1st official EP, microphone quality still not great but better things on the horizon (new mic on the way)

where the hell were you
you said goodbye at second avenue
all the shit that weve been thru
you walked away cuz you wanted something new
and i dunno what to do
i hit the bottle and hang out with my crew
know that one day ill break thru
but still my past i cant undo
feelings stuck to me like glue
b***h i caught you like the flu
like the flu
now every day im feelin blue
i press reset on life so i can review
i tell my brothers ill be fine
been 20 days and iv still not been online
guess ill hit another line
its all part of my decline, my decline

bleak

decline (prod greythecloud)

tell me perfect lies
send me a broken lullaby
just sitting by your side
has got me thinking ill be fine

i'll remember you
and all the pain you got me through
since you left, i'm doing fine
I always thought id be alright

tell me perfect lies again
and sing to me like you did then
just sitting by your side
has got me wishing ill be fine

one more night
then you're gone
but we've got this song

one more night
you and me
save me your apology

August Demo

lies (broken lullaby) (prod emptychest)

all the nights out ended in a comedown
all the dumb c***s looking for a throwdown
all the lights are brighton up the town now
until I come around
all the talk that we were gonna get out
find it hard to believe that you were real now
girl your name I would never disavow
but you let me down

I wrote letters to you
now I feel like a fool
now she treat me like i'm 
some tool
doing drugs out in town
taking pills smoking loud
it was fun, you were there
but your not around
and i refuse to go out
i dont do that s**t now
cuz it stinks of a past
that I cant let go
will i find one like her
I dont think ill ever
no i wont not never
cuz shes so unkind

all the nights out ended in a comedown
all the dumb c***s looking for a throwdown
all the lights are brighton up the town now
until I come around
all the talk that we were gonna get out
find it hard to believe that you were real now
girl your name I would never disavow
but you let me down

lie to me, call me pretty
by the sea, I lost
cry to me,call me petty
well f**k this city, it's no good for me

all the nights out ended in a comedown
all the dumb c***s looking for a throwdown
all the lights are brighton up the town now
until I come around
all the talk that we were gonna get out
find it hard to believe that you were real now
girl your name I would never disavow
but you let me down

comedown (prod afterlife+ irby)

loss and heartbreak yeah iv seen it all
i cant wait to see the curtains fall
how i became who i am i cant recall
i got lost along the way and you act so appalled

buried my brother now im all alone
dealt with the horror of the great unknown
just hope your proud of how much i have grown
why the fuck did you have to be so damn accident prone

sometimes i wish that it was me that night
cuz its hard to keep on acting like im all alright
feel like anyday im gonna lose the fight
but im slowly getting better and the futures bright

man I swear if theres a god i got a bone to pick
robbing your future at that age that dudes a fucking prick
all the plastic fucking friends of yours they make me sick
so im moving my game forward brick by fucking brick

fozzi

warren lawn (prod east majin & malloy)

I got to admit, I still cant grasp
how you could snap my soul         
but i remain, i'm tryna reclaim
i wont let this all have been in vain 

finally starting to clean up
two months and i haven't touched no drugs
that's a lie but you know what i mean hun
i'm off my regular addiction
leave that shit to the horses
i repeat it cuz i wanna reinforce it
dont end up going way of course cuz
all the agony i don't wanna endorse it

I got to admit, I still cant grasp
how you could snap my soul         
but i remain, i'm tryna reclaim
i wont let this all have been in vain 

I believe in hell cuz i been there
lying on the floor and the pain you just cant bear
look around you tryna find someone who does care
but there's no one so your stuck alone in despair
tell yourself your gonna stop it but you keep on
thinkin where you gonna get another gram from
crave the feeling that you get when your body numb
lookin at yourself question who the fuck you've become

I got to admit, I still cant grasp
how you could snap my soul         
but i remain, i'm tryna reclaim
i wont let this all have been in vain

remedy (prod garin)

got a sense of regret, that I've never left
anything good to the world, but a s**t load of debt
And all the people i met, i could never help
and i think to my self, what is my latest step?
I wanna give something real, that'll last thru the years
and in the end if i fail, it'll all end in tears
when the day comes i will rest, knowing i did my best
and my soul will live on, thats my only request

i've never been really that afraid to die
when i get old i'll gladly say goodbye
i'd rather go peacefully than, try to deny
god im no saint but i know, ill be fine

i will suffer no more, time for me to restore
ima walk straight out that door, move away from the shore
its time for me to explore, what the worlds got in store
i've never been here before, i'll spread my wings and i'll soar
leave the shackles behind, and ill refresh my mind
i am no longer confined, i am no longer blind
i refuse to be defined, by a life i was assigned
ima go get redesigned, my paths realigned

i've never been really that afraid to die
when i get old i'll gladly say goodbye

junket (prod yunny goldz)

call me a deadbeat
you probably ain't that wrong
i'm becoming obsolete
don't seem to belong

this world is strange to me
always need a helping hand
iv always been naive
never seemed to understand

why'd you always have to go distort the truth you
said that you could see things from my point of view and 
you swore til we got old you'd stick to me like glue but
now its all exposed, and the s**t you said ain't true

looked me in the eyes and told me i was your soul mate
crazy how the time can so quickly turn that love to hate
like i didn't have enough already up on my plate
maybe i could set the record straight but its too late

ever since you left me i've been on a wild goose chase
looking for somebody who i thought could f****n replace
you what was i doing i became a f****n disgrace
now i wanna pack up get the hell away from this place

call me a deadbeat
you probably ain't that wrong
i'm becoming obsolete
don't seem to belong

this world is strange to me
always need a helping hand
iv always been naive
never seemed to understand

naive (prod love race)

here's my theory on life
go make some friends and get high
don't go wasting your time
some day we're all gonna die
pack a bowl and rewind
and trust in me we can vibe

i make these songs for myself
its good for my mental health
to wash away all the stress
when i'm in my zone i feel blessed
and if some people relate
i feel it wont be in vain
i got nothing to gain
but it eases my pain

its simple to forget
and live a life in regret
don't be ashamed to be you
that's the worst thing to do
we don't know our own worth
feels like we're trapped in a curse
a record stuck in reverse
still it feels we're trapped in a curse

vudu (prod. elberlean)

mario64-pop

stuck on an endless staircase
in a castle vast and empty
only company faces in paintings
take a cannon shoot to the sky

am i plugged in to a strange machine
nothing here is what it seems
broken polygons it feels real yet fake
like a fever dream ill never escape

locked in a fantasy land
no one can hurt me here man
perfect place for a broken child
surfing on shells through the moving sand
only a kid like me could understand

crack a box open got a brand new hat
now my body weighs a ton and im chrome
pearlescent pools, fill these chequered halls
lead me to a labyrinth toxic cave
just stop the clock this ride i wanna get off
lose my self in this surreal world
sliding down an icy ride
racing penguins have i lost my mind
i think iv gone and lost my mind
f**k yeah iv lost my f***n mind

distance (prod Jolst)

my dreams are weird i stg

welcome to the crazy world of kikis dreams
a blend of all the f***d up things that i have seen

playin with sum polar bears
opposite a playground fair
rollercoasters to nowhere
blinded by a rainbow flare
stuck in a volcano
but a trolley takes you out
where the f**k did my legs go
im not goin nowhere now

all the s**t in here it dont make no sense
ill forget it all when this all comes to an end
what does it mean? whats it all mean
i cant wrap my head
around the dreams i have when im asleep in bed

playin with sum polar bears
opposite a playground fair
rollercoasters to nowhere
blinded by a rainbow flare
stuck in a volcano
but a trolley takes you out
where the f**k did my legs go
im not goin nowhere now

recurring people tell me what you want
if you're dead then help me heal your soul
is this a message? is this regret?
at least when you haunt me i know im not alone

playin with sum polar bears
opposite a playground fair
rollercoasters to nowhere
blinded by a rainbow flare
stuck in a volcano
but a trolley takes you out
where the f**k did my legs go
im not goin nowhere now

dreamscape (prod rxhff x splashgvng)

father time is cruel yet kind
and mother earth so pretty
shame the ones that preach us love
are judgemental it's s****y

god can judge me all he likes
I dont got nothin to hide
if hes got a problem
he can take it up with me

I never killed in his name
that's just not my game
it's always the f***n same
people try deflect the blame

I ain't got no time for lies
say your intentions are right
I ain't flying off the rails
worrying bout fairytales

unholy yeah that's me
Iv sinned for sure
but I never meant to hurt a soul

why do you need someone else
To tell you how to live?
just look inside and use your mind
there's more for you to give

you believe stories from humans
written long ago
but don't believe our scientists
prefer the status quo

i just dont get it man

I ain't got no time for lies
say your intentions are right
and I ain't flying off the rails
worrying bout fairytales

unholy yeah that's me
Iv sinned for sure
but I never meant to hurt a soul

and I ain't got no time for lies
say your intentions are right
and I ain't flying off the rails
worrying bout fairytales

and I ain't got no time for lies
you say your intentions are right
and I ain't flying off the rails
worrying bout fairytales

end of the world

heretic (prod IG9ITEBeats)

would you believe me girl
if i said
i dont exist in the real world
but mine instead

cuz i'm wired different
to the minority
and i dont see eye to eye
with the majority

call me a reject coz i take it well
born to be different to everyone else
call me a reject coz i take it well
born to be different to everyone else

ill stand tall
ill never fall
ill break the wall
ill end it all

Ill end it all

the cage people live in
it just aint for me
cuz we might just live once
so ima live it free
and do what i want

whatever the f**k i want

I cant waste my time
no i cant waste my time

so call me a reject cuz i take it well
born to be different to everyone else

reprobate (prod POPPA)

building high into the sky
just tryna reach the afterlife
we got so far but in the end
we were just digging our demise

reaching up above the clouds
for the door to heaven
the spirits sent us to the ground
to punish us fold seven

the atmosphere now lies below
the sun sits underneath us
and if you should fall you soon will know
the errors of our fated flow

we belong in the underworld
with hades as our ruler
we deserve to suffer
for being oh so foolish

we belong in the underworld
with hades as our ruler
we deserve to suffer
for being oh so foolish

sent us out across the land
now none of us can understand
each other the progress of man
is stuck without collective plan

keeping us down
to stop creation
was always the journey
not the destination

keeping us down
to stop creation
it was always the journey
not the destination

different tribes cant work together
so we all just fight forever
different tribes speak different words so
we cant understand each other

no we cant understand each other

keeping us down
to stop creation
it was always the journey
not the destination

we belong in the underworld
with hades as our ruler
we deserve to suffer
for being oh so foolish

we belong in the underworld
with hades as our ruler
we deserve to suffer
for being oh so foolish

sent us out across the land
now none of us can understand
each other the progress of man
is stuck without collective plan

descent (prod alifonix)

not so optimistic
on my pessemist s***
glass half empty
coz I drank it

ignorance is bliss they say
but I just can't see it that way
I try put on a smile today
but still all I see is grey

ain't no sunshine in my mind
I'm reeling like I'm left behind
lost my way i cannot find
no sunlight on the silver line

forecast cloudy once again
I'm wasting all my time again
i got no faith in nothing now
i'm always drowning in my pain

so give me a reason to exist
give me something to believe in
give me your chemicals please
cuz my dopamine depleted

sick of living in the dark
It's depressing as f**k
i think I overstepped the mark
now in the shadows I am stuck

so what's the point of everything
if I cant see the woods for the trees
If all we live for ends in nothing
why do we wake up and breathe

nothingism (prod stardust x baz)

manipulation, will be your downfall
HA
where the f***s your soul?
its buried 6 feet underground
S***
...its no longer around?

everything you've done
since that day
its gonna come, its gonna come
... bite you in the ass

ying and yang bro
dont blame me
i aint your f****n enemy

actions speak louder
than the lies on your lips
and everyone can tell
that you are full of s***

karmas a b**** you know
shes got your f****n digits
shes gonna drag you thru the dirt
your on her f****n hitlist

ying and bro
dont blame me
like i said before
i aint your f****n enemy

karmas a b**** karmas a b**** 
that you know
how the f** you stoop so low

ying and bro dont blame me
said it 3 times now
i aint your f****n enemy
i aint your f****n enemy
s**t....ok

karma (prod YD)

im no pedigree
im just a tangled mess
of emotional issues
and a whole lotta stress

momma was a youngun
didnt know what she was doin
got together with some wrongens
bunch of a**hole f****n losers

think my father had some problems
never knew just how to solve em
grew too comfy with the bottle
at times couldnt recognise him

half o this and half o that
i never quite fit in
half o this and half o that
i never fit in

coz im proud and im loud
ima scream and ima shout
best of both you better know b****
thats what im about

the blood in my veins
it dont run pure
but im being myself
down to the core
so gritty and so raw
of myself i am sure
so dont question me no more

which side am i on
feels like to no one i belong

half o this and half o that
i never quite fit in
half o this and half o that
i never fit in

mutt (prod (prod. HXGO)

4 months in, iv not looked back
i never wanna go back home

4 more months ill be on track
i swear i never ever wanna go

i refuse to go back to the life I lead
in that hellhole down by the beach
E20 is clearing out my head
but sanity still seems out of reach

all this time I cant believe that
nothings ever really gonna change
next few months will do it i swear
ill start to feel like i did once again

4 months in iv not looked back
i never wanna go back home

I cant go back no matter what they say
and I will not 4give the way
everyone just left me to rot and die, I
only trust myself these days

4 more days then 4 more weeks
it just goes on 4ever
I try to break the curse on me but
i'm just not that damned clever

homesick (prod. expulsing x Jkei)

this city had a million different lives
ordinary people just tryna survive
now it all lies in ruin like a town of ghosts
aint a single person ever got to say goodbye

memories of families and peoples vibes
all it took was a moment and it all capsized
and now natures taken over coz humanities died
thats what happens when we're lead by corrupt cheats and liars

fuel to the fire in broken barbed wires
and a double decker bus with some punctured tires
well it all sits empty in an eerie silence
monument to humanities darkest violence

we gave evil men the chance to tear it down
so they pressed the reset button on that fated town
now theres a ton of fuckin graves but not one headstone
and the city will forever lie all alone

the sunrise comes but no ones here to take it in
charred remains and ashes is all you will find within
where the fuck did it go wrong, where do we begin?
took our chances but our chances were too fuckin slim

why do we even need weapons anyway
to defend ourselves is what they all say
propaganda keeps on leading us astray
and this constant suffering is the price that we pay

dead women and children are the common casualty
for our refusal to live internationally
now we're creeping towards a destructive finale
troops preparing to cause death in a brainwashed rally

put your arms down you don't need to die for this
why cant we all hold hands and just live in bliss?
its been thousands of years it just takes the piss
don't listen to government, we have to resist..

fuel to the fire in broken barbed wires
and a double decker bus with some punctured tires
well it all sits empty in an eery silence
monument to humanities darkest violence

nimrud (prod dxntcare)

the song to kiki's summer 22'

sunny skies
got me feelin so fine
i sit back and rewind
and remember the
look in your eyes
when you told me your mine
guess i lost track of time
cuz its over now

peace of mind
never easy to find
when they tell you goodbye
it just eats up my
feelings inside
so I ask myself why
i am not worth their time
but it hurts so bad

its f****d but
i guess im
blessed to still be alive
i wake up
i try hard
i do my best to survive

peace of mind
never easy to find
when they tell you goodbye
it just eats up my
feelings inside
so I ask myself why
I am not worth their time
but it hurts so bad

when we die
we will light up the sky
in the clouds we will fly
and live like we
did in July
we will swallow our pride
we will heal our divide
cuz its over now

peace of mind
never easy to find
i tell people im fine
but I confess I
cried and i cried
just asking myself why
i was not worth their time
and it hurts so bad

its f****d but
i guess im
blessed to still be alive
i wake up
i try hard
i do my best to survive

overt (prod wone)

looks like summers come to pass
the brightest days just never last
it wont get hot I guess i lied
but hey that shits now in the past
I spent my time on my skateboard
my problems fuck them just ignored
I made the most god damn i tried
this concrete jungle i explored

rolled the dice and scored a twelve
I threw my all into the world
I made some fuckin memories
and god damn I'm proud of myself
now summer twenty two was dope
it cleansed my soul and gave me hope
reached 39 fuckin degrees
the whole season just seemed to flow

on to autumn lets get lit
iv come so far i cannot quit
I'm not that new shit moving on
iv got a goal but i admit
there's much more i have left to do
I know this now and so do you
now that summers come and gone
I'm finding my feet breaking through

soulstice (prod methboiswag x pekarot)

a thousand tears
spill on my pillow
how do i move on 
from all the pain I've gone thru

my darkest days
are oh so many
how do i move forward
take my ache away


beauty in the silence finally at peace i'm
sick of all the trauma bored with all the grief i'm
looking for a way to turn my fuckin life a
round before I end up like my friend deceased yah

a thousand tears
spill on my pillow
how do i move on 
from all the pain gone thru

my darkest days
are oh so many
how do i move forward
take my ache away

when I
close my eyes
I finally find a future where im still alive
I'm still alive

caterwaul (prod RinMajin)

wasting my time, questioning my own ego
I'm still no saint, but at least I am not evil
I just find it hard, sometimes to fuckin let go
maybe that's why i was in love with the needle
I seem to get hung up on the wrong people
nowadays i don't have any libido
emotions too much for me to feel
1hide away all day my remorse i conceal

heal my soul
I'm on my own
and everyday i seem to lose control

counting sheep
to fall asleep
I just cant find a way to feel complete

wake up go to work, come home and fuckin sleep
I swear everyone's lives seem to play on repeat
society has turned people into sheep
and I'm the fucking weird one? I'm the fuckin freak?
i have a new ambition every damn week
spend every new day tryna hita new peak
we only live once, so I'm tryna make it count
in a world of fuckin clones I'm tryna be unique

heal my soul
I'm on my own
and everyday i seem to lose control

counting sheep
to fall asleep
i just cant find a way to feel complete

dolly (prod AwayFromEverything)

she comes and she goes
where she's at no one knows
but she's all in my head
and i'm feelin alone

i try to forget
all about her and so
keep myself occupied
shoving lines up my nose

i don't want attention
i don't need that pressure in my life
just smoke away my problems
every night im getting high
never seems to work i hardly ever sleep at all
and i find it hard to f*****n drown out all the issues on my mind

when will s**t get better
i need a way to fix the life that i destroyed

i don't want wanna wake up
motivation i just cannot find
just lay in bed depressed all
day i wanna f****n hide
kiki's feelin s****y wont somebody cheer me up
coz the days are getting shorter, once again i'm running out of time

anemia (prod kyoa)

she's lookin cute but i know that she's bad for me
id be a sucker to think that she'd adore me
sat in the park and she told me a sad story
tryna find my way into her head before she
gets bored of me i know i'm not that fun
but her smile is so bright it could block out the sun
once again it is over before its begun
shoulda known from the start she was never the one
seems like my mental health repels people from me
i cant deal with this s**t i am so f****n done

i dont have time for nobody
i cannot deal with the mind games
lay down that sad beat shawty
she laughed the moment she saw me
late nights i never avoid them
i know im not f****n normal
i try as hard as i can to
be kind, but resentment is mutual

bad4me (prod farawayfromeverything)

im wishing some one would like me
i guess theres just no one like me
my love is imaginary
my life un satisfactory
the nights are cold and getting colder
i stay at home and write my songs
thinking of words to clear my head
girl i think you've got me wrong

got no control
feels like im broken inside
my guilt consuming my soul
im out of time

pretty little thing some
marie antoinette im
tryna get to know you
can you keep a secret
she'll just waste my time

im just tryna glow im
always feelin low i
give my fuckin all but
no one wants to know I
need some good advice

before her eyes 
i will not die

im wishing things would just work out
they never do i dont know how
if i should pass on in my sleep
will anyone remember me?
our lives are short and getting shorter
so take it in before it ends

i cant just sit and watch my life pass me by
ill use every second or at least i will try
i cant just sit and watch my story get old
ill live like a kid until my final goodbye

babydoll (prod Tokyonite)

all of the scars upon my back mean i belong to you
i got my hand wrapped round your throat, ill choke you up if you like that boo
girl when you beg me for my love i gotta give it to you, its yours, it'll always be
just stick around after cuz i'm intoxicated by you

youre the only one
i ever think about
i don't care bout my time
when not with you
i'm such a sucker for you now
i think ill always be

crazy for your taste
i need a fix i'm just a
junkie for you love
i cannot stop
if i overdose tonight
i think i'd rest in peace

all of the scars upon my back mean i belong to you
i got my hand wrapped round your throat, ill choke you up if you like that boo
stay with me tonight and we could kill a lil time, dont lie, i know what you want
you wanna switch on me tonight? well baby i want you to

switchblade fantasy (prod prettyscxrs)

do you care for me, like i care for you?
for eternity i would bleed for you
if i died tonight, would you miss me like im the only one for you?
everyone is drawn in different shades
kiki's black and white like space and cocaine
so il pay the price, ill buck peeps for lines
i keep telling lies, i got no restraint

i cant imagine
all the pain and guilt iv caused
theres no going back
think iv gone beyond
so show me no mercy
abandoned by god

do you love me like im no good for you?
i write songs for you to express my thoughts
i cant write them down, i cant find the sounds
to tell you how i feel
everything is bound by rules and games
i dont wanna play im too damn insane
but ill try for you, ill be good like you
ill work hard like you
cuz my love for you

do you (prod ionas)

december brings the rain
and when the clocks roll back
i feel like im not okay

will winter wash away
all the wounds that i
collected along the way

where did i go wrong?
i tried my best with you
i thought that our love was true

heartbreaks here again
you took the knives i bought you
sunk them into my back

discarded
just like trash
i hate you
im not worth that

i just cant explain
how betrayed i feel
but most of all ashamed

so much ache and pain
i feel it in my chest
i dont think ill love again

december rain (prod lostcage)

recall 
the days when
things were
so simple
innocence
undefiled
they seem so distant to me

searching
for something
like cracks in melted glass
its over
hard to grasp
it slipped right through our hands

faded
memories
like photos
all torn

feeling
lost now
we all grew up too fast

empty
defeated
our battles scar
they sting

no one
can hear us
on deafened ears they sink

lost now
i scream out
yet no one
can hear me

iv searched far
and wide now
but hopes nowhere to find

endless
is my pain
there must be some way out
i'm sorry
forgive me
this is my goodbye note

sayonara (black curtains) (prod 11feinly)

in shadows
i stay here
lost in my own despair
my echoes
they haunt through
the thick and stagnant air

the weight of
my anchors
they chain me down to hell
im drowning
in brimstone
this smoke it overwhelms

a labrynth of darkness and my spirit it breaks
suffocating all my hopes away
i stay up all night and then im tired all day
my smile it fades with every breath that i take

yet through it all i find the strength to fight
i promised myself that ill get out alive

shackles (prod tears)

dont talk to me i dont wanna hear your voice
looked right through me like i was a fuckin ghost
all the answers hidden in forgotten books
questions no one asks until they comatose

if i die then at least il'l look good in my grave
drip so heavy it'll make you misbehave
call me morbid, i'm just being honest babe
lost my sense of dignity i cannot change

emotions like a merry go round
gettin dizzy
lose my feet on the ground
i'm feeling nauseous
like im gonna throw up
all my silence
yeah im startin to rush

i need a goth girl tonight
i want blood and pain
cut me til i feel pain
feel somethin once again

ill be there by your side
until my suicide
we could both die tonight
we could both die tonight

is there life after death
can we put that to the test
take in our final breath
lay our bodies to rest

baby you know if we
went ahead with our plan
we'd never kiss again
is it all worth it then?

carousel (prod shmog)

she wanna start me off but ill make this last
i dont wanna waste no time so ill make this fast
i dont wanna play your games cuz im just not like that
i dont wanna get nasty cuz im good at that

you can use your best tricks to get my attention
baby if you told the truth then i might just listen
i am so sick and tired of your stupid lies
if your gonna disgrace my name well then do it right

that promise
that id never hurt you
i stick by my words
cuz im not like you

she wanna start a war but im just not armed
she wanna go nuclear but i just dont care
used to be my best friend and now all i feel
is her animosity and its just not fair

the break up (prod olifye)

leave now
im sick of
your faces
its bullshit

im better
alone now
im fine just on my own

i always knew that
your time would pass

sometimes i lay awake at night and start thinking to myself
was i really all that good a person can i still make things right?

i dont know, dont know how i ended up this way 
i dont suppose this life of mine can start again
i'd ask you how to show me live a normal life now
but i dont really want to that's where the problems lie

stay offline  and turn my phone off
i don't want no human contact
people really make me sick
they just drag me down

stay away from me today
i'm purposely self isolating
people seem to want to drive me
into the ground

witching hour (prod dead yami)

take your secrets off my shelf
cuz i don't recognise you 
if all we are is dust and dirt 
then you're made of glass i see straight through you

stay with me
my darling i cant believe
your truly over me
you cant move on that quickly

show me how to right my wrongs
your good at pointing them out
but your the worst girl come on

take my hand 
we could go anywhere
you know i'll follow you 
until the end of the world

beat me
until my blood driers up
i wont let you hurt me
agony i've had enough

bruises (prod eyelessowls)

self medicating with alcohol
shits gonna be my downfall
im happier when i cannot think
my issues i can ignore

i tell myself i dont wanna die
dont think im bein' honest
i scare myself most every night
imagining my own suicide

in the end in the end 
i think id always cop out
but there's always that chance my mind will
convince me

name a drug and i will place my money
that i gone and abused it
coke ketamine weed and molly
xans vally and the codeine

wine red or white its all good to me
just send another bottle
beer vodka rum whiskey hennessey
its not a party when its just you

the one thing that i said id never be
the path of my father
in the mirror i don't like what i see
dammit kiki lets get sober

all it takes is a real bad day
to get the knife out
in the end deep down
i wanna get set free

odds against (prod mors)

since i can remember shit iv always felt so isolated
are you feeling lonely kiki? fuck me that's an understatement
friends i have i cherish well the ones that aren't yet dead and buried
keep meaning to tell them all that i'm not feeling myself lately

tell me that
you hate me
like everyone
its boring

chew me up
its okay
it'll happen to 
me anyway

tell me lies
its perfect
the truth will only
upset me

spit me out
i love that
good times for me
just never last

everyone i meet i seem to struggle holding conversation
get the sinking feeling they're just being nice for presentation
took me 13 months to write this album got no motivation
i don't want no fame or glory i just crave appreciation

you can tell me the truth
you know that i'm self aware
i'm just tryna improve
but some days i just don't care

you can tell me grow up
and that i'm too immature
but i just need some help
cuz i'm so insecure

spit me out (prod splashgvng)

just a little more time
and just a little more faith
i could be happy today
if you would just walk my way

you caught
both of my eyes
i need shades cuz the way you shine
you could waste all my time
cuz i don't do nothin' else
but sit on my own and cry

just a little more luck
and just a little less hatred
of myself and i bet
i'd find a way to connect

my heart to you
girl you know i could be 
your latest red flag
so darling come play with me

we could watch sum movies sit around and do sum dumb shit
dance like no ones watching drinking red and getting so lit
visit all the cities that we never really been to
wondering what life is all about cuz it will end soon

we could start a cult and simply leave because we got bored
spend entire weekends on the beach riding our skateboards
taking photos of you like a model cuz your so fine
counting down the days that i can finally call you mine

don't think i can wait cuz everything you do excites me
leaves me wanting more i crave you every single moment
put your lips around my neck i'm begging you to bite me
please don't go and break my heart just to spite me

just a lil (prod blvnk)

listen, here's my story
about a kid named kiki
had dreams of fame and glory
but turned out dark and dreary

family was broken b'fore the age o' 1
with no brothers or no sisters he's the only one
other kids at school i guess we got along
but it was hard and before long the loneliness begun
sat up in my room hooked on to 64
the first way i could escape but trust me there'd be more
i was looking up to characters in video games
cuz i'd never really had a role model before

what i got i taught my
self and no one else
my mum she done her best
forget about the rest

when i, hit high school i
tried to find myself i
dyed my hair jet black and
put on my studded belt

still i had the dreams id had back in the past
but it felt a bit like life was going way too fast
waving goodbye to your childhood can freak you out
but the little kid inside of me will always last

listen, no one ever
does and never did
i hope that someone hears me
i hope my friends forgive me

forsaken allegory (prod p3tro)

amateur emo/sadboy artist
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9X0utt3UsmyzcadfrHUFdg

East London, originally from Brighton

live for them late night chilled out emotional vibes and pop punk summer days

just a sad kid with nothin to lose tryna put those emotions in to music so people got something to remember me by at the end, this is the personal diary of kiki, the freak

I don't have any proper experience in creating music, everything I have done is just doing my best and hoping I can learn, dont take my music too serious i'm kinda just havin fun with it all... still learning to actually sign and mix music so ya i know my mixing and vocals aren't the best, but as Jake the dog says the first step to being good at something is sucking at it - spittin facts

also open to collabs

kikithefreak

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