smoking cigarettes
theres no relief from stress
im still lost in my own regrets
this empty feeling i cant supress

im just lost inside my past
searching for somethin, I dont know
if i told her, she'd just laugh
but these worries overflow
doubt every decision I have made
and all the ones im yet to make
when it all looks a charade
and my spirit starts to fade

smoking cigarettes
theres no relief from stress
im still lost in my own regrets

farce (prod back2thapast)

the song to kiki's summer 22'

sunny skies
got me feelin so fine
i sit back and rewind
and remember the
look in your eyes
when you told me your mine
guess i lost track of time
cuz its over now

peace of mind
never easy to find
when they tell you goodbye
it just eats up my
feelings inside
so I ask myself why
i am not worth their time
but it hurts so bad

its f****d but
i guess im
blessed to still be alive
i wake up
i try hard
i do my best to survive

peace of mind
never easy to find
when they tell you goodbye
it just eats up my
feelings inside
so I ask myself why
I am not worth their time
but it hurts so bad

when we die
we will light up the sky
in the clouds we will fly
and live like we
did in July
we will swallow our pride
we will heal our divide
cuz its over now

peace of mind
never easy to find
i tell people im fine
but I confess I
cried and i cried
just asking myself why
i was not worth their time
and it hurts so bad

its f****d but
i guess im
blessed to still be alive
i wake up
i try hard
i do my best to survive

overt (prod wone)

she comes and she goes
where she's at no one knows
but she's all in my head
and i'm feelin alone

i try to forget
all about her and so
keep myself occupied
shoving lines up my nose

i don't want attention
i don't need that pressure in my life
just smoke away my problems
every night im getting high
never seems to work i hardly ever sleep at all
and i find it hard to f*****n drown out all the issues on my mind

when will s**t get better
i need a way to fix the life that i destroyed

i don't want wanna wake up
motivation i just cannot find
just lay in bed depressed all
day i wanna f****n hide
kiki's feelin s****y wont somebody cheer me up
coz the days are getting shorter, once again i'm running out of time

anemia (prod kyoa)

she's lookin cute but i know that she's bad for me
id be a sucker to think that she'd adore me
sat in the park and she told me a sad story
tryna find my way into her head before she
gets bored of me i know i'm not that fun
but her smile is so bright it could block out the sun
once again it is over before its begun
shoulda known from the start she was never the one
seems like my mental health repels people from me
i cant deal with this s**t i am so f****n done

i dont have time for nobody
i cannot deal with the mind games
lay down that sad beat shawty
she laughed the moment she saw me
late nights i never avoid them
i know im not f****n normal
i try as hard as i can to
be kind, but resentment is mutual

bad4me (prod farawayfromeverything)

and so
these feelings of regret
on things i never f***n said
haunt me and i cant move on

you know
all there is to me
i gave you all that i could be
but it was never enough

and so
ill do my best to prove that
im not worthless leave your words behind
your tongue and you'll see

thought we had a thing but
like i said im naive
still i think about you
songs of you im writing
only fell in love once
all the other girls just
filled the space that you left
it just wasn't us cuz

i broke
when you left me
always said you'd be here for me

and so
these feelings of regret
on things i never f***n said
haunt me and i cant move on

you know
all there is to me
i gave you all that i could be
but it was never enough

and so
ill do my best to prove that
im not worthless leave your words behind
your tongue and you'll see

jynxx (prod lemexx)

im wishing some one would like me
i guess theres just no one like me
my love is imaginary
my life un satisfactory
the nights are cold and getting colder
i stay at home and write my songs
thinking of words to clear my head
girl i think you've got me wrong

got no control
feels like im broken inside
my guilt consuming my soul
im out of time

pretty little thing some
marie antoinette im
tryna get to know you
can you keep a secret
she'll just waste my time

im just tryna glow im
always feelin low i
give my fuckin all but
no one wants to know I
need some good advice

before her eyes 
i will not die

im wishing things would just work out
they never do i dont know how
if i should pass on in my sleep
will anyone remember me?
our lives are short and getting shorter
so take it in before it ends

i cant just sit and watch my life pass me by
ill use every second or at least i will try
i cant just sit and watch my story get old
ill live like a kid until my final goodbye

babydoll (prod Tokyonite)

a little confidence could
go a damn long way
to breaking down the walls
that i seem to create
a journey of mistakes that
i cant put right cuz
i lost my mind and
do you know how that tastes?

a little honesty could
give me closure i need
but pride gets in the way of
getting you to agree
where is my dignity got
no self respect but
i find my peace in
the words that i say

she gives them what they dont deserve
and i just get left out in the rain
i shed so many tears for her
but she dont give a fuck bou my pain

cachet (prod. Ksanx & Chosen1)

i dont got a purpose still i try
nothings ever perfect by design
its funny how the time just seems to fly
i wanna leave the suffering behind

i cover my tracks with the icy footsteps
when the sun breaks, will you follow me?
akin to a crystal, melting away
when i disappear would you cry for me?

i still wish you well
hope you find your way
think i need some help
i been cast astray
i dont have the time
i dont know my mind
im just lost in my
desolate domain

tears freeze up on my face
break my bones and shatter
clouds they cast in dark gray
im so cold without her
my worlds stuck in arctic
chaos rules in silence
spirit so hypnotic
breeze strikes thru so violent

would you even care if i should die
would you even find the time to cry
its funny how we all pretend we're fine
when really we're emotionless inside

glacier (prod 1dntknw)

all of the scars upon my back mean i belong to you
i got my hand wrapped round your throat, ill choke you up if you like that boo
girl when you beg me for my love i gotta give it to you, its yours, it'll always be
just stick around after cuz i'm intoxicated by you

youre the only one
i ever think about
i don't care bout my time
when not with you
i'm such a sucker for you now
i think ill always be

crazy for your taste
i need a fix i'm just a
junkie for you love
i cannot stop
if i overdose tonight
i think i'd rest in peace

all of the scars upon my back mean i belong to you
i got my hand wrapped round your throat, ill choke you up if you like that boo
stay with me tonight and we could kill a lil time, dont lie, i know what you want
you wanna switch on me tonight? well baby i want you to

switchblade fantasy (prod prettyscxrs)

sunlight never seems to shine
feel like im just wasting my time
and if i asked then could you be mine?
or would you tell me that im way outta line?

lost here alone in the rain
planned on getting out for the day
hop on the 25 a train set for paradise
a board at my feet and the wind in my hair

four million miles away
is only two if you would meet me halfway
im tryna make everything okay
dont wanna fall into a heartache cliche

dark days carry on
its like im running half blind
you open my eyes
give me signs of life

all that i have is for you my love
ill give you everything i have but it dont feel good enough
where would i be without you?
i dont wanna think about it

heartache cliche (prod kys)

all my vital signs
show little hunger for life
laid out on the floor
i wonder if might
die but i tell myself i been here before
oh its too many times what am i doing this for?

im geekin out i cant remember my name
how'd i get myself in this state?
over fuckin up everything
just when will my life begin?
and love is my novel but the author is hate

losing myself in liquid ketamine
trading everything for dreams
is this who i hoped i would be?
when i was just a baby face kid pushing thirteen

all the bonds iv made
and all the ones left to fate
now its all to waste
i just cannot be saved
with my last breath i hope my sisters okay
cuz her brothers a goofball and for him its too late

vital signs (prod swkillme)

lookin back on life i find it hard to forget
all the misery and regret
think of what i would change if i could do this again
but would i end up the same old way

secrets i hold ill carry them to the grave
i cant just let them go it causes me too much shame
hiding inside all of my deceit and lies
i tell myself ill be fine and pray for merrier days
hushaby baby dont say a word
cuz ignorance is our bliss tonight i much do prefer
an enchanted charade we can keep up our facade
we can carry on forever

as time stops, i admit
i fear i cant go on
but with you
i just belong

lookin back on life i find it hard to forget
all the misery and regret
think of what i would change if i could do this again
but would i end up the same old way

stitchin back the pieces that have fallen apart
but im findin it way too hard
i cut myself on the mirror jigsaw fragmented shards
think its time for a brand new start

all of my life it seems im tumbling down
tryna pick myself up but i cant get off the ground
take me away i swear my debts i will pay
ill set everything straight and go along with the crowd
vultures circle round my home
i know kiki's a prince but they aint takin my throne
king of my castle got no time for the hassle
cuz im doing it all alone

as you say, you want me
i say i want you more
so join me
we'll take it all

patchwork (prod heysema)

do you care for me, like i care for you?
for eternity i would bleed for you
if i died tonight, would you miss me like im the only one for you?
everyone is drawn in different shades
kiki's black and white like space and cocaine
so il pay the price, ill buck peeps for lines
i keep telling lies, i got no restraint

i cant imagine
all the pain and guilt iv caused
theres no going back
think iv gone beyond
so show me no mercy
abandoned by god

do you love me like im no good for you?
i write songs for you to express my thoughts
i cant write them down, i cant find the sounds
to tell you how i feel
everything is bound by rules and games
i dont wanna play im too damn insane
but ill try for you, ill be good like you
ill work hard like you
cuz my love for you

do you (prod ionas)

she wanna start me off but ill make this last
i dont wanna waste no time so ill make this fast
i dont wanna play your games cuz im just not like that
i dont wanna get nasty cuz im good at that

you can use your best tricks to get my attention
baby if you told the truth then i might just listen
i am so sick and tired of your stupid lies
if your gonna disgrace my name well then do it right

that promise
that id never hurt you
i stick by my words
cuz im not like you

she wanna start a war but im just not armed
she wanna go nuclear but i just dont care
used to be my best friend and now all i feel
is her animosity and its just not fair

the break up (prod olifye)

take your secrets off my shelf
cuz i don't recognise you 
if all we are is dust and dirt 
then you're made of glass i see straight through you

stay with me
my darling i cant believe
your truly over me
you cant move on that quickly

show me how to right my wrongs
your good at pointing them out
but your the worst girl come on

take my hand 
we could go anywhere
you know i'll follow you 
until the end of the world

beat me
until my blood driers up
i wont let you hurt me
agony i've had enough

bruises (prod eyelessowls)

kiki/k14

amateur emo/sadboy artist
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9X0utt3UsmyzcadfrHUFdg

East London, og Brighton

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