pushed away

my love, you blamed the gun?

dysthymia

instrumental by wisssery
whole time I thought I didn't deserve you, but now you don't deserve me

I starved myself because I felt bad for what I did to you
you needed help and I wasn't there, the worst thing I can do

I don't deserve you, you'll find someone better than me
but I need you, I'm scared you'll find someone better than me
someone better than me

I wish I could hide you so its just you and me
my only fear and is messing up and you'll leave me
I should stop hitting my head against the wall
but overtime I stopped feeling everything at all

I don't deserve you, you'll find someone better than me
but I need you, I'm scared you'll find someone better than me
someone better than me

someone better than me

the sun

grief (from gretel)

instrumental from wisssery
the tragedy of '24, i hope everything goes back to how it was before

cant feel it no more, love I have for you is fading
feel so insecure, don't wanna feel this way I swear I hate it
nothing without you, now I'm left with a empty void inside me
hey what can i do, to make myself believe that you still love me

look where we are, we've grown so far from each other
we've changed, I wish that both of us stayed the same

don't wanna give up (I feel)
feel like I'm nothing without you (feel like I'm better off)
but i feel like I'm about too
like I'm gonna give up, but I would feel better around you
what you told me was lies, make me look stupid
though it would be better, like how it was (fuck)

tragedy of '24

i tried it gets harder
yeah i been the problem
i hope you can solve it, my darling

don't shoot us down (don't shoot us down, don't shoot us)
please
don't shoot us down (don't shoot us down, don't shoot us)
la la la la
la la la la
don't shoot us down (don't shoot us down, don't shoot us)
don't shoot us down  
la la la la
la la la la

inside my brain you're killing me
i'd slay them all so easily
these razor blades keep tearing me
i'd rather leave i'm so naive
it's something i couldn't believe
all of this weight you put on me
all of this weight you put on me
you put on me

don't shoot us down

how I used a knife

how I used a knife on myself

guitar by me, mockingbird soon
you say you’ll change but it’s a constant cycle

i hope your okay but i also i hope you’re not too

wish i can stab you in the chest but you shot me 

i can’t eat or get rest, you got me strung 

im such a fool for you, i believed the things you said that you wouldn’t do

i will think about past for a thousand hours and then start to cut up in the shower 

the things i lose, you make me feel like shit

i promise no one will love you like i did

you’re gone, you’re gone..

you say you’ll change but it’s a constant cycle

i hope your okay but i also i hope you’re not too

wish i can stab you in the chest but you shot me 

i can’t eat or get rest, you got me strung

miss gut wrench

prod. bunii


woah,
woah

times outta my hands,
and i can’t let go of my regrets in my head
paralyzed in my bed,
and i don’t remember the last time that i slept
there’s not that much left
that can keep me from saying that my happiness is pretend
don’t you forget,
what you said, tears i shed, scars i bled, for you to leave me dead

wish i was floating away in open waters,
away so i can wander,
a way to escape all the chaos
and take the pain out
and then remake all the wasted parts in my head and my love

i can’t go on while you’re having fun, like this isn’t wrong
im yelling outta my lungs til they’ve had enough
it’s all been too much, i guess that’s my luck

i can’t feel a thing
i only cry in my dream
i can’t feel a thing
i only cry in my dream

:)

i only cry in my dream…

i hope my death makes more cents than my life

someone better than me

kid moon