.com/le_RIP_
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https://the-r-i-p.tumblr.com (submit stuff here!)
https://drawing-with-r-i-p.tumblr.com (art blog)
https://t-h-e-r-i-p.deviantart.com (also art)

Candyman

【Fukase English】Candyman【Original Song】

Thank you all for the very nice comments and support! I try my best to read every one I get, I really do appreciate all of them, just been too busy with life stuff and other projects to respond to all of them! 
-
Still messing around with my mixing skills and messing with engrish in VOCALOID xd I mixed this in like 15 minutes how did it turn out so good aaa
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VSQx: GHOST, https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJ5k-jf-8fzMGnpEy27X4DQ
Tuning edits, Mixing, Art edit, Others: Me
Art: GHOST

【Fukase】Appetite of a People Pleaser【VOCALOID4カバー】

youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wlhgKHHqpL0

I'M VERY GLAD TO FINALLY HAVE THIS DONE
basically this song has been a work in progress since early 2018, i started writing it during my hiatus and then just... stuff kept coming up and i planned a super ambitious PV for it that i obviously never ended up finishing, but i finally got it done!

i hope anyone who's feeling like nothing gets better and that good moments are deemed to come crashing down will hang in there. life's quite literally a rollercoaster, and i promise there's always gonna be breaks from the rainstorm, even if they're brief for now. i also hope that people like me can internalize the fact that they're still worth just as much as everyone else even if they're not the best at something or the most capable worker out there. maybe you're not as great at drawing as your peers, maybe your grades suck, or maybe you can't work or go to school because getting out of bed is near impossible. none of that impacts you being a lovable and deserving person.

[cue studio audience "awww"]

p.s pls listen to the song off itunes/spotify (when it comes out) or bandcamp, youtube killed the quality

~~

get the song at:
bandcamp: https://ghostandpals.bandcamp.com/album/those-who-carried-on

itunes, spotify, and etc. online stores will be available soon! once they're up i'll add them to this description box

you can find my twitter, instagram, patreon, and other websites i'm on here:
https://www.ghostandpals.com/

look guys i made a website!

Those Who Carried On / Gumi English & Yohioloid Original Song

sound clout i swear to god if you think this is copyrighted material again i'm gonna throw rocks through your windows you dumb wh

Creative (GHOST Remix) / Utatane Piko and Rana

| ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ i upload random unreleased songs by any artist or slowed/reverb songs/Live performance sometimes. big Arianator, and a fan of alot of other artist also im gay lol he/him |

vocal synth producer // alt rock + dark pop music

BRIGHT SUNNY DAYS FROM HERE ON OUT

kian

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