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Trophy prod. Jody+IOF+Redroom (video in desc)

this project is by far my most complex project yet. it took FOUR fl studio files to be completed. The beat itself was a madness, and the amount of recordings and mixing stuff and just all the details and everything. Its overwhelming tbh. I do think and hope it was worth it tho. Hopefully you do too. The purpose of all the experimentalness of the track is to represent the uncertainty of being in love and never knowing what to expect. I wrote this for mainly for my amazing girlfriend, but its also meant to be a very universal theme. Thank you for listening!

LYRICS

do i love her?
welcome to ashland

think about her
think about us
will i get hurt?
is it love or lust?
hm
feelin concerned
will it turn to dust?
this must mean im in love

yea
do i love her
i think i love her
cuz im feelin alright 
catchin a flight
for Saturday night
she'll be there till i die
just for this life
dont want no one else i
love her

she love me to pieces
im covered in debt
kisses
shes boutta collect
she says
ill take her home bet
shes all
there is in my head

if i take her outside
put her face to the light
somewhere she cant hide

now look at that sight
i know some people that might
let go from that height

same way i fell through you

i made it alright
but im not saying i didnt die

love her
i think i love her
love her
love her

ye ay
im thinking about you
it goes on and on and now im
dreaming about you
checkin on my phone
see if your messages come thru
feelin all alone
tell me what else i can do

remember your face
your smile had a different glow 
in those days
come across love
you looking both ways
keeping your heart locked
within the cold shade

but im too fond of this
and i tend to insist
one more taste of her lips

minds in the abyss
tracks boutta turn into a mess
yea just watch it 

i wanna love her

think about her
think about us
will i get hurt?
is it love or lust?
feelin concerned
will it turn to dust?
this must mean im in love
 
love her?
i think i
love her
cuz im feelin alright
catchin a flight
for Saturday night
shell be there till i die
just for this life
dont want no one else i
love her
love her
.

LOVE HER.

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