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25: i wonder

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For You/w JÖST

baby blow my phone up//killmesumday

its all or nothing//Kenny Orlando

halfway mine//sace6

two faced//kennedyxoxo

its beautiful tonite .. 

lyrics:

Bitch I made it happen while i was stuck up in my head
My own health a bitch but it pay me for what I said
Shit had got too hairy I broke it I used nair
Now I got some money up on me but it’s bare tears
I don’t need a og my life the first one
Latinx model inside of my ferri belt
U could keep on going it’s never gon cum out
Maybe it’s a sign my other half is just myself 

Bitch I made it happen while i was stuck up in my head
My own health a bitch but it pay me for what I said
Shit had got too hairy I broke it I used nair
Now I got some money up on me but it’s bare tears
I don’t need a og my life the first one
Latinx model inside of my ferri belt
U could keep on going it’s never gon cum out
Maybe it’s a sign my other half is just myself 

I feel the crescent moon inside me and I start throwing up
All these symbol on top my body I start floating up
She seen both my shoulders blades break and turn to fluff
Bled my feathers out my back and starting growing up
Guided by the streetlights I could get home
I was 17 when I had tasted that venom
Ever since I’ve been chasing this refined numb
Talk to me when u can feel the same one

Bitch I made it happen while i was stuck up in my head
My own health a bitch but it pay me for what I said
Shit had got too hairy I broke it I used nair
Now I got some money up on me but it’s bare tears x2

the crescent moon ft tommyice (yung castor x max flynn)

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

lyrics:


Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u bun the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god
Alone at 3am in my bed I just miss you
The ghost of u can hit hard
If it weren’t for these drugs Id be gone
I hate that This drink give me courage to push on

Red leaves Fall fast
Us two Won’t last
Friction and Kickback
Good things Will Turn bad
No one had checked on me at my lowest point
So I developed on my own that’s why im to the point yea
Bedbug bites were on my thighs and back oh its bad
Plus people tried to put a price right on top my head

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

tbh (eric godlow)

hypochondriac

deepfake

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

produced by heylog

lyrics:
let me show you how to act right
if you listened it would define
just the type of person u are
it doesn't matter what you go by
cause you'll always be the same person
and you'll always be one of the worst friends
you always were the one to go
when i thought i could count on u the most

lesson learned, don't hold your grudge
even if it could lose someone
hate to know the truth be told
now everything is overthrown

do u wonder where u come from?
picturing at what you've really done
does it affect the way you see your arch?
do they look at you less than what you are?
cause you've always been the same person
and you've always fought the urge to sin
& goodluck tryna get me back
at 2am it kills you bad

no, you messed with the wrong person
yeah you messed with the wrong
you messed it up on purpose
yeah you messed it up
hopefully lesson learned 
i hope a lesson here was learned
i did what i had to do man
and in all honesty 
you're hurting

spotify

continue

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

trash

guitars done by @prodjpjp
rest produced by heylog

lyrics:
starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all

one call was all i needed
right now, i feel completed
2019 is over
been four years and got lower
though, for me it stood out
bleed to just hear one sound
i'd die to hear that noise
the calmness of your voice
i knew how it'd turn out
soon you'd be leaving town
and i couldn't bare that thought
was hard to move on
32 degrees, lungs get colder by the second
been through hell and out
it's like there's some type of obsession
wondering the choice you made if you've ever regret it
if you gotta say something why don't you come confess it
everytime you mention how, i need to find me
don't know what ur tryna say
don't know what u mean
i think ur just saying words
you're just saying things
even you confuse yourself
you don't know what to think
the reason why i live is to hope for a day
to finally see guidance leading ur way
wonder how to start, wonder where i go
all of it requires leaving my home
been through a bit and so much has gone
you don't gotta be sorry if i went through a lot
i can see us starting a family
i think it's the only thing that'll help me

starving now, it gets pretty bad
you saw it all get split in half
about every bridge has been collapsed
old friends of mine slowly detached
i think it's all my fault
questioning if i'm wrong
how do i make it stop
can't rest at all
heart's pounding strong
been up for hours
the sun's almost up
like how do i do it
she say, "where you been"
no where
just haven't checked my phone to use it
it's all gone down in carnage
debris in my lungs
wake up, feel like garbage
and get my yeti cup
i'm obsessed, pop a can of caffeine
even 300mg can barely do a thing to me

carnage

lyrics ⬇️ <3

(me)
cold heart
long arms you can reach
restart although I don’t wanna repeat
it’s hard for you to see
you can hardly even believe 
but I been going through it
so you have been deceived 

there’s high waters where I’m coming from
no way out I need someone to come and cover him
don’t bleed out
no high hopes I’m always suffering 
so astound
yea this time I don’t need a single thing from your mouth

but they’re never proud and I been alone
you’re never around to see
i don’t like my town I don’t like my crowd
but I’m not allowed to leave
somebody please help me
I’ll give you my love and peace
I’ll listen to wind hit trees
theres no way that I can sleep

and just like the rain all my tears have been pouring
she used to just make me feel so damn important 
inside
i trusted ur love but u sold me some lies
keep holding my hand while we wait for the time to tick
trying to cross but u burning my bridge
self medicate ima roll up a spliff
so unaware of the shit that you did 
to me
and honestly it’s getting hard
but trying my best is what tore us apart
and each time i talk you dont care what i say
i think it’s my fault im the one with the blame
and im sorryyyyy
i’m sorrryyy i knew where this would go
(me)
put the lights out tell everybody to leave
when the price down I always spend all my money
i try to hide out
but everybody come an find me
like what’s to cry abt
Like baby look at what’s all wrong with me

(greenwood)
'u up?' at 3 but i black out at 2
lately it's more than 'im not in the mood'
know that i wish that i wanted it too

i fill this cup like im probably dead in a year by myself
it's entirely on what i said
but i hate that you lied to me, fuck

solid states turn to disarray
at the edge, do you feel the same?
off the ket i've been up for days
you're the best, baby never change

i saw your face on the way down
cover yourself as it fades out
i'd be ashamed if you stay now
cover yourself, would you stay out?

and i fuck it up like a prodigy
on my own shit, i just wish that you'd talk to me
i feel at home with my place as a prodical
i take these pills, im ok when i'm off of them

never this way, it just fits so improbable 
hear what you said in the dark in the hospital
black in my skin i feel bad when i'm falling in
ask what had changed, i break down
fucking all of it

this town is a burden w/ halfhearted & Greenwood (slashy)

w/ (soundcloud.com/eunhae)

Greenwood:
Haunted, saw the way you walked in
Exactly how I wanted.
Holding out til august,
To see despite the darkness.
Washed out of a moment,
Forgot where we’ve been going.
Laid out by the ocean,
Lose my mind in several doses

Last night in passing went through,
Old phones and broken windows,
So close I guess it’s been though,
Whiteout I guess I’ve been so

eunhae:
last night i saw what you meant to me
everything about you's gorgeous, you're my centrepiece
i still remember our fight like it was yesterday
the night you left forever, now you went away

when i sleep at night i want you next to me
want you to touch my body
now i can't forget our story
i still need your arms around me

Greenwood & eunhae:
Last night in passing went through,
Old phones and broken windows,
So close I guess it’s been though,
Whiteout I guess I’ve been so

Haunted, saw the way you walked in
Exactly how I wanted.
Holding out til august,
To see despite the darkness.
Washed out of a moment,
Forgot where we’ve been going.
Laid out by the ocean,
Lose my mind in several doses

August (w/ eunhae)

lyrics:
Cuz she broke my heart left me here picking up the shards
I can’t let no one too close to me life is hard 
My foot on the gas I just slammed it might crash the car 
Open your heart could you show me just who you are 

She flew in my atmosphere burning up like a star
They said that the world is mine but I just made it yours 
Burning up burning up just like a meteor 
She strikes likes lightning 
And I strike like thunder
Her love is so warm 
Its so warm just like summer
Your going down ill come witchu Were under
She’s still asleep my kiss wakes her from slumber
She’s my pretentious lil princess I love her

Cuz she broke my heart left me here picking up the shards
I can’t let no one too close to me life is hard 
My foot on the gas I just slammed it might crash the car 
Open your heart could you show me just who you are 

I got hate building up so im just like you 
Its the tiny things reminding me about you 
See I had plenty care for everything you wanted to 
I guess you never cared for everything we went through 
Here goes my one ounce of love left 
Here goes my ego again getting upset 
If you could just picture my love think of sunsets 
If you could just picture her love its a drug and im depressed 
 Cuz she broke my heart left me here picking up the shards
I can’t let no one too close to me life is hard 
My foot on the gas I just slammed it might crash the car 
Open your heart could you show me just who you are  Cuz she broke my heart left me here picking up the shards
I can’t let no one too close to me life is hard 
My foot on the gas I just slammed it might crash the car 
Open your heart could you show me just who you are

shards (sailor x jolst)

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

[lyrics]

NOAH THOMAS
aw yeah cypher song, take one breath i know you’re breathing me in, when I’m a thousand miles away how could you still think of him?, you’re on the train home thinking about what y’all could’ve been, when i was right here all along, just kept making amends

SPOOKYBANDS
baby hang on, i’ve been good as far as you know, we don’t need to make problems, i cant love you right now girl, yeah i can fix up that front door that you complain about, you say you can feel a draft still, i dont need you getting colder

SACE6
and I’m still holding on, for it to be the same, if i’m still going on, don’t ask me to stay, i’m so sick of writing paragraphs, no need to cry it wouldn’t last, anyways, anyways

HAMILTON
and i’m so sick of feeling like this, woke up and my body feeling lifeless, i’m at the bottom of the bottle can you pick me up, i’m so sick of feeling this stuck in my head, every single day, memories of you start to fade away and turn gray, as i turn a new page, i’m just another dog trying to break my cage 

KENNY ORLANDO
and if i said that i moved on then you know i’d be lying, how do i put something i love so damn much behind me, i’m stuck in hiding, but let it find me, how do you move on? you do it blindly

KILLMESUMDAY
this time you can lose my number, i don’t know why this happens to me, time flies she still wears my sweater, thats the closest that she’ll get to me, my heart hurts cause i still remember all the lies that you fed to me, we can’t talk you’re always pulling me under, i can’t let you get the best of me

EZRA
you’re far away and i hate you, you won’t find another me i hope it breaks you up, was it a mistake to let you live a dream i hope life f***ing wakes you up, I-95 i’m driving all alone and i’m driving drunk, just stay alive, i’m trying, your heartless words don’t help me much

LOVE JAI
if i'm a piece of your puzzle i just won't ever fit, i feel like some people hate me and they just won't admit, i live up to your expectations i'm a piece of s**t, i got a target on my head and it's hit or miss, don't pay no mind heart intertwined and my hands are tied, i can feel the pressure from all angles I’m not switching sides congratulations your wish is true don’t act so surprised, wont say a word about it and i don’t even know why 

KENNEDYXOXO
it’s like i want what i cant have, i’m so self destructive i suggest that you stand back and you’ll be okay, tough love isn’t that bad, is that sad, now that this is over i wonder who got the last laugh, and its over with i told you i was never okay, you told me to get over it like “oh you don’t say”, i’d be colder and emotionless i dug my own grave, now it’s time for you to leave me here before its too late

JOMIE
when will you care cause i doubt you ever did, yeah we close to the finale hope you had fun cause i did, i feel like robin since my pretty b***h look  to go shopping, anything for her by any means, so run your pockets, vroom vroom got one speed i’m zooming, told her if she got another option she should choose it, why you looking At my face you think that funny s**t amusing, you stay at your momma’s place then make fun of my music, what the f**k you doing, its getting harder to be the bigger person, it’s only a loss if you find you didn’t leaRn s**t, i know i’ve won when i write my name in cursive on your girlfriends lips she says that i’ve earned it

aw yeah cypher song ft. spookybands, hamilton, Love Jai, Ezra, & Jomie

feeling sick… (prod dercept)

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Ft:
https://soundcloud.com/coldhart
https://twitter.com/Coldh4rt
https://www.instagram.com/coldhart_/

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
roelun.co
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Bodybag Ft. Coldhart (Prod. nedarb)

bandcamp

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Black Leather Ft. Coldhart (prod. 4evr x Taxpurposes)

dm if you wann buy it 
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satori + thats creep 2018 otw

love yall, thanks 4 support

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see u around  - lil lotus x horse head (prod. reaper)

https://soundcloud.com/proderis drumkit (the sounds are in it) ♥

infinity

lyrics
--------
i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

lyrics
--------
is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
he's a cunt he's an asshole
is she fine without him
is her mind in a black hole
does this night ever end
are we locked in a capsule

sorry that we're doomed
i guess this is truce
crying at the crib on a friday afternoon
this is how i live spent the day up in my room
made a couple bucks imma dip & get some food
and maybe get some shoes
the max's lookin' smooth
the loud pack smacks & my snacks all chewed
teeth all dead cause my sugar hit the root
if she don't text back she gon have to get the boot
and imma get my move on i ain't even trip
fucked up on a sunday mondays lookin lit
got twenty eight grams and a bottle of some shit
sip henny with the boys at the hotel on the 6th
i've got plans baby do not intervene
yeah i wanted this forever but you decided to leave
so i'll rewrite the script got sagas to complete
try to hit me with i miss you like what the fuck you mean

from the way that she moves you can tell she's a cyclone
and she's back once again it's a hell of a cycle
with that look in her eyes you must tell yourself i know
this is only a test and you must remain vital

is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
she's a cunt she's an asshole

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i wonder (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

hentai boys - 4EVER
☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡
it's been 2 years already since our last date...
LOTS OF THINGS HAVE CHANGED
LOTS OF DREAMS HAVE CRASHED
BUT I STILL < 3 YOU 4EVER AND EVER
☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡
🔋🔋🔋 s/o 2 fans 4 big loyalty through hard times 🔋🔋🔋
☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡☆♡
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mngmnt + cover:
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EmotionEngine / forzey crusade

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
--------
hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

shards (sailor x jolst)

killmesumday {@xsailorkillx}