100 plus listens fucking ill wish everything was easier but its not

lyrics:

i got the weight of the world on my shoulders and i'm getting older
can someone please step on my back?
they don't take me serious when this shit in person
so i'ma get heard with the help of the track
you never needed to help me so when you want credit i feel like i'm under attack
i look like a twat when i break on my story and make it so clear that i blundered and what
i've blundered a lot in my time
keep one eye on the clock, cus the other one drawn to the light
i'm still suicidal, won't put up a fight
she asked if i'm good, i just said quite
i've never been terrified of the night
i know one day that i'll meet my match
i keep a tally on mind, i remember the times where i acted and looked like a twat
can't say i hate it but i hate to think when my thoughts are so loud like a football match
how do i feel 'bout this football match?
i just wanna smoke on that football pack
all of you playin' with balls, i'd be so in the money if i was a football fan
you came in my half and you fucked up the game and my life man
i just want my football back
yeah, i treat 'em like jerks
they wish me the worst in terms of not backing me up
i posted a rant on my story and they all ignored me
don't blame them for crackin' no fucks
you posted a vid online, what a waste of time cus that shit was not crackin' me up
i'm flashin' the bucks, can't make this shit up
got crackers surroundin' me when i'm on bus

i'm bussing a lot, crack open the pot
i'm whippin' that crack, need that money a lot
he said he got cash but he lyin', on god
this shit don't last but i let my life revolve around it
if i get paid then it's not a one off
i'm with your lady, she's noshing me off
i'm with my bro and he's pissin' me off
i'm with your mum and she's topping me off

i'm back in the game, put my life on the shit that i write
cus i coulda died if there wasn't a mic
i put my life in danger, if there's a risk then i don't think twice
lay me to sleep in a manger
come have a chat brother, don't be a stranger
if you need help you can hit my line
it's hard to make cash when at war with your mind
still hard to get past how she wouldn't be mine
i'm tryna quit fags but i bought me a pack and i wallowed in all my self-pity
i need an out, otherwise i'll be shitty
leave that shit tucked in a box like a kitty
i showed my face and they tried to get rid of me
stella, the love of my life
she was killin' me
this shit a joke, like bro, are you kidding me?
i turned this shit into wine cus you pity me
i nearly cracked, ended up on a bridge
now i perform like pretending it's twitch
you'd think i'm off crack by the way that i twitch
i just drank a coffee, i'm bouncing off shit
bro pop an addy, he's tweakin' on it
yeah i was that guy, bust whatever i get

Send my love to Aimer

send my love to aimer (prod. ninewaters)

produced by sailor x jolst 

cuz I don't wanna call you 
at my lowest 
pull the strings girl 
like im your puppet 
rip my heart out 
you know I love it
you said you hate me 
at least that's something

cuz all I wanted was your love 
novocaine baby numb me like the drug ayo
and if you called me I'd pick up 
you know im all about us AYO
she just wants my blood 
she said she's a vampire 
bandaid to your cut 
all the scars I admire
if you felt her love its like sitting by a fire 
and every time we kiss it would make me feel higher

puppet (sailor x jolst)

death wish (feat. kenny orlando)

lyrics

i just need one text back
i just want a sign so i know im on the right track
i just wanna make you laugh
cuz how could i ever be happy if you’re sad
she told me get home safe
i’ll hit you when im back
she know im too high for this drive home
i’m better off just tryna drive with my eyes closed
every single song a gem it’s like i mine gold
im taking hits right out the pen and feel my mind fold over

i’m slurring words on this beat but i’ll redo it when im sober
i got my drink on the rocks but im so high they look like boulders
she too familiar with crying i told her lean up on my shoulder
it gets worse every night but i feel better when i hold her
if i don’t fear death how the fuck i’m so scared of growing older
she said baby lay you’re head back let the blunt smolder
i spilled slime all on my jeans uh huh
end of the week and im off of this hybrid imma tweak uh huh
girl the suns bouta set
i realize you’re upset
but what’s one night, to an eternity without you and i
when i turn ghost you’re the only thing keeping me alive yea
you’re keeping me alive yea
look i been up half the night
this drink been freezing my mouth who put that bitch on ice
she said she like me cuz im cute but im nice
you hate i manufactured armor round my heart like a knight
i used to white pill in the morning wash it down with some sprite
swear all this shit feels unimportant when i’m thinking bout my life
slow down hero you playing with you’re life
im tryna leave a part of me here im recording every night
it’s a slippery slope cuz i found myself here again
slimey creatures crawl up on my bed
and fill my brain with pictures of sin
it’s a parasite
so can you stay the night
fighting for my life
i fear for my life
watch your beautiful face pass me by

i just need one text back
i just want a sign so i know im on the right track
i just wanna make you laugh
cuz how could i ever be happy if you’re sad
she told me get home safe
i’ll hit you when im back
she know im too high for this drive home
i’m better off just tryna drive with my eyes closed
every single song a gem it’s like i mine gold
im taking hits right out the pen and feel my mind fold over

i'll hit you when im back (under the maple tree)

funny w/ ochikonda (soundcloud exclusive)

drops on all platforms - friday 13th june 💫

produced by: @prodjolst
featuring: @ripskele

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it 

[skele]
i pray that someone take me home 
im not seeing right 
im mixing pills into my drink
so i can sleep tonight 
god i know u make me sore 
i don’t need reminded 
fucking kicking down that door
didn’t try to hide it
pouring up this drank 
into my cup gon make it worse 
i can’t even speak 
fuck up this check 
so it don’t hurt
put this metal to my brain 
go afk 
i’m making sure
hope i forget about ur face 
i pop this k 
like its a cure

and i know i look high im jus tired 
she weren’t the one she was lyin 
i jus poured up a 4 of the pinewood 
i jus switched up the plug now i’m flyin 
i pop a 10 n get violent 
i don’t fuck w opps or the sirens 
talk 2 me nice or be quiet 
u ain’t on this smoke ion buy it 
no i don’t buy it

tired w/ skele (jolst)

at least he wanted something 

prod: @vito2300
 
you know i like it when you speak to me soft 
most nights i spend with you alone
feels like we don’t even talk 
know you don’t need me at all 
i’m just taking up this space 
know i’m just here by default

don’t want another 
staying here is gon make me suffer 
n my body shudder 
another night i spent playing lover 
so over summer 
sunlight poking right thru the shutter 
laid under covers
every time i just let him under 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

facing the repercussions 
it’s just what happens 
i can’t help that i'm no good at loving 
i’m just so unbecoming 
he only want me in passing 
at least he wanted something 

yeah is it too much 
promise i’ll be good enough 
be what you want 
even if i can’t feel your touch 
i'm leaking blood 
just waiting till i'm getting crushed 
and when we’re tongue to tongue 
i almost feel like there’s an us 

i’m just a body 
take it off 
and come put it on me 
no need for talking 
when it’s done 
you don’t need to call me 
this shit gon haunt me 
coming round it gets so disheartening 
i guess he caught me
every touch it just leave me starving 

but i’m still there 
right under you
every time 
you call my name 
in the way that i like 
don’t make me feel like 
i am more than a night 
god i tried 
god i tried 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

i know i do this to myself 
i know what’s going on here 
i know i could avoid it, well
i know you’ve put it so clear
and it’s so stupid that i’m wiping my tears 
yeah it’s so stupid that i hold you this dear

unbecoming

lyrics

im fighting off something violent
ive gone deaf from ignoring the sirens
i never know how strong i am until im so close to dying
think imma store some energy so i can make a song
and maybe if you opened up then i could right a wrong
this feeling in my chest enough to make my stomach gone
its like the world hate me, looking up like oh my God I-
know you want something better than me girl im not stupid but i lost my-
touch after i touched down from that hospital after i blacked out for the first time
start burning the sage
i dont think its fate that i met you
but im thankful that you stayed
i think youre one of the few

drugs pick me up
lately i been getting fat and crying too much
i gotta get up off my ass and make a song
remember we was driving by them big houses and im thinking to myself "i want this for us"
ill make a song with my friends
i still got that blindfold on im jumping off the fence
i cant wait to pour up
said i cant wait until we fucking blow up
but you still bump my songs thats why i love you so much
so i know that its all in my head
i know that youre all in my head
i know that its all in my head

im fighting off something violent
ive gone deaf from ignoring the sirens
i never know how strong i am until im so close to dying
think imma store some energy so i can make a song
and maybe if you opened up then i could right a wrong
this feeling in my chest enough to make my stomach gone
its like the world hate me, looking up like oh my God I-
know you want something better than me girl im not stupid but i lost my-
touch after i touched down from that hospital after i blacked out for the first time
start burning the sage
i dont think its fate that i met you
but im thankful that you stayed
i think youre one of the few

God I-
know you want something better than me girl im not stupid but i lost my-
touch after i touched down from that hospital after i blacked out for the first time
start burning the sage
i dont think its fate that i met you
but im thankful that you stayed
i think youre one of the few

i think ur one of the few (p. ryan kelly x jolst)

dumb song i’ve had since january i decided to finish up
lyrics

she ride it like a theme park go kart 
top thrill dragster ima bastard
call me master but i prefer daddy tho
get cheerios and pesos but i ain’t been to mexico 
run it up run it up 
run it run it run it run it run it up 
think this is my year 
please give me cheers
plenty of tears and beer bottles fallen 
please enjoy the part it’s comin out my wallet yuh aye out my pocket 

yeah i really think im gonna blow up hoe
go through sad times but i’m still on go go mode
bumpin misfiit turn it off no no no 
ima rookie but i helldive in that snow snow snow 

flow is boring stop all that snoring shit will get gory jason voorhees
body after body treat the beat like a fight it get bodied
these are experiments like lain and they come out soundin good 
i’m with my gang in the forest yeah that’s my new hood

party vibes these are party vibes am i way too high yeah i might be
no crying here my dear fuck the sad shit 
ima rapper boy why don’t you be my rap bitch

puppet (sailor x jolst)

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