bottled up

dysthymia

stuck again, it never ends
know you're running around my head, i'm tired
i'm tired (and i tried)
i still feel you in my lungs
i'm sorry, i'm sorry
i'm sorry i care so much

i feel like i figured it out
even if i didn't im here
i hope you don't figure it out
you'll end up head over heels

(you can let me crawl into your skin until you feel)
(i feel like im dying)

i'm sorry i care so much

instrumental by wisssery
whole time I thought I didn't deserve you, but now you don't deserve me

I starved myself because I felt bad for what I did to you
you needed help and I wasn't there, the worst thing I can do

I don't deserve you, you'll find someone better than me
but I need you, I'm scared you'll find someone better than me
someone better than me

I wish I could hide you so its just you and me
my only fear and is messing up and you'll leave me
I should stop hitting my head against the wall
but overtime I stopped feeling everything at all

I don't deserve you, you'll find someone better than me
but I need you, I'm scared you'll find someone better than me
someone better than me

someone better than me

babydoll

how I used a knife

how I used a knife on myself

ur so annoying let me sleep prod me

oh well im alone

oh well, i'm alone

ill burn these pages, they were for you
i tried to save it, im such a fool
physically breaking, mentally too
ill lose my patience
you need a piece of me but it dont show
i used to want you so bad but ive grown
still talk about me to your friends i know
i pray that some day you will reach a close

live and we learn, learn and we change
you left me burnt, the fire sustains
i hope that some day we’ll meet again
i pray to my demons that you meet a saint

MINE PROD BUNII

im pretty tired

Sunrise creeping, shadows growin' long Mirror shows a face, where did the time all go wrong?
Wrinkles etched a story, lines upon my brow
But the wisdom in these creases, ain't nobody seein' now

Age ain't a disease, it's a journey
A collection of moments, stories yet to be told
But the world keeps whisperin', "You're past your prime, you see"
Forgotten the value of experience, the strength in maturity

Young blood's the currency, that's the modern decree
But the years I've walked this planet, can't be bought, you agree?
I've seen the highs and lows, weathered every storm
Built a foundation steady, through sunshine and through storm

Age ain't a disease, it's a journey
A collection of moments, stories yet to be told
But the world keeps whisperin', "You're past your prime, you see"
Forgotten the value of experience, the strength in maturity

We crave the new, the shiny, the fleeting, and the fast
But the wisdom of the ages, a treasure that can last
A lifetime of learning, a heart that knows the way
To navigate the currents, and find a brighter day

Age ain't a disease, it's a journey
A collection of moments, stories yet to be told
But the world keeps whisperin', "You're past your prime, you see"
Forgotten the value of experience, the strength in maturityl

So let us celebrate the years, the miles we've come to roam
Embrace the silver linings, find a comfortable home
In our own seasoned selves, with grace and with with pride
Age is a privilege, let it be our guide.
I hope this version resonates with you!


Young Blood

i hope my death makes more cents than my life

someone better than me

kid moon